Hey, sorry about the HUGE cliffhanger! Anyway, this is a filler chapter. Enjoy!

Chapter 14: Guilty as charged

Pain was the understatement of the freakin' century! Raw screams escaped me as I kept thrashing, trying to keep the deadly claws away from tearing through my flesh. My whole body ached with agony, it felt like he set me on fire! My eyes, blurred by my tears, so I couldn't see much, but it wasn't like I'd want to see this horror. Scalpel cackled as he sliced through my stomach, and I arched my back screaming violently. It was a brutal nightmare and all I could do was scream, and cry, and beg for him to stop. Everything thing in my insides screamed to get away, but I was still restrained by the straps. I squeezed my eyes shut, letting the hot tears run down my cheek. Oh, just kill me now! Make the pain stop! Make the pain stop!

Somewhere between my silent prayers , I ended up passing out, my body couldn't take any more agonizing pain and I half hoped I'd ended up dying, then the pain could finally stop.

~ Becca's POV ~

I was beyond just worried, I was terrified! I haven't heard a lot about the Decepticons, but from what I do know, is that they are responsible for many human deaths. I sat, with my knees pulled up to my chest and my arms tightly wrapped around me, shaking as everyone ran past. People were barking orders, military trucks were leaving, but I did not care! I was dreadfully scared! Macey was basically the sister I'd never had, there's just NO way I'd want to lose her! Not to this, not to a war that she didn't deserve to be thrown into, NONE OF THE HUMANS DESERVED IT!

Anger flared through me and I clenched my jaw, this is all THEIR FAULT! Macey could be DEAD, she's only 20! She doesn't deserve Sunstreaker's crappy attitude, or being in constant watch, or being STILL considered a 'threat'! And now, she's kidnapped by the Decepticons! The evil ones!

"Rebecca, are you okay?" a concerned voice pulled me away from my thoughts.

"Go away." I said, lamely, burying my face in my arms. I wasn't ready to lose my best friend.

"Rebecca, I-"

"Leave me alone!" I snapped, looking up and immediately regretting it. It was Lennox, with a slightly startled expression on his face. He took a small step back.

I sighed, "I'm sorry…."

"There's no need to apologize, I understand what you're going through." He says softly.

"But it's not fair! Why her? Why my best friend of all people had to be abducted by aliens?" I said, my anger flaring again.

"We feared that this would happen," He started, "That is why we didn't want her to leave. Part of this is my fault, I should've put my foot down and said no."

I looked up at him, my eyes widening. "W-Wait, what did you say?"

He sighed, his eyes dropping to the ground, "…..I shouldn't have been so easily persuaded. I guess I just felt sympathetic because... I was missing my family too."

"No," I said quietly, He looked back up at me, "I begged her to do it! I wanted to see my family, she only did it because she didn't want to see her best friend slowly go insane! It's my fault! All of it!"

I wanted to break out into hysterics, but Lennox had a strong hand on my shoulder, and gave me a reassuring squeeze.

"Rebecca, none of this is you're fault, I…..we should've just been better prepared for a situation like this, everything will be okay."

Everything was not okay, far from it! Just a month ago I was a normal 21 year old girl, with a lazy and slightly-sarcastic roommate/best friend. Next thing I know, he and some soldiers show up at our door and then alien robots!

"Lennox?" A baritone, but regal voice asked, pulling me out of my thoughts once more. I turned to see that it was Optimus, well in his holo-thingy or whatever Ratchet said, I don't remember clearly.

"Yes Optimus?" Lennox asked.

"May I intervene?" He asks and Lennox smiles, squeezing me softly again before departing, leaving us both there. I burry my face in my arms again.

"I apologize for what has happened." He rumbles, and I sighed.

"It's all my fault! None of this would've happen if Macey didn't convinced you guys to let us leave for me."

There was a long pause, and I vaguely wondered if he was still here, I was just about to peek and see when he finally replied.

"None of this is your fault, I assure you. We shouldn't have let you two off the Island in the first place."

I laughed dryly, "You know, Lennox just told me the same thing…but it doesn't make me feel any less guilty. She convinced you all to let us go for me! She was afraid I'd go insane, or deeply depress because I'd miss my family and a sense of normalcy. My own selfishness put her life in jeapordy…..it's all my fault, Optimus. No one else here is to blame but me."

"Everyone makes mistakes." He said, taking a few steps forward, but not daring to touch me.

"Yeah, but I screwed up big-time." I muttered.

"Screwed up?" Optimus asks confused, I finally look up to see a perplexed look on his face. I then realize he doesn't know the term and chuckle slightly.

"It's a human saying, it means 'messed up really badly'."

Optimus nodded, sitting down crissed-crossed next to me. I give him a small smile, and he gives a smile in return.

"Shouldn't you be helping the others look for her?" I whisper.

He sighs, "We are doing the best we can to track her down. But I do wish to make sure that your well being is in a good state."

I sighed in return, "I'm….fine. I just would like to be alone."

He inclines his head, "I can respect that." With that, he gets up and walks away, and I let my head fall back into my arms, the guilt only growing.

~ Sunstreaker's POV ~

I easily evaded all the cars until I hit a nearly empty long road, and was at high speed as I raced down the road, the world a fast blur. I was angry. More angrier than normal when I have to fight a 'Con. I fight them, I kill them, but something…deep down inside me craved more than just a fight, it wanted revenge. Revenge for the heavy guilt on my spark that fragging femme caused as I sped down the road.

Sunny, where are you? My twin brother cuts through my thoughts, speaking over the twin bond.

Not now Sides. I growled.

Sunstreaker, I-

Sideswipe, I'm on a fragging mission! I need to focus! What the slag do you want?! I roared, my temper rising.

I…..I'm coming with you.

I internally rolled my optics, Don't be stupid. This was MY mistake, I have to fix it.

Is that your way of saying you're worried and you care about her?

I didn't respond. Shock and somewhat perplexed by my twin brother's words.

It doesn't matter what you say anyway. Optimus approves, so I'm coming.

I groaned, You're such a hard-headed fragger.

He snickered, That's the pot calling the kettle black.

I jerked slightly, What?

He snickered again, It's a human phrase, look it up.

I rolled my optics again. But slightly relieved I wouldn't have to go all alone. But did I really care that much for the femme? Enough to crave vengeance for her kidnapping? My processors were disagreeing, but…..my spark felt different. Everytime I heard her name, my spark fluttered, and I almost enjoyed our banter sometimes….

Oh slag, don't tell me I have….no, it can't be possible! And with a femme? An organic human femme, from this mud ball of a planet? No! I refused to believe in such foolishness! But ….my spark longed to see her, to know she was okay and safe. I growled in frustration, and I drove even faster than I knew I could.

Primus…..why did it have to be her of all femmes?

Hehe….Sunny's got conflicted feelings for her now! I love writing this stuff! Next chapter coming soon : ) .