Hey everyone! So I know I didn't get the 100 reviews that I initially wanted, but I'm in the process of making up for being such a bad person, all this time for not updating. So I'm hoping you'll take my last announcement last update, as well as this chapter, as my humblest of apologies. I've decided that this story is turning into something new from what I originally planned...but I like it ;)
Anyways, on with the drama filled lives of our dynamic duo.
S.M owns all characters. I just get to manipulate their minds a little.
Previously:
As I drove off to the university campus, I felt sick with all the running that I was doing. It wasn't fair that Edward had this effect over me, but for the time that he did, I wasn't going to let the chump near me.
Chapter 13:
BPOV:
With each metre that I put between me and that room, I was beginning to calm down, well at least enough to hear those damned voices in the head. You know which ones I'm talking about-the angel that sits on one shoulder telling you that you're not a bad person, whilst the devil on the other one tries to convince you otherwise. Right now, both sides were in agreement that I was an idiot.
Why on Earth would you do that Bella! The good part of my mind screamed at me, trying to be rational. I cringed as I realised that I didn't exactly have an answer. I pulled the car over at the side of the road, and lay my head on my steering wheel, just trying to sort everything out.
I had the most rotten luck. First, I find out that not only is Edward is in love with the most bitchy bimbo-whose shadow I have always lived in- to ever walk the planet, but that he is practically moving in with her at the University they'll be attending together. So then of course I cowardly run away, only to have Edward show up again and that's not even the icing on the cake. When I finally meet a nice guy, I realise that I just can't get over my stupid infatuation with Edward and then he shows up. My life was already bad enough without the whole having sex with Edward thing.
Oh but you'd be lying if you said you didn't enjoy it...the dirty minded portion of my brain whispered and I couldn't help but flashback to last night. Edward was-for a lack of a better word-perfect. Every touch, every kiss was absolutely sinful. At the time, I hadn't wanted any of it to end and couldn't stop thinking about it. Now, I wished that I could push every memory from my mind.
I had slept with Edward Cullen...no I had slept with my best friend.
The tears finally flowed freely when the thought finally crossed my mind. When I had run away from Edward inexplicably the first time, at least we could have been long-distance friends in time. I knew I'd never stop loving him, but I would definitely be able to talk to him now and again. Now because of my stupidity last night, we wouldn't be able to talk as old friends. Everything would be different now, we'd never get over this, was what I thought as I slowly began to hyperventilate.
It's not like Edward tried to stop you though...that little devil on my left shoulder barked, angry at my moping. As far as he was concerned, I should just tear my heart out, and go back to Edward for seconds.
"NO!" I screeched, covering my ears with both hands, willing for the babbling in my head to just shut up. Eventually, all noises stopped, and I finally exhaled in relief. The last thing I needed right now was to listen to those odd voices in my head.
I need coffee.
Shakily, I turned the truck back on, and drove around town a bit, until I finally got to the university campus. With a few words with admin and a made up sob-story, I was able to get the keys to my dorm early, and smiled as I crashed onto what would become me future bed. After having such a long night and waking up early, I began to feel my phone vibrate beneath me. Rolling my eyes and knowing I wouldn't be able to avoid you forever, I opened my phone to find a text message from Alice.
"Bella just got home from a hotel with Jasper. Was going to ask about Caden but why is Edward in your room?"
My breathing hiked as I read his name, hoping that he would keep his pretty little mouth shut until be both figured out what the hell had happened. Now, I could either ignore Alice, or tell her everything. Being the good friend but against my better judgement, I answered her.
"Hope you had fun Ali ;) and...long story. Let's just say I got my keys to the dorm early on campus. Call me later, I need my stuff."
Her reply was almost immediate.
"What happened?"
That text, I decided to ignore, by carefully chucking my phone under my pillow. I wasn't ready to answer that question until I knew myself. Of course I knew what had happened, I just needed to figure out why. You just rejected Caden because of Edward and then he shows up on your doorstep? Do you really need any further explination? My mind battled with me.
You're in love with him Bella.
And as much as it pained me now, I just couldn't deny it.
I couldn't wait for him to just leave and get back to his skank because right now, Edward was ruining my life.
I was about to hop into the shower when all of a sudden I heard that all too familiar gaga-ringtone...the one he had jokingly programmed into my phone and I had kept for years. Taking a deep breath, I tossed the pillow aside to read my caller ID. And sure as day, Edward Cullen's name lit up my screen, causing me to immediately look away. I couldn't deal with it right now and so ignoring my phone, I went to take a shower.
It seems as though my body had been craving the hot water more than I had known. I sighed contentedly as the hot water scalded my back as it hit the bare skin. I relished in the steam, and cranked up the heat so that I could just relax. By the time I was done and walking out of the washroom like a shrivelled prune, my skin was sensitive from all the steam-I loved it.
As I dressed, I couldn't think about how being with Edward had felt the same way... especially when he was inside...
I stopped dead in my tracks, barely holding onto my towel.
I closed my eyes, trying to remember last night as best as I could, slightly panicking. The waterworks started all over again as I remembered everything from that fateful kiss, until afterwards when we both fell asleep in one another's arms. Not once in that memory did I ever remember Edward pulling out a condom.
Oh shit.
My legs felt weak and I lost all balance as the room began to spin. I covered my face with one of my hands as I willed myself to remember Edward pulling one out. Anything. It never happened.
I had unprotected sex. With Edward.
I wanted to scream.
No no no no no, this wasn't happening...oh god, what if...shitshitshit.
My mind refused to make sense of the situation and right before I could really lose it, the doorknob to the dorm turned and none other than Alice walked into the dorm with-bless her- my bags in hand. Her face quickly went from looking concerned to horror stricken as she looked at me, wrapped in a towel and cowering on the floor. No doubt that any remnants of makeup that hadn't washed off in the shower, was now streaked across my face. I was a mess.
Dropping my bags, I was suddenly in Alice's arms, sobbing into her shoulder as she tried to shush me.
"Oh Bella, Bella..what happened to you...it'll be ok"
If only she knew...
"Was it Caden? Hunny, if he did anything..." the little pixie began to look murderous.
"God no, Alice. It's just..."
She nodded, waiting for me to continue, causing me to cringe.
"I-I-I might potentially be...kind of pregnant."
I know you all hate cliffies but I had to leave it here. Exciting news though...
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