Just so you know, Bella is now at the end of seven months, or thirty one weeks. Enjoy.
I trudged upstairs and got changed. The tears flowed as I willed myself to go back to the dream I so badly wanted to come true. I was so real. Tonight, I cried myself to sleep.
Hospital visits.
Over the past few weeks, me and Edward have been getting closer and closer. I also told Jacob I wasn't interested. He didn't take it to hard and asked if we could still be friends. I of course excepted.
When Rose isn't home, Edward and I would just snuggle on the settee and watch films all day. It's like we are a couple without kissing and sex. But when she gets home, we are completely different around each other.
Being so close to him hurts. I love sitting with him like that, but at the end of the day, it's Rose he goes to bed with, not me. Since the baby started kicking, I hardly sleep. She is so lively.
That's why I woke Edward and Rose up ten minutes ago and we are now speeding to the hospital. As baby C keeps me up all night, I panicked when I woke up and couldn't feel her. I haven't all night.
Edward was driving and Rose was holding me in her arms in the back of the car. I've been trying to get the baby to move for the past hour. Nothing has happened.
Carlisle is working and is expecting us. I could tell how worried Rose was. Edward didn't seem to worried. He keeps telling me that she is just sleeping, but when she moves non-stop for nearly four weeks, to just stop suddenly, I worry.
We came to a holt in the parking lot and I latterly ran out the car and sped into the hospital, Rose hot on my heels. I got to the desk out of breath and asked for Dr. Cullen. As I said is name he came around the corner and called my name.
"Carlisle, you have to help me." I cried as tears began to build up. He took me into his arms.
"Shh, Bella. Calm down. Everything is going to be okay," I nodded against his chest, trying to stop the tears.
The thing is, I'm not crying for me, I'm crying for Rose. There has been so many scares during this pregnancy, she doesn't need another one.
"Bella, calm down. The baby doesn't need stress." I nodded and ran my fingers through my hair. A habit I have picked up from Edward the past few weeks.
Carlisle gave me a gown and took me to a private room to change. Rose and Edward waited outside whilst Carlisle did a blood test and the scan. The heart monitor wasn't on and I couldn't see the screen from where I was sitting.
I hope she's okay. Carlisle chuckled and I snapped my head to look at him.
"What?" I asked. He shook his head.
"It's just that you look so worried." He informed me.
"I am. This isn't my baby and if she's gone.." I trailed off, tears forming in my eyes again.
"Bella. Rose and Edward will understand if there is no baby. Many women miscarry or have still borns. It's one of those things. Now calm down." He soothed.
"I'm scared." I blurted. Carlisle smiled at me.
"I would be worried if you wasn't. Can I ask why though?"
"About everything really. Because of this. She's been moving non-stop for weeks and now she stopped and then the birth is coming so soon." He sighed.
"Bella, there is nothing to worry about. Every woman is scared of the birth, but it happens everyday. And about this, there is no reason to worry. She is just sleeping." I let out a sigh of relief. "It seems that she tired herself out with all the moving. Looks like you could use some sleep to."
"I could." I admitted, blushing.
"Babies do this sometimes. But, I you have any worries, I will make sure I am the doctor you see." I smiled and wiped the jelly of my stomach.
"Thanks Carlisle. I'm so sorry for being a trouble."
"it happens with first time pregnancies. Now go and sleep." He commanded making me nod. I could use a nap.
Carlisle left the room and I got changed. Once I was dressed I sat on the bed, with my back to one wall and stared at the wallop site. She's okay. I got so worked up over nothing. I put Rose through more worry for nothing.
How could I assume the worst when I didn't have the facts to begin with? Now when I go out Edward will smirk at me, saying 'I told you so'. And he did. He told me that she was fine and I was overreacting.
This baby is Rose and Edward's but I can't help but love her. Not like she's mine or anything, it's hard to explain. I feel like I have a special bond with her, not maternal, but special none the less.
My eyes shot open as I was being lifted up. I felt groggy and I wanted to sleep again. Again? I was asleep? I looked around and realised I was in Edward's arms. He was lifting me out of the car but with no Rose in sight.
"Where am I?" I grumbled.
"Shh, love, sleep. You feel asleep at the hospital." Edward cooed. I nodded and nuzzled into his neck, breathing in his smell. Musk and mint. The best smell in the world. My eyes go all droopy and the slowly shut, taking me into the darkness.
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Of course. I sighed and opened my eyes, knowing I would be sleeping again. Baby C thinks it's a good time to wake up now. She could of woken up earlier so I didn't have to go to the hospital worrying about her..
I lifted my head up and opened one eye, shutting it again hen the light hit my tired eyes. A vibrating behind me alerted me that I wasn't alone. I looked up to see Edward smiling his crooked smile down at me.
My heart sped up and I smiled back before blushing and looking away. As I did this, I took in our position. Edward was sat at one end of the settee with my head in his lap and I'm spread out. Edward's fingers running through my hair was soothing and I wanted to moan at the feeling.
His hand left my hair and stared to caress my tense shoulders. This was better than the hair rubbing. I did moan this time.
"Good morning." He chuckled and kissed the top of my head.
"Hi." I moan. He was now full on massaging my shoulders and it felt so good.
"Do you like this?" He guessed. I nodded and let my eyes close. I think baby C was liking this because she calmed down to.
His hand left my shoulders and started to caress my sides. His thumbs skimmed over my breasts and it felt amazing, yet so wrong. He shouldn't be doing thin, but I couldn't sop him. I didn't want to stop him.
I hissed as his hand pressed a little to hard on my right breast. Since getting pregnant my boobs have got massive but sore as well. Every man I walk past stare at them and it can get a little uncomfortable.
"Sorry baby." He whispered in my ear. Shivers trailed down my spine. I loved it.
"It's alright. They're just sore." I admitted blushing.
"There is no need to blush beautiful. It's natural." I nodded as he skimmed them again, lightly this time. So good.
Edward is an amazing man. Just by the simplest of touches make my tense muscles calm. I can't begin to imagine what he's like when making love. Rose has always said he is amazing. I wonder what he would be like.
I sat bolt right at the thought of Rose. This is Rose's husband, not mine.
"Bella? Did I do something wrong. I'm sorry." He said softly. I shook my head.
"No it's me in the wrong." I whispered. I went to get up but he pulled my back down to him.
I struggled to get away but he wouldn't let me. The tears came again. I'm such a bad friend. How could I do this to Rose?
"Let me go." I sobbed. He gripped tighter said he wouldn't.
"Bella. What happened? What's the matter?" He rubbed my head and held me to his chest. I didn't try to stop him. I just sobbed into his neck as he rubbed my back and hair.
I felt terrible. My best friend has been trusting me with her husband and I'm fantasising about sleeping with him. Before this whole baby thing, I would never think of Edward like that, or anyone for that matter.
When we were teenagers and we had that one time, it was awkward and clumsy, but I will never forget it. It was the best experience of my life. When it happened I had a pregnancy scare. I was a week late with my period, but it wasn't anything to worry about.
I didn't tell anyone, not Even Edward. Nobody even knew me and Edward had had sex. The reason we did was because he was dating a girl called Lauren and he didn't want to be inexperienced. They didn't even do it in the end.
I can still remember the phone call I got. Edward begging me to go over to his house. When I got there, he was moaning about how she backed out because she hadn't lost it yet and wasn't ready yet.
She got pregnant a month later. Edward was so relieved that it wasn't him. It was actually funny.
"Bella. Talk to me." Edward's voice sounded in me ear. I snapped out of it and turned to him.
"I'm sorry." I muttered and stood up. He followed. I got to the kitchen and grabbed a glass of water, chugging it down, before refilling it.
"What is the matter. I thought you were enjoying it." I huffed.
"I was Edward. Far to much. You wouldn't understand." I yelled and ran up to my room.
I flopped on to the bed and screamed into my pillow. Why did I have to tell him that? I am such an idiot. A knock sounded on the door.
"Go away." I shrieked. The door opened anyway and I moaned.
"Bella. Please talk to me." he begged. I rolled onto my back because laying on my front was hurting.
"No." I sounded like a stubborn child.
"Please." He sighed, sitting down and placing his hand on the bump.
I stared at his hand as he rubbed soothing circles.
"Please?" He said again. I looked into his green emeralds. They were filled with concern, worry.
"It's just the hormones." I muttered. He sighed.
"It's more than that." I shook my head.
"It's really not Edward. In nine weeks you can take this baby and forget about me." I sighed.
"What do you mean? I will never forget you Bella. You are my best friend." I snorted. So attractive.
"Exactly." I said quietly but he heard it.
"What?" He sounded so confused.
"I don't want to be your friend." I yelled, getting angry. I looked at his face and he looked so hurt.
"What? Why?" He stuttered.
I took a deep breath and stood up, trying to calm myself down. Stress isn't good for me or the baby.
"Doesn't matter." I couldn't tell him.
"Yes it does. Tell me, Bella." He walked over to me and took my hands. I tried to look away but he wouldn't let me. Holding my chin lightly, making it hard to move my face.
"Because I love you." I yelled in his face and ran out the door, as he dropped his arms in shock.
:O. Did anyone expect that? I think not. Was it too soon? Was it bad? Sorry about Bella in this chapter, but she is pregnant and hormonal don't forget. What do you want to happen next? Please review and tell me your thoughts, whether they are good or bad.
Thanks a lot.
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