I was reading back some of Renesmee's forever and I got the urge to write some Nessie and Jake lovin'. I definitely want to have this story in their point of view as well as the kids.

JACOB BLACK

December 2033

I love my wife, unconditionally, irrevocably and completely but sometimes, just sometimes I needed to get away from her to think to myself. She was so on edge and stressed, even if I was touching her, holding her hand, her thoughts streamed into my head, she didn't realise she was doing it because of everything going on. It wasn't even our kid that was the most wanted and yet she was acting like this; she was just so scared they might come after ours in order to get to Pancrazio and Matthew. Of course she had a right to be worried about her children and Nephew but sometimes I thought she was more over protective than I was… and that was saying something. The only thing was I knew at the same time Nessie needed me, like oxygen to breathe, especially at a time like this, I was supposed to be the supportive husband going through the same thing as her and instead I was trying to avoid her, it made me feel awful when I thought about it properly, it was just her inner monologues were driving me up the wall. I was aware my son and Leah were in the back yard so I decided to get some room out the front, especially when there were so many wolves inside. The front door opened and a few of the wolves walked out, they were heading back to 'wolf quarters' as it was called, i.e. my house. I missed my own bed, being back at the Cullen's, sleeping with Nessie in her childhood bed again was strange for me, and it had been so long. Especially with Eddie and Chloe just next door again. It was causing a lot of déjà vu. I made my way back into the house, a few of the wolves patting my shoulder as I passed, another few bowing their head in respect as they passed me. I waved them off and headed back in the house. I saw Nessie physically relax when she saw me enter the room. I walked over to her sliding down beside her and pulling her into my side, I hugged her to me as she spoke to Rosalie.

What's wrong honey? She asked me.

"Nothing" I whispered into the skin of her neck. Her hand touched my thigh and she ran soothing circles on my leg with her thumb.

I was completely engrossed in my wife, her scent completely surrounding me, the hug was nothing sexual, I was just holding her in a very unintimate way, it was more like a child hugging a teddy bear than a husband hugging his wife. I was just thinking about Renesmee when there was an invasion in my thoughts, I knew someone was calling me; I pulled out of my reverie, almost asleep with my head rested on Nessie's shoulder.

"Jake!" I heard a distressed Leah calling. I frowned as she entered the room. "Zac ran off" she said I could hear her voice shaking in fear. I ejected out of my seat, dropping Renesmee from my arms and stood in front of Leah.

"What do you mean he ran off?" I glared at her. I could feel Nessie's worry behind me and my feet began walking out the room. Leah followed me.

"We were talking and he got all weird and just ran off into the woods. I was going to go after him but I figured I should tell you too" she said in gasps. I knew by her reaction that either Zac wasn't safe or she didn't know a thing. He was just running in the woods. I told myself but then I knew what was possibly hiding in the woods, the last surviving Volturi. Something my children only heard of in stories, I never ever wanted them to become a reality for them.

"Nessie stay here" I ordered her after I was aware of her following.

"No it's my son!" she yelled back and I didn't even bother arguing, we took off running. I was aware of Edward telling people to stay behind and protect Matthew but Leah and I had already phased on the fly and were following Zac's scent with Nessie following. I couldn't hear him in the pack mind so I knew he wasn't in wolf form, there was nothing in Leah's mind, he was either unconscious or perfectly fine, I hoped for the latter. I linked up to the other pack members on patrol and some quickly peeled off from their duties to back us up. We came to a halt when Zac's scent hit us stronger than before. It was the scent of his blood and I heard Leah whimper.

Im such an idiot. Why didn't I go after him?! She was ranting in her head.

Leah calm down, you did the right thing coming to get me but you need to stay focused. What is he feeling? Can you feel anything? I asked her. Trying to hide my own panic. I knew Nessie could smell the blood next to me, more so than Leah and I probably could and I could feel her own panic along with Leah's tripling the strength of mine; but I had to stay strong. This was my son and I would bring him back home.

"I thought they wanted Matthew not Zachary. Why would they take him? Did they think Matthew was older? I knew this was going to happen, they're using him for a trade or something, they know he's a Cullen" I heard Nessie muttering to herself. She was going to go insane without someone to talk to.

Leah work on your connection to Zac. I need to speak to Nessie before she breaks down. Kayleigh, Jason and Tyler follow that scent. I ordered the pack. I phased back, not caring for the wolves around me. It wasn't the time to be modest. I quickly hugged Nessie to my chest, hiding the best I could whilst I comforted her.

"It's going to be ok. They must know he's related to him" I told her as she sighed into my chest. I knew it was a bad idea to bring her. She would have been better staying behind where her family could comfort her whilst I brought our son home.

"We need to stay strong" she said shakily, her voice gaining composure. "Im hindering your rescue. Go Jake." She ordered me and pushed me away from her. I looked at her, scared for a moment, she was trying to be strong, there was a flicker of weakness but she was ok now at least at the moment. "Im sorry for my moment of weakness Jacob but we need to be strong to get him back. Let's go. Im fine I promise" she assured me before stroking my cheek and pushing me away from her further so I could phase. I took in her facial expression of determination and mirrored it on my own face.

There was a howl and I knew I had to phase.

I did so to see what was going on. The scent with Zac was familiar.

Its Emmett and Rose. Leah informed me. I let out a sigh of relief. They looped back to the house; Zac's scent is with them. She told me as she bounded back to the house. I nudged Nessie in the direction of the house.

"No im coming with you, im ok I promise" she told me strongly, she was being brave but she wasn't understanding what I meant.

Be right there. I told Leah and phased to talk to Nessie.

"What's going on? Go!" she shouted, I took her hand and started walking towards the house as I explained.

"it's ok, it's not what we thought, Zac is with Rose and Em they took him back to the house, can you get me some shorts please?" I asked and stepped away from my wife to phase she nodded, her concerned face suddenly relaxed as she ran ahead to the house. She came back moments later with clothes; I slipped them on and followed her into the living room.

"Zac keep still I need to look, I think it's broken" Carlisle said to Zac who was sitting on the coffee table. Leah next to him holding his hand and frowning at his face. It was bloody and black.

"What the hell happened?" I asked him.

"I went running" he tried to say but flinched. I turned to Edward.

"He went running to clear his head. He and Leah had a conversation about their future and he wanted to think, he regrets doing it, he knows he was an idiot and he's sorry. He ran into something hard, luckily it was Emmett's chest; he bounced off him into a tree, knocking him out. Emmett and Rose had just been hunting and were on their way back, Emmett picked him up and brought him home." Since when did Vampires just run into things? Couldn't Emmett grab Zac before he collided with him? "Emmett was distracted with Rose and Zac was crying as he was running, they were all going very fast, it was just an unfortunate accident." Edward answered my thoughts with a grimace. I narrowed my eyes at Emmett, he smiled apologetically.

"You were crying?" I heard Leah whisper. Zac shrugged, not wanting to speak or look at her. I frowned, what was going on between them?

"What's the diagnosis doc?" I asked Carlisle.

"Concussion that's gone already and a broken nose that's healing as we speak, luckily I had time to set it right first. He just needs to wash up." He told us. Renesmee walked over to him and stroked his face.

"Its just mud mom, im fine."

"Its blood Zachary, I can smell it" she narrowed her eyes at him.

"right… vampire." He said and rolled his eyes. "Mom im fine I promise. Im so sorry for running off" he said to her, I could see he was sincerely sorry, Nessie just melted.

"Oh honey" she whispered and pulled Zac into a hug. He let out a soft sigh and dropped Leah's hand to hug his mother. He closed his eyes as he rested his head on her shoulder. I noticed then, the few vampires that had arrived to fight for Matthew had left the room, the house even. Although they were all vegetarian, I had a feeling they weren't so good with flowing human blood. I had to remember that, I had 2 human children, 5 if you included my boys. If a vampire that didn't have the surname 'Cullen' went near them id kill them.

"Momma I'm sorry for making you worry more, I didn't mean to" Zac told Renesmee.

"Sunshine don't worry about it, I'm your mom I'm meant to worry." She told him.

"But I didn't mean to add extra on" he told her sincerely.

"There isn't any time I'm not worrying about you Zachary, this was no different" she tried to assure him.

"Im still sorry" he whispered. She kissed his forehead.

"This once, I forgive you" she smiled at him. "You were confused and you needed time to think, I understand that, this is new to you. It was new to me at one point to, I have been there" she said with a smile, motioning to Leah who was perched beside him.

"I think you two need to talk and Zac don't run away from her, she understands you better than yourself and even me and your dad." She told him with another kiss and stood up. He took a peak at Leah next to him; her face was a wary mask.

"Ok but maybe it would be best if we stayed in the house" he told her, she nodded and held her hand out. He stood up with her, towering over her as they walked out.

My youngest boy wasn't a kid anymore. I looked at Nessie, she noticed this too as he walked out with his imprint hand in hand. I managed to catch Nessie's attention and nodded my head towards the door. She frowned and I held my hand out. She walked over and took it.

Im not leaving the house.

"Just come with me" I told her, I wanted her out this house; I wanted to talk to her, properly. She shook her head.

I can't leave our babies.

"They'll be fine for 10 minutes, Nessie we need to get out of this house for a while; they'll be fine they have their entire family looking after them." Bella appeared behind Nessie and she kissed her daughters hair at the back before wrapping her arms around her from behind and whispering in her ear.

"I'd never let anyone touch my grandchildren, go and get some air, you need it." She told her. I saw Nessie's eyes dart to Eddie across the room, he nodded towards her as if in agreement with Bella and me. She sighed and visibly relaxed before stepping out of her mother's grasp and into mine.

"Ok" she finally said and I smiled before leading her to the door. I gave Bella a brief wave before taking Nessie's hand and leading her out.

"Where are we going?" she asked.

"Not far" I informed her and started running, staying in my human form, it wasn't far enough to change. We reached the beach in moments and I led her further down, she knew where I was taking her but she didn't say anything until we got there. I dropped her hand and sat down. I then opened my arms, giving her the invitation to sit in my lap. She sighed gently before sitting across me and resting her head on my shoulder. I wrapped my arms around her, holding her tiny body to mine.

"This last few months has all been blasts from our past hasn't it?" she laughed.

"Yes just a bit" I said, we hadn't been to our bench on La Push beach in a long time.

"Sometimes I wish we were still there" she whispered.

"I know, I wish we had more time together before we had children too sometimes" I admitted to her. "But then you're an amazing mother and every day I see you with our children and I can't bring myself to regret having any of them. You're so amazing with them" I whispered to her. I saw her smile.

"Thank you"

"For the compliment? Anytime" I laughed and kissed her forehead.

"No" she said snuggling closer to me. "For giving me our 6 children" she whispered back. I didn't know why we were whispering. I smiled; my lips still at her hair.

"Im sure it takes two but you're welcome" I said my body shaking slightly with a laugh. It was a strange thing to thank me for.

"I love you" she whispered quieter, her mouth now at my collar bone.

"As I love you, forever and always" I whispered into her neck, just under her ear. I held her tighter to me and she shifted to hide her face completely in my neck. She started sobbing and my body went stiff. Why was she crying after I just told her I loved her?

"Baby?" I asked her in question as i tried to pull her away from my chest to see her face, her vampire strength kept me from doing so.

"Renesmee" I whispered painfully, she finally let me pull away. I stroked her bronze curls from her face and kissed each cheek that was flooded with tears.

"Why are you crying?" she didn't answer me, I realised then that she was breaking down, the past few months she had been so strong, she'd been exactly who she needed to be, the supportive sister to Chantelle, the loving Aunt to Matthew and the protective mother to her children but it took its toll. I knew this was coming I just didn't know when, I thought she'd get through it all without opening up to me, I thought maybe she didn't need me. I was wrong.

I held her to me, stroking her hair from her face and kissing her tears away until she got her sobs under control. When she finally stopped she managed to sigh and rested her forehead on my shoulder, I continued making comforting circles on her back. She felt so childlike the way she was clinging to me. It was almost like it was 20 years ago and she needed comforting from a nightmare. Her nightmares used to wake me, even if I was at my own house, long before I could tolerate the vampire stench longer than an hour, I would be jolted awake for some unknown reason and id feel her fear, often rushing to the Cullen's at the early hours of the morning to protect her from whatever had her so scared. A physical threat I could deal with, I'd fight anyone off that wished to harm her but nightmares were much harder to deal with, I couldn't protect her from them. I could only hug her and let her know I was here. Nightmares were the least of Nessie's problems now.

Im sorry. She placed in my head.

"Don't" I scolded her, she wasn't allowed to say sorry to me, nothing she would ever do was worthy of an apology.

It's just…

"I know Renesmee, I know" I whispered kissing just below her ear. I said her full name, just so she realised I fully understood the seriousness of this. She sighed and pulled up to look at me. Her chocolate eyes bore into mine.

Thank you.

I shook my head. Before giving her a beaming smile I knew she wouldn't be able to resist.

"You are my other half, I need you like you need me, and honestly it's nice to know that I'm not the only one that wants to break down into tears over all this. We need moments like this, alone, just the two of us to get through what we've got ourselves into" I said. She frowned.

I didn't get us into this. She thought, referring to the Volturi.

"I was talking about our six kids" I grinned at her, stroking her side under her t shirt. She laughed.

Oh.

I smiled at her slightly red face, she was still beautiful but it was evident she had been crying. I stroked her cheeks with my finger, keeping my other arm tightly around her waist. Her stomach was centimetres from my own.

I love you.

"I love you too" I whispered, I never got tired of saying that or hearing it. I tugged her forward, her stomach against mine now and her face millimetres from mine, I dropped my eyes to her lips and she followed my lead closing the gap. Our lips touched and we started the very familiar dance. Her tiny hands exploring my hair as I gripped her waist under her top; moaning slightly in her mouth as she tried to get closer to me.

I reluctantly pushed her from me.

"Now is not the time or the place for that." I laughed at her, resting my forehead against hers. She pouted, looking up at me through her long eyelashes. I narrowed my eyes at her; I knew what she was trying to do. I kissed her pouting lip before shifting her further up my knee and away from my chest.

I feel like im being rejected. She said, her pout deepening. I just grinned at her.

"Im not rejecting you, im saving you of your dignity, you are mine and mine alone I don't like the idea of someone walking down the beach and seeing you in ways only I'm allowed to see you." I told her stroking her skin under my finger tips.

"Stop doing that then" she groaned and stepped off my lap. I grinned wider at her and stood up opposite her.

"Let's go home" I said grabbing her hand.

We haven't had sex in 2 months.

"Oh I know" I laughed and squeezed her hand. "You didn't seem to want to." I told her.

"I wanted to then and you rejected me like I was a teenager before we got married" she said, by her voice I knew she was pouting.

"Well if you're willing to leave our kids a bit longer than 10 minutes I can sort something out" I told her with another squeeze.

"I can, as long as they're with my family and I get to be with you"

"Then I'll see what I can do" I told her with surety. Pulling her into my side and I wrapped my arms around her to tuck her under my arm. She wrapped her arms around my waist as we walked back to the house.

Next update will be maybe Tuesday or Wednesday next week. Things really start next chapter, first sight of the Volturi.