The doctors came in and pushed Finn and Kurt out of the way.
They sat in the hall. "Finn, it will be okay." Kurt said.
"How do you know?"
"You have made it through harder things. She has to be okay."
Finn sighed heavy. "What happened to me Kurt?"
"Life happened Finn Hudson." Kurt almost laughed.
"I had everything 3 years ago and somehow here I am known as a drunk of Lima, the girl I would do anything for ,we can't seem to feel to the same way at the same time, I have this daughter that I never knew about and now I feel like I have lost her. I think I lost everything and it's my fault."
"Just take a deep breath it has been one heck of a day."
"How are you, the person that is normally in a panic so calm?"
"Cause this conversation here. This is the one you never seemed to remember. You would call me drunk and ask me the same things like this. It has become my script. Well not the daughter part but you always do this when you are tired and stressed and drunk. You think about how your life is falling apart."
"I can believe that. I tend to worry when I drink."
"I have noticed. It's not that I'm calm. I'm scared sick for Rachel but someone has to be here for you. I don't ever see you get upset unless it is about Rachel."
"You should have just hung up on me all those times."
"It's the benefit of being your brother. Someone has to babysit you."
Then the doctor that had pushed them out came out. Finn was already up as tired as he was. "Is she okay?"
"Her body couldn't handle all the wear and stress. I'm so sorry. I hope they find your daughter."
Finn just stood there and Kurt put his hand on him. Finn shrugged him off and walked into Rachel's room. Kurt followed him. "Rachel wake up! You are not doing this. This is why I hate you. Always drawing attention to yourself."
Kurt stepped up beside him and looked at him in the eye. "Finn."
"No, she needs to hear this. She thinks she can just do what she wants."
"Finn! She is gone."
"She is not." Finn started tearing up and pushed Kurt away. "Rachel I was going to tell….you next week when you came home ...but I guess now that we are here I need to tell you. I don't know what I was thinking when I said I had to think about being a father. I fell in love with Lila the minute I saw her. She looks just like the girl I loved so long ago. You know the one that I ruined everything with. Remember her? I do the girl that always had a smile on her face and the world at her finger tips. I wish I could take it all back. We would have been okay if I didn't push you away. I was going to wait till you got back to Lima and I was going to come and talk to you about how I needed to be part of Lila's life and how I needed you to be part of mine cause you were the only person I cared about. I love you Rachel and I'm sorry it took me this long to make up for everything. I guess I'm loser like your dads always said but I promise I will do everything to make sure Lila is okay and not a loser. She will be great like her mother. I will make you a promise if you make me one. I will stop all this stupid stuff I have been doing, fighting with you, drinking like a sailor, not making something of myself but you can't leave me. Make me that promise Rach, please don't leave me…Please."
Kurt walked beside him. "She always tried so hard to believe in you."
"I messed it all up it's not supposed to end like this."
Kurt and Finn went back to the apartment. "You can sleep on the couch you need some rest."
"I won't be able to sleep."
"I can tell you're exhausted. Get some sleep."
Finn heard his phone ring and it woke him up. He was laying on the couch but he was at his mom's house. He sat up in a hurry. He saw Kurt sitting and watching the local 11 o clock news. "Why are we home?" he asked.
"Cause you live here?" Kurt said.
"Where is Lila?"
"In bed. Why are you being weird did you hit your head at the bar tonight?"
"Is she okay?"
"I'm sure they are fine. Are you okay?"
"I just had the weirdest dream. Rachel was dead and we lived in New York and Lila got kidnapped."
"Jeeze, that is crazy. What did you drink tonight?"
Finn got up and walked into his bedroom. "Rach wake up I need to talk to you."
Rachel rolled over in the bed. "Finn whats wrong?"
Rachel got out of bed and walked out into the hall with Finn.
"I had this dream, well this awful nightmare where you were killed by Brody. He took Lila and you hated me once you went back to New York cause I didn't agree to be a parent to Lila. It was so real." Finn started getting upset as he talked.
Rachel grabbed Finn's arms to steady him. "Slow down. I am right here in Lima with you. I'm still alive."
"I know that. It's just it was like it was actually happening. You didn't want me at the hospital with you and then you just died."
"You were probably still half still smell like alcohol. I was really hoping when I came over here tonight that you would keep your promise and not be at the bar. I was trying to prove a point and you were so mean to me. Do you remember that happening?"
"What happens when you leave? I don't want you to. I need to be with you. Can I come to New York with you?"
"Finn, I'm not going to hate you when I leave in the morning. Calm down. I might have been mad earlier but I'm still breathing."
"Rachel, you don't know how real that dream felt. I lost you. These past couple days have been awesome and you leaving. What if you run into Brody and he does hurt you or you decide to get back with him?"
" Nothing is going to happen to me or Lila. It was a dream. You had quite a lot to drink tonight and I think it gave you weird dreams."
"I can't lose you."
"Then don't. I am not going anywhere but home. You will always be Lila's father and if it comes time that you fix your life up some more then maybe we can have a life together."
"I'm not letting you go. I've made my decision. I need to be a parent and I can't lose you."
"You need me like a fish needs a bicycle. You want to be out every night drinking. That is fine, it is your choice but I'm not letting you in Lila's life if you can't be a good influence."
"I'm sorry. Old habits die hard. I don't want you to hate me."
"Finn I've never seen you like this. You are always so sure of yourself. Yet you are pouring heart and soul out. You sure you're not drunk still?"
"All I know is that the stupid mistakes I have made for years now have got to end cause in the end I'm going to lose you and now lose Lila. So can we talk about this?"
"It's almost midnight and you want to talk about this?"
"Yes, I need to know where we are going to stand."