CHAPTER XIII: An obsession tamed 3.2

Her circumstances

"The good life is inspired by love and guided by knowledge"

Ever since the day I met Malfoy, my whole life changed. Though I know he's a lot older than me, I know he still acts like a child like me. I remember the time when I first met him. It was noon that day; although the sun was shining so brightly the air was as cold as ice.

My friends and I were hanging out near the lake because we wanted to see the giant squid. Everybody almost talked about the large skirmish creature, some liked the sight of it and some, majority girls, seem to dislike it.

I for one dislike it because I hate sea creatures maybe because I have phobia of water. I never liked it, when I crossed the lake when I was a first year I was petrified and convinced the teachers to transport me by means of land transportation to Hogwarts. I joined the carriage where my seniors were to be found mingling and flirting with each other.

Then I saw a guy with platinum hair, he had a stern look in his eyes, what intrigued me the most was that he did not flirt like the other seniors but read a book. I thought I was quite boorish if him and that he was a complete bookworm like his companion who was also immersed in a rather exaggerated big old book which measured about 8-10 inches long and 12-18 inches wide. Well I have a knack for being good at math and being able to measure just by looking at it, but anyways he was very interesting to watch this guy with the platinum hair.

Well, when my friends and I were beside the lake we sat at the edge of the cold dark water and talked for a while. Then one of my friends, Marietta suggested that we dip our feet into the water and see who would be the last to take their foot out to know who of us would have the strongest resistance to cold.

It was already freezing with the cold chilly air waving at us frantically, but to also dip your feet inside the murky dark water was already enough to get you paralyzed. I tried not to show my weakness to my friends and did my best to hide away my phobia. For once I managed to dip one of my feet in the odd looking water and felt a lightening jolt of cold ice.

It was so cold that my feet got paralyzed, then as soon as my friends saw an odd creature bobbing its head up into the surface of the murky water. I didn't know what it was but I got scared, my friends ran as fast as they could, the other seniors were alarmed by their strange actions and I got stuck in the very same position because I no longer felt my feet.

I staggered for a while; I also thought that I was going to be pulled inside the water because I felt that someone or something was pulling me in. then the platinum haired boy gripped me hard and pulled me away far from the strange lake.

I was surprised but I felt safe. I didn't know how to repay this strange boy and in an instant I started to be curious about his identity. His name, his age, his family background and everything about him. I knew I started to like him.

"Malfoy" said a girl who was also with him back then when I was in the carriage, I also saw a glimpse of a beautiful girl who sat beside his other boy companion who was immersed in the giant book. I didn't bother ask who the girl was for I knew that the other boy was dating her. Girls have such good intuitions about these kinds of things.

I will never forget how I first met my dear sweet Malfoy…

But I didn't know that my feelings would change, I thought it was going to stay forever…

I woke up late today, and dreamt of the wonderful past, that would be meeting with Malfoy. I dressed up as usual to look good in front of everyone and to also get noticed by Malfoy. My everyday routine was to follow Malfoy, observe his actions at lunch time and hang around the Quidditch pitch at night to watch him practice secretly.

My first class today is Herbology; I got grouped with my greatest enemy Mary Clearwater who happens to be the sister of one of Malfoy's friends. I truly hate her to death. Maybe because she secretly like Malfoy, I know about it because I saw her notebook once with so many stolen shots of Malfoy, she even got a good picture of Malfoy taking off his shirt after Quidditch practice!

Of course I didn't manage to steal it as she instantly saw me looking at her stupid notebook and started harassing me in front of everyone in the class. She looked flustered too and was all red and the next thing I knew I was hated in the whole class. Only Malfoy can make me happy, all the little things he does makes me happy so no matter how lonely I may feel, he's the only one who would make my Hogwarts years, days, hours and minutes seem like a dream.

Even if he doesn't speak to me, just by seeing him is enough to satisfy my needs. But still, I got more and more obsessed that soon I got demanding. Yes, I admit I have gotten demanding, maybe because now I feel so lonely, that I remembered once that I had friends. Just once, but now that they all turned their backs on me for believing stupid Mary…

"Hmp! This is the worst class I've ever had" Mary whined.

"You must be joking, I mean isn't this wonderful? More quality time with you! Isn't it a blessing in disguise?" I defensively added.

"Could you please not talk to me" she said.

"Ah why? Got your pretty little throat stuffed with the lemons you eat every day. I know you eat a dozen raw lemons a day, maybe that's why your voice is so squeaky, trying to imitate lemon sounds? Or would you rather imitate lemon drops?" I shot back.

"You know you're so lame at making up funny stories, maybe you should ask for more advice on how to lie to and make up wild imaginative things" she replied.

"Well then why don't you guide me… teacher?" I jokingly said. She instantly burst into tears and ran outside which was obviously raining.

"Ms. Mays! What happened?" asked Professor Sprout.

"I didn't do anything!" I replied shocked.

"I heard her teasing Mary! She accused her of being good at lying to people!" remarked Carlos who was unfortunately near me and Mary when we were having an argument.

"Well now, let's not have this fights inside my class, but I think that it's wrong to judge people when you don't have proof or evidence at stake so please try to avoid accusing someone ok?" she sympathetically added.

I really don't need any sympathy, I mean I didn't do anything wrong, it was Mary who started it too. But who am I to be believed by other people? I don't even consider any one my friend, because they chose to believe in what Mary says rather than what I have to say.

After class, as I was heading down to pursue Malfoy's whereabouts Mary appeared out of now where and in front of me. She started to mock me and laugh because she acted that way to make a more dramatic scene and all. In short she just wanted to be mean to me again.

I didn't want to argue but still she continued. Good thing I'm in a good mood today that not a single insult from her tore my wall of patience down. But just as I was about to try and disappear in front of her a senior happen to have heard Mary mock me. She was surprised that she shut herself up and walked silently out of the picture.

"I guess you have a tough time huh?" he asked. It's strange; a stranger almost asks me something so natural, it's as if he's a friend or so. And besides he's the first person to have had the courage to speak to me, as everyone else, even the seniors are terrified to speak to me, and of course would often mock me like Mary does.

Well, it's due to my obsession with Malfoy, I truly like him a lot that I've hungered for his affection.

"Well, don't mind me, I just happen to PASS by" he commented and walked slowly ahead of me.

After yesterday's incident I happen to feel very sick today… sickness of being lazy… maybe I'll just call it a rest Malfoy day. I decided to not follow Malfoy because I feel quite down right now. So I after a few hours of slouching in my bed I went up dressed randomly and went to the Library.

I really don't know why, but I just went to the library because I just felt like being surrounded by books today.

"Fancy meeting you again" said a male voice. I turned around and saw the same guy yesterday who seems to have ACCIDENTALLY passed by. Now that's odd I don't remember him being handsome yesterday.

Was it because yesterday he wore stupid nerdy glasses, had tons of books and notebooks filling his bag which looked crammed and the tidy mouse hair. Well today he looks like a different person, so unlike yesterday. Because he happen to have his hair all messed up but in a graceful cool looking way, there was a cool and calm attitude surrounding him and his eyes seem to glisten because he didn't wore his obtrusive glasses.

"Are you really?-"

"Yeah different from yesterday? Well today's a weekend so I decided to be myself" he said. He was sitting behind me, our chairs opposite almost stuck together. I can feel him leaning in his chair as I was also leaning on my chair.

"I seem to think that all of the people here have misjudged you" he said. His voice is so soothing and calm…

"Well now that's none of your business" I replied.

"Maybe because of your very impulsive feelings toward Malfoy that's it" he retorted.

"That's my way of expressing my feelings towards him got a problem with it?" I asked.

"Well, I think that the way you express yourself is quite wrong, do you really know how it feels like to be in love? And to show how you love a person?" he shot.

"Again, that's private matters" I shortly added.

"Heh. Funny! I just thought that you should at least learn how to love first before you claim that you're truly in love. You know the difference between love and obsession? And love and idolism?" he marked.

"Whether I know how it's truly none of your business" I added.

"True… but you see you cause the person you like grief" he replied.

"What?"

"Hey Hugo!" said a guy waving at him from the library entrance.

"You should at least listen to my advice" he said, bid a short goodbye and went straight to the entrance.

Before he went out, as he was bidding me goodbye I caught a glimpse of his amazing hazel nut eyes. Up until now I could still imagine his handsome features and his attractive cool personality, His way of talking and his dual appearance.

I'm sorry Malfoy… but I think I'm starting to betray you…

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