I walked quietly to my room. I laid down. Did mark know that Scott murdered Kari? Did he know the other way Scott tried to kill me and other people? Was Mark planning to kill me in my sleep? I closed my eyes tight and soon drifted to sleep when I hear Gerard walk in.
I woke up that morning and Gerard wasn't in the room. I sat up and realized that it was way after 9 in the morning. I looked down at my feet. There was a note at the end of my bed. I grabbed it. It was from Gerard. He wrote:
Dear Tom,
I wanted to let you sleep in. Jared told me that you were thinking about something from your past. I remember when you told me about Kari. I remember when you told me stories about her. She would somehow always make you forget about Scott and focus on Ray. I couldn't wake you up. I stayed up all night watching you toss and turn in your sleep. You were having a nightmare. You were almost screaming. I got out of bed and walked to Jared's room and woke him up. Right as Jared laid down in your bed he instantly calmed down. Take is easy Tom. I love you and I want you to be happy.
Love, Gerard
Gerard really cares about me. I don't think Gerard ever stopped loving me after we broke up and he found Frank and I got Jared. I'm ok with Gerard loving me. In a way I love Gerard. I got up and dressed and walked out of the room. I walked into the dining hall and I noticed they were serving lunch and Gerard, Frank and Jared were eating lunch at our table. I grabbed my normal lunch and walked over to the table.
"How'd you sleep, buddy." Gerard said knowing I don't like being called buddy.
"I don't know. I didn't dream. It's like I fell asleep and then hours later woke up. Nothing in between." I said.
"You looked like you were terrified last night when Gerard asked me to calm you down. I laid down beside you and you calmed down right away." Jared said.
"Thanks for doing that. I'm sorry that you couldn't go to sleep Gee." I said.
"Tom, you don't have to apologize. It was nothing. You're my roommate. I know if I was doing that in my sleep you would have asked Frank to calm me down. I lo…I didn't want you to be upset." Gerard said.
He was hiding that he loved me still from Frank. Had Gerard said that he loved me to Frank? Had Gerard said my name when Frank and him fucked? Why would Gerard not tell me he loved me? I love him. He was the first person I met here in this hell hall. Gerard requested me to be his roommate 3 ½ years ago because I was too unstable to be alone.
"Thanks, Gee, You know I love you, right?" I said.
Gerard looked at Frank. Frank had a glare in his eyes.
"Frank, I have known Gerard for four years. We are like best friends. I would never take Gee away from you. I have Jared." I said smiling.
"It's not like that. Something happened the other day. I don't wanna talk about it." Frank said.
Gerard's face was red. Gerard did say my name when they fucked. I can't believe it. I realized that I Jared was quiet.
I turned my head to him an di realized that he fell asleep with his head on his hand. I smiled.
"Hey , Gee, Frank, look Jared fell asleep." I said.
"Take him to his room. Frank and I are going to hang out outside." Gerard said.
I nodded. I stood up and gently moved Jared's head and picked him up. His head rested on my shoulder. I walked down the halls and into his room. I laid him down on his bed. I started to walk away when Jared grabbed my hand. His eyes were still closed. He wanted me to lay with him.