Hey everyone! I hope you all had an amazing holiday season and a wonderful New Year! My 2016 was great! I got to meet Chris Colfer himself and he was just wonderful! I'm so sorry for the delay of this Chapter. Between the packing, traveling and adjusting to life back home, I just never had the time to write. But I must thank everyone for waiting so patiently. Hopefully, I'll be able to keep updating now that I'm home. So, without further ado, please enjoy Chapter 14!
I don't own glee but how awesome would it be if I did?
"Kurt, I can't do this anymore. I can't hide my feelings and have you just keep brushing them aside until you find out what to do. I can't and won't do it anymore. You need to decide right now. It's Sebastian or me."
Kurt walked closer to Blaine and held out his hand. Blaine looked at it almost as if he was deciding if he should take it. He sighed and reached out and grabbed Kurt's hand.
"Blaine...I can't. I can't make the decision just yet. I'm still regaining my memory but I know already that I love you. I can't explain why but I know that it's the truest thing I will ever say. But Sebastian means so much to me. We've been through so much together and I can't just drop him."
Blaine threw his hand out of Kurt's and turned around.
"Then I'm done. I'm leaving." Blaine started to walk away and was almost out the door.
"Blaine, don't! Please don't go. I need you with me and I want to be with you. I don't want you to leave just because you and Sebastian don't get along."
Blaine turned back towards Kurt and looked him in his beautiful blue eyes.
"See, what you don't seem to understand Kurt, is that not only do we not get along, but we hate each other. And I love you so much but you're not worth it." He lowered his voice slightly. "You're not worth it."
Blaine took one final look at Kurt's face, which now had a look of total and utter sadness, before he turned around and left the hospital room with the knowledge of Blaine never seeing Kurt again.
Kurt opened his eyes which were now full of tears. Is it possible to be so sad from a dream that you wake yourself up? It must be because I just did.
Kurt kept taking deep breaths to get his crying under control. He didn't understand why he kept having dreams about Blaine leaving him. He didn't even understand why he cared. This wasn't his first one. In fact, he had one every night since he last saw Blaine only 3 days ago. He didn't want to tell anyone because Kurt was afraid they wouldn't let him come home if they knew he was having nightmares.
Kurt was supposed to come home tomorrow, just in time for the New Year and he couldn't be more thrilled. He had spent 2 and a half weeks in the hospital and he wanted nothing more than to sleep in his own warm pajamas and do his hair properly. The doctors even told him that if he was feeling up to it, then he would be able to return to school when it started up again in 2 weeks.
His ankle fracture was healed so he didn't have to wear the boot anymore. His arm was still broken but the cast was going to be coming off in 3 weeks. His ribs were still broken and hurting but the doctors told him that with physical therapy, they should feel better in no time. He was starting to get his memory back, slowly but surely. He could tell you things about school that he learned about and he could even tell you things about Blaine. He still didn't completely remember everything about Blaine or what happened with Sebastian but Kurt knew that, with time, everything would go back to normal.
Everything was going great...almost everything.
He still didn't know what to do about Sebastian and Blaine. He hadn't spoken to either of them since their argument and he was lonely now. Everyone came to visit him but it wasn't the same. He had been able to do a lot of thinking in the past 3 days and though he still hadn't decided what to do, he knew without a doubt in his mind that he didn't want to be without Blaine in his life.
Kurt sighed and leaned back into his pillow again and closed his eyes. He let himself drift back off to sleep once more hoping against hope that he would finally be able to sleep without seeing those hazel eyes in his dreams.
"Hey, Blaine. Do you have a second?"
Blaine looked up from his sketch pad and put it on the bed.
"Sure, Coop. Come on in."
Cooper came into his brother's room and closed the door. He walked over to Blaine and sat down next to him. He kept looking at the floor and when he spoke, it was quiet.
"So, have you heard from Kurt?"
Blaine knew something was wrong with Cooper but he didn't want to say anything. He knew his brother and if he wanted to talk, he would. Asking would only make it more unlikely that he would ever say what was on his mind. So though his curiosity didn't dwindle, he answered the question.
"No. I've officially decided to stop trying. Kurt wants to figure things out on his own then I'm going to let him. I'm losing all contact with him. I'm not going to initiate any conversation at all with him."
Cooper looked up from the floor and turned his head toward Blaine. Cooper's eyes didn't meet Blaine's.
"Are you going to start dating other people?"
"No. It's weird but if I did that, I'd feel like I was cheating on him. I'm not ready to date other people. But I'm not going to try and convince Kurt to date me anymore. I think that it'll only push him away. And I would rather not speak to him for awhile if it meant that I have a shot of everything going back to how it used to be."
Cooper didn't respond so Blaine continued.
"I love him, Cooper. And a lot of people have told me that if I really love him, then I should fight for him. But...I don't think anyone gets that...not chasing after him is fighting for him. Does that make even sense? Wait, who am I kidding? Of course it doesn't. And it probably sounds ridiculous but-"
"It's not ridiculous. Doing something out of love is not ridiculous at all. Believe me."
Cooper finally met Blaine's eyes. And his eyes were filled with determination and sadness.
"Cooper? Are you okay?" Blaine put his hand on Cooper's shoulder.
"Blaine...I...I need to tell you something. Well, actually, I need to tell mom and dad something but I don't want to face them alone."
"Is everything okay?"
Cooper looked at the floor again and took a deep breath.
"I'm dropping out of college, Blaine."
Blaine yelped out loud and put his hand over his mouth. He stared wide eyed at his brother. His brother took his education more serious than he took anything else. He was always top in his class.
"What? But...but Cooper. You love school. Why would you drop out?"
"I met someone. Her name is Natalie. She's from California and she is moving back next week. We fell in love and I'm going with her."
"But...that's not bad at all. Well, maybe not that bad at least. Why don't you just transfer to a school over there? Why do you have to drop out completely?"
Cooper raised his head again and looked at his brother in the eye.
"Because she's pregnant."
Blaine's eyes went wide with shock. He kept opening and closing his mouth hoping words would come out but he couldn't seem to speak. Cooper didn't try and speak either. They sat there looking at each other until Blaine finally got words out to break the silence.
"She...she what?"
"She's pregnant, Blaine. And before you ask; yes, it's mine."
"But, Coop-"
"Blaine, don't. I love her. I want to be with her and the baby."
"Cooper, maybe if you talk to mom and dad, they'll help you out and you won't have to drop out of college. Maybe they'll support you. Maybe-"
Cooper stood up.
"Maybe what, Blaine? The second I tell them I'm dropping out of college they're going to disown me or something. Don't even get me started on what they're going to do when they find out that I not only got someone pregnant but that I'm moving across the country to be with her. I don't know what universe you're living in thinking that they'll be okay with it and they'll support me in my decisions. I'm never going to be allowed to come back home."
Blaine stood up and walked over to Cooper.
"No, they won't do that. They won't kick you out. You know mom, right? She's our biggest support system. And you know something? Dad has changed a lot. I've never seen him this supportive of me being gay and now, not only is he supporting it, but he's helped Kurt's parents out a lot lately. They won't disown you, kick you out or forbid you from ever coming over again."
"How do you know for sure?"
"Because we're their kids. They love us. It's their job to support us through everything."
Cooper started to cry. Blaine pulled him into a hug and started rubbing his back to try and comfort him.
"Everything will be okay. I'll be there with you when you tell them."
While the tears continued to fall, Cooper spoke up.
"Thank you, Blaine. I love you so much."
"I love you too, Coop."
Neither of them moved away from their hug for what felt like an eternity. When they finally pulled away Blaine asked Cooper a question.
"How far along is she, do you know?"
"20 weeks. She's having a little girl."
Even through the tears, Cooper's eyes lit up a little bit when he brought up the baby.
"A girl? I'm going to have a niece?" Blaine couldn't contain his happiness.
"Yes. You're going to have a niece. Blaine, I'm going to have a daughter!"
They returned to their hug.
"I love you, Cooper!"
"It's okay, Finn. I know where I'm going, you don't need to guide me there."
"It's not that you don't know where you're going. Obviously, I know you know. I'm just supporting you in case you fall or get light headed or something."
Kurt rolled his eyes and allowed Finn to help him up the stairs even though it was completely unnecessary. Kurt had been walking all week with no help but telling Finn would be counter productive. Finn held onto his arm as he walked him down to the end of the hall to Kurt's room.
When he opened the door, Kurt almost fell over. Everything was just how he left it but it was starting to get dusty and that meant more work for Kurt. There was tape and wrapping paper on his bed and his closet door was open. Kurt immediately got nervous.
"Has it been cold in the house since the accident?"
"A little. Why?"
Kurt screamed and walked as fast as he could over the closet to look inside. Finn just stood in the doorway more confused than ever."
"Kurt?"
"I have outfits in here that need to be at a warm temperature!"
Finn had to bite back his laughter because, of course, that would be one of Kurt's first thoughts.
"Kurt, I'm sure your outfits are fine." Finn started walking towards Kurt to help him with whatever he was doing. "Here, let's just close the closet and we'll look through your clothes later. Right now, you should be laying down. You need to rest."
Finn grabbed Kurt's arm and pulled him from inside the closet and closed the door. He guided Kurt over to his bed.
"Here, let me move these for you."
Finn leaned forward and pulled the wrapping paper and tape off the bed and set them next to Kurt's nightstand. Kurt's gaze followed them.
"What were those doing there?"
"You wrapped Blaine's Christmas present."
"Oh."
Finn helped Kurt get into his bed and covered him with his blankets.
"Okay, do you need anything before I leave? I'm gonna go to my room and call Rachel but I just want to make sure you're good before I leave."
"I think I'm good. Thanks, though. I'll text you if I need anything."
Finn smiled. "Okay. Well, here's your remote and your bell. You just need to ring it if you need anything from any of us and we aren't answering our phones. And here is-"
"Finn! I appreciate all of this but I know where everything is. And I already know about everything because I was in the car when we talked about it." Kurt smiled at him.
"I know. I'm just excited you're home. I just want to make sure you're comfortable."
"I appreciate that. But you need to calm down. I'm probably just going to take a nap right now. All the walking in the house kind of wore me out. But I promise: if I need anything at all, I will let you know."
Kurt reached his hand out and gave Finn a pat on the arm and an encouraging smile.
"You've been great at helping me out but you deserve a break now. Go and call Rachel and don't worry about me. I'll be fine."
Finn returned Kurt's smile.
"Okay. Enjoy your nap. Let me know if you need anything." Finn turned and started walking to the door but he stopped in his tracks and turned around just as he hit the doorway. "I'm really glad you're back Kurt. We really missed you."
Kurt smiled at him once more. "I missed you too."
Finn smiled back and closed the door leaving Kurt alone in his room. Kurt was tired, he wasn't lying about that, but he didn't want to sleep. He had spent so much time sleeping in the last couple of days and he always had his dreams. Kurt instead got out of his bed and looked around his room trying to help himself.
Everything looked the same. He still had his moisturizers on the counter and his backpack at the foot of his bed. He had his Broadway posters all over his wall and his books next to his TV. He looked over at his desk and saw a small collage of photos. He walked over to it and started looking.
The collage were just photos of him and Blaine at various locations, though Kurt couldn't tell you where right now. He looked through them and laughed hysterically at a picture of Blaine. He had on a wig, at least Kurt thought it was a wig, with curls covering Blaine's head. He had on a pair of pink sunglasses and he had a smile on his face with his mouth open. He looked so happy. And though Kurt couldn't remember anything about this photo, he knew that Blaine never looked happier.
Kurt made to turn around and go back to his bed when his eyes hit his door.
"So what did you want to talk about?"
Sebastian pushed Kurt up against his door and kissed him. Kurt pushed him away.
"What the hell?!"
Kurt took in a deep breath.
"Oh my god."
Blaine walked into Cooper's room and gave him a plate of food.
"I know you weren't hungry but you should probably eat something."
"Thanks, bro." Cooper grabbed the plate from Blaine and sat it down next to him.
"Not eating isn't going to make talking to them easier. Eat and then we'll go and talk to them."
Kurt stood in the same place and slowly turned in circles looking around his room. Looking at everything and trying to see if he remembered anything. His eyes hit his closet and he remembered something else.
Kurt was standing in his closet throwing things on the floor when Burt walked into his room.
"I have nothing to wear."
"Kurt, what's going on?"
"Blaine is going to think he's going on a date with a hobo because that's the best I can come up with in my closet."
Kurt and Burt sat on the bed and Burt explained to Kurt that Blaine isn't interested in Kurt because of how he dresses.
Kurt smiled as he remembered the last part of the conversation that he and his father had.
"Dad, please don't embarrass me."
"Oh, I'm looking forward to it."
Kurt giggled to himself as he let his eyes go around his room again. His eyes fell to just in front of his desk.
"They're cookies. Do they not look like them?"
"It looks like bread threw up, Blaine."
Kurt started laughing and couldn't stop. He had completely forgotten about Blaine's dreadful cooking skills. He remembered Blaine's mother telling him that he melted a spatula and burned water. His eyes landed on the desk as he remembered another memory with Blaine.
"You know, Kurt. I've been thinking about it and I don't think you've had your first kiss."
"What are you talking about, Blaine?"
"You kissed Brittany. But you didn't feel anything with her, obviously so that can't really be considered your first kiss."
"I never thought it did. But what about the other one? I don't want it to count but wouldn't that fall into the 'kisses that count' category?"
"No. Because you didn't feel anything with him. I feel like you have to be interested in the person you're kissing for it to count. Which is why I don't count my kiss with Tanner as a kiss. I don't think either of us have had our first kisses."
"When will we have ours?"
Blaine winked at him and turned around to go back to his math homework.
Kurt knew exactly what they were talking about. With the 'other kiss' and his kissing with Brittany. He didn't lose his memory with that but he did tend to forget it. It wasn't his proudest moment. He looked around his room one more time hoping for some more memories with Blaine. His eyes fell on his bed and he immediately remembered something but it wasn't with Blaine.
"I can't believe you surprised me like this. Why didn't you tell me you had a 3 day weekend and you were going to be coming up here?"
"Because I didn't want to miss out on seeing the look on your face."
Sebastian held Kurt in his arms on Kurt's bed. Kurt had his head on Sebastian's chest.
"Well, this is the best surprise you could have ever given me. Have I ever told you that you're the best boyfriend ever?"
"Actually, yes. But I'm not going to complain if you want to say it again."
"Then I will. You're the best boyfriend ever."
Kurt looked up and looked Sebastian in the eye. Sebastian started to lean forward and Kurt knew what he was planning on doing. He jumped up in his bed.
"So, what do you wanna do? Do you want to watch a movie?"
Sebastian looked hurt that his kiss went unnoticed but he answered Kurt's question anyway.
"Sure, Kurt. What do you want to watch?"
"How about Phantom of the Opera? You can never go wrong with Gerard Butler."
Kurt got off his bed and started walking to his movie collection.
"I'm more of a Zac Efron man myself."
"Zac Efron is indeed one of the sexiest men alive but he does some stupid movies."
"You won't hear me arguing with that."
Kurt put in the movie and sat back down next to Sebastian and laid his head on his shoulder. As the movie went on, they started cuddling closer together. And when Christine and Raoul started singing All I Ask Of You Sebastian and Kurt couldn't help but sing along.
Kurt stayed frozen to his place on the floor.
"Come on, Cooper. We need to go talk to mom and dad."
"I can't, Blaine. I'm terrified."
"I know you are. But I'm going to be there for you just as you were when I told them I was gay. They're going to love you no matter what. Come on, Coop. You need to do this."
Blaine held out his hand. Cooper looked at it and sighed.
"Blaine, what if they kick me out?"
"They won't."
"But what if they do?"
"Then I'll follow you. You're not alone and I won't leave you alone. You can do this."
Cooper grabbed Blaine's hand as they left his room to head downstairs.
Kurt walked over to his bed and sat down. He had completely forgotten about that. He knew he dated Sebastian but every memory he had forgotten. And it wasn't because of the accident. He had just shoved all his memories aside when he started dating Blaine.
Kurt thought he wanted to be with Blaine but then after remembering his Phantom of the Opera date, he realized just how much he truly cared for Sebastian. Before that, he was going to pull out his phone and tell Blaine to come on over so they could start dating again. But now? Now he truly didn't know.
Kurt laid down and closed his eyes and tried to make himself fall asleep. He must have too, because when he opened his eyes, it was dark and he heard clattering coming from downstairs.
"This is ridiculous. Kurt is the best cook in the house. Why don't we just order something?"
"Finn, we've ordered something every night for the past 2 weeks. We really need to start eating in."
"But, Burt-"
"No 'but's', Finn. Carol left me very specific instructions on how to cook dinner."
"When will she be back?"
"No idea. It all depends on how long this 'Teachers Night' is supposed to go."
Kurt heard more clattering as he started getting closer to the kitchen. His smile grew wider as he heard his dad reading the instructions.
"Sift some flour. How the hell do you 'sift' flour? What does 'sift' even mean?"
"Are you sure it doesn't say 'sit'?"
"How would 'sit some flour' make any more sense. Finn, come on. Help me out here."
"I'm trying to help out, Burt but I know less about cooking than you do."
Kurt couldn't contain his laughter anymore and he entered the kitchen.
"Oh my god. Hearing all of this is making me sad."
"Your laughter would suggest otherwise, Kurt." Burt responded.
"Let me help you. Food needs to be cooked but it won't be with you two in the kitchen."
Kurt made his way forward to grab the recipe but Burt swatted his hand away.
"No. You should be resting and I'm never going to learn anything if you keep me in a box, Kurt. I'll figure it out. You go sit on the couch or something."
Kurt looked like he wanted to respond.
"No! I don't want to hear it. Go away, Kurt. I love you but you're really making me look bad right now."
Kurt started laughing again.
"Okay, dad. If you say so."
Kurt walked out of the kitchen when he heard his dad start talking again.
"Finn, google what sifting is."
Kurt decided to sit on the couch. It was getting a little lonely up in his room so he turned on the TV but not really paying attention to what was going on. Instead, he looked at his dad's chair and remembered something else.
"Wow. You look amazing, Kurt."
"Thanks. So do you."
"Have him home by 11."
Kurt smiled. He remembered the date. Well, most of it. There were still a few walls in his mind making it harder to remember but he was getting better. Kurt closed his eyes and managed to block out the noise coming from both the TV and the kitchen.
I know what I want to do. I don't even know why I was struggling with this. There's no doubt in my mind what I want.
Kurt put his hand in his pocket to grab his phone. He opened his contacts and went to the name and number he was looking for. He pressed call.
"Hello?"
"Puck? I need your help with something."
"What could you possibly need my help with?"
"Well, it's not just your help that I need. I need Finn's too."
"Um...okay? I still don't know what you want."
Kurt closed his eyes once more.
"I need to do something tomorrow but I'm going to need assistance."
"What are you doing?"
"I'll explain tomorrow. Can you be here at noon?"
"Sure. Do you need anyone else?"
"No. You and Finn will be just fine. Thanks, Puck."
He hung up the phone and put it back in his pocket. He needed to make a few more phone calls but he was going to do it up in his room where he knew for sure he wasn't going to be disturbed.
He stood up and started heading to the stairs when he heard his brother yell, "I know what chicken is but how are you supposed to roast it? Do I need to fire up the barbeque?"
Kurt laughed once more at the cooking incompetence of the men in his life. He reached his room once more and sat down on the bed. He pulled out his phone.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Blaine."
"Kurt? Why are you calling? Not that I'm not happy, I'm thrilled but I thought you didn't want to talk to me."
"Blaine, can you help me tomorrow with something?"
"What do you need my help with?"
"I'll explain tomorrow. Can you help me?"
"What time?"
"Meet me at The Lima Bean at 12:30."
"Okay. Yeah, I can be there. But...can you give me any hints at all about what I'm helping you with?"
"No, I can't. Not right now."
"Okay. I'll be there."
"Thanks, Blaine!"
"Hey, Kurt?"
"Yes?"
"It's really great to hear your voice again. I missed you."
"I missed you too."
"See you tomorrow, Kurt."
"Yeah. See ya."
Kurt hung up the phone and dialed one more number.
"Kurt! I'm so happy you called. I've been wanting to call you for awhile but I didn't know how you would feel if I did so I've been avoiding it. I'm absolutely thrilled! How are you? Wait. There's nothing wrong is there? Is everything okay?"
"I'm fine, Sebastian. Calm down. I just needed to talk to you about something."
"Anything. What's up?"
"Are you available to help me out tomorrow afternoon?"
"Tomorrow? Yeah. Help you out with what?"
"I can't explain it right now. I'll tell you when we meet up tomorrow."
"What time and where?"
"I need you at the Lima Bean tomorrow at 12:30 tomorrow. Is that okay?"
"Sure, I guess. Why there?"
"We're just meeting up there. I'll explain everything tomorrow. Will you come?"
"I guess so. I'll see you tomorrow I guess."
"Yeah. Thanks, Sebastian."
He put his phone on his desk and made his way downstairs to help Finn and his dad with dinner before they burned the house down. All the while hoping against hope that his plan tomorrow would work.
Hey guys! I hope the wait was worth it! I wanted to put more in this chapter because of the long wait and because this chapter is so short, but I just couldn't make it work. I tried and it just dragged on and I didn't want that. Leave a review and tell me what you think! On the next chapter; Kurt's plan comes together, Blaine and Cooper talk to their parents and finally, in a big show down, Blaine and Sebastian finally confront each other in something that surprises them both.