I couldn't stay in LA for any longer. The fact that I was even with Edward bugged me so bad.

Jacob had to come back. I needed him now more than ever, but I needed Edward too.

Edward vs. Jacob, the endless battle of my heart, neither I could bare to leave. Why couldn't I bare it?

After an hour I was in La Push, in Edward's car, and in front of my house.

"I'll see you later, angel," Edward squeezed my thigh, and I sighed.

I pulled my suitcase out with me as I walked up to the front door. My stomach churned as I turned the key into the lock.

"JENICA!" Claire squealed, rushing into my arms. I laughed, took her in one of my arms, and spun her around.

"Hey baby," I kissed her forehead and started walking inside.

Emily came out of the kitchen with a big smile and a rag in her hands. She still looked the same as I remembered her, and that was all I needed. Two days was far too long for me to be gone.

"Hey!" Emily squealed. "How are you!"
"Good." I forced a smile. "UCLA was nice."

"That's so great! You thinking about going there?"

I shrugged. "It depends on if Jacob can get in or not."

"Trust me, he'll get in just fine," she chuckled. "Kim's coming over so I can take her to the OBGYN. Do you wanna come?"

"Yeah, sure, I wanna see the sonogram," I whispered. "It must be amazing."
"We're dropping off Valley and Claire off with Amy's mom so Amy can come too. We'll pick her up over there."
I nodded. "Okay."
When I looked back up at the stairs, Kim was waddling down to the floor, holding her stomach. She had the warmest smile on her face, bigger than I had ever seen it before. Something was happening.

"Jenica, Emily, come here." She got to the bottom of the stairs and held her hands out for us.

We got to her, and she took our hands to place them on her belly. I felt something.

My face lit up with excitement. There was a real live baby in there, and there was a sign of it.

"It kicked!" Emily laughed. "Ohmygod, it kicked!"
I started laughing too and hugged Kim. She took me welcomingly and kissed my forehead.

"Baby's coming." She was ecstatic. "The baby's coming!"

"Have you chosen names?" I asked. "Have you and Jared talked about it?"

"Not yet, but I have a few in the back of my mind. I don't want to tell anybody until I have the baby."
There was more joy in that room than I had ever felt in one place at a time. We all wanted that baby more than anything else; it was almost like the baby was my own. I was excited for the arrival and the name picking, and even telling the guys.

"When we get the sonogram you have to send a picture to Jared," I squealed, still holding Kim's hand.

"I've already had that planned for a while. Our five month old baby, and it's in my stomach. I'm carrying a baby, Emily!" She hugged her. "I'm carrying a human being!"
"I know, Kimberly," Emily smiled. "And it's amazing."

At that moment I knew what I wanted more than anything else; I wanted a baby.

Not just any baby, I wanted Jacob's baby. That's how I knew that I loved him. I wanted his baby; I didn't want anyone else's. I didn't want Edward's baby; I wanted Jacob's.

So why did I still feel a connection with Edward?

I took out my cheap cell phone and punched in a message.

Jacob, I want a baby!

The phone was shoved back in my pocket while I went back to Kim.

"I'm so excited!" I squealed. "You're making me want a baby."
Kim laughed wholeheartedly. "No you don't. It's so much work, and you've got your whole life ahead of you." She kissed my forehead. "I think you and Jacob should wait."
My phone vibrated.

Ummm... baby... u know I want 1 2, just not right now

But Jacob...

No ma'am, I said no, and no means no

Jacob, I want a baby! Don't you want to make me happy?
I do want to make u happy, but ur way 2 young and I don't wanna put u thru that

BUT I WANT 2!

NO! And that's final, sorry babe, but I cant put you thru that right now when ur older, because our kids will need attention, and for right now I just want to be the center of ur attention

Fine... you win for now…..

I always do I LOVE U SO MUCH
I love you too… for now

HEY! YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOU FOREVER

I will always love you

I love you too. Now I have to go. I'll talk to you later

Bye

"Who are you texting?" Kim teased.

"Who do you think I'm texting? Jacob."
Kim smiled and put her arm around me. "You and Jacob are the cutest couple ever. Almost cuter than me and Jared."

I giggled, but refrained from saying something that would set her off while she was pregnant.

"Let's go, girlies!" Emily came from the living room with Valencia wrapped up in a big snow coat and holding Claire's hand, who also had a big purple snow coat on.

I stuffed my phone back in my pocket. Kim stood up, holding her stomach, and walked over to Claire. "Hello, sweety."

She picked Claire up with a big breath and smiled at her.

"You're going to have a new baby friend." She kissed Claire's forehead. "Aren't you excited?"

Claire nodded vigorously. "Yes I am!"
"Good. And when the baby comes I need you to be my special helper, okay?"
"Okay! I will be your special helper!"

Valencia gurgled in Emily's arms and started bouncing up and down.

"It looks like someone else is excited too." I went up to Valley and kissed her. "Is Valley excited?"

She started gurgling again as I took her in my arms.

"Can I keep her?" I teased to Emily.

"Sure," Emily laughed. "You can keep her for a day and be her mommy. That'll make you not want a baby."

"Yeah, I've already taken care of Valencia for a week," Kim laughed. "A baby is so much work."

"But I still want one."

Emily shook her head. "You're only sixteen, Jenica. You're way too young, and so is Jacob."

"Still..."

"Well, let's get going, because my OBGYN will go crazy if we're late," Kim laughed, adjusting Claire. "C'mon."

I cuddled Valencia in my arms, kissed her forehead, and pulled up my hood.

The door was unlocked and we went out to the car. Valley was still in my lap while we drove a good two minutes to Amy's house.

Emily took Valencia from my lap and held Claire's hand as she walked to the door.

They spent a few minutes talking at the door, and Amy came rushing out. The snow was amazing, and I couldn't imagine anything more beautiful.

Amy opened the door with a big smile and hopped in.

"This is so amazing!" Amy squealed. "I can't believe I get to skip school for this!"
"But you have to go to school tomorrow," I pinched her cheeks. "My little baby."

"Shut up. Just because I'm not a super genius doesn't give you the right to make fun of me."

"Yes it does."

Kim looked back at us and smiled. "I get to see my baby."

"I can't wait!" Amy squealed. "It's going to be so amazing."

Emily came back to the car, waving at Amy's mom as she walked away.

"Alright girls, let's go."

We got to the OBGYN in twenty minutes. Kim was more excited than anyone else, because she rushed as fast as she could to see her doctor.

The waiting room was decorated in paintings someone probably got for five bucks at a yard sale, cheap pink, floral wallpaper, and itchy blue chairs.

"Hello!" the nurse greeted with a big smile. "Who are you here to see?"

"Dr. Roache," Emily answered, pulling out her purse.

The nurse started going through her computer. "Kim at three forty five? Dr. Roache should be done with his patient in a minute or so, so please take a seat."
I sat next to Kim and crossed my legs one after the over. Kim picked up a People Magazine, and opened it to the seventh page.

"Look," Kim whispered with a chuckle. "Angelina had her twins."
I giggled. "Seriously? How many freaking kids does she have? Like seven?"

"Well she's got three adoptive and three of her own so about six. You were close."
"Shoot me if I ever want more than four kids," I lay back in my seat. "I want a kid, but not that many."

Kim shook her head. "You don't want a kid now."

"Yes I do!"

Emily looked up at me and glared. "Stop talking about it. If you have one don't expect me to take care of it."
I pouted and crossed my arms over her chest.

"Kim," an older nurse called. She was dressed in a blue nurse's outfit, and red curly hair.

We all got up and followed her into a small, dark room in the back of the building. There was equipment everywhere, and I didn't even want to know what some of that stuff did.

There was a small, TV screen next to the check up table. That had to be for the sonogram.

"Dr. Roache will be back in a few minutes." The nurse put the clipboard in a slot on the door. "Kim, get comfortable on the table and pull up your shirt so we can get to your stomach."

"Okay," Kim whispered. She pulled up her shirt just a little bit and lay down on the table. We all kneeled down next to her with huge smiles. We wanted to see that baby almost as much as Kim did.

Kim had her hands on her stomach and was moving them up and down over the baby.

"We need to sign up for mommy classes," Emily started talking.

Kim sighed. "I know, but I want to wait until Jared comes back so he can take them with me."

"He'll be back in two weeks," Emily continued. Amy and I looked at each other.

"Yeah," Kim looked down at her stomach. "I just want him to see his baby. I want him to be here."

Emily took Kim's hand. "We wish they were all here."
"Yeah," I whispered.

"Hello ladies." Dr. Roache came in with a jar of some sort of liquid. She took out some plastic gloves and snapped them over her hands. "How are you guys today?"
"We're doing good, Doctor," Emily greeted. "How are you?"

"I'm doing just fine." She turned off the lights and turned on a big machine. "Let's get this sonogram done, so we can get a picture to the father."
Dr. Roache took sticky stuff out of the jar she brought in and spread it over Kim's stomach. Then, she turned on the small TV and took some sort of small tube to trace over Kim's stomach.

There the baby was, on the TV. It was in the fettle position, and you could definitely tell that there was a baby.

My breath had stopped. This was the first time I had ever seen a baby before it was born, and this experience was the most amazing experience I had had in my life.

"There's your baby, Kimberly," Dr. Roache smiled. "The baby is very healthy from what I can see." She pointed to the screen. "There's the head, and there's the feet."
I looked up at Kim, and she was crying tears of joy. "It's my baby."

Dr. Roache smiled. "Yes, Kimberly, that is your baby. It's nice and healthy, and should be born sometime in April. Would you like a picture?"

Kim nodded and wiped away her tears. "Yes please."

Dr. Roache pulled off her gloves and pressed a button that triggered the printer in that room.

She took a cloth and rubbed it on Kim's stomach until all the sticky stuff was gone.

"Well, here is your picture, Kimberly." Before Dr. Roache gave the picture to Kim she wiped off her hands and washed them.

Kim put her hand over her mouth, and then placed one on her stomach.

"We'll schedule another sonogram and checkup," Dr. Roache mused. "It should be in three weeks so we can make sure the baby is doing well."
Emily stood up and shook Dr. Roache's hand. "Thank you very much."

"No problem, Mrs. Young, we'll see you soon."

Dr. Roache left, and Emily flung her purse over her shoulder.

"Let's go girls," she sighed. "Kim, come schedule with me."
Kim walked past me, and so did Amy, but as Amy did she gave me a scared glance.

She knew that I knew what she meant.

She was scared about the Cullens.

And the truth was, I was too.