Later that night, I meet with my gang as usual, but this time…it's unusual because I'm going to ask to leave. When I walk up to them, they look at me with expectancy. The leader smiles.

"Your next mission is to-"I raise one hand as a sign of surrender.

"I want out." They all look at me in amazement then the leader raises an eyebrow. He starts coming closer to me, almost cornering me.

"You know it ain't that easy man." He says in a cruel tone. I don't even look at him…I don't want to admit it, but I'm kind of afraid to deny anything they tell me to do.

"Well, what do I have to do?" They all laugh.

"Kill your true love." My….true love? Whoa, you wouldn't hear that from any gangster out on the street. I love Sasuke. Does that mean I have to kill him? But the whole reason I'm getting out of this gang is for him.

Damnit. But he seems so wrapped up in Gaara…telling me to spend Halloween with Hinata…wait….Hinata. I'm still going out with her. I know this is going to sound totally fucked up…but I'd do anything for Sasuke and if that means killing someone I barely know then so be it. I smirk at my brilliant idea but then put a worried look on my face.

"I…I have to kill Hinata?" I act so innocent but really I just want to get it over with. They all smirk at me and pat me on the back.

"You wanted out…that what you get…" I look at them and pick up my phone. I call Hinata. She picks up on the first ring.

"H…hello?" I act so normal it scares me.

"Hey, you want to come over?" I hear a gasp on the other line and look at the phone with one eyebrow raised.

"Sh…Sure!! I'll be over in a minute!" She hangs up. How does she even know where I live? Oh well. I wait for a long time when I see a small, shy-looking figure that sees me and runs to her deathtrap. When she gets there she smiles to me until she realizes there are a bunch of gangsters surrounding her. She shrieks as I take out my knife and…you know. I feel a hint of depression take over my soul as I turn away.

"You ain't finished! You gotta dispose the evidence man!" I look back at them, then to Hinata's remains. I can't believe I just did that…and all for someone who doesn't really act like he cares about me. Shikamaru looks to me with a sympathetic look and walks up to me. He puts one hand on my shoulder, sweating with every emotion all in one. I look into his eyes with expectancy.

"Don't worry…I'll take care of it." He says in a soft, whispering tone. "Just go home." I don't even respond…not with a face…not with anything. I just turn back and head for home with my hands in my pockets. This is by far the worst Christmas Eve of my life.

I want to cry so badly, I want to just let every single emotion out…but I've been bottling them for so long that they just simply won't come out anymore. It's like they're all stuck in there, until I see Sasuke. Then love explodes freely from my pores and I practically scream I'm in love with him. As I approach my door hesitantly, I notice something on the ground. Look's like…a note…Oh, looks like I can walk into someone business. I pick it up and unfold it.

My dearest Gaara,

I think I'm falling for you…I don't know what is it…but I feel it in you.

I can't stop thinking about you.

You're amazing.

I love you so much

So much that words can't describe how much I love you.

You make me feel so happy,

You make me smile almost everyday.

I can't wait to see you.

I can't wait for you.

Man, I miss you…Naruto's been up my ass for a long time now and

I haven't been able to see you lately…

It's really bothering me.

Anyways,

I love you.

Love (and I do mean love),

Sasuke 3

My eyes widen as I lower the note slowly from my sight. I can't believe him. Was he just playing with me? Was I just a game to him? I don't understand it. Who does he really love? How can someone possibly fall in love with someone like Gaara? Why not me?

I've always been there for him. On top of it all, I just killed someone to be with him. I walk into my house with the note hanging lazily off of my fingers attached to my arm which is acting as if I don't have any feeling in it at all. I stumble to my room and find a bottle of vodka under my bed. I guess I'll just have to drink Sasuke away.