Description: this is a story I have been working on for a while. This is my third Dawson's Creek story. I'll writing this as well as Conflicted Love and Clueless Affection on here now.
Disclaimer: I may not own the characters but this story is original and from my imagination.
Author's note: this is my first try at a Dawson's creek story, be nice to me please. This is a Pacey/Joey fic, my version of how they got together. Enjoy and review thanks
Chapter #14
(Joey's pov)
" You need me, Joe?", asks Pacey before glancing over at me. Oops, did I really just admit that out loud? I probably should have kept that last part to myself. The last thing that I need is Pacey misinterpreting what I just said. Guess that I'm a little to late for that now. What am I supposed to do now? I can't just lie to Pacey. In a lot of ways, I really do need him.
Leaning back against Pacey, I lay my head on his shoulder," Yeah, you make me laugh when I want to cry."
Holding me in his arms, Pacey whispers into my ear," Don't you think that you deserve a guy who will take care of you, Joe?"
" What do you mean, Pacey?", I question in confusion as I stare up at him. I would love to find a guy like that. One who would be there whenever I needed him to be, someone I could talk with about anything and who would make me smile when I was having a bad day. I'm not all that sure a guy like that exists though, at least not one that I know.
" Exactly that, Joe. You deserve a guy whose there when you need him.",explains Pacey with a tired sigh. Smiling at the thought, I laugh to myself. That really does sound nice. There was a time when I was convinced that Dawson was that guy. Guess that I was dead wrong on that assumption. Dawson and I didn't work out like I had wanted, but I guess it was for the best. We're probably better as friends anyway.
" Well, yeah. That would be nice, Pace. I'm not sure a guy like that exists though.", I joke with a playful nudge to Pacey's side. Sneaking a peek up at him, I notice Pacey's not laughing alongside him. Wow, what is with him tonight? You would think that Pacey would at least crack a smile. He's not the one who just got dumped, I am. What is his deal tonight?
" Why couldn't I be that guy, Potter?", inquires Pacey in a low voice that sends shivers up my spine. Did I just hear him correctly? Pacey wants to be that guy? I don't get it, is that his way of saying that he likes me? No, no Pacey doesn't like me. That's impossible, the two of us are supposed hate one another. Except, we don't anymore. Pacey and I have actually become close these last few months. Pacey can't be serious...can he?
Shuddering when Pacey's lips brush against the back of my neck, I jump up from my seat," I just remembered, I have to go. I'll see you around Pacey."
….(End Joey's pov)
(Joey's thoughts)
Holy crap, Pacey just made a move on me. What the hell was he thinking? Why would Pacey hit on me? We were just sitting there and hanging out The next thing I know, his lips were on my neck. Just thinking about it is sending shivers down my spine. Does Pacey like me? He said that I deserved a guy who'll be there when I need him.
Could he have been talking about himself the entire time? I don't get it. How could Pacey like me? Last I recalled, Pacey and I couldn't stand one another. When did things change? Pacey is supposed to be public enemy number one. When did I start to rely on Pacey this much? ….(End Joey's thoughts)
(Pacey's thoughts)
Shit! Dammit! I'm such an idiot. I just made a move on Joey. What the hell was I thinking? That is the thing, I wasn't thinking. Joey said that she needed me and I lost all control. The next thing that I knew, my lips were on her neck. Her skin felt soft and smooth against my lips, not to mention she smelled like vanilla.
Having Joey so close was killing me. I just ruined everything. After I kissed Joey's neck, she took off without saying another word. I'm not sure, but its safe to say that Joey hates me. I am such a moron. Out of all people that I could have fallen for, I chose Joey? Let alone I made a move on her? Not exactly one of my smartest ideas as of yet.….
(End Pacey's thoughts)
(Monday; P/Jen convo)
(Pacey's pov)
" Hey Pace, how was you weekend?", asks Jen as she walks up behind me. Ugh, the weekend is the last thing that I want to talk about right now. I'm pretty sure that Joey is probably never going to peak to me again. I made a stupid move Friday night. I kissed Joey. It wasn't on the lips, only the back of her neck. But it was enough to freak her out and send the girl running. I haven't seen Joey since. She has been dodging me, I screwed up big.
" I would rather not talk about it.", I mutter with a growing frown. Knowing Jen, she's not going to let things slide. Why would she though? Its not in her nature. Jen is very nosy when she wants to be. She has a certain way about her. Jen will nag the hell out of me until I finally break down and tell her what happened.
" Why? What happened Pace?", inquires Jen with raised eyebrows we grab our lunches. See what I mean? The girl is relentless. The last thing I want to do is rehash Friday nights events. But Jen isn't going to leave things alone until I tell her what happened. The way I see it, I might as well get this over and done with. The quicker I tell Jen, the sooner she will stop bugging me.
" I kissed Joey." I confess in a low voice not really wanting anyone else to hear. If the wrong person were to hear me admitting this, all hell could very well break loose. I don't know what I was thinking. Because I had a chance to stop myself, my lips were pressed against the back of Joey's neck. My senses went wild, Joey was in my arms, all I could smell was her vanilla body spray and her silky skin was soft against my touch. I didn't know what I was doing until it was too late. Then just like that Joey took off.
Stopping in her tracks, Jen nearly chokes on her drink," You kissed Joey?!"
Throwing an annoyed scowl in Jen's direction, I glance around quickly," Say it a little louder Jen, I don't think Dawson or Andie heard you."
" Sorry, Pace. You caught me off guard. You kissed Joey?", whispers Jen with excitement. Great, I knew that I shouldn't have said anything. Dawson is going to know by the end of the day with this ones big mouth. If Joey didn't hate me already, she will if Jen's big mouth lets slip that I mentioned anything about Friday night. I'm pretty sure she would kill me if word got out.
" Well, yeah. Kind of, I kissed her neck. It just happened, I don't know what I was thinking. Now Joey won't even speak to me and I'm miserable. We were hanging out when she said I was always there when she needed me and I liked that. Next thing I know, I lost control and my lips were on her neck.", I confide with a defeated sigh. What am I supposed to do now? Joey won't even look at me now. I tried calling a few times to apologize but she wouldn't answer the phone. I don't know what to do and its driving me crazy.
" Way to scare Joey off, Pacey.", teases Jen with a playful nudge to my side. Way to scare Joey off? That is all Jen has to say? I very well could have just ruined my friendship with Joey and all Jen can think to do at a time like this is make jokes? I knew telling her was a bad idea. Why would I possibly think that Jen would have any helpful words of insight? I might as well face facts, Joey hates me now and its all my fault.
Grumbling in response, I glare over at Jen," Not very helpful Lindley."
Shaking her head in amusement, Jen tries her best not to laugh," To be fair, I wasn't trying to be helpful Witter."...
(End Pacey's pov)
(Joey's pov)
" Hey Jen, do you have a minute? I wanted to talk to you about...Pacey. Uh, never mind Its not important. I got to go.", I stammer nervously when I notice none other than Pacey standing beside Jen. Crap. Shit! What the hell am I supposed to do now? I don't want to talk to Pacey let alone face him. This is bound to be an awkward conversation.
" Joey, are you going to avoid me from now on? You can't dodge me forever, you know.", points out Pacey before taking a step toward me. Stumbling backwards, I put some much needed distance between the two of us. Ha, that's what you think Witter. I have been do a pretty good job of avoiding you these last two days if I don't say so myself.
" Yeah, that was the plan Pace. You obviously don't know me too well if you think that.", I mutter with a frown before turning to walk off once more. I am not going to stand here and let Pacey tell what I can or can't do. Things were fine between Pacey and I. For once the two of us were actually starting to get along. Then he pulls a stunt like what he did on Friday? He can't seriously expect me to pretend things are normal between the two of us.
Stepping in front of me, Pacey stops me from walking off," Come on, Joe. You're being a little unreasonable."
Tensing when Pacey touches a hand to my shoulder, I shove him away from me,"Don't even talk to me Pacey."
" Call me crazy but it sounds like you two need to talk. I should probably go.", interrupts Jen before clearing her throat. Oh no, I don't think so Jen. You are not leaving me alone with the likes of him. If you knew what was good for you, than you would stay right where you're at. If I have to be stuck here in this uncomfortable situation than so does she. (End Joey's pov)
(Pacey's pov)
" No, Jen. You don't have to go anywhere. We are not going to have this conversation, Pace.", insists Joey in a hushed voice as she glares up at me. That's what you think Joe. I'm not going anywhere until you and I talk things out. I don't give a damn if Jen stays either. One way or another, Joey and I will talk.
" Why the hell not, Joe?", I question with agitation before taking another step forward. Sighing with frustration when Joey backs away from me once more, I run a tired hand through my hair. Who am I trying to kid? Joey doesn't want to talk with me. I scared her off. What the hell was I thinking? I screwed up big time. I don't know how to fix what I did. I just want Joey to see how much I care about her.
" Because I can't even stomach the thought of kissing you, or least of all liking you! That's why Pacey!", snaps Joey in anger much to my surprise and Jen's. Unable to say anything in response, all I can do is stare at Joey with a hurt look in my eyes. I can't believe Joey just said that to me. Is that how she really feels or was she just upset and confused? Wow, that really cut me deep. I'm not sure but I think Joey might have just shattered what was left of my heart.
Looking between Joey and I, Jen's gaze narrows as it once again lands on Joey," Don't you think that was a little harsh Joey? How could you say something like that to Pacey?"
Hiding the hurt masked behind my now cold eyes as Joey's words sink in, I blink back tears before shaking my head," No, Jen. Its cool. If that's how you feel Joey, than that's how you feel. I won't bother you anymore." ….
(End Pacey's pov)