Ok everyone so these next four chapters are going to be short and all of Christian's POV. Each chapter will take place one week after another. So in total it will have been one whole month without him seeing Ana. Thank you all so much for all of your support. Something huge is coming up at the end of these four short chapter. I think I might post one every day or every other day. I haven't decided yet.

It has been one week since the last time I have seen or spoken to Ana. I feel like shit. I have know idea what to do. It seems that the more time I spend with her I remember so much of my life with her. The thought of Jose and Ana together really pissed me off. She got so mad at me when I had so his full name. It's not that I remembered him specifically. I only know the name because Elliot talks about him alot. He was really good friends with the both of us but after the accidently he left with one of our other friends that I couldn't remember and we never spoke again. I guess that friend he went with was Ana. Shit this is all getting so complicated. I told Welch to get me everything he could on Ana. I wanted a full background check on her.

My mind keeps going back to the last time I saw Ana. I know we shouldn't have but I needed her like I have never needed anyone in all my life. We fucked. Up against the door. I had cheated on Leila, but was really cheating because of my history with Ana? Who am I kidding of course it's cheating. I have to tell Leila. I just hope that she won't freak out too much and put a lot of stress on the baby.

After, I had finished with Ana I realized what I had done and I left the room without saying anything to her. I went back to my room and did not come back out until I knew she was gone. I know that was a shitty move on my part. Once I was back in the safety of my own room I was bombarded with memories.

It was our first time together. I remember feeling really nervous because I knew that neither of us would be wearing any clothes. I was afraid of where she was going to touch me. While we had been together now for a little over 8 months we hadn't really gone passed second base. Ana has been really thoughtful and cool about my touch issues. I don't know how special it will be for her if she is not able to touch me at all.

I had told Mia to invite her over for a sleepover. I had been planning this night for two weeks now. I didn't want Mia to tell her what was going on because Ana was a shit liar. Plus I didn't want her to have to lie to Ray.

"Baby, I have a surprise for you." I told her and she looked confused. Mia had called up that she and Elliott were going and would home late.

"Wait, Mia!" She was already gone though. "Well, so much for my girls night with her. You said that you had a surprise for me."

I just look at her with a smile on my face.

"Yes, come on." I took her up to my room.

The room was dark the only light was coming from all the candles that I had lit. I wanted to create a romantic air for her. She meant everything to me. I had replaced the sheets with some blue silk ones. The color in my opinion matched her eyes. There were a mix of Lilies and Orchids all over the room. They were her favorite.

"Christian...wow. This is beautiful."

"Well, I wanted to make our first time special." She cocked an eyebrow at me.

"First time. Are you sure?"

"Only if you want to." She throw herself into my arms and started to kiss me. I moved us over to my bed and layed her. She sat up though. She started to remove my shirt and accidentally hit one of my no go areas. She stopped and said she was sorry. The funny thing was that I had felt tingles not pain. So I took her hands and placed them on my chest again.

"Oh. Christian." She was crying I could tell.

I made love to her that night. We spent the whole weekend together alone and with my siblings. I knew then I would marry her one day.

I was brought back to the present with my phone ringing. I was Leila. I just ignored her I really didn't want to deal with right now. Plus I would have no idea what to say to her.