The next day Felicity did not want to get out of bed, she brought the covers all the way up to her head, trying to shield herself from the world, trying to shield herself from the day, she did not want to go to work, she did not want to look at Oliver, she did not want to face Dig or Roy. She did not want to go to the lair and have all eyes staring at her. From everything that she has had to deal with, bomb collars, car crashes, vertigo, a katana sword, nothing scared her more than being vulnerable in a room full of strong, powerful men, including of course gorgeous Laurel who is a strong woman and now since her training has become toned and even more gorgeous. She hated feeling vulnerable and weak, she hated not being able to switch off her feelings and act normally so others couldn't tell when something was wrong with her, she wished she wasn't such an open book for people to realise what is troubling her. She just wanted to stay in bed, not face the world, not face her friends, not face her husband, ergh she thought husband as she drew the covers to cover her head, no one would see her cry, this way no one could.
Oliver did not get a wink of sleep how could he, all he could think about was last night's events. He had spent the whole night in the lair working out. After he had trained for what seemed like hours he sat in Felicity's chair and thought. He had replayed everything in his head, he had replayed the day he met her, the day he revealed himself to her, the day where she locked the doors in the foundry telling him not to orphan a kid. He recalled her coming to the island and dragging him back after the undertaking, recalled her telling him to find another way, calling him a hero all of it. He remembered what Laurel had said to him, he fought for strangers every day and the one person that meant everything to him, the most important person in his life, he did not fight for her, forget failing the city, he was failing her and himself, he doesn't deserve her one bit, but he needed her. He needed everything she represents; he needed her love, her guidance, her feistiness. So when Oliver got into work earlier than he would ever come in, he finally realised that he needed to fight for his girl, for his wife, he would do anything in his power to make it up to her to win her back, even though they were never together, he needed to go to the ends of the earth for this woman.
And that is what Oliver began to do, he had left orchids on her desk, her favourite, when she would come in he thought a cup of coffee and her favourite doughnut will be on her desk.
Felicity did not want to get out of bed, even though Roy was pounding on her door.
"You cannot hide away forever Blondie" he called.
"Hide away forever sounds really good, besides it hasn't even been one day of hiding, leave me alone to die Roy"
Roy kept pounding on the door, he knew it was unlocked but he really did want to see his best mate, his big sister in a state again, he had to pick up last night's pieces when a soaking wet Felicity Smoak came home, makeup smeared over her face, her shivering and sobbing in his arms, her tears were all down Roy's white work shirt. He didn't care about any of that but he cared about his friend he hated seeing her upset. "Blondie get up".
Felicity got out of bed and opened her door "can't a girl at least die in peace is that too much to ask".
"Blondie shut up, today is a good day, nobody dies today" he smiled. He grabbed her hand and then dragged her to the bathroom where she was staring at herself in the mirror. "Repeat after me"
"What"
"Shut up and repeat ok! I Felicity Smoak" he paused waiting for her to repeat, he stood behind her gripping her shoulders, he gently started to shake her so she could repeat.
"I Felicity Smoak" she tried to mimic him.
"Is not defined by no man, I am a strong independent woman"
"Is not defined by no man, a strong independent woman" she said exaggerating her words.
"I do not need Oliver Queen, broody, miserable Oliver Queen, I will soon be his ex-wife and I will go back to being Felicity Smoak MIT Class of 09 badass computer hacker, a bitch with Wi-Fi" Roy stood there smirking at her. He had managed to get her to smile; he had missed her smiles he thought. She turned around pecked Roy on the cheek.
"Thank you, I better have a shower and get ready for work, and you might wanna leave, I pretty sure now that I am married you being in here whilst I'm showering is adultery" she laughed.
Felicity had finally found herself at work, she was in the elevator going up 18 floors to her desk, to her husband she kept thinking, it was horrendous getting to work the paparazzi were not leaving her alone, she was so grateful for Roy, he had become her bodyguard managing to get her into the car. She couldn't help but notice the looks and the stares from everyone at work, she knew it was going to be even more worse than before, she thought the rumours about boss and secretary affair was outrageous boss weds secretary is even worse. She had opted to wear a dark red sleeveless dress, her hair in her usual ponytail, Roy had been right, soon she would be his ex-wife and then she could get back to normal, but when getting dressed this morning she knew that if she had opted to wear something like trousers and a shirt covering herself that he would realise and see that she is trying to hide from him, she did not want to give him that satisfaction, Roy was right he did not define her and she needed to still be herself.
She walked to her desk noticing purple orchids, her favourite; she also noticed a cup of coffee and her favourite doughnut. Hmm doughnut she thought, the snapped back to reality, really, why couldn't it just be normal. She picked up some documents that she had worked on yesterday and headed into his office, no time like the present to pretend to be alright.
"Hey, here are the notes for your meeting this morning, the ambassador for Global Networks is a huge fan of blueberry muffins, so they will arrive shortly I thought he might appreciate it, and hopefully you can lock this deal down with them" she smiled and began to walk back to her desk.
"Thank you" he called after her.
After Oliver's meeting he noticed Felicity signing for the post, he smiled, he knew what waited, and he had asked the postage boy to deliver an envelope to Felicity. When Felicity opened the envelope she found a picture, a picture she recognised as the same one that hung on her wall, she was crouching down near a sleeping Oliver, smiling, beaming, she couldn't help but smile, how did he get a copy she wondered. But above everything she was scared; she was scared because she couldn't remember the last time she had genuinely smiled like that. She faced him and smiled, watching him return with a gleeful grin. What are you up to she thought?
During the rest of the day they had barely seen each other, what with the many meetings and her coming and going from each department, she needed updated reports of each department as reports were beginning to expire. When she got back to her desk she noticed a small Yoda figurine on her desk, holding a small green light saver. Oliver knew she loved Yoda and had even made reference as to how similar they are, green, green weapon, that had gained a laughter from him, where he did not know where it came from, since he had returned he could not recall laughing that much than the night she compared him to Yoda, it was too much for him, he had surprised himself, he actually believed that her comment would earn glares from him, but not full out laughter where he was left drying his eyes. She picked up Yoda and analysed it, when satisfied she placed it underneath her computer screen. When Oliver had left his office, he turned and faced her waiting for her to finish.
"Thanks" she said as she quickly finished the email she was writing.
"For what" he knew why she was thanking him, but if he had said otherwise then the conversation would stop there.
"For Yoda, for the flowers, for the doughnut" she began to close her taps on her computer. "You heading to the lair?"
"Don't mention it, yes I am, just waiting for you" he said shyly.
"I have a few stops to make, so I will just see you there" she got up from her chair.
"Well now that we are Mr and Mrs Queen it would be weird if we left at different times" he clenched his lips together after what he said, he knew he had just made it worse, gone back to the last night, after the progress he believed he had made today.
She pushed passed him and mumbled just go, who cares what they say, if only they knew it was all fake.
Felicity had gone home after work to change, he had to go and ruin it didn't he, she thought, mentioning the whole marriage thing, why couldn't they go back to normal. She opened her bag to fetch her phone and text Roy that she would be at the lair in 10mintues, she noticed the picture that Oliver had posted to her, and she picked it up walking to her wall, looking for it. She knew it was near the other one of him asleep, that's when she noticed the missing photo, there was an empty space on the wall where a picture once was. She raised the picture to the wall it fit, this was her picture, the one that hung on this wall, but how, when, why?
HAHAH I AM SO EVIL I KNOW I KEEP MAKING THEM DRIFT FROM EACH OTHER BUT IF U HANG ON THE NEXT FEW CHAPTERS WILL BLOW YOUR MINDS I HAVE ALREADY MADE NOTES AND PLANS OF THOSE CHAPTERS THINGS THAT COME TO ME CAUSUALLY ON MY BUS JOURNEYS ETC ETC.