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Chapter 14: The Decision

Like he'd promised, he was laying beside me with his arms encasing me when I woke up. "How did you sleep?"

I turned to face him. "I didn't, and I feel horrible. Every time I closed my eyes, I kept seeing Nahuel." I was shaken; my nightmares always consisted of me running and eventually being captured by him.

"I'm sorry that I had to leave you last night." His lips tenderly touched mine. "Will this make it better?"

"Maybe, but you have to kiss me again before I can decide." I smiled, and he kissed me once more. "Yes, and I'm sorry for last night. I knew you had to leave, and I was being childish and unfair."

"It's okay, Nessie. You were very convincing last night, and I was so close to staying."

"What stopped you?" I propped up on my elbow and looked into his eyes.

"I stopped because I knew that if I had stayed last night, I wouldn't have stopped your persuasion. You were definitely pushing my buttons, buttons I didn't even know you were capable of pushing." He pushed one of the curls that had fallen into my face behind my ear.

This information intrigued me. "Really? So can I push those buttons again?"

I started kissing him like I did last night. When I grazed his earlobe, he fisted his hands in my hair and kissed me with fervent need, pulling me closer. He rolled over on top of me and ever so gently grazed his teeth against my neck. There was a hitch in my breathing before it started to accelerate as his hands roamed down my body. His warm hands made my body tingle and burn all over as my pulse raced. His hand crept under my shirt and my skin was on fire. A gasp escaped me as he cupped one of my breasts, kneading and massaging. The feeling was exhilarating. Jacob and I had never gone this far, and I invited and loved every minute of it. I thought I would come undone when his thumb passed over my nipple. A whimper escaped me, and Jacob repeated his action again. Pleasure was rolling off of me in waves, and I didn't want this to end. Jacob had opened the door to the promise land and I was tired of teetering at the entrance.

I sat up and started taking off my shirt. Jake's lips traveled down my neck and made contact with my breasts. As his tongue swirled around my nipple, I fisted my hands in his hair, pulling him closer. The sounds coming from me were unintelligible. I didn't even know that I was capable of such sounds. Heck, I didn't even know that Jake could make me feel so good. I rolled us over so that I was on top of him, and started to take my shorts off. To my surprise, Jake did not protest - he helped me slide them down and off. I straddled him feeling his erection against my most intimate place. I decided to rock my hips against him, letting him know exactly what I wanted. This brought forth sensations in my body that I could have never even fantasized about, and from the sounds Jake was making, I could tell he was enjoying it too. I brought my lips to his, wanting to feel as connected to him as possible. His lips drifted to my neck and down to my breasts again. His hand was sliding the thin fabric of my panties aside. His fingers found my entrance, and I shivered and marveled at the cries of pleasure Jake was eliciting from me. His voice was no higher than a whisper as he said, "Nessie, you're so wet for me."

Before I knew it, Jacob's fingers had stopped working their magic, and he grabbed my hands that had at some point tangled into his hair again and lowered them to my side. "Nessie, Edward is coming."

My eyes snapped open, and I untangled myself from him and put my shirt and shorts back on. I couldn't let Dad hear me thinking of this as he walked into the house. There was already no doubt in my mind that he would smell my arousal, but I wouldn't allow him to know the extent of just how physical Jacob and I had gotten.

"Renesmee, how are you doing this morning?" Dad asked from the living room.

I could hear him coming. Jake and I were still panting and gazing into each other's eyes. Right before Dad got to the door, Jacob got up.

"I've got to go shower," I said in a rush.

"I'm going to go for a run." Jake rushed out the door.

I was converting a song from English to Spanish in my head to keep my thoughts off of what happened a few minutes ago. Dad's eyes narrowed. "What just happened?"

"Um, I gotta go," I squeaked and raced to the bathroom.

I took a cold shower and tried not to replay the way Jacob had reacted to me and the feel of his hands on my body. When I got out of the shower, Dad was sitting in the kitchen waiting for me. "So would you like to explain to me what that was about?" He gestured toward the door, and I knew he meant Jacob.

"I don't know, Dad. Maybe he just had somewhere to be," I lied unsuccessfully.

"Jacob would never leave in that much of a hurry. Believe me; I've tried to get him to leave. I didn't say a word to him, and he dashed out of here like his life was at risk."

I started making a sandwich and concentrating really hard on the details: bread, ham, lettuce, pickles, mayonnaise, mustard, and another slice of bread.

"Renesmee! What is it that you are hiding from me?" Dad raised his voice to get my attention.

I stuffed the sandwich into my mouth and mumbled inaudibly as I ran out the door. I walked into the woods, looking for Jacob. "Jake? Are you out here?"

It was Embry that came out to meet me.

"He went to the cliffs. He said he had a lot on his mind and then he phased back and left."

"Can you take me to the cliffs? I really need to talk to him." I would have run there myself, but the fact that Dad and Jake didn't want me to go anywhere alone, due to the fact that Nahuel running around somewhere, hindered my self-reliance.

"I didn't drive here, Renesmee. You'd have to hang on tight, because if I dropped you Jake would kill me."

"I promise, I'll hold on tight." Embry went to phase. When he came back, I climbed onto his back and held on tight as he had instructed me. Within five minutes, we were in La Push and just as Embry had said, Jake was there at the cliffs. He let me off his back and left.

I walked over to Jacob, who didn't turn around even though I knew he had heard our approach. He sat with his legs dangling over the cliff, gazing out at the ocean.

"Do you want to talk?" I sat down beside him. He held my hand, but still didn't speak. "Well, I'll talk then." I didn't know exactly what to say or how to discuss what nearly happened, but I knew that was exactly what was troubling him. "So that was intense earlier."

He turned to look into my eyes. "Edward?"

"Doesn't know. I kept my thoughts away from you."

"Renesmee, I know where you stand on the issue, and I know I was the one that said I want to wait, but what I feel for you is so intense that I don't know if waiting is an option anymore."

He didn't want to wait anymore?

That was the best news I had heard all week. Before I could calm the excitement surging through me, I blurted out, "How about right now?"

I was mortified by the fact that I had unthinkingly said this, and my face was probably crimson with embarrassment.

He opened his mouth to speak but closed it, trying to stifle his laughter. When he composed himself, he said, "It won't be anytime soon; we will both know when it's time. But not right now." He kissed me. "So will you be good until the moment comes? No more pushing my buttons?"

"Fine, I'll be good. I promise."

Hope you enjoyed! Do you really think Nessie has enough will power to honor her promise?