*KINDLY REMINDER: English isn't my language*

Chapter 13

Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down? Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown? 'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun, yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won...

Days and weeks went by, Teddy's mood was getting better every day and this hadn't gone unnoticed for Dr. Wilson who authorized Teddy to go back to work, take the reins of MEDCOM as soon as she wanted, yet she decided to wait until Angela's birth, meanwhile she would begin teaching residents and giving consultations at the Regional Medical Center, Teddy couldn't believe that she was already in the 26th week of pregnancy; in her last consultation with Dr. Reynolds he had given her an estimated delivery date for early December, just in time for Christmas. Teddy couldn't help but feel excited just thinking that she would spend her favorite holiday with her father and her new born little angel.

Teddy was getting ready for her date with Andrew while talking to Arizona on Skype.

"So, you and the sexy, sexy, sexy counselor are dating again?" Arizona asked.

"Are you crazy?! Among the classes, the patients, my consultations with the psychiatrist and Angela at the moment I have no head for anything, much less for a relationship, besides Andrew is engaged and… I don't know if I'm ready for another man". Her last words were melancholic.

"I'm sorry Teddy, I didn't mean to upset you, it's just that as your best friend and future godmother of Angie, I want to see you happy".

"And I'm happy, Arizona! Really, despite the distance I have you, Callie, Owen and my father, I have a job and I will soon have my baby. Believe me if I tell you that I'm immensely happy". This time her words were true. She wasn't trying to convince anyone of her false happiness because this time it wasn't false, Teddy was happy, extremely happy.

"Okay, I believe you, by the way Callie and I have a surprise for you" Arizona disappeared for a few seconds and then returned with an envelope in her hands. "Don't you guess what it's this?"

"I have no idea, but tell me that I'm about to leave".

"It's nothing more and nothing less than our reservations to go to Germany this Christmas".

"NO! You swear it to me?" If Teddy was happy now she was immensely happy.

"Callie, Sophia and I will go to Germany to spend Christmas with Angie and whit you".

Teddy wanted to continue her talk with Arizona but the doorbell made it impossible.

"I'm so sorry Arizona but it seems that Andrew came for me, I have to go"

Before Teddy cut the video call Arizona was quick to say. "Swear to call me when you arrive from your appointment, no matter what time I'm on call. I want to know all the juicy details of your appointment with the sexy counselor".

"Bye Arizona" Teddy couldn't help but smile, her video calls with Arizona always put her in a good mood.

Opening the door Andrew was waiting for her with a single sunflower and a gift bag.

"The flower is for you and this is for Angela". Andrew said raising the bag with a smile.

"Thank you so much Andrew, just let me put this beauty on water and we can go".

Andrew decided to take Teddy to Kaiserslautern, once in the restaurant they talked, ate and drank. Teddy assured Andrew that it was okay if he decided to take a glass or two of wine; it was like in the old days. Suddenly Andrew took Teddy's hand, she immediately noticed that Andrew was about to say something important, so she rushed to speak.

"Thank you very much for this evening, I'm really enjoying this very much".

"Like in the old days, isn't it?"

"Yes, like in the old days".

After a few seconds in silence Andrew finally spoke again.

"Teddy, I'm afraid I have something important to tell you".

"Andrew, don't scare me, is everything okay?"

"Yes, yes everything is fine, it's just… I don't know how to say this". Andrew looked up at the starry sky, hoping to find the words there for what he had to say. "Last week I received a call from Charité University Hospital in Berlin".

"Wow, as far as I know it's one of the best hospitals in psychiatric care in Berlin".

"Yes, that's right, the point is… they offered me work, not as head of psychiatry but as director of the whole neurological-psychiatric area".

Teddy didn't know what to say. "Oh, the whole neurological and psychiatric division, well… it's an excellent offer. And what did you answered?"

"I still don't answer them; the truth is that I don't know what to answer".

"I understand, your fiancée is here in Landstuhl, you have just assumed your position in the Regional Medical Center, it is a difficult decision".

"Anne-Claire and I broke up and the time I've been here doesn't really bother me".

"No? Then why hesitate? Andrew, is an offer job that many would kill for".

Andrew stared at her in silence. "She doesn't realize it's because of her that I'm still here", he thought. After a few seconds he decided that it would be best to make things clear.

"Ask for it Teddy, ask me not to leave and I will give up the offer in Berlin, this time I will not leave without you, if you ask me I will stay".

Teddy was stunned; she couldn't believe that the story was repeating itself again.

"Andrew… I… I don't know what said. You know that I'm not ready for a new relationship".

"I'll wait for you Teddy, as long as it takes."

"It's not fair Andrew, neither for you nor for me, it's not fair to have you tied to a false hope and I say false because the truth is that I do not know if someday I'll be ready. Besides… I'm pregnant with another man's child. It's not fair".

After pondering Teddy's words for a few seconds, Andrew finally found his voice.

"So that's all. I guess we weren't meant to be together".

"I'm sorry Andrew, you know that I love you and I thank you infinitely for everything you've done for me since we met again, but I just don't feel it, you can't force love, you told me yourself that time when we agreed to date without compromise.

"Okay… I guess I have a call to make and a flight to book. It was nice to see you again and I really wish you the best in the world, to you and to Angela".

Rising from his seat Andrew left some money for the bill and his car keys.

"Take the car, I'll go on the train, I've drunk and I don't know if I can drive like this, tomorrow my assistant will come to your house to pick it up". Andrew was about to leave but Teddy managed to stop him.

"Andrew, wait, you can't go like this!"

"You're right".

Andrew took Teddy's face between his big hands and planted his lips with hers and although at first she resisted Teddy ended up yielding to the tender but at the same time hungry kiss. Andrew interrupted the kiss and put his forehead against Teddy's. "You have no idea how much I love you… Goodbye Teddy".

Before Teddy could react Andrew had already left the restaurant. Teddy didn't know what to do, whether to run after him or call him, but what would she say? Even if she saw or spoke him again that wouldn't make her feelings change, it wasn't fair.

Teddy managed to get home even though the tears hadn't stopped since she leaved the restaurant. Exhausted, she flopped onto the couch, staring at the ceiling, thousands of questions and possibilities invaded her head. What if Andrew manages to make her overcome Henry's death? She loved him once, she can love him again. There will never be anyone like Henry. What if there is? Maybe I can be happy with Andrew. So the minutes passed until exhaustion invaded her body not realizing that she had fallen asleep on the couch thinking about how the future could be with Andrew, hoping that tomorrow he personally would pick up his car, but if so… What would she say?

Song: Goodbye My Lover – James Blunt