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Tamsin spent most of the next several days with Kenzi. They stayed with Dyson, most of the time. Bo and Rainer were at the clubhouse. Bo had made it pretty clear to all of the group that her choice was not up for discussion. When she had said it, Tamsin had still caught the slight indecision and confusion in her eye. But she was still too hurt to understand what it meant. Bo stayed away from everyone. Tamsin didn't mind not being near Bo, for once. She didn't want to be around them. It hurt too deeply to see them together.

Kenzi had been noticing that since Bo's "revelation", Tamsin had looked more pensive and quiet than usual. But the worst of it was the forlorn mask that shrouded her face. She hadn't seen that look on Tamsin's face since before her rebirth.

Since she was worried about Tamsin and she needed a distraction from the whole Rainer thing, she decided that they were going to have a talk, willingly or not. At least she knew she didn't have to drag her to the bar. Tamsin had also started drinking more. Not as much as the "old Tamsin" but enough to know that the girl was drowning something. Kenzi had an idea what it was and if she was right, Tamsin needed to talk about it. It was obvious, that what she was keeping in, was hurting her.

Kenzi was a people watcher at heart. It was a trick of the trade she honed in the years she had spent on the streets alone. Most of the time, people never even noticed how astute she really was. She actually preferred it that way. When people don't know you are watching, they act more naturally. There were always patterns of behavior. In the old days, it was a means to take advantage and get what was needed, but now it enabled her to help Bo, and now Tamsin, when they needed a proverbial slap upside the head. Like now.

She had first noticed the looks when Tamsin was in her old life. At first, she thought it was just one sided. Tamsin's side. Then, she started noticing it from Bo as well and it didn't even matter who Bo was with, at the time. It happened at the Dahl, especially. It always seemed that their eyes would eventually find one another, always looking away quickly, thinking no one had seen. Especially not the other. But, Kenzi usually did. The looks were not just innocent. They were meaningful, filled with admiration, concern and more times than not, unspoken desire.

In Tamsin's old life, their behavior towards one another had reminded her of that little boy in grade school who kept pulling the little girls hair. Only to discover later, that he adored that little girl and in his confusion or denial over his feelings, he had to let it out somehow. The little girl would then retaliate with mean spirited words, usually. Quips and jabs designed to hide the fact that she liked him, too. It was almost like a dance. A dance she watched over and over whenever Bo and Tamsin bickered.

It wasn't just the looks that convinced her she was right, but it was in Tamsin's actions, as well. She went out of her way to help and even save Bo, even though she was supposed to turn her over to the Morrigan and then to the Wanderer. Each time Tamsin put herself in danger to protect Bo. No one understood why Tamsin had helped Bo before her dawning, suspecting some evil intention. But Kenzi knew it was more than that. Tamsin respected her, treated her like she was capable when everyone else treated her like a child, making decisions for her. No matter what Tamsin did for Bo, she never expected anything from her, unlike her other suitors.

Eventually, Bo's actions reflected her feelings, as well. In the strangest situations, Tamsin would be the first thing she would ask about. She, too, put her life in danger for Tamsin. Even when she knew she was going to betray her. Bo trusted and believed in her, despite the concerns of the others, despite Tamsin's own conflicted actions.

After Tamsin's rebirth, Kenzi saw the admiration the younger Tamsin had for Bo. Bo didn't even have to try and Tamsin just adored her. Her eyes would follow her around the house. There was a marked difference after Bo had saved Tamsin from Massimo. Tamsin would look at her longer and there was more than admiration or adoration, behind it. Tamsin saw it clear as day then, Tamsin loved her. Whether or not Tamsin knew it herself, Kenzi didn't know. But she knew it had a great deal to do with why Tamsin left.

When she had come back, she could still see that love for Bo in her eyes. It was stronger even. She would touch her more often. Always finding a reason to put her hand on her.

But Tamsin was also different when she came back. Before what happened with Trick's blood book and Ranier, Kenzi had seen conflict and confusion behind Tamsin's eyes. She wondered why, but that was an issue for another time.

What broke Kenzi's heart the most about Tamsin was that Kenzi didn't believe Tamsin thought she deserved to be loved, and really neither did Bo. How crazy was it that two such powerful women expected so little for themselves, had such low self esteem. It was no wonder Bo could never make a choice between Lauren and Dyson. Deep down, Bo knew that the right choice was neither, but was too afraid to let them go and herself be alone. She didn't think she deserved better or more.

Why couldn't Bo see Tamsin? Why couldn't she see what was right in front of her face?

Kenzi sighed right before Tamsin smacked her playfully in the head before saying, "Are you ready to go, or what? You've been sitting there with that goofy look on your face for like 30 minutes now! You promised me copious amounts of alcohol and I expect you to deliver, short stack."

Kenzi got up and replied, "Bitch! Do you see this?" as she motions up and down her frame, "I was born ready. Let the drinking games begin!"

For the first time since Rainer arrived, Tamsin was laughing. They left for the Dahl.

When they sat down at the bar, Kenzi asked her outright what was going on. It became obvious very quickly that Tamsin wasn't going to open up immediately. All she would say was, "Some things should stay buried, Kenz." with a far off look on her face. Then she said, "If that's why you brought me here, you might as well go now, because I plan on getting very drunk. Alone, if need be."

Kenzi had anticipated this. So, she moved on to phase two of her plan; Copious amounts of alcohol.

As she handed Tamsin another drink, she replied, "Well, I can't help it if you've been all broody bitch-face, a good friend asks when they notice and since I'm a good friend, I asked, so sue me. Za Zdarovya" she toasted and she proceeded to ply Tamsin with alcohol.

For a change, Kenzi metered her own intake and kept Tamsin busy talking about mundane things in the Fae world and playing pool. She would test the waters every once in a while with some offhanded comment about Bo, carefully studying Tamsin's reaction.

When she was satisfied that Tamsin was pliant enough, she said, "Tamsin, I've seen how you look at Bo. Well, you know before the bearded hottie". Sadness washed over Tamsin's face at the mention of Bo's name and she replied in an almost whiny voice, "Momz! I don't wanna talk about Bo".

"Hey, that's cool, 'cause I don't want you to talk about her either, right now. I just want you to listen to me talk about Bo even if your name may or may not be involved, can you do that for me?" Tamsin just nodded yes as she rolled her eyes. Tamsin was really too drunk to move anyway.

"So," Kenzi started, "Look, it's killing me watching you. I know how you feel about Bo" She held her palm up to Tamsin, "Before you ask how, just know, I got me some skills. You are in love with her, and if you try to deny it, I will personally freeze all of your underwear when you eventually pass out."

Tamsin sat up as straight as she possibly could and was looking at Kenzi with a mixture of shock, irritation, and embarrassment. She was also slightly worried that Kenzi would freeze her underwear. Tamsin really thought she was better at hiding those feelings than that.

Kenzi continued, "I've known for a while Tams, even before you went all kamikaze over the cliff and I know everything with Rainer is killing you. I can see it, T. You really need to talk about it. You know you can trust me and…" Kenzi reached over and squeezed her cheeks, Tamsin just rolling her eyes, "you know I lurve you. So, come on Tams, I already know your secret, so there's no reason why you can't just let it out."

Tamsin sat there, for quite some time, considering everything Kenzi had said. She felt far more sober than she had minutes before, unfortunately. It WAS killing her, seeing them together and she did trust Kenzi. It couldn't hurt, at this point.

"It hurts, Kenz." Tamsin said as she finally looked at her

Kenzi looked at her with understanding and concern in her face. She was patient while she watched as Tamsin seemed to wrestle with herself about sharing her innermost thoughts with another.

"It hurts that I never could tell her how I felt. That I was…" She searches for a word that doesn't sound so weak, but can't, so she says what she was thinking anyway, "Afraid to. Afraid for so many reasons. And now, it's too late. I feel like I have waited so many lifetimes to find her and then I blew it. There was always something holding me back from telling her. The Morrigan, my bounty with The Wanderer, Lauren, Dyson, and now Rainer is her 'destiny'?!" The words were just flowing from her mouth now. "I came so close, I even let how I felt slip several times and each time the moment passed, she didn't even acknowledge it, as if it didn't make a difference to her how I felt. How could I even think she would care for me like that anyway?" Tamsin looked completely defeated after the last sentence. "It just hurts Kenzi, knowing you feel so much for someone and they think nothing of you."

Kenzi quickly replied, "You really think she feels nothing for you, Tamsin? Oh honey, I figured Bo out LONG before I met you. I've seen the longing looks between BOTH of you. It's not just you. You just BOTH happen to be extremely stubborn people." Tamsin was actually visibly stunned at this revelation. "And I will tell you something else, even in the few times you and I have seen her with Ranier, it's still there. She still looks at you the same way, it is just hidden behind something. I can't even figure out what that something is yet. I just know that whatever IS going on with Bo, it hasn't changed how she feels about you inside here." Kenzi points to the place on Tamsin's chest where her heart is.

When Tamsin felt a little flicker of hope creep into her, she immediately squashed it, shaking her head, "Kenz, it doesn't matter what I feel, or what you think you see. Bo is with Rainer, she believes him to be her destiny. Even IF she changed her mind about Rainer, there's always Lauren and Dyson and you know as well as me that they won't give her up without a fight. I don't want to add to that little shitfest for Bo OR for me. "

"Oh, Blondie, and that's why I love you. No matter how you feel, you have stood back and let Bo make her own choices and I give you much respect for that. I know it's not easy. I just, friend and sister love her and it's hard enough for me to keep my mouth shut about all this. I can't help but believe that if she knew that she had all this..." motioning her hands around Tamsin's frame, "that her choice would be so much easier. Nothing is guaranteed, Tamsin. If you feel something like you do for someone, then you should tell them, regardless of the outcome. We regret the things we didn't have the courage to do, not the actual things we did. You are courageous, Tamsin. Putting your heart on the line, it's not easy. Lord knows I know that. But the greater the risk, the greater possible reward. Just promise..."

Tasmin cut her off with her palm in front of her face. She knew where this was going, more cliches, promises made and quite frankly, she had shared enough.

"Look, short stack... Thank you. It did feel somewhat better just getting it out, but that's enough for me. It's better this way. Love doesn't work out for me, anyway. So let's just let it go for now. Ok?"

Kenzi saw that same familiar conflicted look again. Her statement implied that she had experience with love before.

'That's a new one.' Kenzi thought. But she figured she was doing good getting what she did out of her and didn't want to push anymore.

"Fine, I will give you a break, for NOW. Besides, I don't feel drunk enough anyway. " kenzi said.

They sat, laughed, and drank for a while. The mood had lifted, even if it was just for now. It was a welcomed change.