Hey, sorry about the confusion with the inserted chapter. Thanks to my reviewers. Here's the next chapter.

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BPOV

Morning came too quickly. I wanted to stay in Edward's arms forever. I still didn't understand why he was here. I didn't know if he was staying. I would have thought it was a dream, but I couldn't sleep. It seemed almost like nothing had changed. That wasn't true though. I knew now that he didn't love me. I wasn't a soft, warm human anymore. I didn't blush or trip. I had no heart beats. I couldn't talk in my sleep because I didn't sleep. All the things that he had liked about me were gone. Besides, he had said that he didn't love me. It hadn't made sense then, and it didn't now.

I wasn't lying to myself. I wished, desperately wished, for the ignorance that I had once had. I wished that I could go back to when I believed he loved me. The pain was as fresh as if I was still lying in the forest after he had left. I couldn't pretend anymore, no matter how much I wanted to. Morning was here. It was time to face the facts.

I pushed out of his embrace. I saw surprise in his face, then understanding. He looked disappointed. He was so incredibly gorgeous. He was the angel that I had named him. While I, I was a selfish monster who only cared about her own problems. Edward had been so wrong about me.

"We have a lot to talk about." I said.

"Yes we do." He seemed reluctant to start talking. I was too.

"What's the story?"(New Moon 504) I went for flippant, hoping to hide my true emotions in sarcasm.

"What do you mean?"(New Moon 504)

"So," I began, picking the least important-though still vitally interesting-question to start with...he might decide to leave at any moment. I had to keep him talking. Besides, this temporary heaven wasn't entirely complete without the sound of his voice. "What have you been doing?"(New Moon 504-505)

"Nothing, really."

"Nothing? In 50 years?" He shrugged, picking at the seam on the couch, avoiding my gaze. I decided to drop it. He obviously didn't want to talk about it. I hated seeing him so uncomfortable. Suddenly, his golden eyes met mine. He started speaking in a rush, as if he was afraid that I would interrupt him.

"I owe you an apology. No, of course I owe you much, much more than that. But you have to know that I had no idea. I didn't realize the mess I was leaving behind. I thought it was safe for you here. So safe…Please know that I had no idea of any of this. I feel sick, sick to my core, even now, when I can see and feel you safe in my arms. I am the most miserable excuse for-"(New Moon 506) Did he really feel guilty? Guilty that I had gotten what I wanted, to be a vampire? Albeit, I had only wanted it to be with him, but the past 50 years were nothing if I could have him. Not that that was an option, still it was nothing to be guilty about. Could he really have been guilty for 50 years? I didn't want to be a source of guilt and anguish in his life. He should be happy, no matter what it cost me. (New Moon 506-507)

"Edward," I said. His name burned my throat a little on the way out. I could feel the ghost of the hole, waiting to rip itself wide again as soon as he disappeared. I didn't quite see how I was going to survive this time. "This has to stop now. You can't think about things that way. You can't let this…this guilt…rule your life….I know it's your…your nature to shoulder the blame for everything, but…it's very irresponsible-think of Esme and Carlisle and-"(New Moon 507) I cut myself off. I was rambling. I hadn't spoken so much at one time in 50 years. I looked at his face. He looked shocked, confused. Had I misunderstood? Had so much changed that I no longer even understood him correctly?

"The odds…the odds are always stacked against us. Mistake after mistake. I'll never criticize Romeo again…" (New Moon 508) He seemed distracted, thoughtful. I knew what he was saying. There were so many mistakes in my past. I should have told Alice and Jasper to go back to the Cullens. I shouldn't have been so selfish. I should have let go of Edward so that he could move on. That hurt the most. He noticed my expression.

"Bella, you seem to be under a misapprehension…I thought I'd explained it clearly before... I'm a good liar, Bella. I have to be." I froze, my muscles locking down as if for impact. The fault line in my chest ripples; the pain of it took my breath away. "Let me finish! I'm a good liar, but still, for you to believe me so quickly…That was…excruciating…When we were in the forest, when I was telling you goodbye…You weren't going to let go…I could see that. I didn't want to do it-it felt like it would kill me to do it-but I knew that if I couldn't convince that I didn't love you anymore, it would just take that much longer to get on with your life. I hoped that, if you thought I'd moved on, so would you."(New Moon 509) Hope blossomed in my chest, I tried to squelch it, but I failed. I wanted so badly to believe him.

"You never understood, did you?" I whispered. I was amazed. I had thought Edward knew everything. "You never knew how much I love you." He didn't appear to have heard me because he kept talking.

"I never imagined it would be so easy to do! I thought it would be next to impossible-that you would be so sure of the truth that I would have to lie through my teeth for hours to even plant the seed of doubt in your head. I lied, and I'm sorry-sorry because I hurt you, sorry because it was a worthless effort. Sorry that I couldn't protect you from what I am. I lied to save you and it didn't work. I'm sorry. But how could you believe me? After all the thousand times I've told you I love you, how could you let one word break your faith in me? I could see it in your eyes, that you honestly believed that I didn't want you anymore. The most absurd, ridiculous concept-as if there were any way that I could exist without needing you!" (New Moon 509-510) I was totally focused on his words. They had a ring of truth. It scared me. Could I honestly let myself believe it?

"How can I put this so that you'll believe me? …I'm here and I love you. I have always loved you, and I will always love you. I was thinking of you, seeing your face in my mind, every second that I was away. When I told you that I didn't want you, it was the very blackest kind of blasphemy."(New Moon 510) I guess that answers my first question. I thought hysterically. It was too much to process. Could Edward really love me? I had been so sure for so long. His words were a light in the darkness. If I chose to believe him, would I regret it? The answer came to me instantly, no. I loved him too much to ever regret any time spent with him.

"I love you, Edward Cullen." I said simply. His eyes lit up.

"That's all I needed to hear." (New Moon 512)He kissed me and my world was on fire.

"Don't leave me again." I clung to him. I didn't care if I sounded pathetic. I need to know for sure.

"I'm not going anywhere. Not without you."(New Moon 512) My heart expanded because I believed him. How can you not believe an angel? "All these years, Bella, It was like my heart was gone-like I was hollow. Like I'd left everything that was inside me here with you."

"I thought it was just me." He kissed me again.

"I love you, Isabella Marie Swan." I kissed him again and again. I couldn't get close enough to him. It was like I had my soul back. The world had colors again, life. We still had things to work out, but I was sure we could do it. Edward loved me. That was all I needed.

So there you have it. Hope you liked it. I felt like I was just copying the book, but I think I got something original in there. Review please! Don't forget to check out my other FanFictions.