Bella's POV

Weeks went by and I hadn't heard from Edward or Aro. My depression had came back to accompany me almost daily. The hole in my chest was far worse than it had been when Edward first left.

Some days I could function, but most days I barely got out of bed. I betrayed my first love and the man I was falling for deserted me. He was the one person I thought understood me and felt the same way. Obviously he must have realized how pathetic I was and had gone back to Italy.

Even though he had left without a word, I still thought of him all the time. Every night I sat by the window hoping to see him again. I curled up crying against his suit jacket whenever Charlie was at work. His scent was barely there anymore.

Charlie was pulling double shifts more often, my mother was busy with Phil and even Jacob hadn't been answering my calls. I felt completely and utterly alone. No one wanted me in their life anymore.

Thanksgiving passed and soon the snow started to fall. Charlie started fighting with me because I was always depressed. I was just a burden to everyone. I needed a friend so badly and no one was there. My depression was slowly consuming me.

I put on my jacket and boots before heading out the door. I needed to talk to Jake before I did something stupid. It took me a few minutes to try starting the truck up before the engine turned over. My lack of driving it may have affected the battery. I'd ask Charlie to look at it later.

I pulled up in front of Jacob's house as Billy Black rolled outside. As I got out of the truck he spoke to me. "Go on home Bella, he doesn't want to talk."

"Billy, please tell him I just want to talk for a minute."

"Bella, you need to leave. You've put Jacob under enough stress as it is." He was calm, but his face was serious.

"Please Billy I'm begging you!" I started to walk towards the porch and slipped on a patch of ice. I hit my head pretty hard, but I seemed fine. My cheeks flushed with embarrassment. "Please Billy, just this once."

As I slowly stood up, Billy went back inside. I stood there for a few minutes wondering if Jacob was going to come out. Finally he arrived at the door looking completely exhausted. I wondered if it my fault that he looked this way.

"Bella, get out of here. I don't care what you have to say. Don't you think you've caused enough trouble? I heard about your new filthy blood sucker." He laughed without humor then. "You're clearly not the Bella I thought you were. Edward tries to get you to be with me and you cheat on him? Wow Bella, you have a lot of nerve showing your face around here."

"Jacob, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to hurt you. I really need a friend now. Can you just,"

He interrupted me before I could continue. "Just get out of here Bella! I'm already losing enough sleep because of you."

"Jake please!" Tears were starting to fill my eyes.

He crossed his arms and shook his head. "I don't want to hear it Bella. You're no longer welcome here. Please leave before I have to force you to leave."

I held in my emotions and got back into the truck without another word. My chest was filled with so much guilt and pain. Even Jacob hated me now. A few miles down the road I started sobbing. I could barely see the road with watery eyes. I kept trying to blink the tears away and stay focused on driving. A moment I was on the road and the next I slammed into a ditch.

I got out to assess the damage. My tire had hit a rock in the ditch and was now flat. Could things get anymore worse? I pulled out my phone to call Charlie. The screen was completely shattered and my phone wouldn't turn on. It must've happened when I fell earlier.

The truck was completely lodged in the ditch with a flat tire and I had no way to call anyone. This was one of the worst days of my life! I took off walking and didn't even try to fight the tears anymore. I felt so alone and so worthless. All I ever did was hurt people. I didn't belong anywhere in this world.

I came up to a sharp curve that sat in front of La Push. I looked out across the icy lake. My fingers were numb from the cold. I deserved a lot worse than numb hands though. As I gazed at the lake I noticed a snow covered path. My eyes followed the path to a cliff over the lake. It was at that moment that I made a final decision and allowed my depression to completely consume what was left of me.