I know you all must hate me for delaying in this story for so long i just finish school so i'm confused on what i'm going to do next i know i want to go to College but i'm not ready for reports and project just yet. well enough of my sob story i hope you enjoy this chapter, its almost done so hopely i can finish this story by the end of this month. I once again apologize for the late update but i hope this makes up for it. :)

Disclamier: I do NOT own Harry Potter just the plot line *_^

Hope you enjoy.

Harry was crying, it passed 2 hours that his Godfathers had arrived to take him back to his time, and he was undecided. He knew he had to leave soon or he would be stuck here forever, his godfather still had time to leave but his time was running out. He didn't want to go and at same time he knew he had to.

He groaned loudly, he kept repeating the list he had in his head, the cons and pros of going and the pros and cons of staying, up to now they have been equal in everyway. He knew by staying he was hurting his father in his time and he hated that, but he also knew by leaving he was hurting his father here and his mother, his mother who was alive.

They wont remember Alex!

his mind kept telling him and repeating it. He knew they wont remember, but it was so hard for him to decide anyway. His mother was alive here, and even though James wasn't his father, he still had a deep connection with the man.

Harry pass his hand through his hair, the door opened and Sirius, young Sirius came over to him, he sat down in front of him staring out the window.

"you want to go and you also don't?" he said, he looked at him.

"Alex, I cant tell you I want you to leave because that would be a lie" he said, Harry looked at him. "but I do know, your father does want you to leave, doesn't mean he doest love you. It exactly means he does love you. He knows what's keeping you here, and he doesn't want you to decide between him and your life." he said.

Harry scoffed, Sirius glared slightly at him. Harry had to cover a smirk, this Sirius is so much alike the Sirius in his time, well the one here also.

"don't be like that, Alex you might think leaving here your relationship with your father is going to change, its not. Once you get to your time, talk to your father." he said.

Harry shook his head, he couldn't.

Sirius sighed scowling. "and why cant you?" he asked.

Harry looked at him.

"Sirius you don't know what's going on back where I come from, you don't know the thin line we walk on. Every corner we turn we have to make sure there's nothing there. There's a reason my father didn't tell me, didn't make an effort to know me. And I don't blame him, you heard my story, you heard the deaths that happens around me. I hurt people without wanting to, people die because of me. Sirius I don't want to end up having a father and then losing him" he said.

Mean while, Severus was pacing the room, while looking at the door his son disappeared into and Sirius went into a while ago. He wanted his son to know that even though it hurt him to see him leave, that he wanted him to. He thought about the world his son would be leaving behind and couldn't let him go through with it.

Severus sighed again, leaning against the wall, Lily walked over to him placing her arms around his waist.

"what are you thinking sweetie?" she asked.

Severus looked down with black eyes shining with pain but also love. He sighed and kissed her forehead.
"is it wrong to want him to go?" he asked pained.

She sighed patting his cheek "of course not you want the best for him, you know that him staying here would not be that. You know that he would eventually regret it." she said.

Severus sighed leaning his forehead against hers. He heard her sigh.

"Severus, he knows you love him. He knows you will do anything for him, talk to him don't let it eat you, you think he should go back, explain why?" she said.

He sighed, but nodded he kissed her then walked over to the door, he knocked softly and walked inside. Harry was still sitting down against the window and Sirius was next to him rubbing his thigh, it hurt his heart to see the tears go down Harry's face. Sirius looked up to see his brothers agonized expression and sighed standing up, he walked over to him after placing a kiss on Harry's forehead.

Severus smiled slightly at his friend, and waited until Sirius was gone from the room to walk over to his son, he sat down in front of him, and lifted his sons face by the chin with his hand. Harry looked up green eyes filled with tears.

"I don't know what to do Daddy" he whispered.

Severus heart broke, his son called him Daddy his 17 year old son called him Daddy, he shook his head. His son was more far from deciding then he thought. He sighed and reached over hugging him tightly against his chest. He felt Harry's frame shake with quiet sobs. After a while Harry pulled away wiping his eyes.

"sorry" he said embarrassed his cheeks going red "I don't know why I'm so emotional, your back in my time" he said looking away.

Severus sighed and pushed Harry's face gently back so he can see him.

"Alex son, you have every right to be emotional, yes I'm back in your time. But you still haven't let go of the grudge you have on me" he said sadly. Harry was about to protest "no no no" Severus said raising a hand "let me finish, I know your don't truly forgive me Alex, and I understand that." he said.

Harry looked at him shocked.

"no" he said forcedly "don't think that Dad, I forgave you when I heard your story and why you had to keep silent for, I forgave you I thought you know that. Yes I knew your not technically my father yet but I forgave your future self also. I just hope that you'll be able to forgive yourself" he said.

Severus smiled at him and lifted his chin.

"I'm going to need my son there, if me in the future ever thinks of forgiveness, I need to have my boy" he said.

Harry looked at him and sighed.

"is this your way of telling me to leave" he said looking away.

Severus sighed.

"Alex understand I love you so much, you mean the world to me. It hurts to see you leave but will have your memory" Harry looked away at the end of the sentence, but thankfully his father didn't catch the glimpse "Alex I do want you to go back, I want you to have the family, I don't want you to regret staying here. I know you have me and your mother but you have so many people that love you in your time including me Alex. I don't want to seem selfish but I don't think I can take losing you too. I lost your mother, I lost my best friend my brother, I lost the chance of raising you. Alex it would be the end of me if lost you all together" he said, Severus even had tears in his eyes with just thinking about it.

Harry stared at his father and remembered the bitter Professor back in his time but realized when someone was brave enough to mention if he had any kids or if he was married, his eyes would go pain and would look at him, Harry just shrugged it of thinking that he was still infatuated with his mother. Now he realize he was looking at his son and everything he had lost. He couldn't do that to his father. He sighed and realized he had to leave.

Severus watched as emotion fleeted across his son's face, he was fighting with himself to be strong with the decision his son was going to make but it broke him inside. He kept on thinking I will still have my memory, I will still have that picture engraved in my head. Little did he know that once Harry was gone, his memory would be gone also.

Severus turned back his attention to his son after he heard him groan. He turned to see tears in his eyes.

"Harry son what's wrong?" he asked.

Harry sighed wiping his eyes "I have to go back" he said in a whisper.

Severus grimaced but nodded.

"yes you do sweetheart, I'm sorry but you do" he said. Harry whimpered but nodded.

They both stood up and walked out the door, the room disappeared behind them. Sirius and Remus were talking with there younger self's. They both looked up when they made there appearance.

"please tell me you decided to come?" Remus said.

Sirius scowled at his husband. "what have you decided Alex?" he said smiling but you can see the worry in his black eyes.

Harry sighed and looked at his mother, she was alive and there, Lily felt her son's eyes on her and looked up smiling motherly. Then Harry looked at his father, he couldn't say he was alive, since he is in future, but he still felt this fear that the relationship he has now would never exist where he comes from he sighed.

"I decided to go" he whispered, Remus and Sirius both sighed in relief, Severus closed his eyes slightly but nodded, Lily let out a sob throwing her arms around her son.

"Oh sweetie, I'm going to miss you, but at least me and your father have the memory of you right" she smiling, Harry threw a look at his godfathers, they nodded sadly.

"when do we do it?" I asked.

Remus and Sirius sighed "tomorrow would be alright, before we left we had 38 hours. You have time to spend another day with them, I'm sorry Alex" Remus said sadly.

Harry nodded, letting his parents hug him tightly.

Aw! Harry seems to be really sad I hope he goes through with what he said and doesnt change his mind in the last second. Question should i make a sequel after this storie is done? Answers in your Review so dont forget to Review.

Love you all.

Camy.