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Chapter 14

Jane came back down dressed in dress slacks and a button-up blouse her damp hair hanging over her shoulders. She sauntered up behind Maura working in the kitchen. Wrapping her arms around Maura's belly filled waist gently pulling her in a hug then rubbing her stomach. Nuzzling her nose in the nape of Maura's neck she trailed kisses down her shoulder. In a low sultry, but playful voice, "Hmmm…you taste good. Thank for this. Anything I can do?"

"You keep doing that and our dinner will be either be burnt or cold before we eat it."

"I don't mind left overs if you don't? Maybe dessert could be first?"

"Oh, you are so hard to resist sometimes Jane Rizzoli." Jane tensed and Maura quickly covered her mouth, "Sorry"

Jane's shoulders dropped, "It's okay Maur. I slip up too." She answered dejectedly.

Maura knew the moment it came out that she struck a nerve in Jane and she knew the evening would be ruined with their thoughts hanging over them if she didn't explain her slip up. She turned around in Jane's arms, "I'm sorry Jane, I know it hurts to hear me slip and say your name especially after our talk last week."

Jane pulled Maura in closer, "It was a slip up…I understand…it happens. I've done it too. We just need to be more careful. At least it was at home…just us. It's okay Maur. Really."

"I'm sorry Jane. I wanted to talk to you about some things, but I hadn't planned on doing it tonight, however, since I miss spoke I feel that we will need to talk if we want to salvage this evening. I truly am sorry for ruining tonight. I wanted it to be special for you. You've done so many romantic things for me…I just wanted to return the favor."

Jane started to get worried, "Maura the only thing that can ruin tonight is if you tell me you don't want to be together anymore. You're not gonna say that are you?"

Maura kissed Jane in an attempt to reassure her. To express all her feelings in one kiss, "Oh Jane, I love you too much. I told you the other night that I didn't want to lose you and I think us having this conversation will help us grow stronger, but I'm scared to death as well, Please go sit in the dining room and I'll bring dinner in to you in a moment."

Jane nodded her head bending to give Maura a chaste kiss, "I love you." She was still worried about what Maura wanted to discuss, but honored her request leaving the kitchen to sit in the dining room. She sat looking at all the detail that Maura had put into setting the table. The candles and the floral center piece.

Maura took a moment to gather herself and chastise herself as well for ruining her romantic evening with Jane. She loaded the serving tray with the bowl of Gnocchi, extra sauce, shredded parmesan cheese, the salad and garlic bread taking it into the dining room. Jane quickly stood talking the tray from Maura. Frowning because Maura was carrying too much, but she didn't say anything. They fixed their plates in silence and began eating before Maura spoke.

"Jane, I really wanted to do something romantic for you tonight. I'm sorry I ruined it."

Jane quickly reached over taking Maura's hands in hers, "Maur, you didn't ruin tonight. You made an awesome meal and I'm here with you. Being with you is all that matters. I don't need a fancy meal or candles…although I've gotta say…you look really gorgeous in that dress."

"Thank you Jane, but this is what I mean…you are so good to me. You always make me feel special and you never ask for anything in return. I wanted to make you feel special tonight for a change, but with my social awkwardness I even messed that up for you. I got nervous and I just…"

"You didn't mess this up, okay? Let's have this talk so we can both relax and then maybe we'll still be up for a little feeling special later." Jane finished with a little eye brow wiggle.

"Agreed, but let's finish eating while we talk." Jane nodded releasing Maura's hands. After they both adjusted in their seats and went back to eating Maura started, "Jane, you were right. I want what you want, but I'm afraid."

"Maura, usually I have to have you dumb down your 'Google' speak, but tonight I don't even understand your 'basic' speak. What am I right about?"

"Jane, I'm talking about the conversation we had last week. I want to be your wife for real too. I want to be able to call you Jane Rizzoli again and not be afraid to say it out loud. I want MJ to be born as Michael Joseph Isles-Rizzoli if you still want the two of us that is? I want MJ to know the whole Rizzoli family. I just…I-I'm really afraid Jane. I'm afraid I could lose you in the process. To be able to go home and not have you there with me would not be worth it…I would rather stay Mrs. Siles-Lizzrio forever if that's the case."

"Oh God Maura, I'm afraid too. Especially with the amount of money being offered for you…someone who we wouldn't normally expect to do something bad just might turn us in just because they need the money. We could be gassing up the car and some desperate sole who just needs the money may turn us in or try something stupid. Times are hard and good people who are desperate do bad things for money. We are walking targets no matter what we do or where we go and no way of knowing where it might come from. I'm so afraid I won't be able to protect you Maura and that scares the hell out of me…cuz I don't want to lose you."

Jane runs her fingers through her unruly dark damp curls, "I've been scared to death everyday since we left Boston. I know if the FBI or Marshall's service find us first then the mole will give us up or it could be any other thug out there that could get a tip then who knows what could happen. It's just a matter of time. I just want a chance to stop it…a chance to even the odds at least. Once the contract is off your head and I know you'll be safe then we can go home."

"How would you plan to do this? I know you Jane Rizzoli…you have a plan don't you."

"Yeah, I think I might, but you're not gonna like it."

"Why don't you tell me and we can go from there."

"Let's clean up the dishes first then go sit in the living room and talk, okay."

Maura gets up reaching for the plates, "Are you trying to stall this conversation?"

Jane stands up reaching for the tray to put the dishes on, "Yes but I also want to be sitting somewhere for you to be more comfortable and I'm really gonna need a beer to get through this."

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The two working together made quick work in cleaning up the kitchen. Soon they were sitting on the couch in the living room much like old times. Jane at one end holding a beer in her hand and Maura at the other end with a mug of hot tea instead of a glass of wine. Jane was biting her lower lip trying to figure out the best way to tell Maura what she had in mind.

Reaching out to take Maura's hand Jane started, "We've been monitoring the news telling us that there has been no arrests made or no news worthy changes. Frost's 'Three Stooges' buddy blog has been relatively quiet lately. Just fan chatter. Ma's helpful hints blog has been just Ma…no messages. So I have to believe that Korsak, Frost and Frankie have either been stopped or blocked from working the case or there just hasn't been anything to find. Though I can't believe the O'Rourke's haven't made some kinda headway in taking over the docks by now."

"I've been reading through everything twice and I haven't seen a thing and we haven't sent anything through the 'Three Stooges' buddy blog in several months either."

"I know. I was thinking it was time for a message. I…uh…I was thinking…IwanttogoseeDoyleatWalpole."

"Jane I do not understand you when you mumble and you know I hate when you do."

"I said I want to go see Doyle at Walpole, but I need Korsak to set it up. I can't just show up to see him on visiting day."

"You can't go see him at all, Jane. No way that's just crazy."

"I told you that you wouldn't like it. I need to start at the source Maur…"

Maura cut Jane off, "We have been missing for months and you want the first time you surface to be seen visiting Patrick Doyle? No Jane, just no!"

"That's why I need to do it…don't you see…no one would ever expect it so I should be able to get in, talk to him and be out before word gets out. Plus, I need to stir things up a bit. I need to meet with the guys and I need Rondo to keep his ears out after word gets around. It'll be like chum in the water for the sharks."

"No, absolutely not! It's too dangerous."

Jane sat her beer down moved closer to Maura taking the mug from the smaller woman's hands setting it down as well, "If we talk to Phil and he's in then we can start looking for evidence on the O'Rourke's and the mole. Doing what he did in the SEALs he is bound to have some contacts and I can have him make a call to Korsak. We won't have much time to set something up, but if I have Phil drop a tip on us we can be ready when they come for us only you will not be there you will be here and safe."

"Your right Jane there is nothing about this plan that I like."

"Will you at least think about it and in the meantime could we at least talk to Phil about everything. Maybe have Phil call Korsak for us?"

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5/14/2013

After several more days of debating the issue it was time to tell Phil everything. The pressure was on because Jane was gambling on him being a good person as well as an ex-navy SEAL. It was time for them to spin the wheel and let it all ride on her gut feeling. They would either be going home that night with Phil's support or they would begin relocating again. Jane's stress level was extremely high because she was really trusting her gut on this and couldn't afford to be wrong. Maura's life was depending on this one decision. The night before Jane packed their go bags in Maura's car just in case Maura and Gus had to meet her at their pre-set location.

Jane decided to take Phil out for a late lunch at her favorite burger place. It was always quiet after the lunch rush so she knew that it was a good place to talk.

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Maura paced around the house with Gus right at her side. She knew Jane and Phillip were at lunch now. She was trying to be patient waiting for Jane to call, but she really wished she would have met Jane for lunch instead of waiting at home. No matter the outcome Jane promised to call as soon as she told Phillip. As she walked she rubbed her belly, "Oh MJ, I sure hope Jane's intestines are right on this. I know Phillip is a really nice guy…but…I really like living here…MJ."

She slowly lowers herself to the couch, "I know Jane trusts Phillip and you know I trust Jane…you have to know…I trust her more than anyone else." Gus quietly sat in front of Maura just looking at her, "Gus I hope we're doing the right thing." The smaller woman looks at her phone willing it to ring, "I hope she calls soon."