A/N: HEY LOVES! ok so this took me longer than expected because i wanted it to be perfect and editing it was interesting. so since it took me so long, i just gave you guys a little present and put two chapters into one, making this one extra long for ya. no sexual pun intented even tho this chapter is basically one big long lemon. be forwarned! i know some people dont like lemons. ... yeah, i kno. weird. oh well. and just so u kno, the POV changes in the middle of the chapter so watch out for that. happy reading and please review! id love to hear your thoughts on this chapter especially since im sure its nothing like any other lemon chapter you've read before.
love!
Bella POV
"Holy fuck," I breathed, "That was way hotter than I expected." I panted, catching my breath after coming down from my orgasm and finally moving out of my bed.
What do you wear when you know you're going to have sex? Jacob's going to be thinking about it on the way over to the house so there's no need to wear extremely sexy clothes to seduce him. Was there any real need to seduce him? Will he be sportin' a hard-on on the way over here just THINKING about what's going to happen? Are we even going to have to engage in any foreplay?
All these questions made me start freaking out. I really don't know what I'm doing.
I needed to stop myself before I had a complete melt-down so I jumped up and ran to my dresser. After finding my favorite (and only) lacey, matching bra and panty set, I stripped my clothes off and put on the red lingerie. I knew Jake was not into girls that did themselves up too much so I wasn't going to put on tons of makeup or anything, but looking somewhat nice would probably be a good idea. After running into the bathroom and plugging in my curling iron, I put a few big curls in my hair and made sure my mascara and light brown eye-shadow was flawless. I decided I would not put any blush on since I knew my cheeks would give off that blush naturally tonight. My lips only needed some delicious strawberry balm and with a kiss to my reflection, I left the bathroom and skidded back into my room to grab what I knew Jacob would die to see me in.
He had left a shirt at my house months ago and completely forgot about it, probably thinking he'd phased in it and lost it after it ripped to pieces in the woods somewhere. It was one of the only button-downs he'd owned and I had been torn between keeping it, and giving it back to him just so I could see him wear it again. I really loved how I looked in the red and brown plaid as I slowly buttoned it up, thinking about how Jacob would be unbuttoning it soon. I left the top four buttons undone so that my red bra peeked out a little bit. I turned to see myself in my mirror and I shook my head, laughing at how I actually looked a lot like my regular self, just as if one of those caricature artists had drawn a 'sexy' version of me.
"Should I put on pants?" I asked myself out loud, turning to look at my booty in the mirror, not thinking anything of it.
"No," a soft, low voice said from behind me.
I screamed and jumped, turning around and then falling to my bed in relief. "You SUCK!"
Jacob let out a slight chuckle, but didn't move from his spot next to my window.
"Could you not actually go to the door and knock?" I sat up and looked at him like he was crazy.
"I heard your heartbeat speed up from normal a few minutes ago so I thought I'd just investigate," he said, still not moving.
"You mean, you thought you'd come up here to see if I was masturbating again?"
Jacob raised an eyebrow and I rolled my eyes, finally getting up to move to him. It should be against the law for someone to make such simple clothes look so good. "Uh… no."
"Uh no what, Jake?" I asked, my voice a little lower than I was expecting it to sound. I reached my hand out to his chest and grabbed a fist-full of his shirt.
"I didn't … I wasn't thinking that I was gonna… find you…" Jake was obviously distracted. "Is that my shirt?"
And I thought I was doing so well.
I sighed in defeat. "Yeah, actually it is. You left it here a while ago. Why? Do you want it back?"
"No no I actually-"
"'Cause I could give it back to you," I said, stepping back from him so I could use both hands to unbutton his shirt I had on.
"Well I was gonna say that I really like it on… you… but uh… uh huh."
I smirked, so excited that I had gotten Jake to the point of stuttering.
"So I can keep it?" I asked, taking my hands away from the buttons. Jake immediately stepped over to me, grabbing the bottom of the shirt and pulling me towards him. My chest thudded against his and I looked up at him with surprised eyes.
"Let's make a deal. If you take it off in the next ten seconds you can keep it. Otherwise it's mine. And then since its mine I can do whatever I want to with it and I'll just RIP it off you." I could practically hear him growling as he told me this and if me in this shirt did this to him then, shit, I was keeping it and wearing it all the damn time.
I quickly unbuttoned the last three buttons on the shirt and looked up at Jake, smiling, as I slid it from my body. "Now this doesn't seem quite fair, mister Black-"
"Oh yes it does," he breathed, looking down at my lace-clad breasts.
I giggled, moving my arms up to his biceps and running my fingers up and down his arms. I leaned up on my tip-toes to press my lips to his cheek then whisper in his ear, "How are we supposed to do this with all your clothes on?"
"Just … let me… look at you."
I pulled back and settled back onto the balls of my feet, biting my lip as I let him study my body.
"Please just… gimme a sec," he pleaded, his voice full of concern and nervousness.
"Jake…"
"No Bells just… please."
In that moment I felt extreme guilt. I was MAKING him do this. I was FORCING him. It was pretty much an ultimatum. Have sex with me or don't have all of my heart. How much of a slut am I?
He didn't give me much time to contemplate this because before I knew it, his lips were leaning down to mine. I let him kiss me and I slowly kissed him back. It only took a few seconds for us to both realize that the kiss was getting hotter and more passionate, a go-ahead sign. I took initiative and dragged my fingers to the bottom of Jake's t-shirt, pulling it up before he grabbed it and helped it the rest of the way off. My hands were immediately on his waist, just the soft feel of his skin making me wet.
"Mmmmm," he moaned after he took a breath in through his nose, and I knew he could smell my arousal.
"I hate that," I sighed against his lips. His mouth moved to my neck.
"What?"
"That you can…. Ugh…. That you have super wolfy senses," I groaned.
He laughed, "Why?" His lips were still playing with the skin on my neck and I prayed he wouldn't give me a hickey.
"It's just… not fair…."
Jake shook his head slightly and moved to the other side of my neck. My hands went to his back, my nails already scraping the skin there.
"So… you being able to feel this," he whispered, then thrust his hips against me, his erection quite apparent, "is fair when I can't feel your excitement unless I get my hand inside your panties?"
"Fine. Whatever. It's fair…. Fuck it, Jake, I don't care what's fair, take your pants off."
Something must have been funny because Jake laughed before he pulled away from me. "There really is no such thing as a patient Bella is there?"
"When you have no shirt on, are kissing my neck and grinding your dick against me… no. Not patient at all."
He must have been surprised at my language because he looked taken-aback by it for a second. But the fact that I was standing there in lingerie with my hands on my hips was probably what made him get back to work, kicking off his shoes before dropping his pants.
"Well that's a little better," I said, smirking as I saw Jake's erection tenting his boxer-briefs. "So…"
"Boo, don't ruin the moment with 'so'," he said, using finger quotes as he said the word 'so'.
I giggled and stepped over to him, kissing his shoulder as I stepped around him to close my window. "Don't need the neighbors anyone hearing anything."
Jacob raised his eyebrow at me but smirked and stepped over to me, putting his hands on my hips. "You really wanna do this tonight, don't you?"
A slight feeling of guilt rushed over me, and disappointment followed that. "Jake," I sighed, "I told you…"
"I know, I know. And now I'M the one ruining the moment, but… I just wanted to make sure."
"Baby… I'm sure." I leaned up to kiss him again and just as my lips touched his, his hands moved up my back to the clasp on my bra. Interestingly enough, it only took him a few seconds to get it unclasped. Perhaps this night will go smoother than I thought.
Perhaps.
Jake's lips left mine, but only to be replaced on my shoulder once he slid the bra strap down on that side. "Just so you know," he said, kissing my collarbone, "I want to make love to you tonight." He placed a soft kiss on my collarbone on the other side of my neck and then slipped my other bra strap off my shoulder. "You're not the only one who wants it," he said before his lips touched my shoulder, "even if it did seem like I wanted to wait."
He stood back up and took a hold of my bra, slipping it down my arms and then throwing it onto the floor. His eyes caught mine again right after that.
"I thought you really did want to wait-"
"I did," he reassured me, placing his warm hands on either side of my chest, "and I still do if you want to, but I cant wait for you to love me with everything you have. The thought of you," his fingers on his right hand trailed up to my neck, almost tickling me, "kissing me… in public… taking my hand… in front of everyone we know… telling me you love me… in front of Charlie…. That gives me more reason to overcome any fear or apprehension I have tonight doing this." His lips crashed to mine again and I wanted to cry into his mouth, scream to him that I truly wanted the same things. Nothing was sexier than him opening up to me like that and having our hearts in this was going to make this night much easier… and much better on all levels.
My hands moved from his hair to his waist within seconds and before he could protest, I tugged his boxer-briefs down as low as I could without having to bend down and pull away from Jacob's lips. His moan though, when I grabbed Little Jakey, was all I needed to give me the confidence to get this going a little faster, dropping to my knees in front of him and opening my mouth.
"Bells. No," he gasped, trying to pull me back up.
I resisted. "Jake, don't you want me to-"
"No. Maybe later. I just… I wanna get this going. And I … wanna last … for you. So getting me close now probably isn't a good idea. I mean, shit, Boo, you already have me hard… if you haven't noticed." Jake semi-rolled his eyes and I grinned. He was right.
I was just stalling.
A second later, Jake had picked me up and turned to plop me down on my bed. His body quickly covered mine and his lips were everywhere. My hands touched every inch of his skin that I could get to, but he was moving down my body so quickly that I couldn't get a good hold on him. Not a minute later, Jacob was pulling my panties down my legs. My breathing picked up since I knew we were getting close to actually doing the deed and Jake obviously noticed.
"You're nervous."
"I'm a virgin."
"Touché." He said, crawling back on top of me.
"Jake… do you um…"
"Oh! Shit … uh… yeah… hold on."
As fast as I had ever seen him move, Jake jumped off the bed, retrieved a small package from a back pocket of his jeans, and climbed back onto the bed in between my legs. I watched in amazement as he ripped the package open and put the wrapper on my nightstand. I wondered for a second why he did that, but I guess he just didn't want to risk it being lost in my room somewhere and then accidentally found by Charlie later on. I looked back down to Jake's cock which he was slowly unrolling the condom onto. The best part though, was the look on his face. His bottom lip was pulled into his mouth, the look of concentration on his face was extremely amusing and calmed me for a moment. That look alone gave me a certain reassurance that Jake, my Jake, was going to take care of me tonight. I had nothing to worry about because this was not someone I had just met, it was my best friend. He would be careful with me, love me, and not judge me. I was truly lucky to have him.
But then again, I was about to make love to my best friend. This could mean the end of our friendship let alone our romantic relationship. Fuck. Maybe this wouldn't be as perfect as I thought.
Jake gave me a look that told me he was ready and I spread my legs for him a little more, lifting my knees slightly off the bed. He crawled over me, placing his palms flat on the bed on either side of my chest before kissing and licking my right breast, making me moan and sigh in pleasure. My hands went straight to his back, his muscular shoulders giving me something to grip as his lips moved to my other breast, his tongue circling my nipple as he sucked on it and moaned, himself.
"Oh, Jake…"
His left hand moved from the sheets down to his cock and he grabbed his shaft, stroking a few times as he positioned the tip of his erection to my entrance. He looked up at me, then moved his head up to mine. "I love you, Bella," he whispered as he pushed in slightly.
My left hand gripped his back as my right one did the same to his bicep, having moved down his arm a bit. One second later, Jake's left hand was moving my right one off his arm and onto the bed next to me, gripping it and intertwining our fingers as he pushed more of his cock into me.
"WAIT!" I screamed against his open mouth which had been kissing me before the pleasure of it all made his mouth drop open.
He looked down at me and shook his head, probably trying to see straight still. "Bells did I-"
"Jake pull out. Please? Please?" I begged.
I knew he didn't want to, but the head of his cock was pulled out of me and I could breathe again.
"Bella. Did I hurt you?"
"Um…" I blushed, "Sort of…. Jake, it's not your fault. We just… need a better position I think."
"Uh… ok…"
"I'll just move my knees up a bit more… maybe spread my legs s'more." I did exactly what I said I was going to do, and he moved up in the bed a little. I breathed in deeply and looked him straight in the eye. "Okay. Try again."
"Baby it's gonna hurt a little-"
"I know, Jake. Just… this might be a little better."
Jake grabbed his erection and pushed in again, this time my eyes closing and my jaw clenching. "You okay, Bells?" He asked in a strained voice.
"Just…. Deeper… please… try!" I said, trying not to think about the pain.
"I … am…. Fuck!" He sounded frustrated, not sexually pleased. Suddenly the pain got worse since it was concentrated in one area. He had stopped moving.
"Jake just keep going! PLEASE!"
"Bella I CAN'T!"
"What?" I asked, opening my eyes and looking up at him.
"It… won't… go in!"
"It will if you-"
"I'm not gonna fucking RAPE you, Bella. No! I'm not gonna DO that!"
"Then we probably can't ever do this if-"
"Bella I'm not going to rip you in half just to get my-"
"But you won't!"
Jake sighed and pulled out again. I felt then how much it had actually been hurting because the relief that followed was amazing. But then again, I wanted nothing more than for him to be able to make love to me tonight so my determination won, like it usually does, and I didn't give up.
"Jacob," I sat up after he did. "Please don't give up on me. I want this SO BAD with you. Please," I turned his head to look at me since his gaze had been out the window for a few seconds. "Please?"
"Don't make me hurt you, Bella," he said, sounding like he was about to cry. "I want you so damn bad, but I won't hurt you."
"Jacob, don't think like that. Please? Fairytales don't exist. Werewolves and vampires might, but the fairytale experience of 'making love' without any pain juts doesn't."
"But you've used-"
"I know. You're just…. Bigger. It took me a while to get used to my bigger dildo, perhaps it'll just take me a little bit to get used to … you."
Jake finally kissed me and lied me back down on the bed, this time not letting his lips leave mine as he used one of his hands to spread my legs, his left hand on my right thigh, keeping it spread as he took his cock in his right hand again, pushing it into my pussy once again.
I winced and had to pull away from his lips to breathe when he finally go the head all the way in. I started to think all those fantasy sex stories online that would say 'the pain faded away into pleasure' were all written by twelve year old girls who had never even put a FINGER in their pussy let alone a huge dick! FUCK! This fucking hurts!
I tried to sustain it a few seconds, but when the pain didn't go away, "No no… we're not doing this right now," I just completely lost interest and had to push him off of me.
"What?" Jake was panting, his face more full of disappointment than of concern for me. He saw that I wasn't getting up so he took advantage of the situation and slid the tip of his dick against my wet core, rubbing it on my clit, knowing he'd get a response that way as he begged, "Please baby."
I couldn't argue with that face. Nor could I argue with what my body was begging for even if it did feel a little pain. I gave in. "Ok! Ok … but I'm on top."
I sat up and pushed Jake onto his back, straddling his lower stomach. I was really hoping that this was going to work because I knew in my heart I would never find another guy that loved me more than Jacob did and that would be as patient with me as he was being right now. No one would ever be able to make love to me like he would because no one else would ever be able to love me like he does, so I had to try.
I grabbed Jake's cock and slowly lowered myself onto it, closing my eyes and wincing again as I tried to slide down on it. It hurt, but I just told myself that it would feel better once he was all the way inside me so I had to try. After the third time of slowly going down on it, I got about a third of him inside me.
"That's it baby, take your time." Jake's eyes went from opened to closed to open, over and over again.
"Of course I'll take my time, Jake, this fucking hurts."
"I'm sorry, baby. I'm so sorry… please… it'll be over soon just-" he tried taking my hand, but I batted it away and kept them on my breasts.
"Jake … shut up. I know." My eyes were shut tight as I pushed down further, then opened my eyes quickly to grab one of Jake's hands, putting it on my breast. I had changed my mind. I needed him to feel some of the pain I was feeling, so I gripped his hand as tight as I could. I thought it would help ease my own pain, but it barely did.
"Maybe we should use some sort of lube?"
"Shut UP Jacob! Lube isn't gonna do anything to help the fact that you're fucking HUGE!" I let go of his hand and put my own hands in my hair, seriously contemplating pulling it out.
Jake actually listened to me and shut up, but his hands took a hold of my hips.
"You move my hips and I'll fucking kill you," I sneered.
"Ok! Ok," his hands flew up in a defensive motion and slowly slid them up my thighs.
"OH my god, Jake…" I moaned in a way that made both of us confused. Had I felt any pleasure at all? I tried to go further down on him but, "Wait… wait, wait I cant." I had to move back up again, his cock being way too much for me to handle.
We sat like that for a few minutes, though it felt like hours, and though I was moving slightly on the head of his cock, giving him a tiny bit of pleasure, I was barely feeling any sort of nice feeling. Watching Jake's facial expressions move from pleased to frustrated, I groaned and Determined Bella finally took over. Suddenly, my confidence was up and a rush of adrenaline went through my body.
I just had to go for it. Scream through the pain and just go for it.
"Jake I'm just gonna… do it." I gripped his hands that were on my thighs and gritted my teeth, closing my eyes tightly.
"Wha-" he barely had time to get his question out before his breath hitched and his eyes popped open wide as I slid all the way down his cock, screaming as I pushed down onto it.
"OW OW OW OW OW… oh my GOD ow," I was breathing really fast and the pain was extremely intense, but I almost gave myself a pat on the back for finally doing it.
"Baby I'll pull out if it hurts too bad-"
"No! No I worked too hard for this. Just… let me sit here for a minute." My breathing was still hard and deep, but it was slowing as my body adjusted. Who knew my body could actually ADJUST to being so full of …. well, a man?
"You ok?" Jacob asked after a minute.
"My knees are cramping."
"C'mere," he said in the sweetest voice I'd ever heard. He pulled me down so that he could hold me but he also made sure he didn't pull out of me much at all. My chest laid against his and as I was concentrating on finding some pleasure in the pain, Jake was concentrating on intertwining our fingers as he grasped each of my hands in each of his.
I turned my head and lifted it off his chest slightly.
"Move a little, Jake," I whispered.
Jake pulled out of my pussy just a tiny bit and thrust back in very slowly. It was only about an inch that he was pulling out and pushing in but it made me moan and grind my hips against him.
"Feel good?" He asked, his voice finally full of some seduction.
"It's… it's so different…"
"Yeah?"
"I've never … oh god…" I sat up and placed my hands on Jake's chest and started to grind my hips on him more. I moved up and back down, now riding him.
Jake had a million different looks on his face at once. He was obviously shocked that I'd taken control, but his excitement to be having sex for the first time outshined the shocked look. It only took a few more seconds before we both felt enough pleasure to finally let go, moaning and telling each other how much we liked being together like this.
"So tight, Bella," Jacob groaned, his hands now really gripping my hips.
"Oh my god Jake. I've never felt anything like this. It… it hurts but… but there's this like… really… good… fuck!… oh my god Jacob it feels really good!"
"Fuck, babe. Good. I'm glad you're… just…"
"FUCK JAKE!" I couldn't help myself then. I started riding him pretty hard and fast, wanting more and more. I leaned back a little to try and change the position slightly to see if that will help make me climb higher but it only made his cock slip out of me.
"Fuck…" Frustrated, but in no way going to give up on this, I just took a hold of his long shaft and quickly put him back inside me.
Jake was astounded. His mouth fell open and his eyes widened like he didn't understand how I just did that after spending half an hour trying to get him in me in the first place.
"I guess you stretched me a bit. Easier to get you in right now," I panted, starting to ride him just as fast as before, my hands on my breasts, then moving into my hair.
"Or you're just wet as all hell…" Jake moaned, closing his eyes and licking his lips. I liked that kind of talk from him. Something about sweet Jacob talking dirty made me want to just ravage him; if his body wasn't enough.
"OH my god Jake.. Oh Jake… Jaaaaaake! Oh FUCK I think I just came! Oh baby that… oh my god!" I slowed down a bit, breathing heavily. Did I just have an orgasm?
No, that was not all you're getting out of this Bella.
Well then what the hell was that? It felt like… a shockwave.
Wait for it, Bella, you know you're building up to something better. You think that's all you would get from a guy like Jake?
I shook my head, trying not to go all schizophrenic while losing my virginity. I kept riding him, more pleasure building even thought I felt as though my body had just released an orgasm because it had just shuddered in pleasure. Please don't let that be all I get from this.
Just as I was coming down from what I felt was like a miniature orgasm, I started to try that position again. I leaned back with my hands now on Jake's thighs, lifting my hips up and down on him, the sight of his cock going in and out of me making my head spin. I decided right then and there that there was nothing hotter than that sight. Just when I was about to move back up to my original position, Jake started to thrust up into me.
Thank you God, for inventing the g-spot.
"My GOD Jacob Black are you really giving me a multiple orgasm right now? Holy FUCK!" Another release hit my body and I shuddered again, but I still felt the need to work up to something more. Each time my body went through another mini orgasm (as I was now going to call them), I felt more adrenaline rush through me and give me more energy to work my body up to what I hoped would be a not-so-mini orgasm.
This was definitely going on a lot longer than I thought it would and I was surprised at how much I was willing to work for what my body was screaming for, sweat already dripping down my forehead and my chest. I sat back up, putting my hands on my breasts again, pulling at my nipples as I rode Jake's cock a little harder, trying to fall over the edge of pleasure mountain. I looked down at him and he looked back up at me with an almost sad look on his face.
No way you are sad right now, Jacob Black. You definitely don't FEEL sad. No, you feel fucking HAPPY.
"Baby I can't … Bells I … I really think I'm gonna cum soon so-" Jake stuttered, gripping my hips harder.
"PLEASE don't say that yet Jake! Please hold out just a little more, ple-"
"YOU CAN'T FUCKING SAY THAT AND THEN BOUNCE ON MY COCK LIKE THAT ISABELLA!"
I sucked in a breath thinking that him screaming at me like that was going to make me cum and right when I thought I was going to, I didn't.
"I can't cum jake!"
"What?" He looked confused and angry and frustrated all at the same time and I wanted more than anything to wipe that look off his face and replace it with the biggest smile of satisfaction he'd ever have.
"It's … It's coming I FEEL it, but it's just… STILL building and… oh my fucking GOD!" I threw my head back in pleasure and frustration.
"Bella I'm gonna cuuuuum!"
"No Jake please wait!" I begged, not able to slow my movements.
"I fucking can't!" I knew Jake was trying to hold out, biting his lip and closing his eyes so he didn't have to watch my bouncing breasts which I knew were turning him on even more. "Please cum, Bella. Please!"
At that point I knew I had to do something so I put my left hand on my clit and rubbed furiously.
Oh yes. That's going to do it.
"Jakey I'm almost there! You're cock's gonna make me cum!"
Where the hell did that come from, Bella?
I don't know, it sounded hot in my head.
All right, Miss Dirty Talk, if it makes you and Jake happy.
And it did. Right upon hearing my dirty line, "OH fuck!", Jake came and tightened his grip on my hips. I was definitely in for some bruises. "Bellaaaaa!" His body reacted by thrusting up into me some more, his thrusts short and hard. This, combined with the sight of Jake in pleasure and my fingers on my clit, finally sent me over the edge.
"Oh god oh god oh god Jaaaaaaaake!" my body shuddered and convulsed like it never had before. And for longer than ever before. "Oh my god, I'm still fucking cumming!" I screamed as my body continued to shake. After another minute I fell down onto Jake's stomach. He pulled his cock out of me and we both lied there panting, trying to come back to reality.
"Whoo." I shook my head and blinked my eyes. "I've never felt anything like that before in my life."
"Good?" Jake asked, smiling slightly, his eyes half closed.
"So… fucking… good."
"I can tell. My hips are soaked with your… well…"
"Oh Jake, I'm sorry," I apologized, rolling off of him.
"Sorry? You getting all wet and pretty much squirting your juices on me? Hottest thing ever!"
"EW Jake that's disgusting!" I sat up, but he pulled my wrist so I'd look at him.
"So me cumming in your mouth is disgusting?" I remembered the other night and just grinned, knowing I'd never felt so amazing making someone else feel pleasure.
"No. I kinda like that. Pretty hot actually."
"Then there. See? Hot."
"Fine. Whatever. Speaking of hot, I think we both need to shower." I got off the bed and started walking to the bathroom.
"Then … again?" Jake asked, getting up and catching me as my legs almost gave out. "Whoa! You ok there, Boo?"
I laughed. "Perhaps next time you can do most the work. My legs are … like jello."
He lifted me up and started carrying me back to the bed, but he stopped, looking down at me in his arms as I looked up at him, grinning.
I chuckled softly as I shook my head in disbelief that we had just had sex with each other. That was a very intense thing that just happened. And he wanted to do it again already? "I think perhaps we should wait at least until tomorrow. I'm gonna be sore as hell. You have no clue how bad that hurt at first. I still don't know how you fit inside me," I said, leaning my head into his chest and kissing the skin there.
"Well ok…" Jake pouted. "I kinda wanted to try again to see if I could last longer…"
"You did fine, Jake," I said as he lied me down on the bed.
"Really boo?" he asked, lying next to me and moving a strand of my hair that was sticking to my face.
"Really," I kissed his lips quickly and stared at the pout on his face some more. "Oh all right, maaaaybe again a little later."
"Yes!" I could practically hear the 'success!' that Jake just shouted in his mind right then.
I rolled my eyes.
"Hey, don't roll your eyes, YOU were the one that said it felt so damn good."
"How was it for you?"
"Are you serious, Boo?"
"Mhmm."
"So me wanting to do it again doesn't tell you how much I liked it?"
"No… just tells me you wanna try again."
"Let's lay here a little while. Maybe in a bit I'll show you just how much I liked it."
JPOV
I lied there for a while, watching Bella sleep, running my fingers over her smooth skin, letting crazy things run through my mind. This was supposed to be a night of passionate love that proved to her that we had a connection. Had she felt something OTHER than an orgasm? Will she finally give in to me and let this love we have for each other be completely realized? Will she let me love her the way I want to love her? I knew that we would have to do this multiple times in order for her to feel a connection because the way that just went probably didn't make her feel extremely in love with me.
Then again, we had both just lost our virginity to each other. That's got to mean something right? The way it started out was not so great but by the end when she was getting comfortable and really enjoying herself… riding my cock… bouncing up and down… her eyes full of lust… her tits bouncing in a way that made me not able to take my eyes off them…
Ok, stop it, Black. You're gonna get another hard-on and freak out the one girl that you need to impress and take care of.
How could I 'freak' her out with a hard dick? She seemed to like it quite a bit, actually.
If she isn't looking for it or expecting it, it might freak her out and make her feel like she NEEDS to tend to your needs.
Well, just thinking about her tending to my needs woke up little Jake so, good job, conscience.
Oh well. At least I tried.
I let my hands keep wandering over Bella's body and when her eyes started to flutter open from her hour nap, I smirked at her and grabbed her ass with my right hand, my other hand under my head as I leaned up on my elbow to look down at her beautiful form.
"Have a nice nap, beautiful?"
"Mmm…" she nodded, snuggling into me some more.
"I've been thinking…"
"Did you throw out the condom?" She interrupted me.
"What?"
"The condom. It… it can't stay here. Can you… like… wrap it in something and put it in the trash outside or something?"
"Bells-"
"If Charlie found it, you and I both would be dead."
"How would he-"
"Sometimes he comes in here to collect my trash when he takes it out each week."
"Oh."
"Please?"
"I … uh… put it in the trashcan… I'll um… take them when I leave and put them in the trash outside ok?"
"Ok…" Bella sighed, closing her eyes but then quickly opening them again. "Wait. Them?"
I chuckled. "You said we could try again," I said, moving two of my fingers to Bella's pussy and rubbing them on her wet slit.
She gasped and grabbed my arm, but didn't pull it away from her. "Jake!"
"What, Boo?"
"I… that… ugh…"
"I was going to say… I've been thinking about ways to make it less painful. I think I know a position the both of us will enjoy immensely," my voice lowered and my middle finger dipped in between her folds, playing with her clit.
She breathed in sharply again. "Really?"
I was surprised. I thought she would just deny me and make me stop, but she didn't.
Fuck yeah!
"And like you requested… I'll do all the work this time." I took my fingers away from her and moved down the bed. When she turned on her back, I shook my head. "Nah ah ah… turn on your stomach, Boo."
Bella looked at me with wide eyes, probably knowing where I was going with this, but not mentioning a thing as she slowly slid onto her stomach. She lied her head on her pillow, her hands underneath it, gripping it, no doubt, awaiting my next move. I smiled at the sight before me and licked my lips as I moved her thighs apart, getting in between them. I lifted her ass up, my hands tight on her hips, giving her support while also holding her in place.
I was ready to take her right then, but something in me told me to take this a little slower and besides, I was not fully erect yet so a little foreplay just added itself to the schedule.
I got off the end of the bed and got on my knees on the floor, pulling Bella's ass towards me as I leaned over and took one long lick of her pussy.
"JACOB FUCKING BLACK!" She screamed and I chuckled.
"Yes, Isabella Maire Swan?" I asked, kissing her thigh.
"I … why didn't you tell me you were going to-"
"Because sometimes surprising you is fun."
Bella calmed down and I waited a few seconds to continue. My hands gripped Bella's ass and held her in a position that was perfect for what I had planned right then. My tongue went back to work and I slid it up and down Bella's wet pussy, actually really enjoying the taste of her.
"Bella you taste so good…"
"Oh my god, Jake. Where the hell did this come from? Like… where's my Jacob I used to make mudpies with when we were younger?"
I grinned. "He grew up."
"I GUESS. But when did he get so… naughty?"
"The moment you moved into town, Bells."
"So you've always thought of me like-"
"Do you want me to finish this or no?" I asked, trying not to feel frustrated.
"Yes… please."
"Good," I said before shoving three fingers into her pussy.
"MMM!" I could tell she'd just bit the pillow and her needing to do that turned me on way more than I thought it would.
I finger fucked her and licked her until she reached back and put her own fingers on her clit. Before I could protest, she shook with orgasm and screamed into the pillow.
I slowly slid my fingers out of her. "Aw… c'mon, Bells. I wanna HEAR you scream." I got up onto the bed, kneeling in between her spread legs.
She looked back at me, smirking. "And I wanna hear you howl. You ARE a wolf, after all."
I raised an eyebrow at her and took a hold of her hips. "I will NOT howl, Bella."
"Aww… why not?" I was going to fuck that smirk right off her face.
"Because," I started, grabbing my dick and rubbing it along her pussy.
"Condom," she said, ruining the moment, but being responsible. I forgave her for it immediately.
"Oh yeah. Fuck…" I got up and went to Bella's nightstand where the condoms were lying. I grabbed one, opened it up and looked back at her on the bed. "Don't… move."
"I'm not Jakey, stop worrying that I'm gonna leave."
Something about the way she said that made my heart jump and as I unwrapped the condom onto my cock, I thought about making this time softer, more loving, more romantic… until she wiggled her hips.
God damn it, Bella.
Little Jake twitched and before I knew it, I was back in my previous spot, teasing Bella's wet pussy with my hard cock again.
"I'd like to take you like this, Bella," I said softly, as I ran one of my hands up and down her back.
"I'd like that too, Jake."
"You ready?"
"You know I am."
This position definitely made everything easier. My cock was going into her at a downwards angle which made it easier to maneuver into her and she seemed more spread open this way as well. My cock slid into her with hardly any resistance even though she did wince once.
"You okay, beautiful?"
"Yes Jake… oh yes."
That gave me a confidence boost and in the next few seconds I was deep inside her pussy, my hips against her ass. Being all the way inside of her and watching myself slide into her was the hottest thing I'd ever seen and being able to grab her ass and pull her to me made the whole thing that much more fantastic.
And when I say fantastic, I mean FANTASY-tastic.
"Give it to me, Jakey."
"Woah, Bells… really?"
"Mhmm… I really like this."
"You're not hurting?"
"Only a tiny bit but … it's good."
"So… what do you want Bella?" I asked, thinking I could get away with a little dirty talk. Perhaps I could really turn this into one of my fantasies.
"Mmm… you're gonna play that card, Jacob?"
"What card, Bells?"
"The dirty talk card. You know it turns me on…"
"Does it?" I ask, sliding almost all the way out of her.
"Yesssss," she hissed, gripping the pillow under her.
"Well tell me what you want and I'll give it to you, sweetie."
"I want you to fuck me, Jacob. I want it hard. I've always thought of you doing this to me. I want it so bad, Jake. Please…"
I thrust into her hard.
"Oh!" She squealed. Mhmm. I made Bella Swan squeal.
"Tell me exactly what you want, Bells," I ordered, pulling away from her again.
"I want you to fuck me, Jacob! I want that cock deep inside my pussy!"
"Holy FUCK, Bells… do you even KNOW how hot that is? You talking like that?" I gave her another deep thrust.
"Fuck!" She yelled again.
"It's so hot, baby."
"Gimme more Jake! I want more… please!"
Giving in to her pleas, I started to pull back and thrust in a little quicker, the sexiest sound making its way to my ears as my hips hit her ass every time I thrust into her.
"Oh its so DEEP baby!" Bella squealed again.
"You like that?" I picked up the pace a little more, almost slamming into her now.
"You know I do… oh fuck yeah, Jacob!" She moved up a little, onto her elbows so her head was off the pillow and she looked back at me with her mouth hanging open, panting and watching me fuck her. Damn it, that was hot.
I plunged into her and stopped, her confused eyes meeting mine. But before she could ask what I was doing, I ground my hips into hers, rocking back and forth, my cock just moving around deep inside her. Her jaw dropped again and her eyes shut, her throat giving out a groan that made me start pounding her again.
"Did you like that, Boo? Hmm?"
"You … are… hitting… something … like… my…"
"G-spot?"
"How do you even… know about…"
"I watch porn, Bella. And I read shit… fuck…"
"Well you're… getting it… FUCK Jake! I'm gonna cum!"
"Yeah?" I asked, excited that I was holding out.
"Yes! Harder! Just… a little harder! Oh my god, PLEASE harder!"
I think my mind left my body at that moment and as my fingers took a tight hold on Bella's hips, my cock plunged deep into her pussy over and over again as hard as I could thrust. Before I knew it, Bella was tightening around me and I had to hold in a breath and bite my lip to keep from cumming.
"Fuck Bells… you're so tight when you-"
"CUMMIIIIING!" she screamed and I was going to say 'I know' but just let her soak the bed instead.
"Damn, you liked THAT didn't you?" I asked, my cock now moving slowly in and out of her, a lot less deep than before.
"Yeah Jake... I… did…." she was trying to catch her breath. "I didn't even have to touch my clit for that one!"
I don't think my head could get much bigger right now. And I meant the one above my shoulders.
"Well how about we see if we can get another one out of you before I-"
"Just cum if you want to, Jake."
"No! I'm trying to last here, Bells. No."
"Ok ok Mister I'm-Worried-About-My-Performance."
"Don't do that right now. No teasing me right now. I'm trying to make love to you."
That must have hit a nerve because she shut up and didn't say anything when I pulled out of her, flipped her over onto her back and slid in between her legs again. I stared into her eyes and gave her a look back that was filled with more than dirty lust. Both my hands went to Bella's thighs and spread them as far as they could go, lifting them up and backwards towards her quite a bit. I didn't even have to guide my cock in, it was so hard. Little Jake knew his destination and went right there, sliding in with hardly any difficulty at all.
As I leaned forward, my shoulders did the job my hands had been doing of holding Bella's thighs up and keeping them spread. I gave my Bella an intense stare before I kissed her with all the passion in the world and I hoped she'd understand exactly what I was trying to tell her.
I love you.
I'll never leave you.
I want .. No, I NEED you… forever.
Let me love you.
Her kiss back to me surprised me, but in a good way. It was so needy and loving and heart-wrenching that I couldn't focus on thrusting into her, my cock just settling itself deep inside her and not moving. Her groan snapped me out of it, though and I started to pull my hips back slowly, pulling out just a little and thrusting back in deep. The way she just came in the previous position told me she liked it deep, so I was going to keep with that theme and see where it would take her next.
Each of my hands took one of Bella's, and we would grasp each other, intertwining our fingers, each time a thrust gave us that pleasure we were looking for. Whenever she or I needed air, I pulled away from Bella's lips but I would kiss her neck or her cheek or her chest, not letting there be much time at all when my lips were away from her skin.
My thrusts became slightly more frantic, but I was trying to keep this as intensely romantic as possible so I tried not to lose it. When I moved my hips a little and started thrusting my body in a way that hit Bella's clit each thrust, though, I knew she would cum soon so I was preparing myself to cum with her.
She must have had the same thought. "Cum with me, Jake," she whispered into my ear.
I looked down at her, our lips not locked anymore, but our eyes were. I thrust my cock into her a little harder, staring into her eyes and giving her as much of myself as I possibly could. A few more thrusts and I felt my orgasm about to rip through my body.
"I love you, Bella," I said in a low, breathless voice right before I gripped her hands so hard, I thought I'd hurt her.
She stared into my eyes the entire time I came, her orgasm finally hitting her and making her body shake underneath mine. "I love you, Jake!" She said right before her body relaxed and as the convulsions stopped, I let here legs fall to the sides of us and rolled us over so she was halfway lying on top of me.
"Jakey…" she said softly as I stroked her hair.
"Yeah, baby?" I asked, still catching my breath.
"Pull out…" I looked down and sure enough I was still buried inside her.
I pulled out of her and tore the condom off, reaching over to put it in the trashcan. I'd remember to take them later.
We cuddled together in silence for a few moments, just relishing in all the pleasure and love.
Bella finally broke the silence. "I mean it, Jake."
I looked over at her and scrunched up my face in confusion. "What, Boo?"
"That I love you."
My heart did a cart-wheel but I tried not to look TOO excited. "I know-"
"No. I… And I know I admitted it to you, but Jake… that was… perfect."
I didn't know what to say, so I just smiled. It usually worked for me, and thankfully it did for Bells too.
"I really feel like we … made love. I mean, as stupid as that sounds-"
"It doesn't sound stupid. I know what you mean."
"Like the first time I was really concerned that we were not going to be able to… but… that… with you looking into my eyes when we… I just… Jake… I'm ready for this."
I almost jumped out of the bed. Instead, my body just grabbed hers and wrapped myself around her more. "Tell me exactly what that means, Bells."
She giggled and her breath against my chest gave me goose bumps. "It means I wanna be in a relationship with you. I have a weird thing about Charlie knowing just yet, but … as far as everyone else goes… everyone else that won't tell Charlie, that is… I wanna be comfortable with you in front of all of them. I actually think I'm ready to delve into this relationship."
"You've just made me the happiest man on the planet, Bells," I said, kissing her forehead. "And that's not just the sex talking."
We both chuckled and, though I never wanted that moment to end, a few minutes later, Bella sat up and got out of bed. She went to her dresser and put on a pair of panties and a big t-shirt.
"I should shower and clean up and stuff before Charlie gets home. You should probably get home, Jake."
I was so confused at the sudden change of heart, I lept out of the bed and wrapped my arms around her. "I thought you just said-"
"I love you," she said randomly, leaning up on her tip toes to kiss my nose. All I could do was close my eyes and grin. "Jake, I'd love to cuddle in bed all night but the thought of Charlie catching us is starting to freak me out. And I've been home all day and haven't done any dishes or laundry or cooking 'cause all I've been thinking about was you. And then all I was doing was… you. So.."
I laughed at her comment and finally understood what she was saying. "All right. I'll go. I'll call you tonight though. And you're coming over tomorrow night right?"
Her face was so cute when she was trying to remember something.
I quickly kissed her. "Sorry. You're just so damn cute. Um… there's a council meeting going on and I thought since uh… since all the guys will be there and … some of them are bringing their girls-"
"I'll go, Jake. I work tomorrow afternoon, but I'll be there," she ran her hands up and down my arms in a way that made my heart flutter again. I thought only girls got all mushy and lovey dovey with the butterflies in the stomach thing. What the hell?
No, I'm NOT turning into a girl. Wolf I can handle, but a girl? No.
"Tell Charlie he can come."
"What?"
"Don't be shocked, Bells. Dad wants him there. Thinks it'll be cool for him. Plus, I think he said something about it being a way for everyone to get together for an 'even better' birthday party for Charlie. He's been waiting for an opportunity to let Charlie know a little more about the tribe, anyway, and I guess since you're 'in the know' now, my dad feels like-"
"No WAY are you telling my dad that you explode into a ball of fur!"
I laughed at her outburst and held her tighter to my naked body. "No, Bells. Dad and I both think it would be cool for him to hear some of the legends and just… make his own opinions."
Bella was giving me a suspicious look, so I just kissed her lips quickly and turned around to pick up my clothes, dressing myself slowly.
"I don't want him to know much," she was obviously scared.
"Bella. Charlie's not one to jump to conclusions unless he sees something with his own two eyes. And none of us are going to phase in front of him. If you really don't want him to come, I'll just tell dad."
"No no… I just…" she sighed, "oh well. What the hell. I don't think it could do any harm."
"Good."
"So I'll see you tomorrow night?"
I finished pulling on my shirt and walked back over to my Bella. "A whole day. I dunno how I'll cope."
She rolled her eyes and wrapped her arms around my neck as my hands went to her waist. "Don't be so dramatic," she kissed me and I tried deepening it, my tongue playing with hers for a second, but she pulled away. "I don't want to start again and not be able to stop."
I just grinned at her. "I love you."
"I love you more."
I just shook my head and kissed her again, quickly. Three more seconds and I was jumping out the window. "I'll call you!"
"I know!" She yelled back.
Not a minute later, my phone buzzed. I pulled it out of my pocket and looked at the text.
U forgot the condoms
I quickly ran back over to the side of the house where I found two used condoms and their wrappers on the grass. Looking up, I saw Bella wave and laugh before closing the window.
I just shook my head and, after picking them up, laughing at myself for being grossed out, I looked around for any eyes on me and then threw them in her neighbors trash can that was out on the street.
I texted Bella back.
taken care of, love.
And I immediately got one back.
text me when u get home so I kno u got there ok. Love u.
She's worried about a guy that can kill vampires with his teeth getting home safe. I love her.
i will. And I love u.