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Carlisle Pays While Bella Preys
Chapter Fourteen
Bella Tells Jasper the Truth.
Bella's POV
I knew it was just a question of time, a couple of weeks or days, until my little girl would come into this world. I knew I needed protection for her and our family. Not just any kind of protection, I needed vampire insurance and I knew exactly where I could locate it.
I had been bringing Jasper slowly out of his slumber for the past couple of days. I was worried as to what his reaction to me might be. I had not been to see him since the day I had provoked him with threats against his family. I had needed those pictures to inflict pain upon my former best friend Alice. What better way to hurt her than to fuck her husband?
I wondered how he would receive me now, would he attack me again? Possibly kill me? How angry he must be with me after everything I have put him through. I know he overheard me talking to Margie as I informed her to send those photos to Alice. I meant for him to. I never expected him to hurt me like he had though and revenge is in my nature.
Even so, I wanted Alice to suffer so I went for her soft spot, knowing it was Jasper. Knowing it would cut her cold heart deeply. I hoped it would destroy their marriage. I wasn't so sure it had though being I got a thank you from her perky fucking ass. Jasper was just an innocent ploy in my plan to get even with her. Nevertheless, I knew it would break his heart as well. Evil is a four lettered word after all.
He would be angry with me and rightfully so. I only hoped that my being pregnant would stop him from killing me.
I inhaled a deep breath and blew it out as I opened the door. Jasper was standing there unmoving. His eyes were a darker brown-almost a human color from him not having fed while he had been in his slumber. He had eaten today though. I had made sure he was fully satisfied, not wanting to be his next meal. He had been given clean clothes after he was permitted to shower. A red tee shirt and jeans that fit snuggly on his perfect vampire body. His hair shown in golden blond hues as the fluorescent lighting kissed it affectionately. His plump lips turned down into a frown showing his dimpled cheeks as his brow furrowed, when he saw me there. If I hadn't have known the truth I would have believed he was Carlisle's son and even Rosalie's brother.
The only reason he was here at this point was because he knew I was coming, which honestly frightened the hell out of me. I wasn't so sure that I wanted to meet 'The Major' again as Alice had called him. He both scared me and turned me on. However, no thoughts like that need to be going through my mind now. I am a woman in love with her husband and I am only here to ask for assistance.
"Jasper," I greeted, my voice seeming shakier than I had intended it to. "I urgently need your help." I remained standing by the doorway trying to retain some semblance of authority and hoping to escape his grasp if need be, however unlikely the possibility. If he didn't help me or kill me, I would make sure that someone else he loved suffered.
"You're with child," he suddenly declared as fact. In talking this way he undeniably indicated the era he was from. Reminding me that he was a man forever trapped in a young body.
"I am aware you can hear the heartbeat," I responded dryly.
"I can experience the infant's emotions; she's eager to be born," he answered knowingly. I wondered exactly how much he might sense with his gift. Did he recognize if this child belonged to Peter, or perhaps the possibility that she was his child? That was a secret that needed to be kept between Doctor Masen and myself.
"What else can you perceive?" I asked him curiously.
Trying not to alarm me, he slowly began to approach me. He peered into my eyes and the baby leapt in my stomach causing me to jump at the suddenness of it.
"May I?" he asked motioning to touch my swollen belly. I nodded my head 'yes' not feeling that I had a choice. I knew he was dazzling me and I was upset. My baby was scared of him being a vampire that had to be why she was rapidly moving around. That bastard was scaring her.
He placed his palm on my abdomen against my will, and he smiled an honest smile, completely reaching his eyes. The baby was moving quicker, and I observed my stomach as it moved from side to side. Fear commenced to run all throughout my body as I now realized that he knew more about my baby than I did.
The tears then began to roll down both of my cheeks as I began to understand the actuality, that there was more than a distinct possibility, this may well be his child. And Jasper knew it.
"She has my gift," he smiled as his eyes lit up even more. My face began to crumble. I felt my chin begin to quiver. This had all began to feel as if I were in a dream. The world around me was moving in slow motion as I began to fall apart.
"She will be more human than vampire Bella." he announced when noticing my mood and expressions change.
Was that statement meant to make me feel significantly better? Because it had not. My heart fell to my feet, the realization nearly knocking me over. I shook my head as the painful lump in my throat began to choke me. I knew this was a prospect. However, until now, I had not considered Jasper knowing what I did not. I preferred believing she belonged to my love and husband, Peter. How could I have messed up like this? Damn it!
"How do you know that she belongs to you Jasper?" I asked needing confirmation.
"She has my power Bella. I can feel what she feels, and she can feel what I feel. I'm sending her love. She is both joyful and fearful. Why is my child afraid Bella?" he asked bending his head in a move that appeared slightly more animal like than human.
"Because I am," I sobbed feeling defeated. "For many different reasons Jasper."
"Tell me?" he asked concern framing his face now.
"She was supposed to belong to Peter, Jasper…." He interrupted as my tears began to fall harder.
"And since I violated you, she belongs to me." He declared and I shook my head answering yes to his question.
"What about your role in that Bella? You set me up never even considering that a male vampire might be capable of fathering a child. We don't breed with humans for a reason. We find our mates, and they are almost always vampires. This spares us all anguish, because the Volturi does not permit vampire babies Bella. If you know what I mean," he said motioning toward my rounded belly. He didn't wish our child to understand the endangerments it was going to be born into, neither did I.
However, I remembered Edward once telling me why there were no vampire children. They were hard to control and Aro would not allow them to give away their most guarded secret to humans. That vampires truly did exist. They were a risk not knowing any better than to feed their hunger. Like a human baby would take a mother's milk, a vampire baby would take a human's blood. An older child would feed their bloodlust openly and in public. Never considering the consequences they faced afterwards. I flew under Aro's radar with my knowledge of them, and I intended to stay that way.
"I will protect this child with my own life, Bella. With you being the mother, I will also protect you." He solemnly vowed.
"What about Peter and Alice?" I questioned.
"The infant comes first," he stated harshly. "If I have to choose between the two of you, know that I will select you second," he stated without a second of hesitation.
I wasn't offended by this. I was relieved. Of course the baby becomes number one. I want her protected above all others. At least we can agree on that part.
"And Peter… Alice?" I asked desiring to know if he would protect Peter at all, or if Alice would be his first priority after the baby. Maybe he wanted her to be the mother. Just like Esme had desired to take this child and raise it with Carlisle.
"I love them both Bella. I don't love you. However, our child does," he said gazing at my stomach. I knew they were communicating in a language I could never be a part of.
I nodded my head in understanding. I knew he didn't care about me, how could he after all that I had executed upon him? I had wanted to become this handsome creature's friend, but now I was his distrusted egg donor.
"We all need your protection Jasper. I have apparently started a vampire war with the women of your coven. They want me dead." He snickered; this being no real surprise to him. I then continued, ignoring his reaction. "They want to take my love away from me and turn him back into Carlisle. I detest having to beg for anything Jasper, but I am begging you for my family and our lives," I said wiping my tears with my fingers as they continued to fall.
"How can you hate Carlisle and yet love Peter? They are the same individual Bella. He may look and act differently. Nevertheless, it's undoubtedly true." Jasper had now moved back over to the other side of the cell, crossing his arms and standing up straight. He glared at me with contempt while making his point.
"I am aware it's true, although Peter has this way about him. He loves me Jasper, and he makes me feel good about myself again, like I'm his world. My heart feels whole with him. It's a feeling I thought I would never experience after Edward left, after you all had left me." The insecurities I had felt as a teen-ager were starting to return with this thought. I had lost Edward; I will lose Peter as well.
"He's still Carlisle. Bella, you need to accept that. What happens when he dies? Are you going to allow that to happen?"
Those were legitimate questions that he deserved an answer to. Carlisle was his father figure after all. Here comes the beginning of the rough parts I need to address with him.
"I'm working with some other scientists to come up with anything that will prolong his human life. Peter and this baby mean everything to me and I won't stop trying to save him until the very end," I answered truthfully.
"And if that doesn't work, then what, will you simply allow him to die?" His eyes were piercing with the judgment he held within them. He meant to intimidate me with them. I know this for a fact; I had learned this from the Cullens many years ago.
"NO!" I shouted. "I will distribute him back to Esme if it comes to that. I won't allow him to die a human death Jasper. I love him too much," I sighed in between my tears. "I require your assistance in that area as well as another. I would like for you to work along beside me since you are a vampire. Maybe you can grasp things that we as humans cannot. Please Jasper," I begged. I knew he could feel my pain and the sense of loss and fear I was fighting over possibly losing Peter. For a brief second, I saw his wall fall and his eyes fill with sympathy for me, fleeting as it was.
"I'll help you if I can, Bella. Not because I agree with it, but he is already human. I would personally like to see him for myself."
"That was another thing that I wanted to discuss with you. I'm pretty confident this is your daughter now. I don't want Peter to know that, it would destroy him Jasper. He needs to think she belongs to him. If he merely has a couple of human years left, then please give him that and please give me the chance to have his child. It may be the only part of him I will ever have." Oh God. "I won't get the chance to give him that if your family takes him and the baby away from me," I said as I pleaded with Jasper once more. "I know one way or the other Jasper, I am going to lose him. I have to accept that. Nevertheless, if I have his baby then I will always have a part of him to hold on to. Can you understand that?" I asked while wondering if I could even hold onto his baby myself, with Esme and Rose biting at the bit to steal her.
"I am the father to this child Bella. I have certain rights," he said through clenched teeth. Great, he chooses now to become possessive.
"I am not trying to take her from you," I tried to explain before his anger increased. "I am simply asking you to play uncle to her until I can have Peter's baby, or he returns to Carlisle, whichever comes first. Is that so perplexing to understand?" Give me a break here.
"She's mine!" He raised his voice feeling threatened.
I understand that I have granted him something he thought he could never have; now he feels like I am snatching it back from him. It's not like this would be forever. He should feel grateful.
"You can come and live with us in our home. You can get to know Peter, and you will witness, with your own eyes, how wonderful he is. You can also provide us protection from the women. You won't miss out on seeing ou…our daughter every day," I offered.
I could tell he was thinking things over in his own mind by the way his brow was furrowing.
"If I do this, I will require assistance as well Bella. I cannot fight three pissed off women alone. Vampire or human," he chuckled at his little joke.
"What do you suggest then?" I asked. My body stiffened as I feared the answer he would give me.
"We will bring in Edward for protection as well." Fuck, I knew it.
"Edward," I scowled. What a predicament that would be. I can hear it now. 'Edward, yes it's true, that although I don't love you any more I do love your ex-father Carlisle, who is currently Peter. During that time I provoked Jasper to have sex with me, so I could send off pictures to his wife Alice. Guess what? I got pregnant by Jasper. No, you can't tell Peter, and yes I expect you to protect us all while I try to get pregnant again after I have Jasper's baby. Come on in your room is ready.' I rolled my eyes at even the thought of explaining that one.
"Yes, it's the only way Bella. The two of us can confine the women. I will not allow harm to come to the baby or you as her mother. She of course loves you." Jasper paused before continuing. "Esme will never hurt Peter. Because she understands that he is her husband. And Bella, she is right."
"Huh," I huffed. No she's not.
"There's one further problem Jasper," I began. "When all three women broke into our home that night, Alice called your name and brought forth the possibility that you may be the father. Peter isn't stupid and although he has never brought the subject back up, he will undoubtedly recognize your name. He does however believe the vampire that raped me is dead. Somehow we will have to convince him that you are not the one Alice is speaking of." I hate laying this all out to Jasper but what other choices do I have?
"Just refer to me as Major, and we'll go by Edwards's middle name, Anthony." I wish it were as simple as that.
"Esme has shown Peter pictures of her family." I was now frantic about the thought that this was not going to work. I'll just bet that Alice had told Esme to do that. Well fuck me.
"Calm down Bella, it's not good for the baby," he said sternly. "I will be able to sense what Peter feels, what he will buy into. Let me handle the talking until I find the right way to convince him of things."
"Peter thinks Esme is delusional because he doesn't remember her. Can we use that fact to convince him that her vampire sons are concerned about the innocent humans?" I asked hoping against all odds this would work.
"You're far from innocent," he mocked. "Edward and I will think of something along those lines," he then assured me.
"How long do you think we have before the baby is born, Jasper?" Somehow, I just knew he would have that answer.
He moved and touched my abdomen once more, and I could feel emotions coming from both within and without of my stomach as they communicated. I must say it was quite the rush.
"Six to ten days, she wants to be born even now as we speak. However, your body will not allow her to, unless she was to claw through you, which she won't do. She loves her mother." He removed his hand and drew in an unneeded breath.
"I will permit this to take place Bella for numerous different reasons. I deeply love my daughter, even now I have bonded with her. She loves you and she already understands who her actual parents are. This is the only reason I won't be uttering anything to Carlisle. I realize he has always yearned for a child even though he was not granted the chance to father one in his human life. That's why he and Esme treasured us, so I will not deny him this, as long as I know I have my own child. At some point Carlisle will have to know that the female child is my daughter. I don't care if he is a 'vampire Carlisle' or a 'human Peter', do you understand that?" He was dead serious. Unless I could think of a way to get her away from him.
"YES" I answered swallowing hard. I hate giving up control over anything, especially my child.
"I will not tolerate any of your games anymore either. Don't think that you can off me and keep my daughter." Fuck how does he do that? "I will take precautions to ensure that she will be with me if you do so, and you'll never see her again…understand?" He glared harshly at me. I think I'm in hate.
"Yes," I answered through gritted teeth, crossing my own arms.
"Okay If I am free to go now, then I shall go to retrieve Edward." NO.
"How about asking Emmett instead?" I suggested meekly.
"Rose will never allow that Bella and you know that. He won't fight us, but he won't them either. You have successfully divided our family, Congratulations," he said and then proceeded to clap his hands together. Sarcastic Asshole.
"Will Edward come?" I never thought I would have to be this close to Edward again in my lifetime. Now he was going to be in my house, with my husband. The thought of it made me very uncomfortable. If Jasper is helping me and the other scientists than Edward will be, more likely than not, staying with Peter.
"He has consistently loved you, that has never changed. This will hurt him deeply, and I hate to have to inform him of my loss of control. He will not take that well, and he will try to destroy me for it. However, it won't work." He did not seem to be looking forward to hurting Edward. How could he be, Edward had been nothing, if not a good brother to him.
"Don't injure him Jasper. I realize you are fiercer than him, but I don't want him hurt." I plead in Edwards's defense, although I wasn't sure as to why.
"I promise you Bella. I will not kill him. Even so, I will not stand for him to kill me either. I have a reason to live now, and I can't help but to believe this was fate," he said once more peering at my stomach. A small smile crept onto his face. No doubt he was sending love to my daughter, our daughter, I could feel the love radiating between the two of them.
I shook my head, what else could I do. I was running out of options, and I needed protection from those crazy assed bitches. I just hope Jasper and Edward will keep their mouths shut. If I lose Peter and the baby, I will kill myself. Then everyone will be pleased that I'm finally gone from their lives.
