When Love Hate Takes Over
Another chapter! This one has a cameo, though ;D Me and SwerveHo, my partner in crime aka my beta, and my partner in the came-although an other partner. The dicription is 100% accurate, actually. Btw, we are lesbians in this story, but i am not gay irl ;D Just to be clear. And everything that i say is actually what i would say to Chloe if i ever met her. Maybe lol. Anyways, i hope you like this chapter and my cameo ;D
Disclamer- kinda always forgot that until now-: I dont own any of the DP charecters, but i do own Mitch-SwerveHo- and myself :D
Chloe's P.O.V.
As soon as I had shot the door I broke down, leaning against it. I hated Derek for doing this to me. Making me cry, but still somehow manage to making me warm inside when he looked at me with those green eyes... No! I will not think about his eyes when he is sutch a jerk to me!
I sobbed. Then I heard a knock at the door. "Go fuck yourself, Derek!" I yelled. "Ehhm, its Simon, actually," said a voice on the other side. I got up and let Simon in. I closed the door and sat against it again, my face down in my knees. He sat in front of me. "So, not that its any of my buisness, but why should Derek go fuck himself?" He gave me a smirk, but I could see worry in his eyes.
I dryed my eyes with my sleeve and sighted. "Becouse Derek is a big thick-head motherfucker," I said. Simon looked surprised at me. Then he laughed shortly. "Whats so funny?" I asked. "Well, first of all, the fact that you are a little fragile flower, and shouldnt be able to even spell 'motherfucker'. Second of all, you are comepletly right," he said and giggled. I couldnt hold back a smile myself.
"Okay, lets get one thing straight- I am NOT a 'little fragile flower'. Just becouse I am a girl, and barely 5"4, doesnt mean I cant sware. I can do what the fuck I want," I said and tried too look convinsing at him, but we both ended up laughthing. "But seriously, what did Derek do to diserve being called a 'thick-headed motherfucker'?" Simon asked. I sighted and layed my head on my knees.
I told Simon what had happened in the library, then the kitchen, and finally, a few minutes ago. First he just looked at me like with surprise but the... He bagan to laugh. He laughed so hard, that he fell on the floor and was catching breaths.
I smiled at him. When he was done, he sat up again and looked at me, still smiling. "You...You slapped Derek in the face?" He giggled. I blushed. "Sorry, I just... And here I was, saying you were a fragile flower. Turns out you are not as fragile as I thought. Oh, the irony. I would love to see his face at the moment. Getting slapped by a 5"3 girl..." He giggled again. The he cleared his throat and looked serious at me.
"But what happened before... Yeah, that wasnt a smooth move. Not from both of you. The acedent had plagued Derek in a while, its a verry...fragile subject for him. And then the thing with your parrents... I am so sorry, by the way, really." He looked me in the eyes and gave me a sad smile. I could feel the tears burn behind my eyelids, but I held them back. Enough crying for today.
"But Derek though... He had never been like this before. Its weird," Simon scratched the back of his neck. It reminded me of how Derek had done it while we were talking. And how he had scratched his arm, leaving scratshes from his nails. Could it be... "Maybe he is... you know... changing?" I looked questiongly at Simon. He shot me a confused glare. "No, he would have told me, told dad..." I cut him off.
"Maybe it has just begun today? Maybe thats why he is so weird. Acts like this?" Are you defending that little ass? What the hell? I thought you was mad at him? He hit you where you are weak, remember? He is a total JERK! I know, I KNOW! But maybe he is not doing it on purpose. Maybe even its his wolf doing it. You know, he has a wolf in his head. Mybe the wolf is just stressed over all of this with the Edison Group and he is making Derek do all this?
Yeah, right. Do you even believe that yourself? I dont know. Maybe? It will explain his mood changes and the scratching and all that, wouldnt it? I told my theory to Simon. For a moment Simon just looked confuced. Then he shrugged and looked at the floor. Then at me. "I dont know Chloe. The only way to find out is to ask him," he said.
I shook my head. "No, not now. I am still mad at him." I gave Simon a smirk. "And besides, we cant have that I slap him again. His ego wouldnt be able to tolorate it," I said. Simon began to laugh again and I joined him.
The next day it was snowing. The snow layed thick in the backyard and looked like a blanket, covering the ground. We drove to school. I had Math with Rae in the first period, but when the bell rang, and she still hadnt showed up, I figured, that yesterday maybe had worse consequences, then we thought it will have.
At lunch I joined Mitchelle, who also was in my Math class. She was really sweet and extroverted. And she was also one of those girls, that didnt completely hate Rae, so we have always been sort of friends, but now that Rae wasnt here, I figured it will be okay if I ate lunch with her and her group of friends.
"So, Chloe. You seem to get pretty good along with those new kids, huh?" Michelle asked. I nodded. "Yeah, they are okay," I said. "Whats up with that Simon guy, though? I mean over three weekdays have most of the girls wrote him on their bae-list. Get it? Becouse his name is Simon Bae?" Michelle laughed at her own joke, and I couldnt hold back a smile.
Michelle was a 5"5 brunette with highlights in her hair. She had brown eyes and was wearing a spaghetti blank tank-top, a cream cardigan and red skinny-jeans. "But, to be honest, if I wasnt gay, I would totally be crushing on him too," Michelle said and giggled. "Yeah, you keep that in mind. Besides, you already have me," said Michelles girlfriend, Anastasia.
She was a 5"3 blond with brown eyes. She had these black-framed glasses and wore a dark eye-makeup. She was wearing a black t-shirt, a black hoodie and black skinny-jeans. She never wore any thing else then black, really.
Her and Michelle were actually quite opposite, she has always been the more sillent, yet violent type. Haha, that rhymed. She and Michelle had been dating in around a year and were really a cute couple. Anastasia was in my English class, and didnt hate Rae either, so we were pretty okay friends too.
She looked at me. "But maybe you are more to his dark and sexy brother, Derek?" She gave me a teasing smirk. I coughted and began to blush. She smiled even more. "I saw that you guys are assignment partners, and I have also noticed that you resently got a ride with him and Simon and that girl Tori."
I shook my head. "Oh, that. Well, its becouse my aunt and their father knows eatch other and my aunt is out of town, so I live with them for a while," I said. "Mhm," Anastasia mumbled. "But you do have a crush on Mr. Tall, Dark and Sexy, right?" she asked, giving me an other teasing smile. I blushed even harder.
"Who? Derek? Of course not! I mean... we are just partners!" Anastasia raised her eyebrow. "Yeah, so is me and Mitch. Well, an other kind of partners, of course..." She gave Michelle a glare and Michelle blushed slightly. "Ana... Not in front of the kids!" She giggled. Me and the others laughed.
"I am just saying, that if I wasnt gay, I would totally bang him," she said. I blushed even more, though I was unsure if it was physicly possible. Michelle shot Anastasia a glare. "Yeah, you keep that in mind," Anastasia looked confuced at her. "What? That I would totally bang Derek?" The others giggled. Michelle rolled her eyes.
"No, that you already have a girlfriend, and she is the greatest good you ever gonna get!" Anastasia looked away. "Oh, yeah, right." She gave me a wink and returned to her food. Michelle sighted and looked at me.
"Anyways, as you might know, I am turning 16 this weekend..." Anastasia cut her off by dropping her fork on her plate. "What?! Why didnt you tell me?" Michelle rolled her eyes at her. Anastasia held a hand towards Michelle and whispered dramaticly to me. "She has actually not bin talking about anything else the last few months!" I giggled.
Michelle slapped Anastasia on the shoulder. "Dont interupt!" Anastasia smiled and shook her head, while rubbing the spot where Michelle had hit her. "As I was saying," Michelle continued, shooting Anastasia a glare, "I am turnig 16 and I have desided to host a party! So, I was kinda thinking if you would come and you know, celebrate me." She giggled. I gave her a smile. "Of course! I would love to," I said. Michelle smiled at me.
"Awsome! And, if you see Rae, tell her she is invited too, okay?" I looked down. "Actually me and Rae kind of got into a fight, and she hasnt been in school today, and..." Anastasia layed her hand on mine. I looked up in her brown eyes and she smiled gently at me.
"Look, I dont know what happened between you two, and you dont have to tell us if you dont want too, but I can see, that it makes you verry sad, and well, I kinda hate seeing people sad, so whatever happened between you two, just think about it as a phase. Friends fight, so do partners.
Just becouse you both said things, that you really shoudnt have, doesnt mean, that you meant it. Yes, the past can hurt, but as I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it." Michelle cleared her throat. "You totally stole that last line from The Lion King," she said. Anastasia looked up at her. "So what if I did?" I couldnt hold back a giggle.
"The point is: I am sure, that you are gonna makeup again, maybe sooner than you think. And if she didnt showed up today, doesnt mean she wouldnt come tomorrow. Maybe she just got a cold or something." I nodded. "You'r probably right. Thanks, by the way," I said and smiled at her. "Anytime, sweetie," she said and winked at me.
After lunch I had English, so me and Anastasia walked together to the classroom. But befor we separeted our ways, Anastasia and Michelle hugged eatch other. Then Anastasia gave Michelle her hoodie, saying: "Mitch, for god sake, when will you learn to put warmer clothes on? Its Jenuary, for fuck sake." Michelle smiled at her. "Why should I do that, when I have you, and you have a hoodie?" Anastasia rolled her eyes, as Micheele took the hoodie on.
"Ahh, still hot. Just like you," she said and kissed her on the forhead. "You know, someday I want them back. All of them. I dont have an infinty ammout of hoodies lying at home," Anastasia said. "You dont? Oh, right, couse they are all at my place..." Michelle looked embarresed at her. "Mhm," Anastasia grunted. "Anyways, see you after class," she said and blowed her a kiss, walking away with me.
They seemed so happy together. I woundered if that was what it was like, being with somebody that you like, and who likes you. You had your inside jokes, borrowed eatchothers hoodies. It sounded nice.
Although, I wouldnt be able to pull that last thing off with Derek. His hoodie could probably fit two of me in it...Wait, why would I be dating Derek? Becouse he is super hot and you have a crush on him. No I dont! Expecially not after what happened yesterday.
I thought that you desided it was his wolf-parts fault? That it was becouse he is gonna change soon? Oh, yeah, right. I forgot that. Arhg! The guy is driving me crazy without even being here. I really have to get my prioritis straight.
We walked into the classroom and Anastasia sat at a table beside the window. I walked over to my usual seat in the back and put my stuff out. Then Derek showed up in the doorway. He looked at me. My heart stopped for a second as our eyes met.
I quickly looked away, only to see Anastasia lookingat us and raising her eyebrows. I blushed. She whispered: "Mr. Tall, Dark and Sexy," and turned in her seat, towards the teatcher. I blushed even harder. Derek came to his seat, beside me, and took his stuff out. The teatcher began the class. We didnt work on our assignment today, luckly, becouse I dont think me and Derek could have spoken to eatch other without beginning to argue.
When the class ended I quickly rushed out of the classroom. The awkwardness between me and Derek had grown so mutch, that you could literly feel it. It was awful. After school ended I walked towards Dereks car. He was already there, leaning against it. Simon and Tori were nowhere to be seen. Oh, fuck.
I leaned against the car and we just stood there in sillence. Derek sighted. "How long do we have to do this?" I looked at him. His eyes were filled with concern and anger. I shrugged. "I dont know. Until you understand that..." He cut me off. "Chloe, please dont do that. I completely understand this. I do. But you have to understand too, that it was not your fault. It hurts me seeing you like this. Sad and angry. And I can litterly see it, so dont denye your feelings."
He looked me in the eyes and made me feel...everything. At the sametime I wanted to hit him where it counts, but I also wanted to wrap my arms around him and cry. And maybe kiss him. Okay, no. Just NO! I grunted in frustration. "Derek, for fuck sake! I told you- Its none of your buisness!
If you wont let me care for you, if you want me to stay away from you, becouse you think you are dangerous and all that, then will you please leave me alone too? I dont need you to be worried about me, when you wont accept me worrying about you! That is what you need to understand!" I opened the car and sat in the back, slaming the door behind me.
The drive home was sillent. Awkward-sillent. I was mad at Derek for being like this, for telling me what to do, when he himself refuced to do what I told him. I hated him for being not able to hate him! Argh! I was driving myself crazy! Fuck this! Im out! Only, you cant really escape your own head. Fuuuuck!
I hope that you can relate to Chloe here. She hates Derek right now, but those feeling are actually love. LOL. But she doesnt know that! :D:D:D:D Dont worry, it will get better. Expecially in the next chapter, where she gets a better look on his abs...Spoilers! Hahahaha! Did you like my cameo? Or was i to gay? hahahahaha! And its true, i only wear black. Like the color of my soul. Lol. But for real though, black is the best color, really. And it keeps you warm! And i love my hoodies, even though Mitch always steals them! Hahahahaha!
Oh, and remember to check out her story, its called Powers of the Darkest
Anyways, stay golden!
ThatIndieGirl :*