Hi guys, I'm back :-) It's 7 am in germany I just arrived back home and I have a horrible jetlag, but I wanted to post this chapter today. I have three more chapters ready, so I will post the next chapter on Wednesday... This chapter turned out a lot different than I thought it would when I started to write it... not sure what else to say without giving a spoiler... so you better see for yourself...
While writing this and the chapters to follow I listened to Birdy - Wings. You can find the music video on the pinterest board for this story, the link is on my bio page...
All my other stories will be updated in the next couple of days :-)
Ana
Today a dream I have dreamed since I was 15 years old is finally going to come true. Today I have a date with Christian. I have no idea what he has planned, so far all I know is that I can dress casually. I tried to get more information out of Christian, but if he is keeping a secret there is no way to get it out of him unless he wants to share it. He knows how curious I am, so to me this is torture, but to be honest, he could take me for dinner at McDonald's and it would still be the best night of my life.
Who would have thought that not even three weeks after what happened between us we would go on a date. I know we have much to talk about, but after everything I know now, I am not as mad and hurt as I was before. Just thinking about what Elena did to him, when he was just a boy... and he thinks he is not worthy of love. No, I don't want to think about Elena now. Today is about Christian and I; I am not going to allow Elena Lincoln to ruin this for us.
"I think you are looking mighty fine, Miss Steele" I hear Christian's voice and jump a little.
"You startled me!" I squeak and throw my scarf at him, though when I see him leaning against the door frame wearing nothing but a his pants which are hanging from his hips in a holy sexy way I feel my face heat up.
"Seeing something you like?"I chuckles and I glare at him. Two can play at that game. Since I am fresh from a shower only wrapped in a towel I step closer to him and drop the towel to the floor.
"I don't know... what about you?" I ask as innocently as I can and his eyes darken dangerously while he looks at me.
"Damn it, Ana. I am not a saint... meet me in 20 minutes downstairs" I says huskily and leaves quickly.
Ana 1 | Christian 0
I smirk at the thought and hurry into the walk in closet. I am not planing on anything to happen between Christian and I tonight, but let's be honest. We are two adults who are not only emotionally, but also physically attracted to the other and if it happens, I don't want to wear my favorite panties with smiling cherries. So, I look through the clothes I have here and pick a red lace bra and matching panties while making a mental note that I need to buy some sexy lingerie. I never needed lingerie before, but if things between Christian and I go as I hope, I don't want to scare him away with my preference for silly looking panties.
After putting the bra and panties on I look through my clothes and decide to wear dark jeans, a light pink satin shirt with a grey cardigan and dark rose-colored peeptoes. I quickly brush my hair until it falls in shining waves all the way down to my hips. I use a little mascara and a lip balm with pearl shimmer and with that I am ready.
I find Christian with Elliot sitting at the breakfast bar and they both turn when the hear the clicking of my heels.
"Well fuck, I should have asked you on a date." Elliot says as soon as he lays eyes on me and I laugh.
"Why? Do you enjoy to get rejected?" I ask and he pouts.
"Hey I am a pretty decent guy, don't tell me I am not your type."
"Sorry, Elliot, but you are not." I giggle.
"Well, then do tell, what is your type?"
"A couple of years older than I am, about 6'2, dark hair, amazing gray eyes ... wait hey... I think that fits the hot guy next to you" I tease and he laughs while Christian has the biggest goofy grin on his face.
"Okay you two love birds, get out. I have my own hot date coming over tonight" he winks at us and Christian gets up.
"Ready?" he asks and when I nod he wraps one arm around my waist and leads me to the elevator.
"Wait where is Taylor and why are we going up instead of down?" I ask once we are in the elevator.
"Taylor is not coming with us, it's just us tonight." he says and while I am happy to hear that I am a little worried, too.
"Is it safe... with Elena on the run?"
"Don't worry, Taylor approved of my plans for tonight. Elena will never find us where we are going." he says confidently and I relax.
We arrive on the roof and I can't hide my excitement. We are going to fly in Charlie Tango. I love to fly with Christian, as a kid I didn't enjoy flying much, but with Christian I feel safe.
"I thought you would like this form of transportation" he smirks and helps me into the helicopter before buckling me in.
I can't help it, as soon as we are in the air I stare outside the windows in awe.
"Next time I take you for dinner at the Space Needle." Christian's voice comes over the headphones and I beam at him.
"Or you could take me soaring."
"In the spring when the weather is better... or I carry you off to a place where the weather is good enough to soar in the winter. Maybe that will be my christmas present for you."
"Oh my god, don't remind me. It's less than four weeks until christmas and I have no idea what to buy for you, my parents or your parents."
"You are my present, Ana."
After 45 minutes of flying in Charlie Tango Christian lands the helicopter on what looks like a field of wild flowers.
"Wait is that Gail?" I ask and he winks at me and gets out before helping me out. Next to Gail is Stephan, Christian's pilot.
"Is everything ready, Gail?" Christian asks her and shakes hands with Stephan after she nods.
"Here are the car keys, Sir."
"Thanks Stephan. Fly safely. Gail, we will be back around noon tomorrow." Christian says and my mouth pops open.
"Wait... we are staying over night?" I ask and he must see my confusion.
"Yes, but don't worry. There are two bedrooms where we are going and Gail packed an overnight bag for you. Now come, I don't want you to get cold."
Christian leads me to the nearby road where Gail's car is parked and he opens the door to the passenger side for me. After five more minutes of driving in what feels like the middle of nowhere he finally stops in front of a beautiful cabin.
"It belongs to John. Under any other circumstances I would have taken you to a beautiful restaurant before going to the movies, but it's not safe with Elena around. She doesn't know the place. John told me about it just this morning when I told him about our date. Do you want to come in?"
"Yes, it's amazing." he takes my hand and leads me into the cabin. I momentarily love the interior. It's cozy and beautiful with a huge fireplace that is already lit.
"Are you hungry?" he asks and somehow he makes this simple question sound dirty.
"Very hungry" I answer in the same tone and he gives me a lopsided smile and leads me into the kitchen were a romantic candlelight dinner is waiting for us.
As I am eating I notice that he is watching me. "What?" I ask with a smile and he shakes his head.
"Nothing, I am just enjoying to see you eat." he grins. "I remember there were times when getting you to eat was a pain in the ass."
"You mean as a kid when I was in my picky food phase?"
He nods. "Drove me crazy, you were such a tiny little thing already and you would eat like a little bird."
"Do you want to know why I started to eat normal again, even things I didn't like?" I ask and he nods as he takes a sip of his wine.
"It was because of you. You always looked so happy when I would eat something and I always wanted you to be happy."
"You were always sure, weren't you... that we belong together?" he asks a little shy.
"I guess... it is just always when I pictured my future as a child I just knew that you would be a big part of it. You know people come and go, that is just the way it is, but there was never one single second where I thought that you wouldn't be there. I just can't picture my life without you... and that is why I have to ask you to promise me something."
"What do you want me to promise?"
"If at any point we figure out that we are not made for each other, promise me that we will still be friends. I am afraid that if we try and it doesn't work ... that nothing is ever going to be the same."
He reaches over the table and takes my hand in his sending a jolt of electricity through my veins. "You feel that too, don't you?" he asks and I nod. "I promise you, Ana. No matter what happens we will always be friends... but I know we can be so much more. And of course I never fail in the things I really want and I never wanted anything in my life as much as I want you."
"I guess than we have to make us work... I wouldn't want to be responsable for the first failure in your life."
"Are you mocking me? You wound me!" he says in mock horror and I giggle.
"I wouldn't dare, Mr. Grey."
After dinner we lounging on the thick carpet in front of the fireplace, just talking and enjoying each others company.
"Do you remember the summer when your grandpa took us all camping?" I ask still chuckling when I think back to that summer.
"Oh my god, you mean the summer after which my grandpa swore he would never take all of us together anywhere ever again?" he asks amused.
"Yes, poor Mia, she was traumatized." I mutter and burst out laughing.
"You wouldn't laugh if your and my dad would have given you a two hour lecture about how taking a piss anywhere else than in the bathroom is not acceptable." he pouts.
"Come on, you have to admit that what Cooper, Elliot and you did was exceptionally stupid. I mean who in his right mind would climb on a tree to pee on a wasp hive." I giggle. " And poor Mia, she walked right under the tree and not only got peed on, but also bitten by three wasps."
"I swear, we didn't saw her walking under the tree." he murmurs embarrassed and the next second we both burst out laughing.
"I thought your grandpa would kill all three of you. He was so pissed." I giggle and look at Christian. We just look at each other and he gently pushes my hair behind my ear.
"Dance with me?" he asks softly.
"Now?"
"Yes, come on, let's make the best out of this" he says gets up and pulls me to my feet. In the background Norah Jones' Come Away With Me is playing on his Ipod and it's just perfect. Just us together, with no one watching us and no Elena who could come in and ruin this special time for us.
I look into his eyes I get lost in depths of those beautiful gray orbs and I just know that there is no way we are going to sleep in separate rooms tonight. Christian twirls me around one time and when I am back in his arms I can resist any longer and reach up until our lips touch. And it's like an explosion of passion between us, Christian pushes me against the wall pinning me against it with his body and I fist my fingers in his silky hair.
His lips glide down from the corner of my mouth to my jaw line and further down my throat until he kisses the same way up again and looks me deep in the eyes.
"Are you sure you want this? We can wait... you don't have to do this, Ana." he asks anxiety evident in his voice.
"I want you" I whisper against his lips and he sucks in a sharp breath before his lips are on mine again. While kissing him I start to pull his shirt up until he lifts his arms and I take it off. My hands glide over his muscular chest, but when I feel him stiffen a little I stop.
"I don't have to touch your chest." I say and look into his beautiful eyes. I have never touched his bare chest only over clothes, so if this is too much for him I won't do it.
But he takes my hand in his an places it over his heart. "I'm all yours, Ana. Touch me, I need to feel you" his voice sounds hoarse, but if this is what he needs I won't stop. So I lean a little forward and while my hands glide over his back I kiss his chest, kissing every scar that the pimp left on him as if this alone could make them go away.
His breathing is becoming more audible and when I look up at him he is looking at me with awe and I can see tears gleaming in his eyes. So I straighten up and lift my arms when he grabs the hem of my shirt. He takes it off and buries his face in my cleavage and a soft moan escapes me when his tongue glides over my breasts.
"Yes baby, let me hear you" I murmurs and unclasps my bra with one hand before sliding the straps down my shoulders until the bra falls to the floor and he cups my breasts in his large hands.
"You were made for me, Ana. Your breasts fit my hands perfectly" he says as he squeezes them gently, sending a wave of heat through my body as he leans down to suck on one nipple and rolling the other between his index finger and thumb.
A while later I find myself on the carpet with Christian kissing my belly, as his tongue dips into my navel I moan and arch my back. He opens the button and zipper of my jeans and I lift my hips so he can take my jeans and panties off in one swift move.
"Fuck, you are so beautiful, Ana" he says in awe and I smile shyly.
"I want to see you too" I tell him and he smirks.
"Well, Miss Steele... who am I to deny you what you want" he chuckles gets up and as his pants hit the floor so does my jaw. Wow... I can't believe that that was inside of me. He is huge.
"It won't hurt. I promise you, I will never hurt you again" he says with this uncanny ability to answer my thoughts.
Back on the floor Christian kisses my belly again going south and pushing my thighs further apart he kisses the insides before he runs his nose along my folds and inhales deeply. Shit, I am sure my face is flame right now and he grins looking up at me.
"You smell delicious, I think I need to taste you." and before I can even answer his head lowers between my legs again and I feel his tongue on me there... I decide being embarrassed at this point is just stupid and enjoy what he is doing to me.
"Mmmh... so wet" Christian murmurs as he pushes one finger inside me and I moan. "Touch yourself Ana, play with your nipples" he orders and I do, squeezing and pulling my nipples. Oh shit, I am going to come.
"Christian... please"
"What do you want, Ana. Tell me"
"You, I want to come feeling you inside me" I cry out as he gently blows against my swollen clit.
"With pleasure, Miss Steele" he smirks and crawls on top of me so he is resting between my legs.
"You are sure you want this, baby?" he asks and I want to roll my eyes at him.
"Yes, please!" I beg, at this point I would do anything to feel him inside me and the smug bastard knows it as he is grinning down at me like an idiot. For a second I am tempted to give him a slap on the back of the head, but he chooses this moment to thrust into me.
"Fuuuuuck" I cry out and Christian groans pressing his forehead against mine.
"Oh fuck... you are so tight, baby" he growls against my lips.
"Maybe that's just because you are so big" I gasp as he starts to move and I feel him smirk against my neck.
"Are you complaining?" he grunts, but I can tell that he is amused.
"Oh hell no!" I get out between two long drawn moans and wrap my legs around him.
"That's good, because I am just getting started" and with that he really starts to move, thrusting deep and hard inside me... it's heaven ... it's sweet torture and I feel myself getting close.
"Christian I ... I ..."
"I feel it, baby. Your pussy is clenching around me... gripping me like a fist. Fight it, Ana don't come until I tell you to."
What? I thought the goal of the exercise was to come? How am I supposed to hold it back?
"I can't ... oh god... please Christian ... I can't" I mewl and he peppers soft kisses to my lips.
"You can... I want to make this last, baby. Focus, you can do this" he whispers against my lips before he kisses me feverishly and I try to fight my orgasm, I don't want it to be over just yet, but I don't know how long I can keep my orgasm at bay.
And just when I think I can't take this any longer without reaching my orgasm I hear his voice.
"Come for me, Ana. Come now!" and that's my undoing and I spiral into a mindblowing orgasm.
"Oh fuck ... oh fuuuuck Annnnnnnaaaaa!" Christian cries out as he joins me and we both hold onto each over enjoying the feeling and being this close to the other.
"You are grinning like a loon" I whisper fully aware that I have the same ridiculous grin on my face.
"I am happy. For the first time in my life I am just blissfully happy. I love you, Ana."
"And I love you" I whisper and rest my head on his chest. This moment is pure perfection. I know most people would think I should have waited, make him grovel more. But what's the point. With all the chaos going on in our lives right now, I just want to enjoy this moment of pure happiness and perfection.
"I am thirsty, do you want a drink?" he ask me and I shake my head and shift a little so he can get up. As he walks towards the small kitchen I can't help but watch his perfect body.
"I know that you are staring" he says amused without turning around.
"Just enjoying the view, handsome" I giggle and watch him opening the fridge.
"Hey, John left us a present, he must have given the bottle to Gail when she went to get the keys from him." he says as he gets a bottle of white wine and opens it.
"That's nice of him, but no thanks. I'm good." I watch him pour himself a glass and down it in one large gulp before pouring another one and returning to me.
We cuddle in front of the fireplace and just talk while he drinks his wine. But soon I see his eyes are getting heavy.
"Tired" I whisper and he nods. "Sing for me, I want your beautiful voice to follow me into my dreams." he whispers sleepily, so I softly sing Christina Perri's A Thousand Years for him watching his beautiful eyes flutter until he is fast asleep.
"I love you, Christian Grey not just for a thousand years, but forever" I murmur and watch him sleep until I can't keep my eyes open any longer and fall asleep.
I wake up to complete darkness, because I can't breathe. My lungs are burning and as I fully wake I realize that the cabin is on fire.
"Christian, Christian wake up! Wake up, the cabin is on fire!" I yell but Christian is not waking up. I press my ear against his chest in panic, but I hear his steady heartbeat and start to shake him. He doesn't wake up. I panic... no I can't have a panic attack now... I must safe Christian.
I jump to my feet grab my cell phone and hold it between my teeth. The fire has us nearly surrounded and I can't breathe. But I somehow find the strength to pull Christian out with me. I can barely see, my head feels so dizzy and all I can think is don't faint... you have to safe Christian first... do not faint!
About twenty feet away from the cabin my legs give out and I fall next to Christian into the soft grass. I have black spots dancing in front of my eyes but I somehow manage to dial Taylor.
"Ana what is wrong?"
"Cabin... fire... help" I croaked and watch in slow motion as the phone slips from my fingers and everything turns black.
Everything feels heavy and every breath that I take hurts so much. I want to open my eyes, but it is so difficult and when I do the bright light of the room I am in is blinding me.
"Carla she is waking up" I hear the voice of my Dad and try again to open my eyes and this time it works. I blink trying to get used to the light and then I see the faces of my parents over me.
"Darling, you are awake, finally you scared us so much" my mother sobs.
"How long?" I croaked, fuck, my voice sounds so hoarse I barely recognize it.
"You've slept for almost 12 hours, darling. But don't worry, you are going to be fine"
"Christian... where... Christian?" I croak and start to cough.
"Try to rest, Annie. You need it." my Dad says and gently strokes my cheek.
"No, Christian, I want to see Christian." I beg. I need to know that he is okay.
"Later Annie, you need to rest."
"No, please..." I try to get up, but my parents gently push me back.
"You are not allowed to get up, Ana. Please darling stay in the bed." My mom begs and looks at my Dad.
"Where is Christian" I demand and my Dad looks at me.
"Annie, sweetheart you can't see Christian. He... he is dead."...