It may have been called a family dinner, but no one was talking. Sitting around the table was everyone Loren called family. Mel, Adam, Aid, Phil, Nora, Max, Jake, Kelly, Alex, John, Amber, Ricky, Amy, Tony, Jacob, Melanie, Eli, Eddie, Madelynn, Andrew, and the triplets.
"Something's bothering you, Loren. What's going on? You too, Amy. "Nora said. Loren sighed sadly.
"Ricky and I are moving back to Valley Glen." All around, except Ricky, Amy, Loren, Alex, and Eddie their forks hit their plates.
"Excuse me? Your moving?!" Tony exclaimed.
"We're sorry. But our families miss us." Amy apologized. Nora nodded.
"I understand." Nora agreed.
"What?! How can you say that?!" Loren yelled standing up, shocking everyone.
"Loren, calm down." Nora said calmly.
"No! I can't! I won't! I'm getting abandoned all over again!" She yelled, the babies in the room, a bit oblivious, since most were throwing food.
"I am not abandoning you!" Amy exclaimed, standing up. Loren gave her a glare.
"Yes you are! What if I moved away from you? What would you think? What if you had been raped twice and the person you counted on most to help you moved? What if you had been abandoned all you life and you could hardly trust anyone at all!?" Loren yelled, letting her true feelings fly. "I've had everyone in my life abandon me at least once!" Nora stood up.
"Excuse me?" She said.
"You have and you know it! Just think about it." Loren's voice got lower as she spoke and she could see Nora actually thinking about it. Suddenly, realization dawned on her and she covered her mouth with her hands.
"Loren." Nora spoke in a small voice, but Loren didn't let her continue.
"This is just to much me to keep to myself." Loren said, her voice seeming as if it wasn't above a whisper. "I've tried to stay strong, keeping my feelings to myself, whether good or bad, but it's just too much. I can't stand to lose anyone anymore. My mother, my sister, my daughter, my husband, anyone. Everyone at this table is important to me in some way, but everyone at this table has also abandoned me at some point, exempt the few that really can't." Loren spoke softly. She looked over at Amy. " I mean it. Think about my life and being my shoes. I can't lose you. Talking over the phone, skyping, texting. It would be the same, even in you are a few hours away. I know it's selfish. I know I sound so much like a little kid. But remember, neither of us go to be a little kid. Trent abandoned me and I immediately grew up. Then came getting pregnant, and the teasing and severe bullying. I never had a chance to be a little kid, but now I am being one. You can't move, Amy. I won't let you move. And you don't know how bad I just wish I could just say, 'Go, be happy. I'll see you in a few years.' But I can't, you've got to understand that. I-I-I can't." Loren started to cry and she suddenly ran up stairs, leaving Amy and Nora still standing.
Well, sorry this is so short, but it was dedicated to why Loren reacted so bad to Amy and Ricky's news.
Previews for the next chapter:
"I'm sorry, but this is such a surprise."
Now that she had opened the flood gates called her true feelings, she couldn't stop it.
Loren wanted to get out.
''Hey. Can I set up an appointment? It's important.'' Loren spoke in a child-like voice.