"When your dreams all fail
And the ones we hail
Are the worst of all
And the blood's run stale
I wanna hide the truth
I wanna shelter you
But with the beast inside
There's nowhere we can hide"

TRIS

I'm sitting on the train, on the way to Erudite. I'm shivering though I completely did not know why. It wasn't cold or anything. The whole vibe of the place is actually warm. I guess it just the things that are happening. It's been only hours since we found out about Marlene. I sigh.

"You alright, young lady?" I look up and see an Elderly man shadowing above me. I look at what he's wearing. Erudite. I nod at him.

"May I take a sit?" I move over and let him sit beside me. He happily accepts my offer.

"Where are you headed?" he asks in his raspy voice.

"To Erudite." I say without hesitation.

"A Dauntless going to Erudite, I see. Is it a project?" He asks. I narrow my eyes and look at him quizzically, not knowing what to say.

"I'm just on the way to seeing a friend." I say. Now, he looks at me quizzically.

"These are bad times, young lady. Better watch your back." I feel something ran down my spine that made me shiver. I didn't know what to say, but as I look to my side, the man was already gone. I didn't take it as anything paranormal, maybe he just moved to another seat, creeping some other people out. Wherever he is, I didn't find the time to look and I must say I didn't want to. As we got closer and closer to Erudite, the air was becoming more eerie, more cold. I shiver Thankfully, the train moved to a halting stop. As soon as the doors opened, I quickly ran out feeling the warm breeze of Erudite air seeping through my arms.

"Beatrice" I turn to see my brother walking towards me. There was no hug nor kisses, we just shook hands. I loop my arm in his as he walks me towards the park.

"I'm sorry for what I did the other day." he says. I just smile hoping it will clear out the fact that I was mad at him. I wasn't though. Just a little taken aback of what had happened because I didn't know that my brother was capable of doing that. I should've have expected it though. Moving into another faction changes someone, drastically even.

"How are you?" he asks. He was shaking as if something was about to happen. "I'm fine. You look nervous, what's up?" he shakes his head ignoring the question. "It's getting cold lately, do you feel it?" he says, tightening his blue coat around him. I just nod. I can sense that this wasn't related to why he wrote to me in the first place.

"I'm glad you came" he says again. I just nod. Not taking my curiosity anymore, I ask.

"So, why'd you call me here for?" He sighs and leans back on the bench.

"I heard about what happened to Marlene." he says. I raise my brow, curious on how he can be capable of knowing that. He wasn't even Dauntless. Besides, most of the Dauntless people don't know about it. How can he?

"Cara told me" Caleb says looking at my dazed face. "Apparently, Will told her the moment he saw Marlene's body. Says he wanted to tell someone as soon as he can" I guess that was plausible. If Caleb didn't bring it up, I would have told him.

"I'm sorry. I know she was your friend" Caleb says. I feel the tears forming at the back of my eyes. Was. I kept on hearing it. It didn't help that everyone was starting to see her as a past and leave her there forever.

But that's just what you have to do. I shake my head trying to distract me from thinking that thought again. I refuse to think of her as past just too sudden.

"But there's still something I need to tell you" he says. I look at him and I knew it was serious.

FOUR

"That isn't even possible, Four" Uriah shouts at me from the end of the room. We were settled inside Uriah, Will and Zeke's room. Uriah was standing by the bathroom door, I was standing opposite him by the front door and Will was sitting on his bed beside Zeke. Apparently, Uriah didn't want to talk about it if Zeke wasn't in the picture and it might look conspicuous if we didn't let Will join in. Peter was standing at the edge of the bed, just standing looking over, not talking. Nobody gave him much attention. Lucky for him.

"That's what we saw, Uriah" I tell him, calming his nerves. He was shaking by the door. I didn't know if it was because of what happened to Marlene or the situation is just clearly unnerving.

"But how can he even do that?" Uriah says, still shaking.

"I don't know" I say with a hint of defeat. He was a madman to even try to do it but the fact that he got passed anyone in Dauntless without anyone noticing was down right insane.

"Where's Tris?" Uriah whispers. I look up at Uriah with pleading eyes hoping he gets what I am saying. He shakes his head and out of frustration, he shouts and kicks the bathroom door.

"Why did you let her go, Four?" He says. Zeke stands up from the bed trying to restrain Uriah from doing anything drastic. I knew he was in a panic attack but if I totally get annoyed with Uriah, I might just punch him out of consciousness.

"I tried to stop her" I say in the most calm way I can. Uriah sighs knowing that he can't do anything.

"Fine" he sighs. He takes a jacket from the closet and walks towards the door.

"Where are you going, Uriah?" Zeke asks trying to follow after his brother.

"I'm going to Erudite."

TRIS

I feel my heart beat racing inside my chest as I sit inside this empty room. I hear laughter outside the door. I couldn't see anything. The only light illuminating the room was the one coming from the top and bottom of the door. I was already shaking and I feel tired from all that has happened. I couldn't believe it. I try to remove my hands from the restrains but as soon as I move my hands, I feel the blood flow down my fingertips. I feel dizzy from the blood I lost. Again, I hear laughter together with blurry voices. All I know is that in one of those voices was my brother's.

The door slightly opened and I was blinded by the light.

"Hello, Beatrice" the voice of my traitor of a brother made my head ache and my stomach swoon. I felt sick. I didn't even know if I should still call him my brother, after all that he did.

"You dirty little liar" I swore. He looks sad, as if he pities me, as if he's guilty of what he's done.

"Beatrice, I am sorry." he says, stepping closer towards me. I move my chair, causing him to stop.

"You killed Marlene" I say, the tears were already forming at the back of my eyes.

"I had to" I look over at him. He had to. I shake my head. "She was my friend, you know that" I shout at him. Tears were already flowing down his eyes. "I'm sorry" he says again. I laugh.

"Faction over blood, huh? I get it" I say, turning my face away from him so he wouldn't see the tears. I didn't know what he did next all I know is that he was out the doorway. He says another sorry before closing the door behind him.

Right there, the tears flow down my cheeks. I was trying to stop it. It wasn't worth it to cry, especially not for him.

Everything comes back to me as I sit there in that small room, or well I suppose it was small. Four knew all along that Caleb killed Marlene and I can't believe I didn't listen to him. I can't believe that I chose Caleb over him. Faction over blood. I scream. This isn't suppose to be happening. Why would this be happening?

These are bad times, young lady. Better watch your back.

The man on the train. I remember him saying that. What was happening?

I feel my head swirling around. Things are just filling up my mind. It's as if this whole thing is a jigsaw puzzle and I was looking for the pieces that fit. I try to calm my throbbing head. Eric's long absence. Marlene's death. Caleb kidnapping me. These had to be connected. There should be a better picture. My head was aching every minute. Before I can even say a thing, I hear the knob turning from the other side of the room. I wish it wasn't Caleb again. I wouldn't stand seeing his face. The door opened allowing light to seep into the room. I took this time to look at myself. Basing from my worn out clothes, and tied feet, I might have looked like a wrecked. Maybe that's why Caleb looks so guilty.

I hear the tap of shoes on the cement. Who was this? I thought. Just a minute after the thought, I saw someone. It was smiling.

"Hello, Beatrice"

I've heard the voice before, and I hate it.

A/N

So, school just finished, kind off. Hopefully, I'll have more time to update. Again, I am sorry for the late updates. It has been a hectic year, indeed.

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