Warning: This fanfiction is Rated R for Lemons, Limes, Language, and Blood.
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Chapter Fourteen
Everyone was relaxing in Kaeda's hut. It was a long journey back even after Kagome learned the reason why Inuyasha was avoiding her. It had been two days since they returned back. Inuyasha had clearified that the scent was no longer with her meaning that her heat was gone. It made Kagome happy for Inuyasha was staying around them much easier. The day was hot as everyone stayed inside. Running down to the stream was not an option. No one wanted to swim. It seemed like there was no way to cool off.
Inuyasha was surpised that morning when he noticed Kagome. Instead of wearing her normal school outfit, she was once again a different outfit. She was wearing a tank top that showed her shoulders bare. She was wearing a skirt, but it seemed a little too short on her. It didn't bother Inuyasha. To his opinion, she looked pretty good.
Kagome was currently laying on her sleeping bag reading a book. Occasionally, she would look up to see Inuyasha glancing over at her. She would only smile at him and he would glance away quickly receiving a light blush. Miroku and Sango both noticed this and giggled each time. The third time, however, both left to work on plans for the wedding.
Inuyasha took this chance of coming over to the girl. He dropped down on his stomach suprising the girl. "What are you doing?" She asked.
"Just visiting. You seem so quiet." He rolled over lining up perpendicular to her. Laying his head against her back, he felt her giggle.
"I want to finish this chapter so please let me." She moved a little getting comfortable and soon went back to reading.
However, only seconds later, her book was stolen from her hands and was laying against her bookbag. She yelled at the hanyou for causing her to lose her page. He, instead, pulled the girl towards him and captured her lips into a kiss. It suprised her for she never knew him to be so brave. It made her wonder again. Did he actually love her? Did he actually want her to stay with him? She broke the kiss to glance away from his face. She needed to know, but it seemed to be there was no answers to her questions. She felt as he wrapped his arms around her pulling her to his chest. He placed a kiss upon her neck and soon moved away disappearing out the door. Again, no answer. She would just have to wait.
Sango was sitting outside under a tree as she watched the boys work on the hut. Kagome came out almost thirty minutes later when the hanyou left. She walked over and sat by the demon slayer to watch the hanyou and monk work. Miroku was on the roof nailing some boards down while Inuyasha was carrying boards over. Sango had a smile over her face as she glanced down at a flower. Kagome figured it was one that Miroku gave her. She was happy for the couple. In just a few weeks, they would be married.
After nailing the board down, Miroku climbed down the ladder and approached the ladies. He knelt down by Sango and placed a quick kiss upon her lips. "Good afternoon ladies." Sango laughed upon his saying.
"Same to you, monk." Miroku moved over allowing Sango to lean against him. Kagome released a smile as she watch this. Soon, though, she stood up and walked back to the hut. Inuyasha was watching the whole scene. He carried the last board over to the hut and quickly followed.
Kagome entered the hut and sat down against the wall. She pulled her knees to her chest and rested her chin against them. Sango and Miroku seemed so happy together. Both were able to admit to each other how they felt. Kagome felt that no matter how many times Inuyasha would kiss her, it would never mean anything. She felt alone. She wanted to be cared for, but not like a friend. She wanted to have someone to love. Ya, she does love the hanyou, but will he ever love her back? A small tear ran down her face. Just as she thought about many times, she always realized the same answer. He would never love her. He would only see her as a friend, someone to protect the jewel and make the choice.
Inuyasha could smell the tears outside the hut door. He didn't understand why she was crying. He thought she was happy that everything was going good. For the past few days ever since Kagome returned, the Koimaryuko demons have not attacked. He thought she would be happy that the wedding for Miroku and Sango was only a few weeks away. He thought she would be happy by the way he is expressing his feelings for her. It didn't make sense. Here she was crying and he had no solution.
Pushing the door open, he stepped in. Kagome was sitting on her sleeping bag with her knees to her chest. He could her hear sobs. He moved over the wall and sat down wrapping his arms around her. He felt her tense and gasped by his movments. She lifted her head to look at him. He noticed the unshed tears in her eyes and the watery paths from the fresh tears that ran.
Pushing him away, Kagome stood up and ran out of the hut door. She walked over to the edge of the village and entered the forest. He stopped her by grabbing her arm. She turned towards him and buried her head against his chest weeping. He tried his best by holding her, however, the tears never stop. Once again, she pushed against him and turned back towards the village. He was confused. Here she was crying and pushing him away. Why? He didn't know. Leaping into the trees, he followed her. She stopped by Kaeda who was pulling herbs from her garden.
Kagome was silent as she watched Kaeda. Shippo was with her helping with the weeds. He enjoyed watching the grasshoppers jump and the lady bugs fly. It made him hop like them which released a smile and a light laugh from the sad girl. Inuyasha watched as the kitsune jumped over to Kagome and asked about going berry hunting. He notice Kagome nodded and before long the miko and kitsune were heading back to the village with Kaeda waving good-bye.
Inuyasha sat down against the tree bringing his sword across his lap. Kagome didn't seem sad anymore. She seemed happy by the small fox child. However, he was curious on why she was sad. It seemed that she became sad when she noticed Miroku and Sango. Once again, he thought the girl would be happy. Everything was turning out correctly. Miroku and Sango would be together. Inuyasha was finally able to express his feelings for the girl he cared about and she was able to do the same. However, there was something making her sad. Shaking his head and releasing a sigh, he didn't know. He glanced down when he heard noises. He watched as Kagome and Shippo walked out into the forest. The berry bushes weren't far so if anything would happen, he would be there in no time.
Kagome watched as Shippo skipped his way down the forest path. She smiled occassionally when he looked back. However, when he looked away, she would look away towards the direction of the Sacred Tree. She knew Inuyasha suspected something. She just hope he didn't know what. Seeing Miroku and Sango together upset her for she knew Inuyasha would never do the same. He would never tell her how he felt. Till he did, Kagome decided on not returning his kisses. His kisses could mean anything. They might not mean that they loved or even cared about her. It could be many things. Some that she didn't even want to think about.
The berry bush was located near a small creek. Kagome watched as Shippo picked the berries and place them in the basket. Kagome moved over to the creek. Removing her sandles, she allowed her feet to cool off by the cool water. She thought about everything that happen this past month. The Koimaryuko demons attacked wanting her and the jewel. How she ended up in the hospital and soon ran away. Too much has happen, but it seems her and Inuyasha became so much closer or at least that is what she wants to believe. He never seem to be the one to express how he feels. It makes her wonder if he actually wants her around or just happy that she is still around because of the jewel.
A lonely tear ran down Kagome's face and splashed in the water rippling her reflection when a scream came behind her. Kagome turned quickly to see a spider demon standing over Shippo. She screamed for Shippo's name who transformed and appeared behnd her.
Kagome watched with a frightfull eyes as the demon approached her. It kept calling for the jewel. Kagome screamed as it raised one of it's furry arms. She closed her eyes tightening her grip around the young kitsune when a yell of Iron Revearer Soul Stealer came echoeing across the area. Kagome open her eyes to see Inuyasha slicing through the demon as it disappeared into the air. "Are you okay?"
Kagome nodded her head and helped Shippo pick up the berries. With the berries all put in the basket, she took the small fox child's hand and headed back to the village. Inuyasha just stood there watching her. He noticed her expression when he asked the question. She was sad again. For what reason, he didn't know.
Kagome felt hurt for avoiding him like this. However, she knew it was the best. If he didn't want to say how he felt about her, then she wasn't going to express to him how she felt. She followed the child into the hut and watched as he ran out to find Kaeda. She sat down beside the wall taking out her book when she heard noises outside.
With a swift movement of the door, Inuyasha walked in. Kagome glanced up at him and then back down at her back. "What in hell is wrong with you?"
"Nothing. Now leave. I would like to read for a little bit." She responded with a sharp tone. She really didn't want to be with him at the moment. She just wanted to be alone.
"No. There is something wrong with you. I could smell tears when you came back from Miroku and Sango. Plus, you had a sad expression in the forest. Now spill. What is wrong?" He was crouched down in front of her looking deep into her brown eyes.
Kagome put her book down and crossed her eyes. She turned her head trying to avoid his stare. "I thought it would be obvious, but I guess not. Forget about it. I don't want to talk about it anymore. I don't want to see you."
Inuyasha sat back suprised by her tone. "What in hell is this suppose to me? Damn it, Kagome. What got you so pissed off?"
"I am not mad. I just don't want to be around you. Is that a problem?"
"Yes, damn it."
"Well, get used to it."
Kagome stood up and tried to walk around him. He was quick and grabbed her forcing her to fall to the ground. He bent over her and looked down into her eyes. His eyes showed a strange look, a look of desire and anger. "No. You are going to tell me now or it is going to get rough."
"What? Inuyasha, you are scarying me. Get up now. Please?" Her voice was trembling. She was frighten by his sudden movements. She wasn't trying to make him mad. She just wanted to see if the expressions were something more.
"I am not doing anything to you. I just want an answer. What is wrong with you?"
"It's nothing, okay? I just have a lot on my mind." Inuyasha didn't like her answer, but decided not to push any further. He would find out the truth sooner or later, but he would not want to hurt her anymore and force her to leave. Leaning up and moving to the door, he took one more glance back at the girl before disappearing outside.
Kagome released a sigh as she sat up against the wall. He almost came close to figuring out that she was thinking about him. She almost gave away that she was wondering if he cared about her. Watching outside as the door moved in the wind, Kagome noticed that the whole time she was arguing with Inuyasha, the day went by. The sun was coming to a set ending the day.
She tried going back to her book, but it seemed impossible. Too much of what happen between her and Inuyasha was on her mind. She loved the hanyou, there was no doubt on that. Staying with him would make her happy, but it would also make her sad. She didn't want to lose her family. She didn't want to lose anyone.
Noises were heard almost twenty minutes later. Kagome stayed in the hut avoiding Inuyasha as much as possible. She really didn't want to push anything any further. She watched most of the time as the door moved by the wind. She could see the hanyou sitting in the tree looking a little confused. She knew he was the cause of it.
Sango and Miroku came in laughing about something. They moved over to the corner they were sitting in and started whispering. Kagome smiled on how happy the couple was, but soon it disappeared as she looked towards the door. The door moved again and soon Shipp, Kaeda, and Kirara came. "We will go ahead and start preparing dinner." said Miroku moving. Sango moved off his lap and sat near the wall a little distance away from Kagome.
Kaeda nodded her head and handed Miroku a bucket. Water was needed for tonights dinner. Mushroom stew was on the menu and lots of water was needed. Kagome watched as Miroku walked out of the hut and Inuyasha walk in. He glanced over at Kagome, but never said a word. Instead, he bent down by Kaeda and whispered something. She nodded her head and soon disappeared out. "What did he want?" asked Sango. She was cutting carrots for the stew.
"Just that he would be in late for dinner. He seems to have a lot on his mind. I feel sorry for him." replied Kaeda.
"Why?"
"Think about it. For almost five years, ye have traveled searching for the shards of the Shikon Jewel. He has been fighting constantly, never resting for a moment. Now with the jewel whole, he has nothing to do. I wouldn't be suprised if one day we wake and see that he is gone."
Sango nodded her head agreeing what the old miko said. Inuyasha was a half demon. It wouldn't be strange to see him leave. He would start a journey of his own and maybe find somewhere to settle down.
Kagome listen to the conversation. She never thought about it. She never thought about Inuyasha leaving for good. She never wanted to. She wanted to know that he would always be there for her. The thought of him leaving made tears build up behind her eyes. She couldn't let Sango or Kaeda know she was crying. Standing up, she walked out of the hut and walked towards the end of the village. Inuyasha, who was sitting in one of the trees watching the setting sun, noticed her crying again. He quickly followed hoping to find some reason on why she was crying now.
Kagome walked towards the edge of the village, towards a small meadow. The grass was blowing as a breeze whipped through her ebony hair. The golden colors of a setting day danced across the meadow showing off it's evening glow. Kagome dropped down to her knees and allowed the tears run. She couldn't see Inuyasha leave. Shecouldn't see him say good-bye and disappear from her life forever. She wanted him to stay. Whispers escaped her lips that unknow to her, a certain hanyou could hear. "Please, stay. Don't leave me alone."
Inuyasha was unsure why she was saying these things. Of course, he was staying. He had no idea of leaving her behind when she was the one who captured his heart. Yes, when he was alone and hasn't met Kikyou, he thought about traveling, trying to find a place where he belong, but not now. He wanted to stay. This village, this place near the Sacred Tree and the wooden well, it was home to him. Kagome was his home. She stole his heart and made it melt into a passion he never knew existed. He was staying and that was it. He wasn't leaving.
Kagome returned to the hut when the sun was almost gone. It was still setting, but it had not completely disappeared yet. The aroma of the mushroom stew could be smelled drifting out of the hut when she arrived back. She stepped inside making sure that the tears that ran were not visible to the eye. Shippo was worried when she entered. She explained that she just needed time to herself. Sango called her over to sit. She joined her and was handed a bowl. As she took one sip, Inuyasha appeared inside. He looked towards Kagome with a determine stare. Kagome sat suprised. Maybe what Sango and Keada were talking about might come true. He has no reason to stay. It's not like he cares about her. As soon as the choice is made and the jewel is gone, he might leave. There were so many possiblities that none seem like a good answer.
Inuyasha sat against the wall as Miroku handed him a bowl of soup. He never moved his eye contact with Kagome's. She never continued to eat. She sat back suprised by his movements. Sango waved her hand in front of the young girl's face. She snapped out of her thoughts and tried to calm down. Her breathing was ragged and heart was racing. She knew the hanyou could hear it. Tears started to sting her eyes. She wanted to cry again. She wanted someone to hold her and let her cry the pain that was so deep away.
Inuyasha laid his bowl down upon the ground and moved to kneel on his knees. He glanced towards the young miko. He reached out a hand and whipped the tear that ran down her face. He shook his head while closing his eyes slowly. Kagome moved quickly away, hiding behind the demon slayer. Sango looked over her shoulder confused on why Kagome was so scared. It was just Inuyasha after all. Ya, he was acting strange, but it was still him. "Kagome, are you okay?" She asked.
Kagome nodded her head. However, Inuyasha spoke suprising everyone, correcting what she was trying to say. "No she is not. This is the third time I caught her in tears. Why? She won't say."
Miroku, Sango, everyone in the hut turned towards Kagome. Kagome turned her face away letting a few tears run. She quickly stood up and tried to move towards the door, but was prevented when Inuyasha sat in front of the door. He quickly grabbed her arm and threw her towards the back. It wasn't rough to hurt her, but it did suprise her. "Kagome, you were crying. Why?" asked Sango afraid on what could be wrong with her friend.
Kagome shook her head. She wanted to be away. "Let me out. Please, Inuyasha, let me out."
The hanyou just shook his head. "No. You are going to explain the reasons you were crying. They deserve to know. I deserve to know."
"No they don't. It's my feelings, my thoughts. No one elses, but mine. Please, let me out now."
Inuyasha didn't move. He stayed put even when he notice she was in the brink of sobbing. "Explain. What made you so upset?"
Kagome shook her head. The tears were running down her face splashing against the ground. She didn't want to be here. She didn't want to be in this hut. She wanted to be alone. She wanted to cry the pain away. She wanted to be rid of the feelings she had for a certain hanyou. He didn't understand anything. He didn't understand what she wanted to know. "I hate you. I hate you. Now let me out. Sit. I hate you." She mumbled words suprising everyone including the hanyou. The spell took him down allowing her to run by.
She took this chance and ran out of the hut. She kept running as the tears ran free. She didn't care where she was running. She ran through the village, pass a hut, and straight into the forest. She kept running. She wanted to be away. She wanted the pain to disappear. She wanted to die and let the pain leave her soul. She felt hurt. She wanted to tell him that she loved him, but was unsure if he felt the same. His kisses meant so much to her, but she was unsure that he was kissing her for the same reason. She wanted to be love. She wanted to be loved by him.
Unknown to her, in the darkness of the shadows, Kai was watching her. He followed the miko out of the village. He watched as the hanyou made her upset. She sat him and then stormed out of the hut. A smile twisted on his face. This would be his chance. The miko seemed weak and tired. She seemed hurt by everything that happen. This was his chance. This would be the night he killed the miko and stole the jewel.
Kagome ran not thinking where she was going. He yelled at her for no appearant reason. He tried forcing her to talk once again. Kagome tripped over a root and fell to the ground. She stood up without brushing the dirt and blood off of her knee and started running again. Tears clouded her eyes making her unable to see. She tried holding back sobs after sobs. It continued to come. She cried over how he treated her. She thought he cared.
Kagome stopped when a breeze whipped through her hair. Kagome whipped the tears from her face and looked at the scenary. She was standing at the same cliff that Inuyasha took her to apologize for everything. Kagome took a step back before dropping to her knees. How could he push her so much? How could he force her when she didn't want to say? How could he hurt her so much that she thought about ending her life?
A small laugh escaped her lips. She knew a way of hurting him, if it came down to that. Her hand reached up to the Shikon Jewel. Her choice would make Inuyasha hurt more than anything. If she chose to go home, he would lose her forever. Kagome knew she could not stay here all night. She either had to return to the village and face Inuyasha or head down the well back to her time. She made up her mind to head home.
As she stood up, someone stepped out of the forest. Kagome figured it was Inuyasha following her. However, as she looked towards the forest, she gasped in shock and fear. Kai stood standing near a tree. His arms were crossed and dagger was held in one of his hands. "A pleasure to see you again, miko." He hissed it out with a delightfull shiver.
Kagome backed up only to stop when she heard a rock fall down the cliff. Kai walked towards her dropping the dagger to his side. "Leave me alone." She whispered it out hoping he would listen. Kai just laughed.
"Hand me the jewel and I might think about sparing your life." He stopped only a few steps away. Kagome swallowed hard. She had no bow with her. She had no way of protecting herself from this demon.
Kagome tried moving along the side of the cliff. He watched her carefully then reached for her. She fell to the ground with him pending her below. Kagome tried screaming, but he held her mouth close. "I said the jewel or your life. Which will it be?" He was using a demanding tone. Tears started to run down her face when she felt him use the blade against her skin. How was she suppose to get out of this mess? She was too weak to use her miko powers and if she did, she didn't want to risk her life. What was she suppose to do?
Inuyasha threw the bamboo door open and walked out cursing. Kagome sat him and said she hated him before running off. He looked towards the west and noticed the sun setting. It was the night of the new moon and once again, Kagome was missing. Her scent did not head towards the well. Instead, she ran towards the cliff, the very cliff with the ravine below. Inuyasha cursed once again. He had to find her before the sun set completely.
Jumping into the trees, he started to run. Her scent got strong at one part. He noticed the blood. She fell. He also noticed the salty scent. She was crying. A scream peirced the silent forest. Inuyasha looked up. It was Kagome's voice. Quicking his pace, he headed straight towards the edge of the forest and the cliff.
Inuyasha made one more jump. The cliff wasn't far. Inuyasha was about to jump when his body started to pulsate. He stopped in a shocking look. He glanced towards the west and noticed that sun was gone. The darkness was taking over. He was turning human, mortal. He cursed under his breath. He couldn't just wait till morning to save Kagome. He had to do it now.
Jumping down, he ran only to stop. Kai was facing Kagome holding his sword out. He noticed the blood running down Kagome's arm. She had a tight grip upon the Shikon Jewel. The demon was starting to approach her. Inuyasha did the only thing he could do. He ran. "Kagome, get out of the way!"
Kagome looked towards the direction of the yell. Kai did the same. Both noticed Inuyasha running towards them. Inuyasha ran into Kai pushing him towards the cliff. Kai couldn't hold back the momentum. Both came to the cliff and ran off. Kagome watched as Inuyasha fell off the cliff into complete darkness. Kai did not fall. Instead, he used his magic and disappeared in a dark blue powder. "Inuyasha!" She yelled it. No respond came within the darkness of the night.
Breathing rapidly, Kagome stood up and walked to the edge. She found a ledge and started to climb. She had to get down to Inuyasha. She had to make sure that he was okay. With his mortal body, it worried her. She was afraid that he might be dead. Tears started to form in her eyes. She shook her head. She couldn't cry. He was alive. He just had to be.
It took close to two hours before Kagome arrived at the bottom of the cliff. The area was shrouded in complete darkness. No light could be seen in either direction. Kagome walked carefully. Rocks and cracks spreaded everywhere over the ravine. Kagome prayed that he was okay. She glanced in every direction. She looked up the cliff from right to left to up and down. There seemed to be no sign of Inuyasha. That is when she saw him.
Kagome gasped at the sight of him. He was laying across two rocks on his back side. Blood seemed to cover the rocks. His arms were spread and his hair covered the rock above him. The top of his forehead was covered in blood. His wrists and arms seemed to be the same. The side of his chest looked like his forhead. Blood seemed to flow from him from different wounds.
Kagome shook her head before running towards him. She dropped down to her knees. His eyes were closed. His breathing was ragged. It seemed that he was in pain as he drew in slow breaths. Kagome placed her hand over his chest. She gasped again. His heart was weak. It seemed slow. He was dying. Kagome shook her head as the tears ran down her face. She placed her hands over his shoulder trying her hardest to wake him. There seemed to be no luck. Each breath he took seemed to get weaker by the minute. His heart seemed to slow down by each passing second.
Kagome tried her hardest to stop crying. She had to wake him. She had to get help. However, she knew there was no help. She knew there was no way to save him. The hanyou she loved was dying. Kagome placed herself over his chest. She gripped his haori in her hands and cried. "Please, don't die. Please, don't leave me. I am so sorry. I don't hate you. Please. I love you." She whispered as she felt his heart slow down and beat no more.
The tears never stopped. The hanyou was dead. He saved her from death and caused his own. Kagome just cried upon his chest holding his haori tightly in her hand. She never was able to tell him how she felt. She was never able to tell him that she loved him. As Kagome laid upon the hanyou's chest, someone slowly walked up to her. The shadow danced across her body. Kagome looked up. She whipped the tears from her face and turned to see who it was. Her eyes went wide and she gasped at who was standing in front of her.