My Regret

Chapter 14

Coming face to face with someone from your past can be pleasant or the very thing you never wanted to happen. It all depends on how the last meeting took place.

Eren stood there in shock. The man that had hurt him four years ago was now right in front of him. A swirl of emotions ran through his body like a plague. His eyes narrowed several minutes later. "What are you doing here." His words were laced with venom.

Levi couldn't argue with the tone the brunet had taken with him. He created so many problems for the boy who only loved him; while he turned his back on this very person. "I came here to see my children."

Green eyes widened. "W-What?"

"You heard me, Eren. I came here to see my two son's."

The young man's hands clenched into fists. "There is no way in hell that I would allow you to see Yami and Sebastian after what you did."

"Eren, I know far too well you absolutely hate my entire being, the very thought of talking with me must disgust you. But, I'm not here for the sole intention of starting a verbal fight with you. I'm here to see my two son's and take the responsibilities like a father should."

"Oh, so now you are? How do I not know you'll only get them close to you then run away like a coward again?"

"I know you have all these doubts that I'll let these children build affection on my end only to leave them once more. I assure you, it will not happen again. I know you don't believe a damn word that I'm saying to you, but perhaps my actions will. I can show you that I will take on the responsibilities by choice. There is no other person that persuaded me to do this. I chose this on my own. Let me show you that I can be the best father I am capable of being."

Eren simply stared at the raven in front of him. He knew that there was a possibility that Levi was just talking out of his ass, but there was also something there that seemed sincere. Then again, Levi was known to be one manipulative bastard. He stepped to the side, letting the raven enter his home. "Get in. I don't want anyone to listen to this conversation."

Nodding his head, the older man stepped inside and followed Eren to the living room. He took a seat on the couch across from the young man.

"Why did you suddenly decide to appear now?"

"I wanted to take-"

Eren slammed his hands down on the coffee table. "And don't give me that father bullshit! I want to fucking hear the truth from you! I know someone or something must have impacted your answer! There is no way that a heartless bastard like yourself would choose this willingly."

"I realized there was something more precious in my life other than that fucking company that I put on a pedestal for so many years."

"Now you fucking realize it?! It only took me leaving you and four years of not seeing your children to make that shit get through your damn senses?!"

"Eren, calm down. You're going to let your anger take over again." He had seen that anger pointed once when Eren's father tried contacting him again after so long, and he never, so long as lived, wanted that uncontrollable fire in those green eyes to be pointed at him.

"And what if I fucking want it to take over?! That way you can know the damn pain I suffered because of your selfish ass!"

Before Levi could respond, Bertholt walked into the room after announcing he was back. His brown eyes narrowed. "What are you doing here? You have no business here."

The raven sighed. "Quite the contrary. I do have some rather important things to take care of."

"Bullshit. You're just here to hurt Eren again."

"That was not my intention coming here. I came here because I wanted to meet my children."

Bertolt immediately moved over to the raven and towered over him, "They are not your children."

Levi stood up, for once being able to be eye to eye with the brute. "Like you can even say that to me. Whether you or anyone likes it or not, I am the biological father. Or are you dishearted because they knew you weren't their real father? Did you like playing daddy too much?"

The tall brunet's hands clenched into fists. "At least I was there."

"Yes, I am fully aware I was absent from their lives for my own selfish reasons, and I won't hide from that fact. But, I will be there from now on."

"And how do you plan to do that? Eren can legally not let you see them. He's the only parent that took care of them."

"There was never any kind of documents signed. Because of that, I am allowed to see them whenever as their biological father." He narrowed his eyes. "Your time playing daddy is over. Those children have never recognized you as their father."

Eren watched silently from his spot on the couch, he had calmed down some, but the two men who were glaring daggers at each other were not. The brunet knew if he wasn't there, the two would have already done some physical damage to the other, Levi more so to Bertolt. The sound of feet running to the living room had him snapping out of his thoughts and turning back towards the source.

Sebastian laughed as he dragged his twin inside, the small brunet lagging behind some. "Come on, Yami! Hurry it up!"

He panted trying to catch up with his brother. "I'm coming, Sebby!"

Both boys stopped at the couch where Eren was sitting, their attention however, was turned to the tall raven who was glaring at Bertolt.

The small raven turned to Eren, all the while pointing at Levi. "Papa, who's that?"

Levi turned away from the brute as soon as he heard a small child speak.

Eren took a deep breath before scooping up both of his son's. "Yami, Sebastian, that person right there. That's your real daddy."

It was Sebastian who reacted first while his twin simply kept staring at their father. He slid off his papa's lap and slowly walked over to Levi. He watched as the raven knelt down and smiled softly at him. "You're my daddy, right?"

The older man nodded. "That is correct, Sebastian."

"Ah, you even know my name!"

"I do."

Levi watched silently as his son carefully observed himself, seeing if their looks matched. "We have the same colored hair, eyes and skin color."

"We do."

The little boy opened his arms. "Hug?"

Bringing the boy immediately into his arms, Levi stroked the small raven's back.

Sebastian placed his head on his father's shoulder. This felt right to him, not like when Bertolt hugged him. There was something there that the tall brunet didn't quite posses. Was it the feeling of familiarity? Or was it something else that the little boy didn't know of.

Yami silently watched from Eren's lap as his older brother hugged their other father. He too wanted to go over and embrace the man who was their real father, but thought that he would be rejected because of how different he was. His father and brother often told him there was nothing wrong with having two different colored eyes, it made him look unique is all, and that it was more than alright to be that.

The raven felt a pair of eyes in him and his son, grey meeting two different colored orbs. He had noticed that his other son had different colored eyes in the photo that he was shown when he read Mikasa's letters. He absolutely loved Yami's eyes, they held a part of him and Eren more visibly than Sebastian's. He extended an arm out, a silent way of asking for a hug from his other son.

The small brunet waited, staring at the extended arm for a moment before getting up from Eren's lap and slowly making his way towards Levi. Standing in front of his father for a moment, he simply stared at him. This was the person whom he was also very desperate to meet. He didn't voice it as often as his older twin did, but he also wanted this moment to appear within his young life time. He wanted his real father around, not the person whom loved his papa and who was not really related to him.

Hesitantly, he embraced the man, feeling the warm arm wrap around him. This felt right to him. This man was someone who he felt would take care of him and love him despite looking the way that he did.

Levi smiled as he held both his son's in his arms, feeling completely content with himself knowing he had gotten this moment just like he wanted.

Eren silently watched from his place on the couch, staring at his two son's hold their father. He had mixed feelings about this moment right now. He wasn't sure whether this would prove to be good for Yami and Sebastian, but thought about how happy they looked right now. He had never seen these two like this not with him, his mother, Mikasa or Bertolt. Was it supposed to be this way for his kids? Would having Levi constantly around them prove to be good? Or would he simply leave them like he did to Eren? The man looked sincere enough when he spoke about only wanting to be there for his children, but words were nothing compared to the actions that would be taken.

The brunet motioned for Bertolt to follow him to the kitchen and leave Yami and Sebastian with their father. This was an important moment for them, and it should just be the three of them for now.

"Are you seriously going to let that man back in your life?"

Eren had opted to going outside to the backyard to speak with Bertolt. The taller brunet obviously had something to say about this entire matter. "Look, Bert, he's not going to be back in my life. I'm introducing him to the life of Yami and Sebastian. He is the biological father whether you or I like it or not."

The brunet's eyes narrowed. "Are you siding with that man, Eren? Is that what I'm hearing?"

"In this situation, yes."

Bertolt shook his head as he took several steps away from his lover, sighing quietly to himself as he did so.

Eren rubbed his temples. "Normally, I would want absolutely nothing to do with Levi, but he does have the right to see his children. There is nothing there that can actually prevent him from seeing them. I want to tell him off and not be apart of their lives, I'm terrified he'll merely make them attached to his person and then leave. But, I could see he was sincere, there should be nothing wrong with trying, right?"

"I guess, Eren." He walked back and took the boy's hands into his own. "But I can't trust Levi. He might try to take you from me. I don't want you to get hurt like that again."

"Don't worry, Bertolt." Eren placed a hand on his lover's cheek, stroking the skin with his thumb. "I promise you that won't happen."

Mikasa leaned against the counter as she listened to the entire conversation through the open window in the kitchen. She felt bad for eavesdropping into such a conversation, but she wanted to know the outcome. Eren would certainly never tell her what they were talking about. She could tell right away why Bertolt was acting so possessive in the first place.

He was terrified that Levi would take Eren away from him. Which was understandable; they were in a long-term relationship beforehand. But there was also one thing that she couldn't help but notice. There was a brief flash of fear in her brother's luminescent green eyes.

One would think it was because of the situation, and how Bertolt was normally calm and not one to get angry like that often, she however, could completely disagree with that statement. There were several moments beforehand that she noticed the exact same reaction coming from Eren. Was there something going on in their relationship these two brunet's were hiding? Just what kind of fights did they have for her brother to feel fear?

She knew that trying to talk to Eren about this would lead nowhere, why? Her brother was a stubborn one. Perhaps with more close observation, she could figure this out on her own. For now, all she could do and wait. Her cards had to be played carefully.

Levi sat with his children outside in Eren's backyard several days later. The raven had been introducing Sebastian to the game of chess; the boy was surprisingly good at it. His twin, however, couldn't understand it no matter how many times his father explained it. Levi told him not to worry, not everyone understood chess or liked it. Yami more so opted to playing checkers. It was a more simple alternative, one the small brunet loved.

Eren still didn't trust Levi completely alone with their children at the moment, that and he was afraid if Bertolt and Levi got a hold of each other, another fist fight would break out. Mikasa being the one that pulled them apart first. Thus, Bertolt could not be around when the raven came to visit their children.

"Aw, man. Daddy won again." Sebastian pouted as he saw his father makes his last move.

Levi chuckled. "Sorry, Sebastian. This is a game of intelligence after all. Every move counts."

Yami laughed lightly as he clutched onto the brown bear Levi had gotten him days prior. "Daddy's right, Sebby. Now you know why I don't like this game."

"I can't understand checkers. It's too simple. Why do you like it?"

"Its more fun, Sebby, even thought Daddy still beats me."

"Nuh-uh. Chess is fun."

"No, checkers."

"Chess!"

"Checkers!"

"Boys." The man sighed, patting both their heads. "Both games are entertaining. There's no need to fight over which is better."

Both the small raven and brunet turned to their father. Sebastian poked Levi's cheek. "Then which of the two is your favorite, daddy?"

"Neither actually. I have another game that is my all time favorite."

The small raven blinked. "What's that?"

"Cards against humanity."

Yami titled his head to the side. "What game is that?"

"It's a...lovely card game."

"Can we play that game?"

"Not until you're much, much older."

Sebastian pouted. "Why can't we play it now?"

"Your papa would kill me."

"Damn right I will." Eren hollered from his spot on the patio table.

Levi rubbed the back of his head, while the twins giggled.

The brunet turned back to his book, he did not however continue reading it. These were days that he had wished for when he was first expecting their children. He no longer envisioned himself sitting on the raven's lap as they watched their children play. Sitting in the living room as they watched marathons of their children's favorite cartoons, nor opening up gifts on Christmas and celebrating Levi's birthday together. It seemed that the part of himself that wanted all that was gone now. He was more so content with knowing Levi would be a caring father and not after him and making him suffer like he thought he would be going through should this day have ever come.

Had he really changed so much for the better if he no longer thought that?

"Bertolt, calm down."

"I won't fucking calm down, Eren! That bastard touched you!"

"He was only preventing me from falling down the stairs, Bert. Nothing happened beyond that!"

"Are you sure? Because it looked like you were a teenager meeting the love of their life when he caught you."

"It was either that or me getting hurt, which do you prefer?"

The tall brunet's eyes narrowed. "I would rather you have gotten hurt. No one is allowed to touch you in that manner other than me."

Eren's green eyes widened for a moment. He couldn't believe what his lover had just told him. "I'm not a god damn object, Bert. I'm my own person." His voice was laced with anger.

Bertolt slapped him across the face as soon as Eren said that. He watched as he boy held his stinging cheek, tears glistening in his eyes and threatening to fall. He smiled softly as he wrapped his arms around his lover. "See? You made me hit you as punishment because of what you said. I have told you so many times that you belong to me and no one else. Do you understand now, Eren? You belong to me and I have no intention whatsoever to let you go." He chuckled as he traced Eren's ring finger. "I want to be able to properly call you mine when we get married. I want to see a ring on this finger someday." That was all he wanted. To be able to claim this beautiful brunet as his own in matrimony. To literally be Sebastian and Yami's father. And to be able to take away these precious people away from that bastard Levi.

Mikasa quietly walked into the house as she heard Eren and Bertolt having a rather heated argument. She silently made her way to her brother's bedroom and watched through the small opening in the door.

Her onyx eyes widened as he saw Bertolt hit her brother. She stood there in shock as Eren completely trembled with fear after being hit by him.

This bastard fucking crossed the line now.

End of chapter 14

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