Chapter Fifteen: Lost Without You
Haley a woke a few days later, with a sense that everything was going to be okay. She really believed that Nathan would come back to her, and this made a smile form on her face. To see him again, to see him smile, to see him laugh, thinking about it sent chills up her spine. She got up, and put on her sandles and walked outside. She went to the mailbox, and grabbed it. She went back into the house, and sat down at her kitchen table.
Bill, Bill, Bill, Trash, and then she paused, she didn't expect one so soon. She was ready for this, she had just gotten over the last one he wrote her. She knew she had to read it, so she could write him back, but she didn't know if her heart could take whatever was in this letter. She sat the letter down on the table and decided that she would read it a little bit later, so she could ready herself for it.
She picked up her phone, and dialed Lucas's number. Even though the girls know how to have fun, she just really wanted Luke right now.
"Hello," he answered.
"Luke?" she asked.
"Yeah, Hales?" he asked.
"Yeah," she said, as she got a little teary eyed.
"What is it Hales?" He asked concerned.
"I just really need you right now," she said.
"I'll be there in a few minutes okay," Lucas said.
"Okay," she said, hanging up the phone.
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Nathan and the rest of his troop, had sit up they're camp. It was right alongside, the border. He really didn't want to be there, he didn't want to get hurt. He didn't want to break his promise.
"Dude, what's up?" Jake asked, standing right in front of him.
"Nothing," Nathan answered.
"Dude, we can hear you thinking all the way over here," Tim said.
"Just Hales," Nathan said, saying her name made him smile.
"You'll be fine," Jake said.
"How do you know man?" Nathan asked.
"I don't know, I just like you'll be fine," Jake said.
"I hope so, I'd hate to break my promise," Nathan said.
"Dude, you promised her you would be back?" Tim asked.
"Yeah, why?" Nathan asked.
"Nate, that is like the kiss of death," Tim said.
"Yeah, it's like asking to die," Jake said.
"Great," Nathan said.
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Haley, heard a light knocking on the door. She got up, and opened the door. Lucas walked in and put his arms around her.
"What's wrong Hales?" Lucas asked.
"I miss him bad today," Haley said.
"I know you do," Lucas said.
They sat down on the couch together.
"He sent me a letter," Haley said.
"What's it say?" Lucas asked.
"I haven't had the ablilty to read it, Luke," she said, laying her head on his chest.
"Do you want me too?" Lucas asked.
"No, I'll do it, I just got to ready myself for it," she said.
"Okay, well what do you need from me?" Lucas asked.
"Just being here is fine," she said.
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The guys got they're gear together. Although they weren't going out into the field till tomorrow, they needed to have it all ready.
"Why do we need all of this shit?" Nathan asked.
"This shit your speaking about, it's going to save your ass," Jake said.
"Yeah, Nate, if you don't wanna be here why did you come back?" Tim said.
"Look, I've been in the army for a few years now, I don't wanna just turn my back on it," Nathan said.
"Yeah, but if you can't put your heart into it then why?" Jake asked.
"I don't know," Nathan said, walking over to his bunk, and lying down.
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Haley walked Lucas out to his car. She got back into the house, and saw the letter there. She walked over to the table, and sat down. She picked up the letter and opened it. She decided now was as good a time as any, so she started to read it.
Hales,
I just wanted to let you know I' ve reached base safely. Although with an empty heart, because you aren't here with me. I feel as if a part of me is missing, a part of me is just gone. My heart aches daily, because I've hurt you. I vow to you today, that I will work as hard as possible, so I can get back to you soon. So I can touch your beautiful face, and see your beautiful smile. Thinking of your smile, lights up my world, that has drasticly turned dark. Within the next week, I'll be shipping out. Going to Iran with a heavy heart, knowing, I've left the one I love behind. The one thing that gets me through, is the hoping you'll wait for me. That one the day I return, you'll be there, with open arms. I need you to wait for me, I need you to love me. I just plain need you, I'm lost without you. I'll be seeing you.
Nate
Please R&R...and I am sorry for any spelling mistakes...I've never really ever been much of a speller.