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I opened my eyes as the pain dissipated and sighed with relief. This time it had been worse. I felt the urge to count up my days, but then stopped. I didn't want to think about that stuff anymore. It was better if I just left it alone.
Someone knocked on the door. I quickly fixed my mussed hair and in general tried to make myself look a little better before whoever it was came in. The door opened and I saw that it was Fuyumi.
"Are they headed up to the observatory?" I asked, wondering if Kyoya had sent her in his place.
"No," she said, "I just wanted to talk to you for a moment." She stayed at the door and leaned against the wall. "About Kyoya," I wondered if she wanted me to stay away from him. I didn't think that being around me would be good for their company. I nodded, urging her to continue, even though I didn't know if that would be a good thing.
"I see the way he looks at you," she started, I wondered what she was getting at. "I think that you're the only girl he's ever loved."
What? Loved? Kyoya? But after thinking about it, I realized that the notion wasn't too far fetched.
"I wonder if you have feelings for him too." she said, a smile tugged on her lips. I thought for a moment and realized that I did. I did have feelings for him. Perhaps love?
"I-I do, but I never thought..." I said, stuttering. Her smile broke free.
"Well then, I have a request for you." I nodded, hoping that she wouldn't say what I feared.
"Don't break his heart." I looked up, surprised. "You're a sweet girl." she said, "I can see how he'd fall for you." she smiled again. "Please don't, I don't want to see the person he'd become if you hurt him."
"I won't." I said, nodding. She smiled, then left. The door closed behind her and I heard her footsteps echo as she walked down the hallway. I felt tears start to bud in my eyes.
Kyoya. I loved him. I didn't know what to do. Would I let myself be happy for the few moments I had left, and destroy his future? Or should I sacrifice the time I have with him, to make it easier when I'm gone?
I could leave. Maybe he'd understand. Maybe he'd still be happy, maybe he'd find someone new. But was I really going to do that to him? Was I going to hurt him like that?
Somehow all this had become a mess. Why couldn't I have just stuck to my original intentions. To see the twins. Why did Kyoya and love have to get mixed up in it. Frustrated tears started to fall, if I had just watched the Twins, had been totally devoted to paying attention to them, I wouldn't be in this mess. I could've died happy. I could've died without asking 'what if'.
Someone knocked -well, tapped- on the door. I quickly wiped my eyes, whoever it was, they wouldn't see me cry. I swallowed, preparing to speak, wondering if Fuyumi had come back.
"Yes?" I asked, making sure to disguise the crack in my voice. The door opened. It was Kyoya.
Great. Why does he have such perfect timing? I thought.
"We were just about to-" his eyes found mine, and I could tell he knew something was wrong. "Are you alright?" he asked, concern layered in his voice.
"Yeah- I, I'm just..." somehow the words wouldn't come. How could I tell him everything was alright? How could I keep this from him and not hurt him?
"Ember, is something wrong?" he stood there awkwardly at the door, his fingers wrapped around the door knob. I wished it wasn't this complicated, I wished I could just tell him. I tried to push back the tears. I saw anger rise in his eyes.
"Did Fuyumi say something?" he asked, peering back into the hallway, I guessed that he'd seen her walk away. I shook my head.
"No she-"
"Was it about me?" Kyoya's voice was strangely calm. His gaze shifted to the floor, and he smiled sadly at my silence. "She knows me too well. She told you didn't she, about how I feel." he said,
"About how I... how I feel about you." I nodded, not trusting myself to speak, fearing my voice would crack.
His gaze rose and fell upon mine. "Ember, if... if you don't feel the same you can just tell me." His knuckles became white on the handle. "Please, I need to know." A hint of desperation started to show in his demeanor.
"Kyoya... " I couldn't choke out the words and the tears burst free. "I... think I've known it for a while, but I love you too." My legs were still weak from my recent episode and they decided to collapse. I started to fall to the ground.
In one swift movement Kyoya leapt into the room and pulled me into his arms. I let the tears go and buried my face in his shoulder.
"Did Fuyumi say something about breaking my heart?" he asked, his voice soft, tinged with a tenderness I had never heard before. I tried to swallow, and that was enough of an answer for him.
"Well, if for some reason you think you will," he said, his arms wrapping tighter around me. "And even if you do, in a month, a year" he said, "for you it'd be worth it."
I smiled, and for once the tears that fell weren't ones of pain or sadness, but of joy. And I actually felt almost grateful that I had gotten sick. If I hadn't I would have never met Kyoya. I would've never fallen in love with him. I would've never had this opportunity to love and be loved.
I remembered the Kyoya I had seen on my first days at Ouran Academy. I almost laughed at how I had thought him so annoying. But now I knew I realized that he had been hiding behind the glare on his glasses, behind the screen of a phone. Hiding because he didn't want to be hurt, because he didn't want anyone to get deep enough to hurt him.
Kyoya pulled back, a tender smile spread over his lips.
"Come on," he said, standing and helping me up. "They're going to wonder where we are." his hand rose, hesitant, but then with confidence as he wiped away a lasting tear from my cheek. I tried to laugh, but my throat still felt clogged from all the crying.
I smiled and followed him out the door. The walk to the observatory seemed somehow shorter than it had been before. When we emerged into the glass dome, the meteor shower had already began. The flashing lights danced over the blackened sky and just as quickly faded into the horizon.
The others were sitting in a circle on the floor, smiling and pointing at the brightest lights. I smiled as I saw the Twins, smiling and laughing with the others. I wondered why I hadn't come sooner. Why hadn't I come back the second I was sent away?
I wished I had more time, the clock was ticking far too quickly and I really didn't want my life to end so soon. I realized that I had so much to live for. The Twins, the Host Club, my friends, Kyoya. I had all these things that could've lasted so much longer, but I was going to die either way, whether I wanted to or not.
Something brushed against my hand and I looked down to see Kyoya's slip into mine. I smiled and held on a little tighter.
Yes I would die, but I would die like the lights I saw flashing across the sky, quick, but bright. They left an impression and yes, I would die knowing what I could've had, but at least, I had the time I had left. I had that long, and perhaps that long was long enough.
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