Previously :

"Of course I do, it's just..." As she let a slight sigh pass her lips Maura wrapped her arms around Jane's neck and took a minute to consider the situation. Yes Jane's desire to take things further was shared but was Jane ready to face the consequences of taking that step? They still had to define the status of their current relationship and Maura was afraid that Jane was trying to impress her, to reward her for her patience by pushing her own limits and she did not know if letting her was the best thing to do.

Chapter 14 :

Transition.

"Oh my God Maura, I'm so sorry. I'm acting like a complete jerk. I should have known that you wouldn't want our first time to be at the back of a pick up truck." Well done Jane! This is Maura Isles you are dating now, not some school boy from south Boston, she's accustomed to the best things in life and this is clearly not one of them.

"Oh no Jane, it's alright. I have no particular issues with where we are. Actually, I have never made up or had sexual intercourse at the back of a car and I found it quite exciting." That was precisely what Maura loved more about being friends with Jane and her family : she got to try things she had never experienced before, simple pleasures most people enjoyed but that someone from her social class was usually not raised to be familiar with.

"What is it then?" Jane was sitting up against a large blue cushion and her arms were strongly snaked around Maura who was still sitting on her lap. Looking up into her big green eyes Jane wasn't seeing confusion or hesitation and new it had nothing to do with Maura having second thought about them but yet she was unable to comprehend the reason that would make her stop her.

"I think that we should take our time Jane. I know we have made tremendous progress over the past two weeks and I feel that every step we took was taken at the right time, because we were both ready and this step should be considered with the same precaution." Maura's intention here was to be as diplomatic as possible as not to hurt Jane's pride but most importantly to show her that she was not having any doubts regarding their relationship. She knew the amount of courage and strength it had taken Jane to confess her feelings, kiss her and confide in her about her dreams and she did not want to erase all those progress and destroy the confidence Jane had built up by appearing uncertain.

"And you think we're not ready to have sex…" This was too much for Jane to handle. It had taken all the self confidence she had to make that move and Maura was just rejecting her. Her reasons were perfectly valid but still, once again Jane had made the wrong decision at the wrong time by assuming Maura wanted to have sex tonight.

Having sex was a completely different experience for Jane than it was for Maura. From what Jane had the opportunity to observe Maura always seemed to consider sex as a hobby, something she indulged herself with when ever she felt the need and she had no trouble picking up random hot guys to satisfy her needs and then nicely cutting them loose once their tasks accomplished and her needs taken care of. Jane on the other hand had not had sex or even dated any one since Hoyt had taken her almost three years ago. Actually she had not allowed anyone but her doctor touch her hands until she met Maura. Truth was that Jane never had a huge libido and had voluntarily chosen to commit herself to her job rather than focusing on finding a husband. After Hoyt took her the little desire she had to settle down disappeared or so she thought. She thought she would never be able to trust anyone to touch her, to be on top of her dominating her the way Hoyt did when they were in that cave but then she met Maura and things changed. Somehow Maura manage to make her want to break the walls she had surrounded herself with for years but how could she be with Maura when their approach to sex was so different?

"No, I don't think we are. We have been dating for less than a day Jane and there is so much we still have to learn about each other before taking that step, please try to understand." Jane's head was down and she refused to look at her so Maura gently cupped her face with her right hand and gently started to stroke her cheek with her thumb, hoping that the small gesture would comfort her. She knew that Jane wasn't ready either but that she somehow felt compelled to prove that she could be strong and confident about their relationship but as much as Maura loved her she wanted to do this the right way, not because Jane had something to prove to her or to herself.

"I understand what you're saying. We know everything about each other as colleagues and friends but not as lovers." Forced to admit that Maura was right Jane rose her head and forced herself to look into those beautiful green eyes. She wasn't capable of arguing Maura's point of view, she did not have the strength or desire for that.

"Exactly. You know me better than anyone else Jane but being together as lovers is a completely different kind of relationship, a different dynamic and I think we need time to adjust and gradually get more comfortable." To Maura's big surprise Jane was taking this remarkably well and with a lot of maturity so to reward her she gently push her back on the cushion and started to kiss her tenderly, her arms still wrapped around her neck.

"Yeah, I might need time to get used to kiss you and to get more familiar with those." As she broke the kiss Jane had to use her self control to the best of her abilities to resist the urge to flip Maura over. She was intensively, irresistibly attracted to her and the slightest touch ignited her desires to a point that was barely manageable.

"Well nothing is keeping us from exploring each other a little bit." Maura's breasts, also known as the rack of God as Jane liked to call them in the intimacy of her own brain were definitely one of her greatest assets and a reason for people to turn around in the street or to stare at her.

Being the self conscious woman that she was Maura was well aware of the attention her imposing breasts were bringing on her. Luckily for her she knew that Jane's intentions were noble and that she was not staring at them disrespectfully or that she would never to touch her in inappropriate places without her content. That's just who Jane was, a perfect gentlemen, respectful of Maura as a woman, and who would never treat her as a sexual object, which made her desire her even more.

"Sure. We can do that. We're adults right? I'm sure we can control the urge to rip each other's clothes off." Was that woman for real? Did she really expect Jane to "explore her" without being tempted to push things further? If she did she was either mean or naive or maybe she was just trying to establish a good compromise between taking a step neither of them were ready for and staying completely abstinent which would be almost impossible. Either way Jane, for the first time in her life knew that she would have to control her sexual urges and take things slow and take the time to get to Maura better as a lover, as a possible life partner and as frustrating as the lack for sex would be that was something she was looking forward to.

So that night Jane and Maura continued to gently explore each other, kissing, cuddling, wandering their hands on each other backs while trying their best to keep their urges in control. After years of an being victims of that obvious sexual tension the two women were finally able to relieve some of it and most importantly they were finally together as a couple, accomplishment that was far more gratifying for them than any night of passion.

Hello my dear readers. I'm sorry that it took me so long to update. Thank you all for giving me your opinion and I'm glad that most of you thought it was too soon for them to sleep together because that's exactly how I felt and your comments comforted me in my feeling. This chapter was short because for some reasons I had no inspiration for it what so ever but I'm still hoping that it gave you a satisfying explanation to justify the lack of sex.

Next chapter is probably gonna be a small time jump of about a month with a HUGE twist that none of you saw coming.

I feel that this story is losing a bit of its energy but hopefully this new plot line will help and blow your mind. You know me, I always have some drama up my sleeve :).