Hello lovely readers! I'm sorry for updating so frequently. These characters are running around in my head, and I can't seem to get rid of them. That being said, if you haven't read the last chapter (the chapter is about 200 views short of what it usually is), go back and read that one first. It's worth it, I promise!
Here are some answers to your questions, though they may not be the answers you want.
Finally (sorry for making this note longer than the chapter), my family and I are going to the beach this next week, so I won't be able to update every night. However, I will update as much as possible. Again, I will update this next week, never fear!
Enjoy the chapter :)! (The songs used in the chapter are Taylor Swift's (editted..) Teardrops on my Guitar for Melody and the Jonas Brother's Sorry for Blaine. I apologize for all the teen pop, the songs just fit the situations!)
Chapter 13
Monday morning comes, and Kurt shows up to class twenty minutes early just so he can choose another seat. He even skipped his morning coffee just so he would be there before Blaine. He knew he looked like hell. He actually had on sweatpants, a hoodie, and his hair was just flat against his head. He spent the entire rest of the weekend with Jade, just talking. One thing he was proud of was that he hadn't cried. He'll admit that he cried more over Blaine in the past few months than he ever had before they started college. But he hadn't after they officially broke up. He knew it was coming, and no amount of cute dates could have stopped it. But it hurt. It really, really did.
He still loves Blaine.
He still wants Blaine.
Blaine still has his heart.
As was expected, the group of friends took sides in the argument. Henry, Mel, Eric, and a few other people all stayed with Blaine all weekend. They sat apart from Kurt, Jade, Nathan, Nicole, and Kelly at meals. With some feelings of triumph, Kurt noticed that Henry and Eric flanked Blaine, and Melody was pushed to the side.
Kurt decided to choose the seat he always sat in, let Blaine choose another seat. Not even two minutes later, Blaine walks into the classroom carrying two coffees. Kurt can't help but notice that he doesn't look like he spent the weekend mourning. He has moccasins, tight jeans, a brown button down and a gorgeous plaid tie that Kurt recognizes as the one he gave Blaine for Christmas last year.
He hands Kurt a coffee, "Can we talk? Please Kurt?"
"No." Kurt looks forward, he can't bring himself to look Blaine in the face.
Blaine kneels in front of Kurt's desk, and Kurt looks at Blaine. Oh. He takes back what he said about Blaine not looking sad. He sees now that Blaine is wearing his glasses because his eyes are rimmed in red, and are puffy. He's been crying.
What Kurt doesn't know is that Blaine spent the entire day yesterday wrapped in Henry's arms, sobbing. Blaine was heartbroken to the point where he can barely function behind closed doors.
"Please baby. We need to talk." Blaine's eyes plead with Kurt's.
Kurt takes a steadying breath, "Blaine. No. I really think there is nothing else to discuss…"
Blaine can't help but interrupt, "But you and I…"
"You and I, nothing. Blaine, we're done." Kurt feels his own heart breaking, but he knows this is what is right. He knows he doesn't deserve Blaine anymore. What he said about Blaine being a sucky boyfriend will haunt Kurt forever. Blaine was the best possible boyfriend he could be. Kurt knows Blaine needs to be liked, needs to be loved. In fact, that is what Kurt loved most about Blaine. He loves that people like him. He loves that Blaine lets him be his own person. Kurt knows if he had problems, he should have spoken up. Kurt lost Blaine, even though he was the one who did the breaking up.
The situation is entirely different in Blaine's head. By this point, he is sitting in his chair next to Kurt. Everything he clung to, every ounce of hope that he could win Kurt back, disappeared. Kurt was gone. Everything he loved, everything he knew, is gone. Blaine wills himself not to cry. He cannot cry in front of Kurt. Blaine knows he has to take his mind off of the tears welling in his eyes, so he pulls out a sheet of paper and immediately starts putting everything he feels into lyrics. Tomorrow night he has to perform a song at the Storytellers Café, and this will be it.
Kurt sees Blaine scribbling all over his notebook throughout class, and he tries to see what he's writing, but it is a losing battle. As he sips the coffee Blaine brought him, he can't help but feel like a traitor. Both to his head and his heart. His head tells him to throw the coffee away. He drinks it anyway. His heart is telling him to wrap the boy next to him in his arms and never let go.
For the first time, tears well up in his eyes, but they don't fall. He will be strong, and soon Blaine won't hurt so much. When he sees that Blaine isn't hurting anymore, then he will start his own healing process.
As class ends, Blaine turns to Kurt, "I know you don't want to talk to me, but can you please come to the café tomorrow? I wrote a song for you."
Kurt nods, "Of course. I've been at every other show, why would I stop. Free coffee, you know?" He would not tell Blaine that he was going to go anyway. He needs a brief glimpse into Blaine's head.
Tuesday night and the Storyteller Café open in John's, the coffee shop on campus. The Creative Arts club and any music class on campus provides the coffee house with entertainment in both poetry and music. Blaine and Mel have to perform at least twice a month, but Blaine tries to perform every week. He even has a small fan club that cheers him on.
Usually, Kurt sits front and center, smiling up at Blaine while he performs a song about love, and tells the audience about the boy who inspired the song. Tonight, he sits in the fifth row, clutching Jade's hand with more strength than she thought he was capable of having.
Melody is the first person to grace the stage. Kurt couldn't help but laugh at the irony of her gracing anything. Rage, hatred, hurt, and disgusts filled his mind as he looks at her.
She shifts on the stool, staring into the audience, and Kurt swears she looks right into his eyes before she starts talking. "Okay, this past week has been really, really bad for me. I'm pretty sure I hurt two people like I've never hurt anyone before. I've also lost any chance I had with a boy that I really did love. But this song is about how I feel about this boy, and how hard it is to watch him loving someone else." Melody picks up her guitar and sighs before the opening chords play.
Blaine looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet they're beautiful, it's all he talks about
And he's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh 'cause it's just so funny
And I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
Kurt sits there in shock. She publically just spewed all of their business. Sure, people saw on Facebook and knew that he and Blaine had broken up. But not everyone knew about Melody. He could kill her.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Blaine walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
He better hold him tight, give him all his love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know he's lucky 'cause
She even made the song about two boys in love. She is showing everyone that she is pining over a gay man. Well, at least now everyone knows she's a crazy bitch.
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into.
Blaine looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.
Kurt sees the teardrop falling down her face at the end. So melodramatic. She walks across the stage and down, falling into Blaine. He doesn't hold her back right away, but eventually wraps an arm around her. Kurt feels triumph over the fact that he pulls back rather quickly, and first.
Blaine readies himself to go next. Though he told Kurt to show up, he didn't expect him to. And now, he has to go up after Mel sang that song. His professor introduces him, and he has to go up, but now he's more nervous than usually.
He goes and sits on the stool, and an immediate calming effect falls over him. He feels whole for the first time since he and Kurt broke up. He pulls the microphone closer, "Hey everyone. I'm Blaine. Err, but you've already been introduced to me tonight." He pauses as the audience laughs, even Kurt gives a little chuckle, which causes Blaine to feel confident. That laugh is a small dent in the wall Kurt has built between the two of them. "Now, as some of you may know, I recently went through a breakup."
Kurt somewhat gasps, now Blaine is going to air their dirty laundry? He can't be mad though, he knew the song was going to be about this is some way.
"This past weekend, I lost the love of my life. I am an idiot, I admit. I lost the person that made me feel whole. I know nothing I can do will ever make me deserve him. I didn't deserve someone like him in the first place. But today, when I realized that it was really over, I wrote this song. I know he's here tonight, and I hope this song shows how very sorry I am. I also hope," Blaine takes a deep breath, "that he will listen to this song, and sometime in the future, if it is in his heart, he will realize that I do love him, and that I will always be waiting for him to come back to me."
Kurt sits there in shock, okay, yeah, he just aired their dirty laundry. But he said everything Kurt needed to hear. Kurt wasn't going back to Blaine, he already made his decision about staying single. But it helped to know that Blaine still loved him.
The song starts and Kurt feels his heart stop. Blaine looks so pained, but when he looks up, his eyes are clear honey, and he's looking right at Kurt.
Broken hearts and last goodbyes
Restless nights but lullabies
Helps to make this pain go away
I realize I let you down
Told you that I'd be around
Buildin' up the strength just to say
I'm sorry
For breakin' all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
It's all me
This time is the last time I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way
Filled with sorrow, filled with pain
Knowing that I am to blame
For leavin' your heart out in the rain
And I know your gonna walk away
Leave me with the price to pay
Before you go I wanted to say
Yeah
Kurt wants to stand up and yell that he doesn't want to walk away. Because he doesn't. But he will. It's so complicated. For once he will listen to his head.
That I'm sorry
For breakin' all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
And it's all me
This time is the last time I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way
I can't make it alive on my own
But if you have to go, then please…
Just leave me alone
'Cause I don't want to see you and me going our separate ways
Begging you to stay
If it isn't too late
I'm sorry
For breakin' all the promises that I wasn't around to keep
It's all me
This time is the last time I will ever beg you to stay
But you're already on your way
But you're already on your way
Blaine stops playing, and realizes that his eyes have been locked with Kurt's the entire time. Everyone is cheering, especially the section of girls and guys that have jokingly become his fan club. But he doesn't feel anything. His happiness over his song being loved is trumped by the fact that he knows it is over between Kurt and himself, for now. He saw it in his eyes. But Blaine does mean everything he said. He will wait for Kurt. Blaine knows Kurt is being stubborn. But they belong together.
Blaine stays after to clean up the coffee house. He's stacking empty cups together when he hears someone clear his throat. Blaine looks up to see the blonde senior boy that recently won Homecoming King.
"Blaine Anderson?" He asks, staring down at Blaine.
"Err..yes." Blaine is suddenly nervous and he doesn't really know why.
The boy reaches out to shake Blaine's hand, "I'm Kevin."
"Nice to meet you, Kevin," Blaine shakes his hand, "Can I help you?"
Kevin smiles, "Actually, yes. Can you come outside with me for a second?"
Against his better judgment, Blaine nods and follows Kevin outside. At the bottom of the steps of the Campus Center, Blaine sees a group of boys. Before he can run, Kevin grabs his arm and pulls him behind the building and out of sight.
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