I apologize a thousand times over for the long awaited update. School has been…insane? Crazy? Overbearing? Words can't even describe how busy I've been, however, I've got my head on straight now and intend to make the space between my updates few and far between. So without further adieu, ON WITH IT!
EPOV
I had finally done it. I did it. The emotions that had been bottled up in me over the past week were finally free. I couldn't believe she allowed me to do it either. I was sure my confession would earn a slap to the face, a small cursing out and lead to her ignoring me for the months to come. What actually happened, stunned me and made me close to the happiest man alive. I can't wait to begin showing her my love for her. Of course I'd never be able to ever fully give her everything she deserves, I sure as hell would try to get pretty damn close. She deserved that and so much more.
A soft breeze rolled through the meadow, blowing Bella's luscious, mouthwatering scent into my face. I inhaled slowly, savoring every last bit of her smell. I could never tire of the deliciousness that was Bella. She was laying across my chest, her delicate fingers idly tracing mindless patterns on my arm. Her small body lay stretched out beside mine, pressed against me. My hand rested on the small of her back, my thumb tracing over the sliver of flesh revealed.
"Edward?" Her small, timid voice rang out. I opened my eyes, glancing down at the angel in my arms. I smiled crookedly at her, recieving her angelic smile in return.
"Hmm?" She opened her mouth to speak, then snapped it shut quickly. My brow furrowed but I ran my fingers through her soft hair, waiting patiently for her to speak.
She pulled out of my embrace, sitting up and looking off distractedly at the forest. A frustrated sigh escaped her mouth, as she violently ran her fingers through her hair. I looked on confusedly as she struggled to speak.
"Bella love, what is it that's on your mind? You know you can tell me, right? Never be afraid to tell me what's on your mind. I'll always be here to listen."
She looked at me, and panic immediately took over my body as I saw the anguish, pain, and remorse swimming in her eyes. My mind instantly went into to overdrive think up a plethora of possible scenarios. The one that stuck out the most, however? She doesn't love me.
Her hand reached out to grab my own, her thumb rubbing soothing circles over the back of it. She brought her other hand up to my cheek, starring into my eyes. I fought to look away, but those beautiful doe eyes held my gaze like a vice grip.
She sighed once again and removed her hand from my cheek, but continued to grip my other hand in hers. My mind was reeling, and she finally spoke, though I dreaded whatever was about to come out of her mouth.
"Edward honey, I love you. I really do and I care about you so much it hurts. Not a second goes by that you're not on my mind one way or another. The thing is..."
I growled softly, not needing her to continue. "It's okay Bella. I get it. I understand completely. It doesn't make any sense for you to want me anyways. It's like heaven and hell, they don't work together. It was completely idiotic of me to think you could ever want to be with me. How stupid of me to make false hope for myself. Absolutely foolish for an angel like you to want to fraternize, let alone love, with a monster like me. Utterly and completely unrealistic," My hands fisted my hair, tugging on the unruly strands as I paced back and forth,"I get it," I sighed defeated," monsters don't deserve love and I'm a monster..."
I didn't even notice when she stood up. I didn't notice when the look in her eyes turned desperate, and I didn't notice when that desperation turned to anger. What I did notice was the not-so-soft slap that Bella dealt me across the cheek. Usually vampire slaps don't hurt one another, however this one threw me for a loop. It was probably due to the fact that Bella had a small amount of her human blood still in her veins, but damn that hurt! I looked at her and the look she was giving me was not only amusing, and slightly scary but it turned me on like none other.
Her hair had fallin out of its bun and small wisps framed her face, her eyes were glaring holes into my skull, and her hands were clenched into fists at her sides. It didn't help that she still had on the revealing outfit Alice shoved her in. No matter how hard I tried to stay irritated or emotionless though, I couldn't help but to admire just how sexy she looked. It didn't help that she still looked ready to kill.
"Edward Cullen don't you dare! Don't you ever repeat that line of bullshit ever again or I swear to fucking God, you'll regret it! I don't want to ever hear you refer to yourself as a monster again! What I was going to say, before you so rudely interrupted me, is that I want to take things slow, you douche! I've never been in a relationship before and up until the day I met you I never planned on it! I was convinced that there was no one out there for me, and then you had to waltz in and ruin all my plans with those damn butterscotch eyes and that fucking bronze hair! God damnit!" She stomped her foot, to which I bit my lip to keep from smiling and marched up to me. Her hands reached out and gripped my hair, hard, pulling me down to where our noses were touching. "I love you. Okay? I love you like I've never fucking loved someone else and I'm scared. I'm just as scared as you are but I want to try and make this work, damn it. So stop being a drama king, claim what's yours and kiss me you fool."
I wasted absolutely no time on assaulting her mouth. My lips crashed into her soft, plump ones and I groaned when her tongue slipped out and licked my lips. She smiled against my mouth before nipping my bottom lip, sucking it into her mouth. My hands slid down her bottom to grip her ass, pulling her up and against me. Her legs wrapped around my waist and I backed us up against the closest tree, which was hard to do with her grinding against me and her hands harshly tangled in my hair. I slammed her against the tree and she growled as her head hit the trunk. I smirked grinding into her, making her moan loudly. My smirk remained in place until she reciprocated the grinding, causing my eyes to widen and a moan of my own.
She smirked, then bent down, proceeding to suck and nip on my neck. My head fell back, allowing her better access as she attacked the skin there. Her hips ground into my now budging erection eliciting a hiss from me. A soft giggle came from her mouth as she pulled away from my neck to look into my eyes. The emotions I saw in hers probably reflected mine. Lust. Waves and waves of lust poured off of both of us but the thing that made me the happiest, what stood out the most, was the love I saw hidden in their depths.
Her hands were no longer gripping my hair violently but running softly through the locks. I smiled softly at her, all previous thoughts lost. Her legs unwrapped from around my waist, and her arms took their place. Mine took refuge around her slender waist, pulling her close to me. I placed a kiss on the top of her head and sighed quietly.
"I'm sorry." She mumbled quietly. It was slightly muffled since her face was pressed against my chest, but I heard her none the less. I slid my finger under her chin, tilting her up to look at me. I smiled softly down at her and place a loving kiss soundly on her lips.
"Bella love, you did nothing wrong, well aside from that slap to the face," I smirked down at her as her eyes turned downcast,"but love, I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions. I just want you to give me a chance, to show you that I can treat you right. I want you, need you, in my existence. I love you Isabella." I kissed her once more.
Her smile brightened and she squeezed my waist, kissing me back. "As I love you Edward Cullen. You're one of a kind my handsome man. One of a kind."
I chuckled but said nothing else. I looked up at the sky and noticed the sun slowly setting in the west, and sighed. We'd be returning back home soon, which would result in returning back to school, which would result in returning to the vile thought centered around Bella. Home didn't seem like much fun now. I wonder if...
We're one mistake from being together
But let's not ask why it's not right
You won't be seventeen forever
And we can get away with this tonight
I growled flipping the phone open. "Ha ha very funny Alice, what did I tell you about changing my ring tone?"
I heard her tinkling laugh which only fueled my agitation. "What did you need Alice?" I growled into the phone. Bella was looking up at me curiously and I reached down to run my fingers through her hair.
"Oh Eddie," growl, "you know I love you, dearest brother. Ah, don't tell me the irony of said song was lost on you." growl, "Alright alright, Carlisle and Esme would like for you and Bella to return home. They have some news they'd like to share with the family. Oh and by the way, I had a vision of that less than innocent ro-" I hung up on her before she could finish her sentence. Bella had her face buried in my chest while her small body shook in my arms. I chuckled softly loosing some of my edge.
"So you think that's funny, do you?" Her head fell back and she laughed carelessly. She looked so beautiful and carefree that I couldn't help but smile at her. While she was still distracted my her amusement with my phone conversation, I tackled her to the ground, tickling her sides. Her eyes widened and she started squirming underneath me.
"Edward! Ah! Oh god! I. Can't. Breath. Stop! Mercy! Mercy!" I laughed, pecking her on the cheek before standing up and holding my hand out to her. She grabbed it and pulled me down on the ground with her. Before I had a chance to react, she was on top of me, pinning my arms above my head.
She leaned down to my ear, where her breath brushed against my skin making me shiver. "For your information dear, yes. I did find that funny," her teeth grazed my ear lobe, tugging on it and I growled deep in my throat," the irony of that ring tone was not lost on me, and if you weren't so..." her tongue licked the outer shell of my ear causing me to tense," uptight, you'd think it was humorous too."
By the time I had bounced back from my lust induced stupor, she was halfway across the meadow, behind the line of trees. I growled playfully, jumping to my feet and running after her. She laughed loudly, and took off running ahead of me. We had already established that she could keep pace with me, but I also knew I hadn't been pushing myself. Bella squealed as I caught up with her, grabbing her up in my arms and tossing her on my back. Her arms locked around my neck and her legs secured themselves around my neck.
She let go of my neck and tossed her arms in the air, holding on with her legs. She exclaimed loudly, laughing. It was the most I'd heard her laugh since she got her, and it was infectious causing me to laugh right along with her. I lept over a fallen tree that was in the way, jostling Bella. Her arms instantly took residence around my neck once more. Her breath blew against my ear as we neared the house, causing me to stumble minutely.
"Do I distract you Edward?" Bella's soft voice asked. At that point in time I couldn't figure out if she did it intentionally or not but her voice came out extremely seductively. I mentally groaned as her cool breath caressed my ear. I slowed down to a walk, grabbing Bella's arms and pulling her around to my front. I reached up to tuck her hair behind her ears, my hand stayed resting on her cheek as the other went down to her ass, holding her up and against me.
"You, Isabella, are a little minx. Don't play coy with me, because I know that you know what you're doing to me. Now unless you would like me to strip you down and do unspeakable things to you, right here, right now, in the dirt, I suggest you cool it. Got it?" My voice had taken on a a husky tone and Bella looked at me with unmasked lust. Her legs and arms had gone slack, I knew had I not been holding her she would've fallen all together. I smirked, knowing I'm not the only one here affected by the other.
Bella was still starring blankly at me, and I was starting to worry. However, her small whimper soothed my worries and brought a certain boost to my ego. I continued walking backwards, while Bella sagged against me. I ran my fingers through her hair, kissed her head and set her on her feet. She wobbled slightly at first, and I shook my head grasping her hand to pull her along with me. Her eyes still had a far off look in them so I put my arm around her waist and pulled her against me.
We came to the clearing that contained our house, and I saw Alice sitting on the front porch pouting. I shook my head at her ridiculousness, to which she stuck out her tongue. When she saw Bella, she looked at me and quirked up an eyebrow.
"She's fine. She just can't resist my charm." I don't know if she had been faking all along, or if she really did just come back from la-la land but she took the opportunity to slap me across the chest, then prance over to Alice. I feigned actual pain, but neither of them paid me a speck of attention. I sighed dejectedly and made my way inside the house.
Alice and Bella were already seated on love seat talking animatedly with one another. Esme and Carlisle were taking up residence on the other love seat which left me with the recliner. I took a seat, before Jasper could and he glared at me. I smirked cheekily and patted the arm rest. He rolled his eyes and sat on it anyways.
"No funny business Edward. My wife is in the room, save it for later." I rolled my eyes and flipped him off. He smirked when Carlisle gave me a reproachful look and Esme glared at me. I smiled innocently and they both rolled their eyes.
Carlisle cleared his throat, silencing all conversation and began his announcement. "As you all know, Rosalie and Emmett were set to be home and the end of the week. However, we all, with the exception of Bella, know just how...risque those two can be. Due to unfortunate circumstances they will be arriving home tomorrow evening. Also, Bella and Edward, I received a phone call from the school today, alerting me of your twos absence. Now I have no problem with a healthy ditch day, the only thing is that this is Bellas' first week and it would probably be a wise idea for her to be present during it. Edward, you know better than first week ditching so I expect to receive zero phone calls, for the rest of the week. Other than that, you're mother and I are going hunting for the evening. Behave yourselves." He gave Alice, Jasper and I all meaningful glances before reaching out for Esmes' hand and disappearing out the back door.
Jasper, Alice and I all looked at each other with slightly menacing looks. Bella was looking between us confused, but when Alice screeched out "truth or dare" recognition crossed her face, followed by horror. Her eyes wied as saucers, she stood up from the couch, and slowly started backing away towards the stairs.
"Uhm guys, I'd love to, but I can't. You see...I've got...uhm...homework! Yeah! Lots and lots of homework and I just can't skip a homework assignment. I'm sure Carlisle wouldn't approve and...yeah...Bye!"
She shot up the stairs, like a bullet, but I was a second faster. Before she had a chance to make it to the top of the stairs I was standing in front of her, hands out, blocking her exit. She looked around frantically and I took the opportunity to toss her over my shoulder. At first, she started banging on my back, fighting with all her might, and then she resigned herself to her doom. Her elbow pressed into my shoulder, her hand resting on it as I carried her back to the couch.
I haphazardly tossed her down on the couch. She glared up at me but I just smiled at her, winked and sat down next to her. Alice was bouncing up and down on the love seat, clapping her hands like a small child. I rolled my eyes at the display and pulled Bella close to me. She shrugged me off, but I just laughed and held her hand. She could pout all she wanted in the end, she was definitely going to enjoy this.
"I'll go get the cowboy hat, and the Jasper get us some paper so we can write down our truth or dares and we can pick them out of the hat." She danced out of the room, while Jasper went to go retrieve some paper. I glanced over at Bella. She was still pouting, so I leaned down and pecked her on the lips. Her pout got significantly smaller so I kissed her again. It was nearly nonexistent after that, so I leaned down once more to kiss the final bits of the pout away. Her fingers went into my hair and I groaned softly when her dull nails scraped against my scalp.
"Break it up you two. You can have all the fun you want later, but now we're play truth or dare." I growled at the little pixie but parted from Bella none-the-less.
She groaned quietly and muttered under her breath. "This is going to be a long, long night."
Oh Bella love, you have no idea.
It's short and uneventful but it's up and that's all that matters. I apologize a thousand times over.
Maybe if I get a lot of reviews we can throw in some dirty talking Edward? Who doesn't love a dirty talking Eddie?
Love,
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