Title: Gundam Diaries Part 14 ~ Wufei
Author: Makoto Sagara
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Pairings: 5x2, 3x4, & R + 1 (Relena obsessed Heero)
Category: Romance, Angst, Other….
Warnings: yaoi, language, angst, imprisonment, confuzzlement, and Wufei's & Duo's Episode Zero stories
Disclaimers: : I don't own Gundam Wing. I am only "borrowing" the G-boys for a little while. I just want to mess with their pretty little heads, before I turn them back over. I promise they won't be hurt in anyway that can't be repaired by a little TLC. Also, I made diddley-squat for this. My only reward is the fact that my fans are happy and amused, and my muse is finally off my back, or leg as the case maybe. * Smacks said muse upside her head. *
A/N: Here I am, writing this when I told myself no more Gundam Wing until I had finished my Weiß Kreuz fic. I only have one more chapter of that to complete. I have Kami only knows how many more of this one. * sighs * Not that I don't love writing this fic, because I do, but I kind of miss my Weiß fic, and my friends will probably kill me now. Well, anyway, thank you to everyone who has reviewed. It's lovely to see that you haven't forgotten me all this time, even if it took forever and a day to get the last one done. ^_^
Dedication: This chapter is for Stacy, Kami, and Hakki, because they are three of the coolest onna I know, and they give awesome feedback online. ^_^
April 11th, 195 AC… 23:30:00
I believe I will kill that demented onna, and just rid the world of her annoying personage. I just spent the last week with the most amazing person in the world, and it turns out that that person is Duo Maxwell. Who would have thought that in the middle of the Siberia Desert, in a tiny little hovel, that I would have found the one human being who makes me feel so utterly sound.
This whole predicament began with the mission that took me from him so suddenly. I left his room, talked to Winner quickly, and then made my way to Shenlong. I then spent the next 6 hours riding in the tiny cockpit of Nataku with only a book to keep me company.
Normally, this situation would have been fine with me, but for some reason the total lack of another voice was slowly driving me insane. After about an hour of nothing but the sound of my breathing and the thrusters of my suit to keep me company, I searched throughout my bags for a CD. The first one that caught my attention was the gift from Duo.
My whole body yearned for the feel of his delicately lithe body, the taste of his lips, the warmth of his presence. I needed him unlike anything I had ever needed before. This thought disturbed me greatly. I was a warrior. Warriors rely on nothing but their skills and training to get them through a war. They do NOT require the assistance of others to get through times like this. But, I didn't care about all that with him beside me, smiling with the morning sun shining on his beautiful sleeping face.
I placed the CD into Nataku's drive, and set it on repeat. I only turned it off when the computer told me that I was approaching my destination, and I knew that I would need complete silence to make it into the cave where Nataku would be staying for the week.
I zipped off the platform off the cockpit of Nataku, re-shouldered my bag, and double checked in my head that I had everything I would need for the next week. It was all accounted for, and I shivered slightly as the cold wind blew through the cave. I watched as the hatch closed and then pulled out the camouflage net, making sure every inch of the suit was covered.
I ran the short 2 kilometers to the shack, and opened the door. It was quaint I suppose. There was a large couch, rugs, tables and a space heater in what looked like the living room. The kitchen area produced a few modern conveniences, a dining table, and a suitable refrigerator which connected to the small generator outside. I could only assume that the other door I saw lead to the sleeping area or a bathroom. I think I would have killed for a proper bath after spending 6 hours in my Gundam.
I was about to sit down on the couch when something hit me in the back of the head, and everything grew dark.
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I woke up groggily, and noticed that there was someone else next to me. I sat straight up then. There was someone else with me, and they were too close to be an enemy, or they were just plain stupid.
I waited for my eyes to adjust to the change in light. When I arrived, the place was dark. Now, there were a few lights on. I looked around, and next to me was the sleeping form of Duo.
How in the seven hells did he end up here? But that accounted for the extra someone so close to me. I ran a hand through his bangs and saw that there was nothing wrong with his face. But an inspection of his cranium told me that he had suffered the same fate I had as he entered.
I was about to move him when a voice made my blood run cold.
"I wouldn't do that, Master Wufei, if I were you. You could wake him, and that would be most unfortunate." The hidden voice said calmly.
"Pargon? Why are you here? Where is that crazy onna you work for? I know she has something to do with this, since you are here." I tried to keep my voice level as I spoke. I didn't need Duo to wake up just then.
"All things will be revealed as soon as Master Duo awakens."
"Fine, but how long have I been out?" I snarled.
He didn't even blink or flinch. "I would say that you were out for about 3 hours when Master Duo arrived."
"Kuso." I sat in stony silence while the other man left the room for the kitchen area.
He returned with a cup of tea. I took it from him, and slowly sipped it, making sure there was nothing in it.
"It is not poisoned, Master Wufei. It is just green tea, with nothing else, if I remember that correctly."
"Yes. Arigatou." I continued to sip the tea, and I watched Duo stir and sigh. He looked so peaceful and so much like the 15 year old boy that we were all supposed to be. He smiled and then snuggled close to me. I was horrified that the older man might find us in this position and tell Relena. That would be very uncomfortable, but all such thoughts banished from my mind as he draped his arm over my thigh.
"Mmm, Fei, you are so warm." He muttered sleepily.
That brought the blood to my face, but I quickly controlled that reaction because of Pargon's presence. I silently ignored my body's reaction to having Duo so close, and continued to drink my tea. The old man disappeared into the kitchen again, and I moved Duo carefully.
I ran to my bag, which was placed carefully on one side of the door, and grabbed my laptop. I tried to send a message to both Master O and Winner, but I got an error message from my computer. DAMN, signals are jammed. I walked calmly back to the couch and took my position next to Duo once more.
As the hours passed, I became increasingly more annoyed at the whole situation. I knew that I should have left as soon as I woke up, but I couldn't leave Duo here with Pargon to carry out whatever orders he had on my love.
Finally, the sleeping boy began to stir. "Duo."
He turned over, and I managed to see him smile happily. Only he could smile that brightly in his sleep. I placed my hand on his shoulder and called out to him again. "Duo, answer me. Duo?"
His eyes flew open. "'Fei?" He tried to sit up, but he looked as if he might be sick, and fell back onto the couch.
I was relieved that he was awake and coherent. It would take a lot more than a blow to the head to kill Duo Maxwell. "Thank my ancestors you have such a thick skull. When he hit you over the head, I thought that you were going to be out forever."
"Fei, how did you get here?" He gave me a confused look as his eyes opened again.
"This is where I was sent on my 'mission.'" I scoffed. Some mission. I had been hit over the head, trapped with a sleeping Duo in my lap, couldn't use my computer for anything worthy, and I couldn't open any windows or doors.
He sat up, and looked around the room, evidently taking in the scenery. "How long have I been out?" He rubbed his head, the spot where a nice sized bump could be seen starting to show.
"A few hours, Master Maxwell." Pargon called from the dark, and Duo looked over to where the man was emerging.
"Pargon?"
"Yes, and now that both of you are awake and fully aware, I have something to show you." The old man sighed and walked over to a nice little setup. A laptop with a screen big enough for anyone in the room to watch was sitting on a table across from us. He gave a small sigh, and looked back at us.
"What the hell is this about, Pargon? Where the hell is Relena?" Duo had stood up and started yelling, but he was still unstable and looked as if he might fall. I reached out an arm and steadied him.
"It's pointless. I've been here for about 5 hours now, and he won't tell me." I glared at the man standing too far away for me to throttle him.
"Now is the time for all the answers, gentlemen. If you will please just pay attention." He placed a disc into the laptop and pulled the screen up so we could see whatever it was that was going to be playing.
The onna stared back at us, with a very disgustingly smug smile on her face.
"Well, if you are here, finally, I have a few things to say to you. The reason you are both here, frankly, is because Duo is in my way, and Wufei, I know your little secret." She gave a smile that put Winner to shame.
"Duo, your incessant stalking of MY Heero, has become intolerable. This is a little reprieve. Think of this as a vacation away from reality. You need it.
"Wufei, I know you're in love with him. For whatever sick reason that is, I don't care. You need to just tell him how you feel, and get it over with. I am normally not this crude and outright rude, but for you two stubborn boys, I am going to sink to this level."
She had really gotten on my nerves with the cracks she was throwing at both of us, not to mention that her delusions were so far off base they were almost funny. I shot Duo a look that asked 'Is this onna for real?', and he shot me one that confirmed he had no idea, but was more than likely to agree with me.
"Well, I have decided that you both will be spending a week here. No one will find you. I have taken too much precaution for them to actual find you, if they miss you at all. I hope you like your surroundings. As soon as Pargon leaves," both of us looked at the poor man, who sighed yet again. "The door will lock. And, I wouldn't suggest trying to pick it. It's electronic, and only Pargon and myself have the code.
"The door will automatically unlock after your week is up. Wufei, do us all a favor, lay the poor desperate creature, and get it out of both of your systems. There is enough food for four people to last about 2 weeks. That should be more than enough for you, Duo."
Duo glared dangerously at the screen, and I was just taken aback by the gall of this onna.
"There is a nice space heater to keep you both warm. It is connected to the generator outside, as is the fridge. There is a nice big bathroom for you both, so don't you worry your pretty little heads about that." She stopped for a moment and looked like she was thinking. "That should be about it. Even if they find your Gundams, it's supposed to snow again, and they won't be able to follow your tracks. Enjoy boys." She smiled and the screen went blank.
Before I had time to react, Duo had jumped up from the couch again. "That little bitch! She's got us trapped here." He tried to run for the door.
Pargon appeared at the door before Duo could grab the handle. "I wouldn't suggest you try to run, Master Maxwell. I'm sorry about this, but I have to follow her orders."
"Pargon, you work for a demented onna." I sneered, but remained seated on the couch. "Does she really think she can lock us up in this hovel?"
"Well, you are here. You have seen the message. It is now my time to retreat." He gently moved Duo out of his way. I glared at him to let him know that if he hurt him, I would have NO qualms about killing him.
"Just answer me this one question, Pargon. Who hacked into the doctors' database?" Duo pleaded.
"I did."
"What?"
Now, THAT was surprising. I never would have guessed that old Pargon could hack into a database that Heero Yuy helped set up. I was stunned.
"I did it, because Relena-sama ordered me to do so. It is my job." He moved him out of the way again, and left.
The American futilely pulled on the door, but it didn't budge a millimeter. "Shit, we really are stuck here." He spared a look in my direction. "She's sick. If she thinks this is the way to get Heero to love her, then she has lost it."
"And, this is exactly why I stay away from onna." I scoffed, and walked over to my braided lover. "But, she did have a point. I think I should take some of her advice." I gave him a playful wink for good measure.
He looked at me as if I had grown a third eye, or an extra arm. "What are you talking about?"
"I need to just screw your brains out. That would be better for everyone, ne?" I whispered evenly into his ear.
He gave a small shiver of excitement, and I could tell from the look on his face that he was becoming erect as we spoke. I placed my hands around his small waist, and drew him close to me to let him know that I was hard as well. He shivered once again, and smiled. "Oh, 'Fei-chan, you know exactly what to say, don't you?"
"No, but I'm a fast learner. Now, where should we…the couch? I think there is a bed in the other room. The floor?" I had to have him. The time spent with him in my arms was driving me insane, and my hormones were taking over, quickly. I started looking around the small area we were in.
He moaned; a complete mixture of desire and desperation. "Oi, Wu-bebi, you do understand that we are trapped here don't you? Until that crazy girl lets us out. Doesn't that bother you?"
I looked at the conflicting emotions, anger, lust, tiredness, cross his beautiful face, and I stopped to actually think through the haze. "We are stuck here. None of the windows open. The door is sealed shut. Our laptops won't transmit out. I already tried to send a message out to Winner and Master O. I couldn't even get on long enough to try and type it. The only thing our laptops are good for are entertainment at this point."
I stopped to let him process the information. "Kuso, this means we really are stuck here. I wish we could get back to our Gundams, and get the hell outta here."
"Is it really that bad to be stuck here with me for a week?" I asked, raising an eyebrow at him.
"No, not at all, but are you sure you can take being in a three-room hole with me for a whole week. You normally yell at me to leave you alone after two minutes or so."
"Hm, I'm quite sure we can find some ways to amuse ourselves." I rasped.
"Sheesh, Fei-kun, you are so hentai now." He smiled and then wrapped his arms around my neck.
"You did it. Besides, I haven't been able to hold you for almost a day." I held him tighter against my body. The incessant need to have him, touch him, be with him was taking over again.
He moaned, deep and low, and it went straight to my center of need, but the moment was ruined when he yawned.
"Tired, Duo?"
He blushed. "A little. Napping in Shinigami doesn't really count as sleep. Besides, before I left the safe house, Quatre drug me out for dinner."
"Hn. And what did you have, pizza?" I snorted into his braid.
"No, actually, we went out for Chinese."
That was news to me. "Really? You always complain when I cook."
He didn't give me a look as he replied. "I was just in the mood for Chinese."
"I'm in the mood for American now, but let's go get some sleep."
He shot me a skeptical glance that wounded my honour more than anything anyone else could have done.
"I would never do anything against your will, and if you are tired, Duo, I will let you sleep. But I would like to be next to your warm body. Come on." I grabbed an arm and pulled him into the bedroom.
I let him take in the sheer luxury of the room. There was a king-sized bed, with what appeared to be satin sheets. The bed reminded me of the one that Winner has in his master bedroom at the safe house. Relena at least had taste in furniture, and there was not one SPECK of pink in the whole room.
I went behind my amazed lover, and wrapped him up in my arms. "I thought you were sleepy." I whispered into his ear, trying to make my need apparent.
He spun in my arms and faced me. "I am." He then gave a huge yawn that confirmed that, in fact , Duo Maxwell was too tired to talk.
I pushed him onto the bed, softly, and stretched out next to him. I pulled him close to me, and kept him that way for our rest. My love. My beautiful enigma.
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I woke up the next day before my lover. He looked very distraught, and the sight tore at me. I brushed his hair back from his face, and felt him lean into my touch. That brought a smile to my face, and I gently removed myself from the bed.
I gathered our bags from the other room, and placed his in plain sight for when he woke up. I knew that when he awoken, he would be cold, and then he would complain. I then decided to be nice, and I ran a bath for him, with bubbles from some of the liquid bubble bath that was sitting around the tub. He would enjoy them.
Finally, the cold hit me, and the sudden need for caffeine bade me to make some coffee. I went into the kitchen, and set up the coffee pot, and then looked around for something to make for breakfast. I found some rice and other things for a nice and easy meal. I set about to try and get the water ready when I heard rustling coming from the bedroom.
Duo was standing in the doorway of the bathroom, looking lost and confused. I smiled behind his back and walked fully into the bedroom.
"I thought you would like a bubble bath, instead of a quick shower."
"Hmmmm, always thinking ahead, aren't you, Fei-kun?"
I walked up behind him. "Yes. Now, in you go. Breakfast is almost finished."
His arm snaked out, and attached itself to my own. "Forget about breakfast and join me?"
That was surprising, and I let him know as much. "You just said to forget food? I think Hell has frozen over. There is something more important to you than food, Maxwell?"
He pushed himself plumb with my body. "Hell yes, and that is you." He breathed sexily. "But, I think you are right about Hell freezing over. It's fucking COLD here." He started to shiver.
"Well, that's why I ran a nice hot bath for you. Now, take advantage of it." I wanted to leave him, before I started the day off by making him scream my name. Nataku, it is murder being so close to him like that.
"But, I'd rather take advantage of you." He purred.
Kuso, he would have to purr. When he talks like that with that silky soft voice, it makes my body do things I would rather they not. I stopped, and turned to face him. He had the most seductive smile I have seen on ANYONE, but on him, it turned me hard on sight.
I threw my hands up, resigning to the fact that my body and heart wanted to stay with him. Well, its only coffee that's finished right now. If I do take a bath with you, then you have to help me make breakfast."
The word "Deal" was barely out of his mouth before he pulled me into the warm bathroom. Before I could blink, Duo had me stripped down to nothing, and was kissing every part that was exposed to him.
He had started to kiss on my stomach, when I realized that he still had all of his clothes on. "Mmm, someone is too dressed for a bath."
The kisses stopped as he stood up, and I had to bite back a whimper at the loss of his lips on my skin. "So I am. Care to help me with that problem?" He winked with that question.
I didn't say anything. I just pushed his lithe body against the wall, ripped his clothes off haphazardly, and soon my hands were all over his deliciously pale skin. I claimed his sweet mouth, and pillaged the wet cavern with my tongue. He moaned and went from semi-aroused to full blown erect.
He broke the kiss, to breath it looked like, and stared at me with his intensely haunting amethyst orbs. "Hmm, that bath looks really inviting right now."
"You have a point." I was wondering what action he would be taking at that moment, whether sexual or prankish. One could never tell with him.
He rubbed his arousal against my own. "I sure do. Now let's bathe." He grabbed an arm and pulled me into the tub with him. There was barely enough room with him sitting between my legs, and resting his head on my chest.
I pulled the tie that held the braid in, and unwound the meter long coil. His hair was so soft and luxurious. I had wanted to see him with his hair down and flowing the first night, but the desperation and need far exceeded anything else I had counted on. I never let it touch the water, but when I moved it, I saw this expanse of skin on his neck and shoulders that was just begging for my attention. I gave it to the beckoning, pale shell.
"Hmmm, 'Fei, that feels wonderful." He moaned loudly, and I placed another nip to that delicate area.
"I know." I grabbed the soap and the washcloth, and softly ran the soapy thing over his body, reveling in the sensations coursing through my mind. He leaned into my chest once more, and closed his eyes, a genuine smile taking over his face. Well, I couldn't have him going to sleep on me again, so I poured some water over his head, which had the desired effect.
"Huh? What the… WUFEI, what the hell did you do that for?"
" I have to wash your hair, love. We can't have it staying dirty." I smiled, amused with the little prank I had just pulled on the one person who was always getting other people.
He leaned up and took the tie from my hair, letting it fall onto my shoulders. "Much better." He snickered, and searched for the forgotten rag. He soaped it up again, and began to "wash me", I believe that's what he did, with the slowest and most sensual teasing strokes.
I growled out of frustration, and grabbed his hand to stop him. "If you don't stop teasing me, Maxwell, I will make you back up the promises your hands are making." I stared deep into his twinkling violet eyes.
"Is that a threat, or a promise, Chang?" He quipped.
"Promise." I grabbed him and kissed him as hard and as deep as I could to just let him know what he was doing to me.
I heard the cloth fall in the water, as he wrapped his arms around my neck, and then twisted around until he was sitting IN my lap. "You had better mean that, Fei-kun, or I will not be happy."
The mixture of our position, and his low threatening tone was turning me on. I placed my lips next to his ear. "I mean it. I would never lie to you. That would be very dishonourable." I whispered, and then flitted my tongue across his earlobe.
He shivered and grew wonderfully as I teased him. "Make love to me." He rasped out as I nipped the patch of skin behind my chosen target. I growled at his pleading, and then pulled back from him to look into his eyes.
"There is nothing here I can use to prep you." I didn't want to hurt him, and I remembered the way that he hissed the other night.
He leaned in closer. "Don't worry, Fei-bebi. Water is a natural lubricate." He gave me a coy smile. "Just make love to me."
"If you are sure you can handle it." I placed my hands on his small waist and lifted him hesitantly above me.
He looked at me, and gave a small, knowing smile. "Let me handle this." He removed my hands, and positioned himself carefully over my swollen erection. He then moved down slowly, enveloping me in his tight entrance. I want to thrust up at that moment, but I remembered to wait until I had passed the tight ring of muscle. When I did, the rest of my swollen member slid into him.
So tight. He was so tight I could barely hold back from coming right then and there. I had to speak before I lost all my control. "Kami, Duo, you are tighter than last time. So tight." I grabbed his head, and kissed him, hard.
He leaned into me, and hissed. I could feel his body stretching more to accommodate me. As soon as I was fully seated into his wonderfully intoxicating body, he wiggled, and gave me a little wink. That was all I needed to know, as I growled, grabbed his hips, and started to thrust up into my lover. He whimpered as I hit his prostate, and I had to kiss him again.
I ran my tongue over his pink lips, and he opened his mouth. I could taste him, and soon was lost in the double sensations, of kissing him and fucking him crazily. I vaguely noticed that his hands had found their way into my hair as he slammed himself down on me, and saw that he was biting back a scream, which was brimming over in him.
"Don't hold back. I want to hear you." I managed between thrusts. "Hmm, Duo, you feel so good." I nipped his neck, and that is when the scream was finally let out.
"FEI! Oh my god. I'm gonna cum. So close." I felt his hand snake between our bodies, and felt the jerking motions of his hand stroking his neglected erection. He had barely touched himself, when he exploded his sweet seed all over our sweat and water-drenched bodies.
As his muscles contracted, I was able to get a final thrust inside him, before I came violently. I managed to find the strength to give him another hard kiss, and he collapsed against me.
I feel his spilt seed over our stomachs more pronounced when he was leaning against me. "Kuso, we are all messy now." I whispered into his ear, short of a real breathe at that moment.
He sat up and grinned. "Good thing we are already in the bath. Let's clean up." His stomach chose that moment to make itself known to the both of us.
I smiled, wryly. "Sounds like someone is hungry." I said sarcastically as I gently slid out of him.
A bright blush appeared on his cheeks, and he moved to sitting on his knees in front of me. "Well, considering I haven't eaten in about 12 hours, yes, I'm STARVED!" He grabbed the forgotten washcloth and soap, and proceeded to try and clean us up, again.
I playfully snatched it from him. "I'll do this." I then started to clean the white, beaded liquid off his chest and stomach first, and then did my own. I remembered what it was to taste this very intimate essence, and had to remind myself to remain on task. I then grabbed the shampoo, and looked at his hair. "Shimatta, your hair is dry again, apart from the sweat."
He smiled. "Dun worry, Fei-bebi, I'll take care of that."
I watched as he arched himself backwards in the bath, getting every inch of his hair wet. I was amazed. He was nearly doubled over, the OTHER way. I had to REALLY keep my mind on task, but I knew that my eyes were huge from staring.
"What?" He smiled sheepishly.
"You… you are THAT flexible? And here I was, thinking that Quatre was the lucky one."
He snickered. "Back at the safe house, I have a copy of the Illustrated Kama Sutra. We can look at it when we get back."
I moaned, out of frustration and anticipation. "Oh, god, what have I gotten myself into." But, a smile graced my lips, and I proceeded to build a lather on his head, and working it into every inch of each strand.
"Mmm, Fei, you have no idea how good that feels…." He was actually purring like a big, graceful cat.
"That's true, but I still have to wash my hair as well." I then poured more water on his head to rinse the shampoo out. He had his eyes closed, so I wasn't worried about hurting him. When I was finished, I kissed him chastely on the cheek, and made to pick up the shampoo bottle, when Duo snatched it away.
"You wash my hair. I wash your hair. It's only even, sexy." He winked, and moved back so I could turn around. I did as I was silently commanded, and closed my eyes, as my lover took over the procedure of washing my hair.
"You are right, Duo. This is a wonderful experience. We will have to do this again. It's addictive."
"I know. Now, make sure your eyes are closed. I'm gonna rinse." He quickly rinsed my hair. "Ok, all done." His stomach growled again.
"Fine, I think we should get you some food as soon as possible, before your stomach starts to take over."
"Sounds good to me." He stood up from the tub. "Shit, it's really cold."
I followed his example. Kuso, the cold air was enough to make me shiver, especially considering the fact that I was soaking wet. I got out of the tub, quickly grabbed a towel, handed it to Duo, who was still in the tub, and grabbed another to dry myself off with. "Well hurry up, and we'll get dressed. Then, you will be warmer."
He got out of the tub and dried off. Then, walked into the bedroom, sans his towel. The sight of his naked ass made me growl, but he was running to find clothes.
"Cold. Cold. Cold. I hate the cold." He rushed the dressing process, but I was quicker than he. He gaped at me as I was brushing my hair. "How do you do that?"
"Because I can bitch and dress simultaneously." I smirked at him.
"Yeah, keep on bragging." He snatched his brush out of his bag, and I watched as his hands moved briskly, but surely, through his hair, and then he started to deftly braid his meter long hair, tightly and quickly. I was amazed. "What?" He asked, annoyed.
"I just never thought that…" I stopped.
"What? You never thought that I could do something so quickly, besides run my mouth." Duo gave me a sweet smile.
"N-no. I just thought that it would take you longer to braid that mass."
"I've been doing this since I was ten. I got used to doing it quickly." He smirked, and left the room, in search of food, no doubt.
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The rest of our day passed in a very comfortable companionship. I sat on the couch, with a book, and Duo laid his head in my lap, with a book of his own. We made lunch together. We made love a few times, each time better than the last. We fell asleep after another "shagging session" as Duo would say, curled up together, in a sweaty, sticky heap, too tired to clean ourselves up.
The next two days passed in similar fashion. I must admit that I was seeing a side of Duo that I had no idea existed. He was silent as he read, unless he found a part of his book he wanted to share. His sense of humor was slightly sarcastic, but easy to get. His appetite for sex was insatiable, which suited me just fine, since I couldn't get enough of him either.
On the 4th day, I realized at breakfast that we had both finished our books. I just stared at my gorgeous lover across the table, taking in the sight of his delicate hands working by feeding him. I suppose that my staring had unnerved him.
"What? Do I have something on my face?" He said as he looked up at me.
My face fell, ever slightly, as I shook my head. "No. I was just thinking about something."
"What were you thinking about, koi?" His use of the term lover was surprising, but not unwelcome.
"Just how did we end up together?" I wanted to know why he chose me. I mean I had chosen him a long time, but his choice was a recent one.
He frowned. "You have to ask?" He dropped his spoon in his bowl. "What do you mean by that?"
I gave a small smile. "Well, we aren't a normal couple, are we?"
"Who is?"
"That's not what I meant."
"Ok, so what did you mean?"
"I'm not sure." I was totally confused by where this was headed, and wanted to stop it, before either of us said something hurtful. "I'm not really hungry anymore. I'm going to meditate for a little bit. Okay?"
He gave me a puzzled look. "Um, sure, Wufei. That's fine. I'm going to work on something."
I stood from the table, and strode over to the far corner of the living area. I sat down, crossed my legs, and closed my eyes. I couldn't meditate though. Too much was going on in my head. I wanted to know if he truly loved me, like he had said so many times these past few days. Besides, being this close to someone was abnormal for me.
Duo had found a way into my heart, almost against my will at first. I tried to ignore it, but I suppose as I spent more time with him, the less I could ignore my feelings for the long haired boy. And then, when Yuy hit him, I refused to ignore them. I acted, almost as if detached from myself. I couldn't keep acting as if I didn't care for him more than as just a comrade.
I continued on this line of thinking for a while, until I was broken from it by Duo's voice.
"Wufei, there's more that you aren't telling me, isn't there?"
I opened my eyes slowly, and answered him honestly. "Yes."
He sighed. "What do you mean by, 'We aren't like normal couples'? What is normal anyway?"
I stood up, approached him at his perch on the couch, and sat next to him. "Well, look at Barton and Winner. They seem so happy with one another."
"Fei, Q-bean and Tro aren't your normal couple either. Even nowadays, the norm is a guy and a girl. Besides, are you worried that we won't be happy? Do you think that we are only together because of sex? Because if that is what you are worried about, don't. You make me feel so wonderful. Whole, even." He blushed, getting very red around his ears and cheeks.
I wrapped comforting arms around him. "That was never a factor. I heard your little chat with Winner the morning after our first night together. I know how you feel, but I want you to know how I feel. I want to tell you. To just tell you everything."
He kissed me, softly, almost pleadingly. "Then why don't you? I want you tell me any and everything you feel or think. I really do want to know all about you. Like, what it was like to grow up with a family. What was it like to go to school full time, and not as just a cover? Everything."
I sighed. How could I refuse such a request from him? I would have had to be dead all over to even think of it.
"Well, growing up in the Dragon Clan was not as easy as you might think. I was the only son of my parents. I loved school. I was not a warrior. I was a scholar. I loved books, and still do." I stopped and took a deep breath, trying to figure out where this was going to go.
He smiled. "Yes, you and your books. You have more in common with them than anything else."
Though I know he was only joking, that comment stung me. I elbowed him playfully. "Do you want to listen to me, or can I go back to my meditation?"
"Please finish." He placed his head against my shoulder, and that gave me enough to continue this difficult story.
"Well, when I was 13, I was married to the woman that my family picked out for me."
He sat up suddenly, and barely missed hitting me in the face. "You… you were married?"
"Yes. Her name was Merian. She was very beautiful, but she wanted so much to be a man. She wanted to fight for our home, family, clan. She wanted to do what she thought was right. I believe that I disappointed her, because I had no real will to fight in the war.
"She was so desperate to fight. I respected her for her convictions. Ours was never a marriage out of love. It was more of a contract between our parents.
"When I was first approached about fighting to help protect our colony, I refused. Merian and I fought constantly over it. She ran to Master O, and swore that she would be better for the job than I would. He told her that her place was to be in our home, and to make sure that her husband was happy.
"She was very angry at everyone. She stole a suit, and tried to help out. I ran after her, but she didn't get far before she was hit in the back…." I stopped, as I felt my voice hitch in my throat, and felt my eyes start to mist over.
"What happened to her?" He asked in a small quiet voice. He almost sounded like a child then.
"She…. Her suit blew up. She died. At that moment, when I watched my wife die, I knew that I couldn't sit at home and do nothing. So, I took O up on his offer, trained with him until Operation Meteor commenced. I swore that I would fight for her spirit. She was, and is, Nataku. Justice.
"That is why I fight. I fight for the memory of my wife, for my lost hopes of being a scholar forever, for my lost happiness. And for my lost clan. I am the last member of the Dragon Clan of L5." I felt weary, and oddly lighter after having bared my soul to Duo. I sat back against the couch, and felt a single tear slide from my eyes. For you, my Merian. My Nataku.
He placed a kiss on my lips, and wrapped his arms around me in a tight embrace. "I'm sorry, koibito. You shouldn't be here. But, now I understand why you rant. Your wife was a strong and just warrior. You are trying to keep her memory alive. Am I right?"
I hugged him back, hard, not really wanting to talk, and unable to stop. "Yes, Duo, you are correct." I sighed once more, and placed my head against his own. "So, tell me why you fight."
He took a very deep breath. "It's complicated."
"Try me."
"Well, you know that I grew up in an orphanage on L2. I never had a family that I can remember, anyway. I don't even know what my real name is, if I ever had one. I met this older boy when I was on the streets. His name was Solo."
"Hence, you are Duo?"
I felt him tense up. I suppose talking about his past was just as painful to him, but he seemed unable to stop as well. "Yes. He was my best friend. I watched him die from the "mysterious" plague on our colony. It spread so quickly. No one understood why I didn't catch it. They found me holding onto him. I didn't know that he was dead. Before he died, he made me promise that I would never cut my hair, for him. I must have been all of eight.
"They took me to Maxwell Orphanage. Father Maxwell became my surrogate father. He made me go to school, learn to read and write. He taught me how to be a good Catholic boy. Sister Helen was like our mother. She was an angel from God.
"I think I was the happiest there. One day, an Alliance group appeared at the orphanage, and told me they would leave if they got a mobile suit. I went to the nearest Alliance base, slipped in so easily, and stole it. When I got back, the whole place was just gone. Everyone was dead. I think I was 10 or 11 then.
"I ran as far as I could, and snuck onto a transport ship at the docking bay. I stayed on there for a few days before they caught me. I was then introduced to Howard of the Sweepers. You've met Howie. He treats me just like his own kid. He let me make my living by working with the other Sweepers on his ship. That was fun, and I learned a lot about all sort of things.
"Then, when I was about 13, Howie introduced me to Doctor G. He told G all about how I snuck on the ship, how quickly I learned to fly a mobile suit, repair anything, and about the little bit of my life that I had shared with him. I suppose G saw some potential in me, because on that day, I packed my things and left with G to train to pilot Deathscythe." He seemed unable, or unwilling to continue.
"Duo..." I wanted to reassure him that he didn't have to continue if he didn't want to. But, I was silenced by one of his hands coming up.
"No, let me finish. One day, I got into G's office, when he was gone, and read the particulars of Operation Meteor. I was shocked. I was going to be taking my 'Scythe, and killing tons of innocent people. I just couldn't do something like that.
"So, I rigged the whole lab and suit hangar with explosives, and right as I was going to push the detonator, G showed up. I pressed the button, but nothing happened. G then convinced me that destroying the suit and myself wasn't the best thing for peace. He told me to just steal Deathscythe, and escape to Earth, and fight against the Alliance and OZ.
"That's my whole sad sob story. And now you know why I am the way I am." He fell quiet, and I just tried to process what he had told me. He had been willing to kill himself to protect the innocents on colony X18999 and Earth. I was amazed at his nobility and honour. I had always assumed that he was just in this for the fight, but I got him wrong. None of us were in this fight willingly.
We just sat there and held one another. We were both grieving our losses, but Duo was unwilling to show himself to me it seemed. But, just holding him felt good, and I don't really remember how long we sat like that.
I felt him finally relax, and then suddenly, he turned his head into the crook of my neck and shoulder, and started sobbing. His outburst surprised me, but it also pulled at my heart. I tried to comfort him the only way I knew how, and that was by rubbing my hand across his back.
"It's ok, love, just let it all out." I tried to sound soothing and sincere. This was NOT my strong point, and I had NO experience in this kind of action.
He sat up, wiped his tears, and gave me a very puzzled glance. "Why?"
I was surprised. I hadn't been expecting that. "Why what?"
"Why are you comforting me? I know you hate it when someone shows weakness. You rant about it nonstop."
I smiled, weakly, and hugged him tightly. "You have to ask why? Because I love you, Maxwell."
His body relaxed once more, and his eyes closed, heavily. "Fei?"
"Hm?"
"Can we just stay like this? I mean cuddled on the couch. I really don't want to be alone right now."
I snickered, and placed a hand over his hair. "I'd like that." I stretched out on the couch, and gestured for him to do the same. We spent the rest of the day like that; sleeping. When we woke, we would talk, kiss, or just stare at one another. I believe that was the best day of our whole experience.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
We spent the last three days in the Shack Relena in amazing revelation. I found out that Duo reads philosophy, religion, and classics. He enjoys all types of music. I only thought that he listened to that annoying American rock music.
He was well versed in the Koran, the Torah, as well as the Christian Bible. We discussed the many similarities of each religions' basic morals. I joked that he should have been a priest like Father Maxwell, but he told me that he had read them because his father figure had preached tolerance and acceptance of everyone. He even revealed to me his discussions with the Maguanacs about the three different, yet similar, Western religions, and their gods.
I actually divulged me secret fetish for manga and anime to him, and that I never had enough time to read or watch it anymore. He agreed. Being a Gundam pilot had its big disadvantages.
I thought that I knew every thought and feeling he had ever had, and would have. I knew that even though I loved him, I still was worried about losing him. We spent just as much time making love as we did talking, and we were enjoying each others' company for all the time we had.
One the last day, we were on the couch, cuddling, when we heard a beep from the direction of the door, which I figured was the door's lock releasing. Duo sat straight up from his position, and knocked me, unceremoniously on the floor.
"Oh my god, we're free!" He exclaimed.
I jumped right off the floor, and stood up. "Hurry, let's pack. We have to get to our Gundams and get the hell out of here."
We ran into the bedroom, and packed as quickly as humanly possible. We grabbed all our belongings, and ran out of the shack. We got there in a few minutes, but when we arrived, Duo was shivering from the cold. I stopped as we noticed two men sitting in front on the cave, at a campsite, drinking coffee, and talking amiably.
"Abdul?" Duo exclaimed.
"Master Duo! Oh, you have no idea how relieved we are to see you." The Arabian man jumped from his camping stool, and enclosed Duo in a bear hug that looked as if it could have suffocated him. "And Master Wufei, we are as equally relieved to see you. Masters Quatre, Heero, and Trowa were so worried about you, as is Rashid. Let me send a message to them quickly, and then we will all head back to Master Quatre's location."
"Sure, no problem." As Abdul let go of Duo, I came over and grabbed the American's braid, to let him know that I was still there. He leaned over to me, and whispered, "You would think that they would let us go in out of the wind and snow first."
THAT was amusing. "You know, just as well as I do, that the Maguanacs do not think reasonably when they are excited. But, I wonder what they are doing here? Winner understood that we had a mission that would be a weeklong. What the hell is going on here?"
Why were they here? I had explained to Winner that this mission was for a week, and there would be no communication. Duo told me he had done the same. There was something very off.
Duo cast a look at the other Maguanac, who was still seated. "Auda? Why are you guys here?"
"Well, not long after you left, Master Heero and Master Quatre had started sending emails back and forth. Master Heero informed Master Quatre that there had been no missions set up, let alone two that would last a weeklong. He became suspicious, and requested that we start looking for the both of you.
"We looked everywhere in Siberia for you. But all we found was this cave with your mobile suits in them. Needless to say, Master Quatre has been worried sick over the disappearance of you two. He will be very relieved to know that you are well, and in such good spirits as well." He winked and picked up some cups.
"Would either of you like to have some coffee while we wait for Abdul?"
"I would." I smiled and took the proffered cup. Duo took the other cup, and sat down in the empty camping chair.
"Only you Arabs would think this swill is coffee, my friend." Duo retorted.
"Well, only an American would think that our coffee is swill, my small friend." He shot back. "Ah, Master Duo, it is so good to have you back. Now, Master Quatre will not be disappointed in us for our so-called failure, as Rashid put it so nicely." Auda smiled.
"Well, my friends, Master Quatre is awaiting your arrival at the safe house, as to be expected. He was very much relieve to hear that you had been found. And Rashid said that we are going to be rewarded nicely for our vigilance in this matter, Auda." Abdul came from the tent smiling. "Now, let's get you gentlemen to your mobile suits, and back to Master Quatre. It will be a long trip."
We stood, and drained the cups. I had to admit that the coffee was something I was not used to having, but I did have the good sense to be quiet when something was given to me.
"I will never drink your coffee again, Auda." Duo looked as if he was going to gag at any moment.
"But, Master Duo, I didn't make it. Abdul did." He said through laughs.
"I thought I recognized the taste of this swill. How many times have I told you that coffee should not look and taste like tar, Abdul?"
"Many times, but that is how we preferred our coffee. The stuff you drink would be like water to us. Even Master Heero's coffee is still only like a cup of soda for us." He laughed.
"Bleh, and the crap that Heero drinks is awful." He opened his mouth to continue, but his teeth started to chatter and he was shivering.
I stepped in to break up the little conference. "I do believe it is time for us to depart, gentlemen. We will see you at the safe house. I'm sure Quatre will want to thank you personally. Thank you for watching our Gundams while we were unable to." I took Duo's hand and walked him inside the cave to Nataku and Shinigami.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Six hours later found us back at the safe house we had left over a week ago, with Winner in the hangar. Before either of us could say a word, Winner had descended upon us, and engulfed us in gigantic hug. I didn't say anything about personal space, because had I been in his position, and it had been Duo missing, I think I would have done something quite like it.
"Oh, you had no idea how worried I was about you two. What happened?"
Duo handed him the disk with Relena's message on it. "Watch this. But, before you ask any more questions, I would like a hot shower and a hot meal." He started to walk into to the house, but I walked up and grabbed his hand, holding it as we went inside.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I had taken a shower, and came downstairs into the kitchen for some food. Winner was seated there, looking very disturbed.
"Winner, something the matter?" I asked as I sat down across from him.
He looked at me, and grimaced. "I can't believe that…that… that ONNA!" He shot out.
I was amused for a moment. It seems my opinion of women was starting to spread. "Neither of us could either. And we were victims to her sick and twisted plot."
"She was just so… cold, in that video. Can you tell me who was the one who delivered this message?"
"Pargon." I said through gritted teeth.
"Pargon? You mean to tell me, she was smart enough to send you false messages through a secret line, but stupid enough to leave a trail a mile wide when it came down the actual imprisonment?"
"We have dealt with OZ, who by normal standards, are MUCH more stupid. She was just anxious to get her way." I scoffed. "And, now she will have to deal with Yuy, after he finds out what she did. Putting all missions in danger for her little girl's dream."
"Actually, we will all have to deal with him, and Trowa, tomorrow morning. And if there is anything I know, it's Trowa's tone of voice, even in an email. He was upset, and he told me that Heero was very, VERY upset."
Duo came into the kitchen a few minutes later. "What's up, guys?" He took the seat next to mine, and I took his hand in my own.
"It seems that Yuy and Barton are aware that we are back. Their mission is completely finished, and they are determined to come home early." I managed to keep my anger in check, but I did let my fury show through in my voice.
"That's cool. The Doctors will be happy to hear that." He stole a glance at Winner. "What's the matter, Q-ball?"
Winner shook his head in response. "Heero has gone completely off his rocker. I think that is the correct expression. It seems that when I told Trowa about the disk that you gave me, Heero went looking for Relena."
"Oh shit. So, did he find her?"
"Not as of yet. Trowa is trying to convince him to leave the school now, so their cover isn't blown, but Heero is obsessed with finding her."
"Damn, he always was single minded. When will they be back?" He gave a deep sigh.
"Trowa said that if he had to knock him over the head, then he would, and drag him back here. They should be here about 10am tomorrow."
Duo and I both took a look at the clock. It was ten-thirty pm. "So, in less than twelve hours, we will get to see the uber pissed off Heero Yuy and the tranquil Tro-man?"
"Trowa isn't quite as tranquil as he normally is. He is very upset as well. I don't think Relena will be very welcome any time soon."
"No shit, Winner. That onna is lucky that I don't hit women."
Both boys gave me a look. Duo gave a sigh. "I think Wufei and I both could use something to eat." He stood up, and headed directly for the fridge. "What's there to eat, Q-bean?"
"Look in the oven. There should be a pizza, and some baked tofu in there."
"Bleh, baked tofu. Gotta be for you, Fei-kun."
"My reaction is the same for your usual mess of a pizza. Whoever heard of sausage, anchovies, jalapeno peppers, and pineapple together on a pizza?" I may love the boy, but his taste in food is appalling. I snorted in response.
"Hey it's good! Don't you think so, Q-ball?"
Winner gulped, as if wary of an answer. "Well it was different, and my head didn't explode." He shot a glance at me. "Besides, baked tofu isn't that bad. At least it's not that blacken chicken stuff Heero made a few months ago."
Duo took the food out of the oven, and placed the tofu in front of me. . "That wasn't blackened chicken. That was supposed to be roasted chicken, so it was BURNT!"
I spat out the bite I had JUST taken. "And Yuy made us eat that crap?! And then lied about the contents? The dishonour runs rampant." I was disgusted. I was forced to eat burnt food, and then lied to about the situation… I was NOT happy.
The rest of our casual meal passed in silence, until Winner opened his mouth, and ruined my appetite.
"So, should I expect to help one of you move into the other's room?" He murmured over his cup of tea.
It was then Duo's turn to spit out his food. "What?"
I was outraged, and I stood up from the table. "I don't see how that is any of your business, Winner. Maxwell, I will speak with you later." I left the kitchen and headed for the stairs.
I had no idea why I was so upset, except for maybe all that I had been through this past week with Duo. Through all that occurred, I still was unsure how to progress from this moment. I headed up to my room, and then stopped, as an idea hit me.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I had just pulled the tie from my hair, and positioned myself on his bed, when Duo opened his door. He looked surprised to see, and I took that as a mission accomplished.
"Fei?" His deep voice cracked, as he took in my naked form.
"Duo." I said lowly.
"Um, is something the matter?" He started to blush. That I found amusing since we had just spent the last week together, making love and exploring one another.
"No, I was just waiting for you to return to your room." I gave me a wink, and he responded with a needy groan.
"Damn, Fei, you have no idea what that does to me."
"Oh, I'm sure I can imagine what it does." He frowned at my comment, which in turn caused me to grow serious. "What is it?"
He sighed. "What are we?" He then went through the motions of dropping his things off, in a somewhat orderly fashion. He turned to face me.
"What do you mean?" I was perplexed.
"What are we to each other? Fuck buddies? Lovers? Friends? I really need to know." He sat at his desk.
"I…I don't really know. What do you want to be?"
"Besides happy? I want you, that's really all I want." He had placed his head on his crossed arms at that point.
"Duo, I want to be with you. In fact, after this past week, there is no one I would rather be with, but I don't know if we can maintain a relationship right now. There is too much we could lose at this point."
I walked over to him, forgetting my current state of undress, and squatted in front of him. He looked up.
"Wufei, there is a chance that either of us could die at any moment. I want to say that I was more to you than just a friend and occasional fuck-buddy. I… I really love you. I haven't let myself really love anyone since the orphanage. I don't want to lose you either, but I am willing to take that risk if it means that I can be with you and be happy."
I was taken aback. I really wasn't thinking this through fully. I was at a total loss, and I didn't exactly like that feeling… I got up and started looking for my clothes. "Duo… I'm just not sure." I walked back over to him.
He stood up to face me. "Do you love me? And I mean really love me. Not just what you think I am, or what I could be. Do you LOVE me?"
I took a step back. I wanted to take him right then and there and show him how much he meant to me, but I just couldn't. . "Yes, I love you. I spent the last week just amazed by you, and I found that I love you more than anyone I could ever hope to love."
He kissed me, deeply. "Then, be with me." He slunk back into his chair.
I placed my arms around his waist. "Let me think about this, koi. I will give you your answer in the morning."
He turned his chair away from me, towards the desk. "Fine, but in the morning, I want an answer. I will hunt you down if I have to." He placed his head on his folded arms once again.
It hurt me to see him so depressed, but I did need the time to think things through. "No need. I will come and get you before we have to face Yuy's wrath." I leaned over and kissed his hair, as that was the only thing I could actually reach. "Good night."
"Night." Was his muffled reply. I left his room, and closed his door quietly.
I walked quietly to my own room, shut the door, and collapsed against it. I mentally kicked myself soundly a few times, before I stood up, and dressed for bed. I really hate myself at this point. More than any other time that I have doubted myself.
Nataku, I really messed things up, haven't I? He was asking me, begging me to stay with him, and love him the way he deserves to be love, and I froze. I just told him I wasn't sure if I could, and I told him I would think about it.
As I sit here, going through the last week, I know my answer. I can't be away from him. He has truly taken my heart, and pride be damned, I will tell him so. I want to know, but I don't want to wake him.
Besides, it is almost one in the morning. I have exactly nine hours before Yuy and Barton appear back. And they are probably the most prompt, after myself. So, I believe some sleep, however fitful, and in the morning, a nice long conversation with Duo is in order. To sleep, to dream, perchance….
~ Chang Wufei