Zaruzo had gone through every thought, every memory, everything that Gai has ever done, ever beeb, to make sure that he would know how to communicate with Lee, making him believe that it was his 'Gai-sensei', and not some imposter. Zaruzo chuckled inside of Gai's mind, hoping that Lee was foolish enough to believe anything that was going down.

When Lee was a teenager, he was curious and wanted to know what Gai really thought of him. But Gai could never bring himself to tell Lee about his thoughts, or his dreams; He didn't want to lose Lee over something as terrible as that. So, one day, when Gai was gone on a mission, Lee began to snoop through Gai's room; he was just getting to damn frustrated with not knowing about what was shadowing his relationship with his beloved sensei.

Not too long after, Lee found a few journal; he had glimsped Gai writing in them a few times before, but not a lot. When Lee came up to a bookmark-type-thing, he began to read.

November 25th, 200X

Dear Journal,

I can't deal with this anymore, and since my rival refuses to let me vent to him, I guess I'm stuck to venting to you (despite the fact that LEE MAY READ THIS!)

Lee gulped, but continued reading on further.

I've been having dreams of Lee...Dreams that I am not proud of...Not only the dreams, but, also, the thoughts...

I feel so ashamed of myself, and I know that Lee would hate me if he were to read this...

But, I have to go on with life, even if it means to shut Lee out...

I know that is selfish of me, but I can never let him know of these feelings...

I can't put him through that...

I know how terrible it is to lose a sensei because of an admiration that goes beyond a sensei-student relationship...

But I have moved on...from that...

Anywho, arigatou for letting me vent.

~Gai

"So, you've found my journal..."

Lee gasped and looked behind him, seeing Gai's red-eyed gaze on him.

"I...I am...t...terribly sorry, sensei...I...I-i never..." Lee's hands began to shake so much, he dropped the journal. Gai walked closer to Lee. "Now you know...the disgusting truth, Lee...Know what a terrible teacher I am..." Lee stood up and yelled at Gai.

"Do not say that! You are an honorable man, with a man's needs! You can not help what your body wants-"

"Lee, I've dreamed of fucking you! How can you explain that!" Tears were falling down Gai's eyes. "I am lusting for you...no...I am in love with you, and I've thought of doing so many things-"

"So what if you are in love with me!"

Gai froze and looked Lee dead in the eyes, his body jolting from what Lee said.

"I do not care if you are in love with me. I do not care if you are lusting for me. I do not care if you do not give a shit about me! You are my sensei, and, even more so, a father to me! A father that I never had!" Gai fell to his knees, shocked by Lee; the language he was using to make his point...

"You are the only one who has ever cared for me. So, please, do not stop being my most important person because of this...please?" Gai got up and ran to Lee, embrassing his tightly, letting the young boy sob into his arms.

"Oh, Lee...Thank you...for not hating me..."

"I could never hate you..."

'Well, might as well fuck the child, since I'm his most important person!' Zaruzo's laughter echoed inside of Gai's mind, and soon, Gai's body was laughing with him.

A/N: Yeah, I guess for everytime I write for Zaruzo, there will be a flashback...I guess...But don't worry, my fans! I will (inevitably) write flashbacks for WHY THE FUCK ZAZY HATES GAARA!

Zaruzo:...Call me 'Zazy' one more time, and I'll-

Me: And you'll what? Make me type something drastic? Oh, please, princess, I OWN you!

Zaruzo:...Ah, fuck-nuts...

And I'm a try to...go against my word and TRY TO WORK ON MY MORE-THAN-A-YEAR-OLD-FANFICS! *facepalms and looks through her documents to find all of last summers fanfics*

And, yes, King, I used ur birthday...but only cuz ur b-day and Lee's are two days apart, DERP!

~Sensei