Chapter 13
"Emotionally Broken"

A week passed quickly,

Jude hadn't gone to G-Major all week, she wanted to avoid any chances of her bumping in to Spiederman. She was determined not to speak to him, but I think we all know that that is impossible.

Jude walked in to her bathroom in the morning. She was wearing a baggy sweatshirt. She took her sweatshirt off and she was wearing a cami. Both arms were completely full with cuts. It made Jude feel sick to her stomach to look at her arms, and that's partly why she covered them with her clothes.

The other reason was so that no one would see them. A few of the cuts were covered with bandaids, but several of them weren't. Although she felt sick looking at the scratches, she couldn't stop herself from doing it over and over again. Jude took the razor that she hid in her jewelry box. She looked down at her arms, searching for an opened spot.

She finally found one, and soon enough she was cleaning blood off of her arm. She wiped away her tears, and put her sweatshirt back on. She could feel that the blood was still coming out, but she tried to ignore it.

Jude walked back to her bedroom. Her and her "Sister" Jessica had gotten pretty close. They talked a lot, and would watch movies together. Jessica was sitting on Jude's bed reading a magazine, and it didn't bother Jude that she was in her room.

"Hey, what's up Jess?" Jude asked Jessica. Jessica closed her magazine, put it to the side and looked up at Jude.

"Nothing, besides the fact that Darius just called the house phone and he told me to tell you that he needs you and SME to record today. And that he likes the song you performed at the opening act." Jessica explained.

"Erg" Jude sighed. "I got to change, would you mind leaving for a bit?" Jude asked, she didn't want Jessica to see her scars. Jessica nodded and left the room. Once she left, Jude fell on the bed. She definitely didn't want to go to G-Major.

Jude finally began getting ready. Since her cut was still bleeding, she put a bandage over it, and then began getting ready. She splashed water on her face, to clean off her make up. She then put her make up on, and changed.

Jude walked in to the hall way and saw Jessica there. Jessica had another bruise, it was on her shoulder, you could see it because she was wearing a tank top.

"Are you okay?" Jude asked concerned, as she stopped walking and faced Jessica, Jessica did the same thing.

"Huh?" She replied, acting as if she had no idea what Jude was talking about.

"What happened to your arm?! And don't tell me that you fell!" Jude repeated.

"I'm fine, you hardly know me yet so stop trying to get in to my personal life!" Jessica yelled at Jude before storming off. Jude stood there, confused and concerned. She knew that some thing was messed up in Jessica's life, and she would eventually find it out.

Jude then walked downstairs to see her mom on the phone.

"Alright, alright, bye now" Victoria hung up the phone and looked to her daughter. "Hey sweetie, where you heading?" Victoria asked her daughter as she walked over to Jude.

"Darius wants me at G. I need to record and stuff" Jude simply answered

"Before you go, there is some thing I want to talk to you about" Victoria replied, sitting down at the kitchen table "Sit down" She said nicely. Jude became confused, but did as her mother said. She walked over to the dining table and took a seat.

"What's up?" Jude asked. Victoria let out a breath before asking.

"Don and I were talking, and I have to ask you a very important question" Victoria was trying her hardest to stall, because she was scared of rejection, on the other hand, Jude was begging for her mother to just spit it out

"Just tell me mom" Jude replied. Her mom then continued

"Don and I were wondering if you were going to completely move in? Are you just staying here till you find a new place, or are you staying with us?" Victoria began

"Do you want me here?" Jude asked

"Of course, sweet heart. I want you to become apart of me and Don's family. Jessica and you seem to be getting along very well, and I would love for you to just come and stay with us. But the descion is yours, not mine" Victoria replied

"Listen, I got to jet. But I'll talk to you tonight, K? Bye!" Jude told her mother before leaving the house. Victoria took a long breath of sadness. She was completely terrified of Jude saying she was going to leave soon, she wanted Jude to be apart of her family very badly.

Jude got in to her car, and arrived at G-Major. On the way there she blasted the radio. She walked in to G-Major, and saw Kwest waiting for her. She walked in to the studio, and put her purse down.

"Sorry for not being here lately, I'm all tied up." Jude apologized, setting her bag down and leaning on the sound board. Kwest was setting the sound board up.

"It's all good." Kwest simply answered. "Have you seen Darcy lately?" Kwest asked Jude, concerned since he hasn't talked to her in a while, and since he had a pretty big crush on her.

"I was on the phone with Portia last night, and Darcy has a meeting with Darius today." Jude answered. "Why do you care?" Jude then asked. Kwest become nervous, and began blushing. Once Jude saw how nervous she was she blurted out "You like Darcy!" She had a huge smile on her face, as she jumped up and down pointing at Kwest

"Could you keep it down a bit?!" Kwest demanded, Jude stopped jumping, and covered her smile with her hand.

"Aww, little Kwest is in love!" Jude teased him.

"Don't you dare tell any one, and I'm not in love, I only like her" Kwest stated. Jude softly laughed.

"So, you ready to record?" Jude asked.

"Yeah" Jude entered the booth, and put the head phones on.

Meanwhile,

Darcy entered Darius' office. She took a seat, and her facial expression seemed upset. Darius walked in to the office, and made his way to his desk, he sat down, and the two looked at each other.

"Did your mother tell you what's going on?" Darius asked. Darcy's face was steaming with madness. She slammed the desk, as she stood up. She kicked her chair, and paced back and forth around the room.

"How could you not tell me this!" She yelled once she stopped pacing and stood in front of Darius' desk

"Your mother and I were trying to think of the right time to give you the news" Darius answered

"Darius! I'm in my 20's, and you decide to tell me I'm your daughter now!? I've missed out on so much! I thought you were my father, not that other God damn stranger!" Darcy yelled

"He's not a stranger, Darc, he raised you!" Darius yelled back

"Yeah, but you should've been the one by my side, teaching me how to ride a bike! But no, you sent me off with my mother!" Darcy said as tears came out of her eyes "My mom hardly cared for me. If I was five, and I fell off my bike she would tell me to shut the hell up and go bug daddy about it! But the fact is, I never bugged my dad, because that would mean me bugging you!" Darcy replied

Darius stood up, and walked over to Darcy. He put his hands on her shoulders.

"Darc, my life was a mess. My sister had just broken off her marriage, and she was sick to her stomach. Then I found out that I knocked some girl up! I needed to get out of there, and I did. But look, your here now! I can finally be your dad!" Darius told her

"It's too late!" She yelled. She then stormed out.

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Jude hit the final note. A smile spread across her face, as she saw that Kwest was satisfied. Kwest was about to speak when Darcy barged in to the room in tears, Jude and Kwest turned they're heads to her. Darcy slowly walked to Kwest, covering her mouth as the tears came down.

"Can I please talk to you?" She said in between cries.

"Yeah. Jude could you leave for like five minutes, please?" Kwest begged her. Jude nodded and walked out. Darcy continued crying, and Kwest felt terrible. The only thing that made him feel a glimpse of happiness, is that she came to him for help. "What happened?" Kwest asked her

"Darius is my father!" She yelled out. She fell on to Kwest lap, and Kwest held her in his arms, as she buried her head in to his chest, crying hysterically. Kwest softly brushed her hair, as she cried.

"It's okay, it's alright" All though Kwest didn't really know what was wrong, he knew that he had to comfort her no matter what, whether it meant holding her in his arms, or not knowing why she was crying at all.

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Jude walked in to the G-Major lobby. She was covered in a big baggy sweatshirt, and a pair of jeans, her cuts were un noticeble, but people were wondering why she was wearing a sweatshirt on such a good weathered day. Jude began panicking once Spiederman walked in to G-Major, and walked her way. Jude sat down on the couch.

"Hey, isn't it a bit hot out for a sweatshirt?" He asked her

"And why do you care what I wear any more?" She replied.

"Just trying to be your friend ..." He simply answered "... Your song kicked ass last week" Spiederman complimented her, trying to start a conversation. If he couldn't be Jude's boyfriend, he had to at least be her friend.

"Thanks, happy you liked it" Jude replied. Spiederman then sat down next to her.

"Listen Jude, I want to be your friend so bad. Because, you were a big part of me life. And I don't want to see you off with some stranger guy, unless I've met him. I really miss our friend ship, and I'm almost on my knees begging for forgiveness. Our relationship troubles are in the past now, so let's start our friendship back up!" Spiederman begged

Jude rolled her eyes, and stood up, she walked out of G-Major. Spiederman was thinking of giving up, but he wouldn't give up that easy. Spiederman secretly followed her. He followed Jude's car to her house.

Jude walked inside, and upstairs. He knocked on the door five minutes later and Miss. Harrison answered

"Hi Miss. Harrison, can I go visit Jude, real quickly?" He asked anxiously.

"Sure, she's in her room." Miss. Harrison answered, allowing Vincent to come in. Spiederman nodded, and smiled at her, and then went straight upstairs. Once he was up there he tried to make as less noise as he could.

He arrived at Jude's room. The door was shut, and he heard nothing. He slowly opened the door, little by little. Soon enough the door was half way opened. Jude wasn't in there, he was thinking of leaving until he saw it ...

There was a razor blade next to the pillow on her bed, and there was a blood stain on her pillow. Spiederman froze, and then walked over to the bed, he looked closer and couldn't believe his eyes.

"Jude!" He yelled out. He ran to the bathroom, and saw her leaving the bathroom

"What are you doing here?!" Jude yelled at him

"Jude! Why is there blood and a razor blade on your fucking bed?!" Spiederman yelled at her. Jude felt her heart skip a beat. She couldn't believe that Spiederman saw what he has seen, she tried to cover up the silence with an excuse.

"Why were you even in my room!" Jude replied, trying to turn the tables on him

"Don't even try it! Tell me the truth now!" Spiederman told her.

"I'm fine, okay?! I fell, and hit my arm! It was bleeding,and I wiped it off on my pillow!" Jude lied

"And the razor blade?!" Spiederman reminded her

"I just had it in there, no reason!" She lied again

"Bull shit!" He yelled

"Oh, really?! Gimme a reason to why you shouldn't believe me!" Jude replied

"Show me your arms!" Spiederman demanded

"No! There's nothing wrong with them!" She yelled, pushing passed him, heading for her room.

"There is some thing wrong! And I need to see it! I need to!" Spiederman told her, Jude stopped walking and turned around "Because if there is nothing wrong, then you shouldn't mind showing me!" Spiederman stated.

Jude, almost in tears, made her way back to Spiederman. Once she got there, she looked him straight in the eyes. Spiederman nodded, signaling her to show him. Jude lifted up both of her sleeves, and revealed to arms, that were filled with cuts. Only two or three had bandages.

"Oh my God" Spiederman softly whispered, softly running his finger up one of the arms. Jude began crying, she practically threw her self in to a hug with Spiederman. She cried in his chest, and Spiederman held her tight.

After a five minute hug, they walked to Jude's room. They sat down on Jude's bed. Jude was still softly crying. Spiederman couldn't stop thinking of how much pain he must of put her through.

"Am I the reason that you did this to yourself?" Spiederman asked her.

"It wasn't you, it was just the things wrong that happened in my life. I missed you, so God damn much, and I was just falling apart, more and more each minute. I turned my head away from you, and it compeletly broke me." Jude explained.

"I'm so sorry" Spiederman began "I never meant to hurt you, and I never imagined that my actions would push you, that far off the edge. I love you, so much, and I apologize for what I've done." Spiederman told Jude.

"It's okay." Jude replied "We're friends now, right?" Jude asked, with so much hope building up in her body. Spiederman felt a wave of happiness fall upon his heart, Jude was finally ready to accept Spiederman as a friend

"Yeah, definitely" He replied, wiping her tears away. Jude softly smiled and the two hugged

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I liked that chapter, did you? :)

Chapter 14
"Smells Like Teen Spirit
Jude releases another album, and it is a huge hit! G-Major hosts a release party, but what happens when the release party isn't all it's meant to be?