A/N a little fluff
Ashley
After we had that argument. I needed to figure it out if their was truth in what Shea said. So I approached Chey and asked about when Shea left her on the ship she explained the situation. "So how did you escape?" I asked. "There was an Asari Commando on board she was undercover as a 'entertainer' she used a singularity and a warp to decimate the slavers that had me surrounded. When the biotic explosion happened she put a barrier around us and we got into an escape pod. Her last name was Kurin and that's all I know about her. Ash I know you are upset, and I don't really think it's because Shea chose to save you. You are upset because you never got to set things right with Kaidan before he died. If Shea wasn't thinking of the mission and chose you just because she loved you it would have taken her less time to decide, and she also wouldn't have been crying as hard as she was when Karin found her." She says. My heart aches and I need to see her.
"Chey, she said she gave up love for this mission and you said she loves me." I said. "She never told you I guess. As a Spectre regulations don't pertain to you. You and her could get together and it would not count against you in the slightest." Chey said. "Really?" I ask. "Yes really." She said. "Why didn't she tell me?" I ask. "It's obvious isn't it? She knows how dangerous this could be, and she knows how a relationship can hurt the mission. But mostly it was because you weren't comfortable with the idea until the mission was complete." She says. "I really love my sister, but she's an idiot." She says. "Why?" I ask.
"She's an idiot because, true we don't know what may happen. Any of us could die, including her. She should find happiness while she can." She says. "No, I think, that's why she didn't. She didn't want me to have to go through what you did with Liana. So she wants to wait until she knows for sure she'll make it, that we all will." I said. "You're right that sounds more like her. You should also know Shea won't make the first move. So you'll need to be the one to make the first move when the time comes." She said and walked away. I had a lot of thinking to do. First, I needed to apologize to Shea.
By 0000 I knew what I would do. I crept out of my bunk and to Shea's room. Her door was closed so I knocked and Chey opened up. "I'm going to go shower. Shea is asleep, but I don't think she'll care if you wake her she's been whispering your name for the past hour." She says. I nod and she goes past me. I sit next to Shea at the foot of her bed. "Ashley.. "I'm sorry.. please don't leave me." I felt like I got hit with a ton of bricks she was having bad dream that I left her. I would not let this stand, I stroked her cheek. "Wake up Shea. Come back to me." I said and I kiss her cheek. Her eyes fluttered and she saw me and grabbed me. "Please don't leave me. I need you Ash." I embraced her tighter. "I'm here and I'm not going anywhere. We do need to talk though." I said. She blinks her eyes a couple more times. "I know Ash." She says.
" First I wanted to apologize to you, for both the things I said and for what accused you off. I did talk to Chey, during our conversation I realized I was never mad at you. I was mad at the situation. I never got to set things right with Kaidan." I said. "Neither did I really. I get that soldiers sometimes lose their life in the line of duty, but this is different. I essentially let him die, it would have been the same if I had chose to save Kaidan. Then I would be thinking about you like this. I know there wasn't anything I could do to save you both, but it doesn't make me feel any better. His death will haunt me for the rest of my life." She admits to me. I can't really think of what to say so I just hold her. "Shea why didn't you tell me about regs not applying to you?" I ask. "For this reason, it could have been you. And it would hurt like hell. It could have me and I didn't want to hurt you like that." She says.
Shea
"Oh Shea, you are an idiot. It wouldn't have mattered whether we had gotten together or not. I love you too much. Either way it would have hurt like hell. One way there would be guilt and pain, and the other way would have just been pain and I would have good memories of us to get me through it." She says. "What are you trying to say Ashley?" I ask. "That I don't want to wait anymore. If either us die here, I want us to die loving each other openly. Now I'm not saying make out and fuck everywhere possible. I'm saying that, well I want us to be together." I can't find the words to answer her, so I just kiss her in answer, it gets heated fast and the next thing I know she's on top of me. "Ash.. Ash I'm not ready for that yet." I groan out. She pulls away slowly. "I'm sorry, it just kind of has built up in me." She says. "I should go." I laugh and grab her hand. "Please stay. I could use some cuddles." I said. She nods and I make room for her on the bed. I lay my head on her chest and put an arm around her middle. I had never felt such peace and easily I fell asleep with her fingers stroking my hair.
I woke up to my sister's grinning face, and an empty side of the bed. "Ash woke up about an hour ago, and went to shower and attend to her duties." She said. "Why are you grinning?" I ask wearily. She shows me picture of Ash and I cuddled up together my hand is on her naked breast, and her shirt was pulled up. I blush in embarrassment. "Please don't tell me Ash woke up with my hand like that." I groan. She would have if I hadn't lifted your hand and pulled down her shirt." She said. "Much appreciated." I said. "Hey Commander we just heard from the council. They read the report and would like to discuss it further we've been ordered to go to the Citadel." Joker says. I reach the CIC. "It's about time they did something. Head to the citadel." I order. "We'll be there by tomorrow." He said. "Okay."
I punch my locker, and slide down it. "Of course they wouldn't help, but to ground us. It's like they want Saren to win." I said sighing resignation. "Bastards, the fucking cowards. This is why I hate fucking politics and politicians." Ash says. As she looks down at me. "I know. I'll figure out another way." I said. "How?" I didn't know so I was honest. "I don't know Ash. I may have to do something drastic. If you want to get off here, I won't hold it against you." I said. "Not a chance Shea. Where you go, I go. I'm with you." She says she reaches down with a hand and I grab it she pulls me up. We get ready to kiss again, but we get interrupted. "I apologize if I'm interrupting, but Anderson called he has an idea to get us out of here, but he would like to speak to you at the night club in the wards Flux." He says. "Got it we'll head out now. Have Chey meet Ash and I at the airlock." I said.
"Well, at least we might be able to get out of here and to Ilos." Ash says. "Hey so what's up?" Chey said. "Anderson might be able to help us leave. We need to meet him at Flux." I tell her. As we pass the dance floor, I briefly remember convincing Ash to dance with me. It was the first time I heard her laugh. She remembered too and laughed again. "Remind me that I need to do something about your atrocious dancing." Ashley says. "We'll see." I reply. We spot him at a table, briefly I check in on Jenna whom we helped get out of some undercover work. We stop in front of him, he tells us his plan. "You want us to steal the Normandy?" Ashley asks. "I like it, I was thinking something along the lines of that too, but beating it out of Udina to break us from dry dock, and taking him as a hostage." I said. "What!?'' Ashley says in disbelief. "I told you I might get an incredibly insane idea. His idea though still crazy, is less insane. You have any other ideas Ash? I' open to suggestion here." I said. "No, no I do not." she said. "Good. I guess I'll be having a little one on one with Udina, if he's there. Get on your ship, and get ready to haul ass out of here." He orders. "Yes sir." We all said.