February 8, 2007

Wow you people are good wishers!

Thanks to all of you who got together and put a good thought out there for me and my sweetie yesterday. It worked.

I did make dinner and it was excellent, even though we ate it cold and many hours after it was intended to be served.

I'm not spilling more detail than that but suffice it to say that things went well and when I was awakened at 4:30 AM by the beeping of a text message on my fella's phone I still had a smile on my face.

Duty called. Well, Tony texted, but it's the same thing in the end and I couldn't be too mad because at least we'd had time alone to really enjoy each other's company first. I slept while SAM quickly showered but woke when he attempted to say his goodbye via a soft kiss on my cheek. Instead I wrapped myself in the comforter and followed him to the front door for a long kiss and the murmuring of those things you say to someone before sending him off into the cold.

So it's official for those of you with scorecards. I'm head over heels in love. People who know me in real life and also read this blog should sit down before you read this next part because I'm going to say something that I've never said before.

I think he's THE ONE.

And yes, you're right, I know, that for years I've been known to scoff at the concept that a "ONE" even exists. I've been a strong proponent of the idea that we fall in and out of what we call love but are really infatuations all through our lives and that giving in to that infatuation and calling it love and trying to make it stick is archaic. It's a throwback to when we only lived into our 20's and it was easy to say that you were going to love this one person for the rest of your life. It was probably a 5 year commitment.

I've been known to say that people that do stay together forever only do it out of fear of being alone, complacency or lack of imagination and passion in their soul.

That was before I met SAM.

And now I get how you can look at someone and just "know" and still not be able to put into words what makes this different from any other time before. Because I feel like I know and I've typed a million words here and erased them trying to explain how and why.

If you see me out and about today tie a rock to my leg or something because I'm sure I'll be walking on air.