Here's Chapter 14, enjoy :) I don't even know whether people actually like the story but im going to keep writing it because im enjoying writing it. Any comments whether bad or good will be appreciated xx
Bella's POV
By the time Carlisle came into the room I was on the verge of having an panic attack. He came in and sat down on the bed and give me a reassuring smile which made me relax slightly. I took a few breaths and calmed myself down feeling stupid for acting like this when I didn't even know what he was going to say.
'Hello Bella, you don't need to be scared I just need to ask you a few questions sweetheart. Is that Okay?' Carlisle says.
'Yes' I tell him.
'Okay well if you feel uncomfortable answering anything you don't have to. Just answer what you can and remember that we want to help you' He says. I nod at him to show I understand.
'First of all, I need to know how long has Charlie been abusing you?' he asks. I take a deep breath and hoped I could get through this without breaking down in tears again.
'I can't remember exactly when but it started a few weeks after my mother died, he came home from work and just lost his temper. I have never seen him like that before, it scared me. I could smell the alcohol on his breath. He shouted right in my face telling me to get to my room but before I could get out of his way, he grabbed me by the arms roughly and his grip just kept getting tighter until I screamed in pain and he just threw me on the floor and told me that I was nothing but a waste of space and I should of died instead of my mother. That was the first time he started hitting me and it just got worse and worse. I don't think there has been a day that went by where he hasn't hit me' I say in a kind of rush closing my eyes as flashbacks of that day came back to me. His words hurt more than anything that day. They will stay with me for the rest of my life.
'I'm really sorry that you had to go through that, I can't imagine even begin to imagine what you have been through but one day you need to know and remember is that you are not worthless Bella. Your a beautiful, brave young girl that definitely didn't deserve what he has done to you sweetie and I promise we won't let anybody hurt you again. I want you to know you are welcome to stay here with us, we class you as part of this family now and want to take care of you' Carlisle says. I wasn't beautiful and I certainly wasn't brave. If I was brave I would of got out of there before now and not let it carry it on and I don't believe im beautiful at all after the countless times my own father has called me ugly and all the bullies. After a while you start to believe what they say to you but how could you not if someone is telling you it everyday?
'Why are you helping me?' I asked him. I didn't understand why they cared so much about me, they could of given me to social services to look after and not have to risk their own lives because I can imagine how angry Charlie will be when he finds out where I am.
'Because Bella I have been a doctor for many years and I refuse to stand by and let him hurt you no more. I know he has probably told you all sorts of bad things and made you believe that you don't deserve any help and that you deserved everything that has happened to you but he was very wrong Bella. Nobody deserves to have to go through the physical and emotional pain that you have endured over the past six years and if you will let us then we want to help you get through this and help you to have a much happier and healthy life because im scared that if this carries on he might harm you much worse, you were very lucky this time Bella. I can't promise things won't be difficult at times but i promise with the right support you will get through this' Carlisle says.
'I'm scared Carlisle. He always threatened if I tell anyone he will kill me and hurt the person I told. I don't want that to happen to you, you all have been really nice to me and bringing that to your doorstep will be unfair of me' I said to him. None of them deserved the hassle this would bring them.
'You don't need to worry about that Bella, I promise you he won't do anything to us. We won't let him get to you Bella. You will be safe with us, you just have to trust us and we don't care if it brings trouble to us. You don't deserve to have to live a life in pain and what he does to you is unfair' He said. I know that they would protect me who I was still scared and will remain scared for a long time. I've lived in fear for such a long time.
'But he will come after me?' I said. I knew for a fact that he wouldn't just stop, he would search for me everywhere and won't stop until .
'Well that's another thing we need to talk about. Would you consider going to the police about this? He needs to be punished for it' he said. He was technically the police, would they actually believe me? I didn't know whether I was strong enough to go through the whole process either.
'I don't know. What if they don't believe me, I mean he's the chief of police' I said.
'Bella there is plenty of evidence to prove that someone has been hurting you. Your medical records alone will be enough but the amount of scars and old bruises you have they will be no way they could turn around and say that your lying and we will be there for you every step of the way' Carlisle said. I knew it was going to be difficult but I needed to do this for both myself but also for Edward and his family. It's the least I could do after everything they have done for me.
'Okay i'll do it' I told him.
'Are you sure Bella?' He asked, I could see he was worried I wouldn't be able to handle this.
'Yes, I don't want to have to live in fear anymore. I've lived like that for too long' I said. I needed this to end, I wouldn't live thinking that at any minute he would come and kill me. I knew he will want revenge at some time but right now I refused to let him ruin anymore of my life. It was about time I moved on with my life and get a good education.
'If your really sure then I'll contact someone and sort it out. They will probably want to come and talk to you and take an statement about what happened but don't worry one of us can be there with you the whole time if you want' He said giving me a kind smile. I nodded knowing that I would need the support when they asked all their questions.
'Thank you Carlisle' I said to him. They would never understand how much what they were doing for me truly meant to me. If they hadn't come into my life, I would still be in a living nightmare constantly fearing when it would be that he would take things to far and end my life.
'You don't need to keep thanking us Bella. Now get some rest and I'll go make some calls. Plus I think Esme has something to eat ready for you so ill get someone to bring that up to you' He said and give me a smile before he left the room. I sank back into the pillows and let out a big breath, telling Carlisle about my dad was nowhere near as hard as I thought it would be but I think that's because of how kind and caring he is. His personality was perfect for his job, without compassion he wouldn't be the man he is now.
I layed there for I don't know how long thinking about everything that has happened over the past six years. Would he of still hit me if my mother was still alive? I don't think he would of, we were the perfect family as far as I could see. He would take us out on family outings whenever he had free time, we would spend weekends watching movies and just spending time with each other. How did it get to this point?
All those years of abuse and now it was over, well at least I hoped it was. I wanted my life back, I couldn't cope with anymore hurt. I stayed strong through the daily beatings and bullying and I kept my emotions in check but now I felt like crying all the time. I felt more alive than I have ever done, Edward and his family have brought hope into my life.
I still don't have a clue what was going on with Edward, all I did know was I felt really safe in his presence. He made me have hope that I would get through this and move on with my life. The whole family made me think that but he made me believe it more. I knew I was starting to like him more than I probably should and I knew he would probably never feel the same way but I couldn't help how I was feeling.
I snuggled up into the covers trying not to cry but I could already feel the tears coming. I was sick of the sadness that kept creeping up on me no matter what I was thinking about. Would I ever be happy again? I wanted the pain to end, I didn't know why I was still feeling like this when I was away from him but deep down i had an idea of why. I suppose I still hoped somehow that my father would of come to his senses and I wouldn't lose both of my parents. Losing my mother was the hardest thing I think I have ever been through and I know Charlie has done nothing but hurt me lately but deep down I still loved him because at the end of the day he was still my father.
I needed something to do, I couldn't stay in this bed on my own any longer. I needed something to distract me from thinking. I was sick of thinking and remembering everything. I knew I would never be able to get rid of those memories but I was going to do my best to be able to try and not let them ruin my life no more. I refused to be the weak girl that got abused by her dad, my mother wouldn't of wanted that for me and I certainly didn't want that for myself.
I got out of the bed with a lot of moans of pain and slowly walked into the bathroom. My legs were a little wobbly and I had to catch hold of something a few times to stop myself from falling flat on my face but I managed to. I splashed some cold water on my face and looked in the mirror. My face was severely bruised and swollen and I couldn't remember ever looking this bad. His beatings have always been bad but this was the first time he had punched so badly in the face. I had a bad black eye and no amount of make up would be able to cover it up. I couldn't go to school looking like this.
Apart from the bullying, I have always enjoyed learning new things and liked school but now I was dreading it. I knew I would still get bullied no matter what happened. Hopefully the Cullen's will be there to protect me from those girls. I always tried to build up a wall and ignore the harsh words people would say to me in the halls and in class but I didn't know whether I would be able to go through all that again.
I slowly made my way over to the bedroom door and slowly opened it peering into the hallway to see if anyone was around, I didn't know whether it was okay to go downstairs. I didn't want to impose on anything that I shouldn't. I quietly closed the door after me and made my way over to the top of the stairs and slowly made my way down them being as careful as I could knowing how much it would hurt if I fell over and made my injuries even worse.
The house had to be the most beautiful place I have ever seen before, It was decorated so beautifully and whoever designed it has got to be artist. It was so bright and open and truly felt like a family home. It was so spacious which I suppose was a good thing with the amount of people that lived here yet I only actually know three of their names. I hoped they would like me, I didn't want to impose on their lives if they didn't like me. If any of them didn't want me here I would leave as it wouldn't be fair to make them not comfortable when it was their home before I came here.
'Bella, What are you doing?' Came Edwards voice from behind me making me jump.
'Sorry, I just couldn't stand being up there on my own. I had too much time to think about stuff which I really didn't want to do' I told him quietly hoping he wouldn't get mad at me.
'You don't need to be sorry Bella, I understand. It's just you should really be resting, you need time to heal and definitely shouldn't be walking around on your own. We don't want you hurting yourself any further' Edward said coming over picking me up into his arms, taking me by surprise. As always his touch sent fireworks through my body. It was such a strange feeling and I found myself liking it alot.
'I know but I didn't want to bother anybody' I said.
'Don't be silly Bella. Nobody here would of minded, whatever you need just let us know please' He said.
'I will thank you' I said to him. There was no point in arguing with him and I knew he was just looking out for me.
'Your welcome, Now come on let's get you something to eat' He said carrying me into the kitchen and placing me on a stool before sitting next to me. Standing at the stove was a beautiful woman with gorgeous caramel colored hair, she reminded me so much of my mother. She had the same gorgeous golden eyes as the rest of them and when she spotted us coming into the kitchen she smiled kindly at me.
'Bella, I would like you to meet my mother. This is Esme, Esme this is Bella' He said introducing me to her.
'Hello Sweetheart, It's lovely to meet you.' She said kindly.
'Hi, it's nice to meet you too' I said shyly.
'I hope you are feeling better sweetheart. If you ever need anything don't be afraid to ask and welcome to the family' she said giving me a gentle hug. It surprised me at first but I returned it.
'Thank you Esme. Your house is beautiful' I said to her. From what I had seen of it, it was beautiful.
'Thank you dear. Now are you hungry? I have some soup made up for you if you want some' She said. I was really starting to get hungry.
'Yes please if its not any trouble' I said.
'Of course not dear' She said and placed a bowl of the best smelling tomato soup I have ever smelt in my life in front of me. It made my mouth water just looking at it, I couldn't remember the last time I had soup but then again I was lucky to be able to eat anything at all.
'Thank you this smells delicious' I said to her before picking up my spoon and eating it.
'Your welcome dear, Do you want anything to drink?' She asked.
'Could I please have a glass of water?' I asked her. She smiled at me and handed me a glass a water, I thanked her and went back to eating. Edward stayed with me the whole time, waiting patiently for me to finish. Once I had finished I went to get up to wash my dish but before I could Edward had taken it off me and went over the sink to wash it up before putting it away.
'I could of done that you know' I said still not used to people wanting to take care of me and do things for me.
'I know but like I said you need rest plus I wanted to do it for you' Edward said smiling.
'I know it's just going to take some time to get used to people doing stuff for me. I'm so used to not having anyone care about me' I said looking down at my fingers and feeling sad again. Edward frowned and walked over to me and lifted my chin up.
'Bella I know this must be very strange for you and I bet your feeling like it's all a dream but you will get used to it. We just want to take care of you, you deserve to have a break after everything you have been through. I'm honestly in awe of you to be honest, If it was me i would be curled up in bed and not wanting to move.' He said. He was right, it was very strange for me and it did feel like a dream. I keep expecting to wake up and go back to living with my father and waiting for his daily beating. I shivered thinking about it.
'Believe me Edward, its harder than it looks and all I do want to do is to not move but then I would be letting him win and ruin my life further. I don't want to live like that, I want it to end. I'm sick of feeling the fear and sadness. I want to have a happy future and I know I won't ever be able to forget what happened to me but I won't let it stop me from living because that is what he wants. I want to make my mother proud of me' I said looking into his eyes.
'I know and I promise things will eventually get better. You have to remember we are here for you no matter what, whatever you need just ask' He said and placed a kiss on my forehead. I knew I could get through this if I had Edward by my side.
'Edward, can I ask you to do something for me?' I said nervously.
'Anything darling' He said.
'Will you stay with me when I have to talk to the police. I don't think I could do it on my own' I said hoping he will say yes.
'Of course I will' He said.
'Thank you' I said giving him a hug.
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