S: whew… that's a lot…
K: that was amazing, did you enjoyed it Sousuke?
S: of course, I wouldn't have it any other way ^^
We kissed each other, again. I really am glad that we did "it" because somehow it makes me forget about that terrible incident that happens today. I feel lucky to have him for me, but somehow there is a guilt left in my heart. It's not about Gou anymore, rather everyone else. I'm practically have already messing around with every single one of my friend in Harusu. I think, if I want to be a good boyfriend for Sousuke, I should tell him everything. After all, he already knew I'm messing around with one of his crush, and we are okay now. So it should be fine to open up some more, right…? I hope it is
K: Sousuke…
S: hmm? What is it Kuugo?
K: well…. You see….. I really want to open up to you about everything
S: what are you talking about? Is it about Gou again? He already told me that, don't worry about it
K: no, but rather close….. it includes all of our friends, ALL of them
S: …. Okay, god…, give me strength… I'm listening, go ahead, I'm ready…. I hope
K: you see… Gou and Rai-san is not the only friends that I've been messing around with… hehehe -_-
S: …..mhmm?
K: I a-also messing around with Yuujirou-kun and Y-yamato-san….
S: … what did you do exactly?
K: I once being sucked and fucked by Yamato-san and touching Yuujirou when he sleeps…
S: okay….. I mean… Wow…., You are slutty, you know that?
K: I'm sorry -_-
S: haaah, no wonder you are single before
K: h-hey what's that supposed to mean?
S: it means that you didn't have a relationship because you are such a slutty dog
K: that's mean…..
S: hehehe, don't take it too seriously, it's okay, I'm not mad as much. I love every bit of you, even your slutty and dirty personality. I'm just glad that you are being honest to me now
K: … I don't know if I should be happy or not. Well, there's one more thing….
S: there's more?
K: for this one, I really REALLY need you to hear me from start to finish, okay?
S: I have a bad feeling about this….
K: you remember, that time, when Seiya-
S: OH NO YOU DID NOT DO THAT TO HIM KUUGO?!
K: please let me finish, after that, you can find knife in the kitchen if you need to, okay?
S: I think I need something more than a knife… go ahead, I'm listening
K: when I was first come here, Seiya visits you; so I should sleep at the Lounge. After that, he uses the fountain and put everyone to sleep. When I come here I found him playing some games and have a conversation with him. After that, he says that he found my lube under the bed, I forgot to take it with me…
S: …. *killing fucking instinct intensifies*
I can feel a killer instinct from his eyes, I can tell that he is really REALLY pissed. Well, I continue my story anyway
K: he asked me what is it and I…..
S: you what?
K: sh-showed him how to use it for….. masturbating…..?
S: you.. SHOWED him?
K: y-yeah… I just using my hand, that's all
S: … just using your hand…. Wow….. you really are something; you know that Kuugo?
K: s-sorry…. I never do anything else, I promise
S: …..haaaaah….. somehow I can't feel mad at you anymore, I just used to it. But do that to underage kid is illegal you know that?
K: I'm really sorry, he just curious about it so I think it wouldn't hurt to tell him how to do it
S: ….….. sometimes I don't really understand what is it in the little head of yours
K: …
After that he pinched my nose so hard
K: awawaawawaw
S: you deserve it
K: I know, sorry
After that he held me close and rest his head on my chest. Maybe he wants me to pet him again?
S: is that all your secret Kuugo?
K: yeah, I already told you my all secret. Are you mad Sousuke?
S: do I have to explain that?
K: ….. no
S: for Seiya, I genuinely mad at you, but for the others…. It's more of a jealousy
K: oh Sousuke, you are the same as ever, it really cute ^^
S: s-stop it…. Anyway, I have another plan tomorrow besides the doctor appointment
K: what is it?
S: I was planning to gather everyone at the lounge and explain everything about us
K: are you serious? Isn't it a bit of a hassle for you?
S: I don't want what happens today is happening in the future. I don't want anyone to try messing around with you ever again
K: aaaaawh… L
S: Hey! What's with the "aaaawh" just now? are you still trying to messing around with other people?!
K: hehehehe, jealous as always huh? I just messing around with you Sousuke
S: yeah, and "that" is exactly what I don't want you do with anybody else, messing around
K: wow…., Nice come back ^^
S: can you stop joking around? Jeeez
K: hehehe you don't have to be so tense Sousuke
S: seriously, you are coming with me tomorrow meeting everyone else, got it?
K: ya ya, you don't have to ask me, of course I will tag along
S: good. How about we go to sleep now?
K: you already exhausted? I still want to have a little chat with you
S: after all that happened today, I think you would be more exhausted than me, apparently not. Beat the shit out of Gou is a hard work you know that?
K: what? You beat him, why? -_-
S: well, do I have to remind you how he just rapes you today? Besides, he really makes you feel sad and guilty today, of course I feel furious. But he feels sorry and I think we shouldn't be too hard on him
K: yeah, I don't really mad at him because he didn't really understand our situation back then
S: yeah, that's why I will come to lagoon tomorrow, maybe helping out a little bit to show that I don't have and ill will anymore
K: I would really love that ^^
S: me too ^^
K: well…. I think I'm starting to feel sleepy, shall we sleep now?
S: yeah, we should
K: come here-
I hugged him and do his favorite thing in the world, stroking his fur slowly while helding him close at the same time. He's smiling peacefully, I feel the warmth of his body and smile. Sleeping with him always makes me happy, especially knowing that I will spending all day with him, no more hiding, just you and me, my lovely dog. This is the best thing that ever happened to me
S: hmmmmm…. Hmmmmmmmmh….
I woke up when I hear Sousuke's voice
K: hmmm…..? what time is it?
I looked up to the alarm clock and it was 3 am in the morning. I look at Sousuke and I can see he is still sleeping like a baby, so adorable. Did he just grunting in his sleep just now? hehehe, look who's sleep talking now?
S: mhmmmm no….. no…..
Is he having a nightmare? Maybe he is exhausted from what happened today. I hope he is okay
S: no…. Kuugo…. Don't go… please… don't….. Kuugo
He is talking about me just now, even in his dream, he scared of losing me. Now I know why he get jealous so easily and being possessive over me, he really loves me. I will never move from his side, not now, not tomorrow, not in a million years. I will always with you Sousuke
K: I'm here Sousuke…. I'm here…..
S: Kuugo…?
I held him close and he stops his sleep talking, I can see a smile in the edge of his face. Its alright Sousuke, I will not go anywhere, I will be here… always
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The next morning, I woken up by Sousuke kiss on my face. Is this our thing now? maybe, I enjoyed it though
S: good morning Kuugo
K: mhmmmm, good morning Sousuke…. You prepare yourself already? It's still early, right?
S: yeah, I woke up and prepare myself early so I could make you some breakfast
K: really? Thank you Sousuke, it's so sweet
S: well, go prepare yourself, we can still enjoy our time before we go to the lounge
K: oh yeah….. we should do "that", huh?
S: yeah, I already text everyone to gather at the lounge after the lounge closed
K: okay then, I will wash my face first
S: sure, I will wait in the dining room with our breakfast
I give my face a quick wash, brush my teeth and change my clothes. When I finish, sousuke is waiting for me with some sandwich and coffee
S: there you are, eat up
K: sure, thanks
I quietly enjoy my meal and I see Sousuke with his coffee, glancing out to the window. I think he is thinking about something
K: hey, Sousuke?
S: …. oh, sorry. Did you call me?
K: yeah, is that something bothering you? You seem quiet just now
S: well, it's nothing really. I just think that….. it's a hell of a month
K: mhmm, a lot of thing just happened, huh?
S: mhmmm, especially about us, there's so much thing happened in our relationship, both good and bad
K: sorry if it exhaust you in a way, you know….. all the drama
S: no no, I don't feel bothered at all. In fact, I glad that all of these obstacles appear now
K: why so?
S: well, even with the greatest problem, we can still get through it. I've learned a lot about you and myself this past weeks and I sure about one thing; We already deal with the biggest issue in our relationship and it will get better from here. We are can't get separated, because in the end of the day, we will always find a way out. That's how I feel about us
What Sousuke said just make me realize how strong we are as a couple, mostly his. Sousuke can always see a bright side of everything and understand the situation, no matter how hard the situation really is. But me? I always do a mess and caught up in a bad situation. You could say we are fill each other perfectly. We have a different personalities and trait and that's what make our relationship interesting. Every day, I learn something about him, and he learns something about me as well. I just hope that I don't burden him as much. I hope I can be some fresh air in his life.
K: Sousuke….. I feel happy that you think about us that way. I do feel that we are getting better at dealing with all this, especially you. I think you are the only one capable of dealing with my shenanigans
S: yeah, I think it's just me that can take all your bullshit, hehehe. You can get tangled in weird and stupid situation, you know that?
K: I-I know, I think I'm a trouble magnet or something -_-
S: hehehe, but that's okay, I learn how to deal with all that. It just makes my life interesting; our life more interesting
I put my hand around his shoulders and pull him close to me
K: thank you Sousuke, for everything ^^
We look at each other and he give me the most precious smile in my life. Even I can be calmed just by a smile on his face. Just by that, I already know what's inside his mind. We don't even have to talk any further. We hit that level of trust where no word is needed. Just smile, touch, and feeling. It's all clear. We are one
To be continued