Chapter 14: Memories
Rin stared into his molten amber orbs staring back at her with a burning intensity. He rose from the sofa and took Rin's hand into his own. She followed him into the hallway and soon they were standing in front of the locked doors of the red room. Rin trembled slightly feeling nervous about what was to come. Sesshomaru looked down at her questioningly. Rin nodded her head signaling she would follow through. He pulled the keys from his pocket and unlocked the door.
The smell of leather hit Rin again hard and she looked around the dark room feeling like a bundle of nerves. Am I ready for this? She thought.
"Go sit on the bed." Sesshomaru ordered. Rin complied and removed her shoes to sit on the bed.
The tall demon disappeared into a closet in the room. Rin waited for him to emerge. What she saw when the lights came on made her eyes widen. He was shirtless only wearing a pair of worn looking jeans. Rin had never seen him in anything so casual. He looked different but sexy as ever.
As Rin sat on the edge of the bed and watched him walk over to her she could not help but become excited. The nerves started to give way to anticipation. He walked right up to her placing his body in between her legs. He came face to face with her gazing deep into her eyes almost pleading like he needed this.
"I will be gentle and start slow." He said in a low tone.
"Ok" Rin said gazing back at him.
"When in this room you belong to me. I have complete control." He said seriously then in one smooth motion he sliced Rin's jumpsuit open with one clawed finger. Rin jumped at the swift and unexpected motion. He peeled her ripped jumpsuit from her body and tossed it on the floor carelessly.
Rin stared at him wide eyed wondering what he would do next. Sesshomaru smelled all her emotions; there was arousal, excitement, nervousness and a little fear. The fear aroused him even more, some primal part of him fed on it.
"Lay on your stomach." He instructed her. She did as she was told.
Unknowingly to the raven haired girl, Sesshomaru produced a pair of leather handcuffs from his back pocket. He stood back and appreciated the view of what was his. She lay on the red bed spread on her stomach with her face buried in a pillow and her butt in the air. He admired the curve of her backside, the soft skin of her back and her luscious, dark hair. She wore black panties outlined with a soft pink lace but no bra.
He gently grasped Rin's wrist and cuffed it, then cuffed the other to the bed. Rin raised her head to look at him. He produced a blindfold from his pocket and placed it over her eyes. She became a little more nervous about being cuffed and not being able to see.
"Do you trust me Rin?" Sesshomaru asked.
"Yes."
That was all he needed to hear. Complete trust is required for this kind of intimacy. He needed her to know he would not harm her….intentionally.
Deft, clawed hands slowly peeled Rin's panties down her legs exposing the rest of her body. He used two more cuffs around her ankles to restrain her legs. She lay handcuffed, spread eagled and bare at his complete mercy. The thought made him want to go wild, something inside of him begged to be set loose but he held back. He promised he would be very gentle with her as not to scare her away from the monster threatening to bubble to the surface, the monster he could become.
The tall demon decided not to use the other objects hanging on the wall. He opted for his claws instead. Starting from her shoulders he slowly and delicately dragged his claws down the cream of her back trailing goose bumps along the way. Rin squirmed under his touch making Sesshomaru smirk. His fingers made their way past the cup of her ass but stopping just before her entrance. One claw circled around her womanhood torturously slow making Rin attempt to buck against it. But she could not move much due to her constraints.
He was driving Rin wild with expectation that never came. He slowly moved his claws back up her back setting Rin's body ablaze. She whimpered quietly with need. Her quiet moan of frustration almost made Sesshomaru let loose a whimper of his own. He stepped back and stared at her form. There she lay handcuffed and blindfolded at his utter mercy with no means to escape.
So fragile, so little and so very much helpless.
He felt something deep inside of him beg to be set free. His eyes slowly started to morph from beautiful amber to a menacing red. If Rin could see she would surely be frightened.
Sesshomaru wanted her body in the worst way. Images of claws, teeth, blood and the indescribable pleasure that came with pain flooded his mind and senses. Sesshomaru's inner demon form threatened to surface. Every instinct in his head screamed at him to draw blood and take her. He stepped back even further from her.
I can't do this, he thought. She's not ready, she can't handle it.
DO IT!
NO!
Sesshomaru held his head; fangs elongated, red eyed and on the brink of losing control. His thoughts battled against each other in his head. Then one memory bubbled to the surface.
Flashback
WHAP!
"Agh!"
"Shut it!" said a female voice. "What did I teach you?"
"Pain is good, it is the ultimate power." Said a young male voice.
"Yes it is little one…" She said as she ogled at his bruised and bloodied back. She moved closer to him and slowly licked each cut and bruise. "You're so fragile, so little and so very much helpless."
He lay chained up quietly anxiously waiting for what was to come next.
End Flashback
"Sesshomaru, Sesshomaru where are you? You were screaming!" Rin said worriedly. "I can't see anything, what's going on?"
Sesshomaru slowly opened his eyes to reveal amber orbs again. He looked around the room and noticed that he was on the floor next to the bed Rin was still handcuffed and blindfolded to. He quickly stood up and removed the blindfold and handcuffs from Rin.
Rin looked up at him with large confused eyes. "Is something wrong?" Rin asked.
"No, let's just go to bed." He said refusing to look her in the eye.
"Sesshomaru?"
"Please Rin!" He said forcefully.
She gasped. She never heard his voice sound so callous before. But she also never heard it sound so pained. She knew something was terribly wrong and hoped it had nothing to do with her but she could not believe that it was not her fault. Rin silently followed him out of the red room and into his bedroom. As they walked she snuck glances at him but he just stared blankly ahead.
Rin slipped on a t-shirt and sat in the middle of the bed, she tried one more time.
"Sesshomaru, what's wrong?"
"You need to rest; I'll be in my study." He said and with that he closed the door and left her alone.
Rin did not know what to do. She wanted to chase after him and demand answers but she knew she should leave him alone. She remembered his face, he looked almost broken. Rin wrapped the large covers around her body and tried to sleep. However, the more she thought of his face and voice the more sorrowful she became. He had never spoken to her so harshly before. What did I do wrong? Soon tears flowed down her cheeks, dripping off her face and wetting the pillow. She cried herself to sleep.
(Hours later)
Rin awoke trembling. She turned over to find that she was still alone. Rin glanced at the clock; it read 2:53 am. She shivered again. Why is it so cold, she thought. She noticed the wind pushing the curtains from the window. I don't remember the window being open, she thought. She quickly jumped out of the bed and moved towards the window. As she pushed the curtains over to close the window a strong gust of wind pushed her back making her fall to the floor. Rin looked up and for a fleeting moment she thought she saw a womanly figure but it was gone just as fast. Rin shivered then quickly got up and closed the window. It's so late I'm seeing things, she thought. Where is Sesshomaru?
Rin wandered out of the room into the dark hallway leading to his study. As she walked she heard what sounded like howling. Rin passed the study and followed the sound towards the front room. The sound could be heard coming from outside. She walked towards the door leading to the roof. Rin followed the sound to the top of Sesshomaru's condo, she could not believe her eyes at what she saw.
There on the landing was a huge, demonic, white dog with a long fluffy tale. The paws looked as if they were larger than her body. While the appearance would be frightening to most, Rin was entranced by the majesty of it and the song it was howling. The song was strangely beautiful in a haunting way. But something about the sound of the howling felt sad and lonely.
Rin's feet moved toward it. When she reached the white dog her hand reached out to touch him. His wonderful song stopped and he turned around so abruptly she was knocked off her feet. The white dog towered over her seemingly ready to rip her apart. Foreboding red eyes stared down at her small form but then softened upon recognition. The white dog morphed into the demon she was searching for a few moments ago. He leaned over her now staring down at her with beautiful amber orbs.
"S-sesshomaru?" Rin said trembling.
"Rin, I'm so sorry." He said burying his face in the crook of her neck.
"I'm okay. Please tell me what's bothering you?"
"I can't, let's just go to bed."
"No! Tell me Sesshomaru, what happened in the red room?" Rin said lifting her body up from the ground. Sesshomaru lifted himself off of her and sat on the ground.
"I could have hurt you." He said staring directly at her.
"No, you couldn't have." Rin said confidently.
"Rin, I almost lost control. You are a human; if I would have treated your body like a demon's you would be dead." He said seriously.
Rin flinched a little but she still did not believe he would hurt her. "I trust you." She said.
"You don't know everything about me." He said.
"Sesshomaru, what happened to you?"
His eyes looked cold and distant. He turned his head away from her.
"There was a time in my life when I had very little power."
Rin waited for him to continue but he would not. He stood and reached for her hand lifting her from the ground. Rin followed him into the condo, she decided not to push the issue for now but there was one thing she needed to know.
"Sesshomaru? The white dog is your demon form?"
"Yes."
"Your howling sounded like a song, were you singing?"
He froze for a split second then continued to walk into the bedroom.
"Yes."
Now it was Rin's turn to freeze. But she needed to ask one more question as they both slid into bed.
"What was the song about?"
"Freedom."
The couple lay in the bed cuddled against each other, Rin wrapped comfortably in Sesshomaru's arms.
"Sesshomaru, one more request." Rin said meekly.
"What is it Rin?"
"Make love to me please."
And that he did, he was so engrossed in Rin and releasing his own frustrations that his keen nose failed to pick up the faint scent of familiar wind close to the window. He had no idea how close she was to Rin just an hour ago.
Author's Note
I'm so sorry for not updating in so long. Grad school and work demands! Blame it on them. Please know that I will never give up on this story, I actually have some ideas in mind for another story after I finish this one. I promise the next chapter will not take so long to post. Until next time, I'll be writing.