Chapter 14

ASHLEY'S POV

Ashley made her way down the hall way trying to get anywhere she could that wasn't that room, somewhere away from Spencer Carlin and her stupid blue eyes. Ashley walked as quickly as possible but every step she took she could feel chest getting tighter and tighter as if her heart was going to pop out of her chest. She finally made it to her room where she took the opportunity to cry for the first time in years, the same tears that she cried over Emily, the same tears that she vowed never to cry again. Ashley felt stupid for letting herself go around Spencer, for letting her heart be taken over by the girl with the stupid blue eyes. Ashley dropped herself on to her bed and grabbed her carebear teddy hugging it until she thought the tears may stop. After years of controlling her tears Ashley realised that this time she had no control or her stupid heart for that matter. Ashley's mental abusing of herself was interrupted by Aiden creeping into the room. Ashley didn't turn around in fact she curled up even more with her teddy hoping that Aiden would just leave her alone but knowing deep down that her best friend would never do that.

"I think Bogey is having trouble breathing" Aiden joked taking Ashley's teddy away from her causing her to uncurl.

"He's not the only one" Ashley replied as she wiped her eyes and tried to pull herself together.

"Spill it....Davies"

"Spencer fucked her ex girlfriends girlfriend and lied to me about it"

"Wow...did you have any idea?"

"I saw them kissing that night that I bailed on her but Spencer told me that was it"

"How do you know it happened?"

"Carmen paid us a little post coital visit this morning in tears"

"Too much info Ash. Why would Carmen's girlfriend tell her that?"

"Maybe because she's a decent human being who can't lie to somebody she loves"

"So what happened then?"

"I left in tears, Spencer followed me and said that I should trust her which I don't so I left again"

"Maybe this is the best thing could happen"

"How is me crying the best thing?"

"First all it shows that Emily didn't completely destroy your heart and you clearly don't trust Spencer so this has ended something that was clearly going nowhere"

"How do you know it was going nowhere?"

"You don't trust her Ash and you need trust for relationships to work otherwise you've got nothing hun"

"Would you trust Spencer?"

"No"

"Why?"

"Because I have a feeling that she is into my best friend who's a girl....I'm dissapointed" Aiden joked earning him a slap on the arm Ashley.

"Let's just forget all this shit and go shoot stuff" Ashley announced pulling Aiden up against his will.

"I love you Ash but I'm not going to shoot Spencer for you"

"Just pretend guns today Aid....I need to get my frustration out and paintball is the only place safe on this island from girl drama"

"Alright but don't cry when I kick your ass"

"I have no idea what you're talking about....I don't cry" Ashley laughed as she grabbed her sunglasses. Aiden grabbed his and followed Ashley to the car park where they climbed into the hotel 4x4 and headed off.

PAINTBALLING GROUNDS

Spencer and all the guys were all kitted up and ready to go but they were told to wait a few minutes by the instructor as they had some late arrivals. They had been split into two groups as there were so many of them and luckily Spencer had been put on the opposite team to Glen so she had an excuse to exact revenge for years of child hood torment. She was looking forward to letting loose and enjoying herself away from the resort which was feeling more like a personal prison. Spencer could see that two other people had arrived and were in the process of getting their safety gear on so the team leaders decided to decend into the forest for the game. Spencer followed her brother Clay as they all took their positions around the land. Spencer was ready and eager to go knowing that running around and shooting people would really help with her current state of frustration. Spencer heard the Klaxon sound which meant the late arrivals had been put in to teams and the game had started. Spencer had been instructed by Clay to stay close to him and to shoot anyone wearing blue overalls and then they get the flag at the end from the other team which means that they win.

Spencer stayed close to Clay as instructed but got slightly nervous when she heard the first shot being made from close by. She turned around to see Aiden tripping over a log and firing his gun into the sky. Spencer stopped to make sure he was ok but mostly to check that Ashley wasn't here.

"Aiden you're meant to shoot people..I'm new to this but I'm pretty sure that's how it goes" Spencer laughed. Aiden looked over with a not so ammused look on his face causing Spencer to lose some of her cockiness.

"Yea sorry I tripped but I'm good now"

"Let me guess you've spoken to Ashley?" Spencer put two and two together when she picked that Aiden had a slight attitude with her.

"She's my best friend of course I have"

"I didn't do it Aiden" Spencer cut right to the point as she was sick of talking about the topic and she really just wanted to shoot people.

"I'm staying out of this Spencer plus it's not me you need to convince"

"I don't need to convince anyone...I know I didn't do anything"

"So you're just going to give up?guess Ashley isn't worth your valuable time"

Spencer didn't know where it came from but she felt the urge to shoot Aiden so she did and it felt good too.

"Spencer I'm on your damn team....you're not supposed to shoot me"Aiden yelled as he inspected the paint shot wound.

"Just call it friendly fire or maybe a friendly warning"Spencer quipped as she started walking off but she was stopped in her tracks by a shot to her back. She spun around to see Ashley stood next to Aiden holding her gun and high fiving him.

"That wasn't friendly fire"Ashley laughed and to her surprise Spencer shot her right back and once again it felt good.

"You're not supposed to shoot once you've been shot Spencer" Ashley yelled as she wiped the paint off her overalls.

"Guess I missed that part"Spencer replied trying to walk off again knowing that they both needed to be away from each other as they were both mad and upset. But once again Spencer was shot this time in the leg. Aiden stood between the two fueding girls before more shots could be made.

"Look you two need to sort this out"Aiden shouted as he stood between with his hands up.

"There's nothing to sort out"Ashley replied

"Yes there is Ashley...I get that you're mad at Spencer but you like her so either get over it or move on. I refuse to be stuck in the middle of this....I just wanna play Paint ball" Aiden yelled again getting no response but his peacemaking was interrupted by the paint ball guy who had seen some of the alteration.

"You two are dead so get in the dead bin until the end of the game. Aiden you look like you've suffered from friendly fire so you can play on. Give me your guns girls" The big army looking guy demanded which Aiden listened to soon leaving Ashley and Spencer to be led to the dead bin. Unfortunately for them there was nobody else in there so they only had each other for company.

"Good work G.I Joe" Ashley sniped as she went to the furthest point in the room away from Spencer.

"I was doing fine until you interrupted"

"At least you didn't sleep with him...suppose I should feel lucky"

"I didn't fuck Jamie if you don't believe me that's fine but just leave me alone" Spencer had been pushed to far this could handle Ashley being mad but she couldn't stand the little digs, it was petty and she didn't deserve it.

"Fine...I'm out of here"Ashley had lost her fight aswell and felt there was no need to be locked in this room with Spencer or any room for that matter.

"Wait don't go" Spencer begged from nowhere especially considering she would rather Ashley leave than stay and make her feel bad for something she didn't do.

"Spencer I'm done with this...it was fun which is what we both wanted so lets just leave it at that" Ashley replied moving her arm from Spencer's arm from where she had stopped her leaving.

"I know you don't mean that"

"No you don't because you don't know me....not at all not in the slightest Spencer. Just move so I can leave and we can both move on" Ashley refused to make eye contact and kept her eyes to the ground so she didn't have to look at Spencer's stupid blue eyes that got her everytime.

"I'm not moving" Spencer had rediscovered her stubborn streak which she had lost while with Carmen as she was too demanding and way more stubborn. She knew that if she wanted to convince Ashley then she would have to be the one figthing for the first time in her life.

"Spence I'm not playing"

"Niether am I Ashley..I'm not moving until you admit that we were..are more than just some fun. If you felt this way then you would have no problem in being in here with me. In fact if we were just some stupid holiday fling then we'd probably be fucking right now because that's what 2 people do when their having a fling. Two people who are just having fun do not avoid eye contact, they don't stay mad at the other person, they don't get mad when false accusations are made, in fact they wouldn't care because don't involve feelings and whatever is happening between us definately involves feelings"

"You might have feelings but I don't" Ashley snapped still looking everywhere but in Spencer's eyes.

"You don't mean that"

"How would you know?"

"Because if you had no feelings then you wouldn't have cried this morning when you left and you would actually look me in the eyes if you didn't care but you do and that's why you're avoiding looking at me" Spencer was now as close to Ashley as she could get without pressing herself against her. Ashley didn't move as she had ran out of room to back up as Spencer had her against a wall. Ashley looked up and used every ounce of strength she had in her to look Spencer in the eye without kissing her.

"Spencer I feel nothing towards you, I want you to leave, I don't want to hear from you again, don't write me, don't call and don't email. You're right I did feel something for you but that's long gone because you took every chance we had and fucked it up. You're not ready for anything like this and neither am I. Please move..." Ashley finally answered and for the first time since Spencer had met her her eyes looked dead as if they had lost everything that kept them alive. Spencer didn't reply as the single tear that fell said it all as she stepped out of the way for Ashley to leave while planning her own escape from Hawaii. Ashley left without looking back at Spencer which she knew was for the best because she knew that she had lost out by leaving Spencer there but in the long run she was saving herself. As she headed back to the main paintball centre she saw Aiden getting a drink so she called him on his cell phone for him to join her asap which he did. As Spencer made her way to find her brothers she saw Ashley and Aiden climbing into the car and leaving and as she watched Spencer felt her heart break for the first time and it hurt.

Glen spotted his sister and heading straight over to her holding her but she pulled away and smiled at her brother.

"I'm fine Glen....she just wasn't the one"

"You don't have to lie to me"

"I know but it helps if I lie to myself. I need to leave early Glen"

"No you can't I need you here Spence...it's my wedding in morning..please stay"Glen begged knowing that his sister is hurting.

"I'll stay for the wedding and then I need to leave"

After paintball Spencer headed to her room and had a long hot bath to relax herself as she had to attend her brother's rehersal dinner this evening. Spencer just wanted to run back home but knew she couldn't let her brother down especially as he was being so awesome to her recently. Spencer heard her phone ringing so she dried her hands and picked up the phone.

"Spencer Carlin"

"Hey Spencer it's Don"

"Oh hi Don how can I help?"Spencer asked secretly getting annoyed that her boss was bothering her while she was on vacation.

"Well Carlin I heard that Caremn Estrelles happens to be on the same resort as you and I want her coming out story. I want a joint interview with her and the sister she's fucking"

"I'm on holiday Don"

"Well I must be confused as I thought you'd been on holiday for the last few months because I don't remeber the last article you gave to me"

Spenver knew this was true as she had spent so much of her time helping Carmen and being there for her every beck and call that she had neglected her own career. She knew that Don would make her do this story no matter what so she swallowed her pride and agreed to it.

"I'll try but she's on holiday too"

"She's already agreed to the interview so get to it"

Spencer hung up and threw her head back in anger knowing that Carmen was behind this some how and probably wanted revenge for Spencer turning her down. After getting her stuff together knowing that she wouldn't have to any research as she had front row seats for most of Carmen's career Spencer headed to Carmen's room and the door was opened by Jamie.

"Just to make this very clear I don't want to be here so lets keep it professional" Spencer ordered as walked through the door barging past Jamie. She set up her laptop and recorder on the table ready to go.

"You spoke to Don then?"Carmen asked passing Spencer a bottle of water.

"Yea he must've called straight after you hung up"

"Look Spencer I was just trying to help you" Carmen smiled as she ran her finger down Spencer's back. Spencer automatically started packing up her stuff.

"Where are you going?"

"We are doing this interview at the bar where I know you won't act like a complete bitch because your precious fans will be there"

Carmen and Jamie followed Spencer to the cocktial bar where Spencer once again set up her equipment. As everyone ordered drinks Spencer spotted Ashley walking across the resort heading towards to her secret spot but with somebody else wo wasn't Aiden in tow. Spencer stopped staring and tried to focus on the task in hand.

"If I do this will you guys do me a favour?" Spencer asked as she watched Ashley disappear into the horizon.

"Depends" Carmen replied for both of them taking a sip of everyone's drink.

"i'll do the interview if Jamie tells Ashley that we didn't fuck"

"That's it?even though you guys are over?"Carmen asked confused.

"It doesn't matter if we are over I just want her to know that I didn't do it"

Both Carmen and Jamie agreed so Spencer sped through the interview and she even managed to get some big coming out photographs with tears and everything which she knew Don would love. Now that she had held up her end of the bargain she took Jamie to do her part. Spencer made Jamie walk all the way up to Ashley's secret spot hoping that she was still there. As they got closer Spencer could hear another female voice other than Ashley's giggling from the clearing. Spencer barged through the foliage which surprised Ashley and her guest who looked extremely similar to Ashley.

"Not now Spencer I'm busy"

"That's fine this will take two seconds" Spencer replied as she pulled Jamie out so she could do her part.

"What is she doing here?"Ashley asked standing up.

"I'm here to explain to you that me and Spence never had sex even though I tried everything possible. Spencer turned me down because she said that she liked some chick with the greatest brown eyes she had ever seen. Carmen made it up so she could hurt you both because she's jealous of what ever it was that you two had" Jamie stepped back after she had said her part.

Ashley didn't move or say anything she just stared at Spencer with a look that Spencer had never seen before.

"I know that you're stubborn Ashley and I know that we're done but I just wanted you to know the truth so that you don't spend your whole life thinking the worse of people because a stupid girl broke your heart. There's someone great out there for and you'll find them eventually but just give them a chance" Spencer said and then she headed off back towards the resort. She knew that Ashley still wouldn't believe her but she just wanted her to know. Spencer offically felt like she had done everything she could now and that she was done with chasing somebody that didn't want to be chased.

Ashley's POV

For once in her life Ashley Davie's was speechless and all she could do was stand there as Spencer walked off.

"Is that her then?" The other girl asked.

"That was her" Ashley replied still staring at the spot where Spencer was stood only seconds.

"She's beautiful and she loves you Ash....this time you are officially a moran"

"Shut up Kyla...now is not the time"

"When will be the time?because I am sick of you being broken hearted and lonely plus you're dragging Aiden down with you"

"Aiden is here because of you"

"No Aiden is here because of you. I love that boy but he was too busy pleasing my lesbian sister...that shit just destroys a girls confidence" Kyla joked.

"I've made the right choice this time Kyla I know I have. I mean she lives in LA and I live here..that's a big enough issue"

"That's not an issue Ashley...I don't know if you remember this but you have a huge house in LA. You need to come out of hiding and soon before you get left behind"