YOU MUST SURVIVE
"LEMON ALERT"
A/N: SPECIAL THANKS TO MY AWSOME BETA...DONNA YOU ROCK HON...HUGGS
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
GOD I LOVE HER.
After spending an exhilarating morning with Dad and Charlie we decided to leave, telling them we had to meet up with Becca to go shopping so Bella could replace all the things she lost in the crash. Everything she had owned was in two huge suit cases. After all, she was coming back to Forks to live; she packed all she could get into the two bags. Bella's mother had promise her to send the rest.
Charlie cornered me and handed me his credit card, he told me to buy whatever she needed and put it on that card.
"Just do it and don't let her know you're doing it, Jake." he said. I nodded my head, slightly confused, thinking how in the hell am I going to do this?
I placed the card in my pocket and turned to find Bells. She was waiting for me at the door with a puzzled look on her face. I smiled, giving her a wink, and the puzzled frown she wore softened, smiling back at me.
All I could think about was dad's words. Bella was my imprint and had been since we were children, just the thought of her being my soul mate for life made me breathe easier. Ever since I was old enough to remember I wanted Bells in my life and now she is permanentlyGod I love her! Every time I thought about Bella,she automatically brought a smile to my face. Grabbing her hand, we made our way to the car.
"What are you smiling so big about?" Bella asked smiling back at me. I turned and pulled her into my arms, her hands rested against my chest and we looked into one another's eyes.
"I was just thinking how lucky I am to have you in my life." She moved her hand up to my face and softly stroked my cheek.
"I'm the lucky one Jake…I love you," she whispered sweetly, then moved her hand around to my neck and pulled me down to her soft beautiful lips and kissed me. Once pulling away, I smiled lovingly at her.
"Come on, Bells, Becca's probably wondering what happened to us." I said. We climbed into the rabbit and headed back to the little red house.
The old rabbit, I thought to myself with a smile, gripping the steering wheel and thought back to when I first laid eyes on her. When I had bought her, it was nothing but a shell, it took me almost a full year to rebuild this old car. I worked on this thing every day after school, every weekend, and the entire summer break, but I finally got it done! And look at it, it's still running…that reminds me, I'll have to thank Embry and Quil for taking such good care of my baby while I was gone, it still runs perfectly.
They were waiting on us as I thought they would be, Becca was making Paul come with us and you could tell he wasn't happy about the idea. Becca had told him if Jake had to spend the entire afternoon shopping with Bella, it wouldn't hurt him to do the same with her.
He gave me the look of death, hating the idea of shopping in any shape or form, but when he looked over at Bella his face softened. He knew I couldn't leave Bella or the fact that she wouldn't let me out of her sight for more than two minutes, so he gave in and decided to go with us for Bella sake, and the fact that Becca would kill him if he didn't do as she asked.
As we were leaving the reservation I had noticed the media had disappeared. Charlie must have taking care of it like he said he would. Charlie was good with things like this, I could never figure out how he handled things so easily. I often thought he had something to use to hisadvantage, and could call in favors from people in high places when he wanted something done. Like he waved a 'you owe me flag' in front of their faces. The thought made me chuckle. But he was good at what he did, he proved himself many times; it was clear who Bella got her cunning ways from.
We spent the afternoon shopping. Bella replaced almost all her clothes plus a few personal things she needed. She didn't even notice I paid the bill with her dad's credit card, she probably thought I paid for it which was alright too. We also stopped and ate dinner at a restaurant in Port Angeles; it was just turning twilight as we drove home. I had my arm around Bella and she was lying on my chest, I happened to look down and seen she had fallen asleep. I kissed the top of her head, and gazed out the window. Paul and Becca were carrying on a conversation that I cared nothing about, something about how he didn't clean up after himself , and how he always sat in front of the television, leaving her to clean up his mess. I ignored them and was deep in my own thoughts.
I was thinking of how things had changed in the last six months I was gone. Sam and Emily had gotten married and had a child on the way, Charlie becoming police chief on the reservation and moving to LaPush, Dad moved in with Charlie, Becca and Paul living in our childhoodhouse. It made me think about where were Bella and I supposed to live? Oh sure we could stay with Paul and Becca, but then again the last thing I wanted to do was to listen to them bicker twenty four seven, and I'm sure Bella didn't want that anymore than I did. I guess Bella could stay with her dad but where was she supposed to sleep? On the living room sofa? I'm sure she wouldn't want that either. So I decided it was time to find my own place, I would talk to Bella tonight and we would look for a place tomorrow if she agreed.
I had started the mechanic shop in my garage and it was doing really well. When I left, Quil and Embry was running it with the help of the others when they had the time, and from what they told us at the cookout the other day, it was still thriving beautifully, so money wouldn't be a problem, just me getting back to work may be with Bella not letting me out of her sight.
Since the crash for some reason, Bella had some issues adjusting; her self-esteem was suffering, among other things. She seemed to be also afraid of everything. I wanted to help her with that, encourage her to see how wonderful and smart she really is again; that she could do anything she set her mind too. I have to figure away to get that Bella back again, and I won't stop until I do!
I wanted her to be the woman who had went to culinary school, and learnt all there was to know about her field of work. I wanted her to run her own restaurant like she had planned. I want her to be that 'go get what you want' type of woman she was before the crash. I wanted her to be strong and not hide from nothing, stand up and take control kind of woman. I knew it was in her somewhere I just had to bring it out in her once again. How I was going to do it? I didn't have a clue, but I'll find it I had to for her sake as well as mine, as much as I love Bella by my side constantly, we both need our space to. I practically had to peel her off of me to get her to do anything on her own.
We arrived at the house and I shook Bella lightly to wake her.
"Bella, honey we're home," I said softly, careful not scare her. She woke and looked around, rubbing the sleep from her eyes.
"That was fast." Bella said. I chuckled at her response, it always seems faster when you slept during a trip, which Bella has done twice in the last few days.
We got into the house and Paul picked up the phone and ordered a few pizzas, Becca looked at him with her mouth hanging open.
"Paul, you just ate a humongous meal and you're ordering Pizza!" She asked in amazement.
"Hungry wolf remember babe," he said smirking. Becca only shook her head, to the laughter from Bella and myself.
I helped Bella carry her packages into our room and lay back on the bed. I watched as she tore the tags off her new clothes, putting them on hangers, placing them in the closet then put her personal things in one of the compartments of my chest of draws.
While I was watching Bells putting her stuff away, It gave me time tothink back on the memories I had of us when we were children. We did everything together, you never saw the one without the other, she was my everything even back then, even when she spent the night she slept in this bed with me. I remembered holding her hand as we drifted off to sleep, when Renee took her away from me, I thought my world had ended, but that was so long ago and she was with me now and I couldn't be happier.
When she was finished she gathered up the bags, tossing them into the trash along with the tags she tore off her clothes and lay next to me on the bed.
"What are you thinking so hard about?" she asked. I looked over at her and smiled.I slipped my arm under her head and pulled her on my chest where she rested her chin, as she looked up at me. I placed my other arm on her waist.
"There is something I wanted to talk to you about." I told her in a serious voice, which I think alarmed her.
"Is something wrong?" She asked worried. I shook my head no.
"No honey, I didn't mean to frighten you, it just, well… I've been thinking, we can't stay here with Paul and my sister forever, what would you say about getting our own place somewhere here on the reservation?" I asked.
"You want to be with me forever?" Bella asked shocked at my admission of wanting us together forever. I smiled at her and kissed her forehead, I had asked if she wanted to get a place with me and all she heard was I wanted her forever…I chuckled. Leave it to my Bells!
"Of course I do Bells, isn't that what you want as well?" I remembered our conversation on the beach; didn't she mean what she said about wanting to marry me?
"Yes, Jake, I would love to spend the rest of my life with you," she said. She lowered her eye as if she was thinking to herself.
"What is it honey?" I asked her; still worried she had changed her mind about us and what she wanted since we left the Island. She looked back up at me and I seen a tear slowly make its way down her cheek. I wiped it away with the pad of my thumb.
"Then you meant what you said when we were on the Island…you really do want to marry me?" she asked, becoming emotional. I smiled at how sweet she sounded in her revelation of what I wanted for us.
"Of course sweetheart, I told you I wanted to be with you forever, you're my everything, the air that I breathe…Then you'll marry me? I mean at some point in our relationship?" I asked her which brought on more tears from her. Within seconds she wiped them away and grinned at me mischievously.
"Is that a proposal Mr. Black?" She asked with a smirk on her face. I knew she was messing with me, and trying to force another proposal out of me. I smiled and pulled her up so her face was even with mine and looked her in her eyes.
"Yes, Ms Swan, it is," I said with a chuckle in answer to her question.
Then I looked at her tenderly and continued. "I'd marry you in a New York minute Bells, if you'd have me." Her facial expression changed from the smirk to a tender sweet loving expression. Ithink she was a little shocked that I said it again. I was sure she was going to say yes by the way she was acting, but then she was all over the place with her emotions, which caused me to worry a little. She was playful about it, and at times I would see the woman on the plane, but at the same time I had often seen that frightened little girl that was on the Island with me, so I wasn't for sure she would want to marry me at all.
I know I had asked her on the Island, but I had planned to ask her again when we got home. I had also planned to do it a little bit differently. I had dreamed of asking Bella to be my wife many times throughout my life, but only when the time was right and it wasn't here lying on our bed. It was supposed to be more romantic, after a nice dinner by candle light, maybe a nice glass of wine and soft music playing in the background, or maybe we would dance to some romantic songs, hold her tight against me and softly kiss her then go down on one knee and whisper a sincere proposal. But as I said when the time was right and I guess this was the right time, the proposal took on a mind of its own.
"Yes, Jake…I'll marry you!" She said, my facial expression changed from that of worry to one of shear happiness, I don't think I had smiled so big ever when she said yes!
I chuckled to myself and I let out the air in my lungs I held there. Then I smashed my lips to hers. I kissed her hard and long my heart pounding beat against my chest with passion, all for my angel, my body ached in want for her. Our clothes were eventually tossed across the room as we lay naked next to one another; the fiery passion grew with every touch every moan. I slid into her warm wet core sending a shiver down my spine as her soft wall tightly wrapped around my manhood we both moaned each other's name in sequence, I hovered over her deep within her, without moving, wanting to feel the sense of warmth and love we shared.
"Jake please," she whimpered as she wrapped her legs around my waist and dug her heels into my thighs trying to force me to move.
I pulled out to the edge of her folds and slowly entered her again, I had felt complete love for Bella all my life and we had made love before and it was unadulterated pleasure, but what I felt at this moment was absolute ecstasy I was lost in Bella as I moved in and out of her going deeper with each thrust, bringing us both closer to our release, when her core exploded it pushed me over the edge, I closed my eyes tightly and thrust into her a few more times with a grunt after each movement then finally I gave way to my seed pulsating into my angels core.
"Oh my fucking god, Be…lll…s!" I screamed in pleasure. I closed my eyes andall I could see was lights shooting behind my eye lids, Bella screamed my name with her own release as I fell on top of her, holding myself on my forearms so I wouldn't crush her. I kissed her tenderly as we both came down from our high.
"Wow…that was…"is all I got out, before Bells finished my sentiments.
"Amazing…"Bella cooed, I looked at her and smiled at her with so much love.
"I love you, Bells." I told her affectionately.
"I love you to Jake," she replied back as we kissed again.
I rolled over taking her with me, she laid on my chest, I pulled the blanket over us, and laid there for a few minutes basking in the love we had just shared, my soon to be wife and imprint in my arms. I was the happiest man in the world and knew I would be for the rest of my life.
We lay there together enjoying the peace and quiet; we just started dozing off when a knock at the door disturbed us.
"Guys, pizzas here!" Paul yelled from the other sided of the door. I look down at Bella.
"Are you hungry baby?" I asked, she looked up at me and shook her head.
"No…but I know you are, so let's get up and feed your hungry wolf!" She said with a chuckle. Bella rolled over and started to get up and I grabbed her and pulled her back to me and kissed her. I rubbed my nose softly across hers a few times while looking into her eyes lovingly.
"Should we tell them about us getting married?" I asked. She smiled at me and nodded her head.
"Yes Jake…I want to tell the world," she said with another chuckle and a smile from ear to ear.
"Me too baby," I told her.
I leaned in and gave her a little kiss releasing her I jumped up and pulling on my pants, minus my boxers and pulled my shirt over my head. Bella grabbed one of my tee-shirts out of the chest-of-drawers and pulled it over her head. She then slipped on a pair of her new sweat pants. God, she looked so sexy in my shirt. I walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her waist, pulling her to me.
"I love seeing you in my clothes." I growled lightly, and I leaned down to kiss her sweet lips once again before walking Bella out to into the living room to join Becca and Paul. We sat down on the sofa I put one of my arms around Bella and pulled her to me.
"Guys, Bells and I have some news," I said. Paul dropped his pizza back into the box as he looked at us.
"She's not pregnant is she?" he said, Becca walked over and smacked him on the back of his head.
"Owww…that hurt," he said, rubbed the back of his head.
"It was supposed too! Shut up and let him finish," she said as Bella and I chuckled.
"No she's not pregnant…not that it would be a bad thing if she was!"I told them.
But then I realized that we had just made love and didn't use any protection. I looked over at Bella and rolled my eyes, thinking I'd have to talk to her about it later. Focusing my attention back to Paul and Becca.
"We're getting married!" I finished, leaning down and kissed Bella on top of her head.
Becca squealed and ran over and hugged Bella, and Paul shook my hand, then Becca hugged me. Paul didn't hug Bella, it's a wolf thing, a wolf never touches another wolfs mate unless they're in danger. Paul's words not mine, where he got his ideas from was beyond me.
I know Paul had to deal with a lot while growing up. His dad was an alcoholic and used to beat his mom a lot in front of him. When Paul had got older he tried protecting her, which only turning his father's angeron him.His father finally died from drinking too much, his liver gave out. His mother worked herself to the bone doing long hours. She had fallen asleep at the wheel coming home from work one night, veering off the road at high speed and hit a tree head on. I guess you could say she did work herself into a early grave. That left Paul alone at 16, his mom left him the house, and what little money she had to live on. He had the pittance the tribal council gives us for keeping the reservation safe. It's what made the person Paul is today, he hates to be touch by anyone, well all but Becca of course and I can tell he has changed a lot; he's not that complete ass he was before I left.
Everyone expected me to be furious with Paul for imprinting on my sister, but how could I be mad at him for that. I know how imprinting works, he found his true soul mate, and if that was my sister then so be it! Besides, I knew my sister could handle Paul; she'd proven that many times since I've been home.
"Congratulations Bella, Jake, I wish you both all the best life has to offer." Paul replied.
"Thanks man." I told him.
"Thanks you Paul and Becca." Bella told them.
"So can I help plan the wedding?" Becca asked excitedly. Bella looked over at me and smiled.
"That's completely up to you ladies, whatever you want, is fine with me…But, please keep it small baby, maybe something on the beach?" I said. Bella nodded her head then looked at Becca.
"Sure Becca you can help," she answered sweetly.
She looked back at me,
"I want a small wedding too, Jake, and I would love to be married on First Beach." Bella said with a smile and I smiled back at her.
In honesty, I didn't care what kind of wedding Bella wanted. I would abide by anything she decided. The only thing I kept thinking about was Bella becoming my wife, after all these years I had her back and she was going to be mine finally. I could see her in our kitchen cooking meals, while a little one danced around her legs calling her mommy. Me coming in from a long day at work and wrapping my arms around my angel, rubbing my hands across her swelled belly where another one of our babies waited to be born. I shook my head to clear the thoughts but kept the goofy smile.
After the pizza was gone, Bella and Becca sat and talked about what kind of wedding she wanted. After the girls finished chatting, Bella and I headed off to bed. Bella was the first to lay down, I got undressed and laid next to her, giving her a passionate kiss, I pulled her onto my chest, wrapping my arms around her.
"Bells?" I said, getting her attention.
"Humm…," she answered sleepily, without opening her eyes.
"Honey…we made love awhile ago without any protection," I told her, her eyes slowly opened and looked at me, at first she looked scared and then she smiled and shrugged her shoulders.
"Well you always said you wanted a family, if I'm pregnant we'll start a little earlier than planned. If I'm not then I will go on the pill again until we are ready to start a family." She said positively, and for the first time since we've been home, I seen the old Bells shine through completely.
She wasn't scared at all, she even denounced the problem and dealt with it easily, maybe being home a few days has help her find her way again. Maybe it was planning our wedding that had something to do with it? I don't know, but whatever it was I was glad it had happened. I just have to show her love and let her know I'm there for her no matter what. Could it be that simple? I chuckled to myself, only time will tell I guess, it surprised me and made me happy all at the same time. I could hear Bella breathing slow and steady and I knew she was sleeping. Shortly thereafter I followed Bells of to sleep.