Tracy pulled up in her parents driveway. She was surprised at how fast the days were flying. Three days and they would be gone and she would be in Tampa. Trying to figure out where she would be and what was her purpose.
Getting out to the car she locked it and walking in. "Hey guys its Tracy!" she called. She was not about to walk upstairs because she didn't want to see her parents having sex. Men like hr step dad and Roman had a major sex drive. Even more so than alpha males.
"You're safe! Come on up!" Belinda called.
"Okay I'm coming up and you better not be bullshitting me!" Tracy called back.
"No we are not come up. Also I found out something online and talking to Dave that you should know," said Belinda.
"Okay," said Tracy as she walked up the stairs. When she walked up her mom was wearing a pair of short denim shorts and a read tank that showed off her stomach. Tracy didn't care because her mom was a beautiful woman for her age and she knew that Dave would protect her from perverts. She felt silly after that last line. You should be able to be comfortable enough to wear almost anything in your own home.
Tracy was struggling with that. On one hand she wanted to wear what she wore when she was in this house. Lounging around she wore super short cottons shorts and tanks and halters that showed her stomach. Sometimes she laid around in a sports bra and shorts. Though she didn't feel comfortable at the Shield compound doing that.
The only thing she did was wear what she usually wore to bed. She trusted Roman that much and he never betrayed that trust. They did seen one another naked in the shower but she still trusted him.
"So need some help?" asked Tracy.
"We nearly have it but I do enjoy spending time with the love of my life and my baby girl. Also what to tell you should put you at ease. You see I was doing some research online. I know I am married to one but I have had sex before he latched on to me. Anyway, I have no idea how it is or how its done, but if a feral latches on to a virgin unlike most cases with normal losing the V card there is minimal to no pain. I don't understand why but it's how it is," said Belinda.
"Have you seen Roman? He is fucking huge. My gosh I do not even imagine being with him in that way. I am scared. Hell I don't feel comfortable walking around like I used to here," said Tracy.
"Have you tried to make friends with your roommates? That might help," said Belinda.
"Well I am closest to Renee. Though Zahra, and Naomi make me nervous. They are tough and they have been around. I am innocent. Though I have seen them run around in pajamas like I wore when I was here. Though I just am unsure about doing that around the other guys," she confessed.
"It takes time getting to know new people. Though you certainly hit it off with your older friends. Nikki and Brie and then you are Charlotte are close because her dad and Dave are friends and then you met Sasha in class," said Belinda.
"That's different. I just do not how to act around people who's boyfriends, husbands or whatever are ballers and criminals I just cannot, its hard for me, ugh how the hell can I be friends with people who knowingly date criminals. Now my situation is different. I have no choice. I believe, do I have a choice?" Tracy said. "I feel just as safe at John and Nicole's to be myself and run around in my pajamas like I do when I lived with you and Dave,"
"If he was a normal guy yes you would have a choice but ferals you don't have a choice. You just have to adapt," said Belinda. "And you are going to have to get just as comfortable. I feel that you will be fine. I know your life isn't going the way you want, but you just have to make the best of it. I wish I didn't have to leave you until you were comfortable," she added.
"Fuck my life," said Tracy.
"Don't say that. Just don't. You will be fine in life. Besides not agreeing with his choice of employment do you have anything else that you do not like about Roman?" asked Belinda. She wanted to get real deep because come to find out they were leaving that day and she didn't want to until she knew her baby girl was okay.
She wished more than anything that she could go to Vegas with them but that wasn't the case. At the exact moment Dave was packing the last of their belongings into the moving truck. Belinda was surprised that Tracy didn't notice. Though she had a lot on her mind and was just focusing on what was going on in the bedroom. Packing the last of the clothes and talking.
"I hardly know the guy but his choice of employment so far is the only thing I do not like. Though I do not like the controlling either. I mean come on I couldn't even stay up until a movie was over and I was in my pajamas not going anywhere that night but he had to but in. Another thing is why the hell he takes the Navigator all the time and leaves me with the Escalade. Is that his way of making sure I don't leave Tampa on a whim?" Tracy asked.
"I can answer the one question. My Navigator has three row seating, the Escalade only has two. Though it tells me how much trust he has in you for you to even drive his car. Yes there is a gps tracker in it but anyone could take it somewhere and get it take out and then just take off. Though you would never do that because you believe in being honest. Just like because you got latched you would never look at another guy because even though it wasn't your choice you still would never cheat," said Belinda.
"What is cheating? Things are so blurred and yes I would never cheat. Since they are so blurred I want to know what crosses the line because I never want to do anything like that. I might be latched and in a way promised for the rest of my life but I'm not a cheater either," said Tracy.
"Well kissing, going out with another guy like it's a date, and of course having sex with another man. That's cheating. Though friendships are alright just don't cross those lines. I know you are new to the dating scene so to speak so I am telling you what's okay and what's not," said Belinda as she shut her suitcase.
"Since my entire life did a complete 180 in the past few days I have hardly even spent time with my older friends and Sasha and Charlotte. Also I have been thinking about quitting school or even changing my major. I'm sure I could get a job at the bank and of course I could become a school teacher," said Tracy.
"Whatever you want to do, do it. If you don't want to own your own business be sure to pick something that you actually enjoy," said Belinda. Turing to her daughter she felt bad that she was about to drop yet another bombshell on her and she felt terrible for it. "Tracy this is hard for me so I am just going to say it. Dave and I have to leave today. I know that its sooner than expected, but we are sorry," she said.
"I am not ready! For any of this! And now I find out you leave three days earlier than expected. I can't! I just cant!" Tracy said.
"You will be completely fine. Listen sometimes life comes at you sooner than expected and you have to just take the bull by the horns and go for it. I am not concerned with leaving. You have Roman to take care of you and from what Dave told me everyone in that house also! Then you have your older friends and lets not forget Sasha and Charlotte. You have a support system and enough protection to insure that Jessie would never have a chance to come at you again," said Belinda
Tracy just flung herself into her mother's arms and cried. This was too much for her and she was on the verge of a breakdown. Dave walked in ten minutes later and hugged them both. Finally he had to be the bad guy so to speak.
"Linda it's time to get going. Sorry to break it up but it's a long ass drive," said Dave.
"Come on Tracy," said Belinda as she wrapped her arms around her daughter as the three walked out. The house was bare and it looked like the shadow of the home they once had. Life had other ideas in mind. Helping his wife in the Hummer there was a tearful goodby Tracy watched as the Hummer drove away.
Tracy James was now in Tampa alone. Her family had to move due to her step dad's job and she was stuck. Looking at the house she got into the Escalade and turned on the radio as she put her head on the steering wheel and cried.
Getting herself together she decided just to head back to the house and sit in front of the television and maybe take a nap. Putting the car in reverse she drove back toward her new home as Come Sail Away by Styz came on the radio.
A/N: New beginning. Tracy is in Tampa without her parents. Hope you enjoy!