Part II

Chapter 14 – Nothing is Impossible

Maura opened her eyes slowly when she sensed that Jane had gotten out of bed. She watched her walk over to the window and gaze out of it. Her beautiful slim body seemed to glow in the moonlight. Jane brought a trembling hand up and ran her fingers through her hair. Maura watched her quietly.

Jane had been restless the night before. Maura wasn't too sure what it was that was bothering her, but she knew something was. It wasn't a nightmare, however. Jane hadn't had a nightmare in such a long time. The return of them would mean that Jane felt some kind internal turmoil or something of the like.

Jane sighed heavily and placed her face against the window, taking deep and deliberate breaths. Maura pulled the covers over to her bare breasts, shielding them from the cold New England air. It was colder in the bed now that Jane had gotten out. Jane looked over when she heard her moving about.

"Hey…" Jane said softly as she crossed the room slowly and sat on the bed. "Did I wake you?" She asked as she reached for her sweater and slid it on.

Maura smiled and nodded, "The bed is colder without you in it."

Jane sighed and stroked Maura's soft face. "I'm sorry, I couldn't sleep."

Maura reached up and caressed Jane's hand and sighed. "I noticed."

Maura didn't need to ask what was wrong. Months had passed since their magical vacation to Maine which resulted in their exchanging sacred vows to each other; almost twelve to be exact as they were nearing the one year anniversary of their marriage in just a few days. Everything had moved along fine, flawlessly. Their families accepted their new status, and even celebrated and supported their decision.

Frankie and Tommy were the perfect brothers, often helping out with moving Jane's things from her old apartment to Maura's house. Hope and Angela were angels when it came to their daughters' happiness. They'd been so supportive of Jane and Maura's decision, even throwing them a beautiful reception a few weeks after the marriage. Jane didn't want a huge and fancy reception.

She was happy with just friends and family. So Maura made sure she had what she wanted. It was a small event, beautifully organized, and intimate. The only persons missing from it were Barry and Constance. Constance had refused to come, but Hope was there to support her daughter. Paddy had even sent an expensive gift for his beautiful daughter and her new wife.

"Do you need me to come back to bed?" Jane asked softly.

"Only if you want to," she replied.

Jane nodded and crawled into the bed, embracing Maura gently as she kissed her softly on the lips.

"Did you have a nightmare?"

Jane sighed heavily, "No…" She said resting her chin on Maura's head and pulling her naked body in close to hers, "Just can't sleep."

Maura swallowed her heart that had risen into her throat. "Okay."

Jane's body was so warm and soft. Maura could feel Jane's heart beating at an accelerated rate and she knew what she was thinking of.

"We will try again, Jane." Maura whispered softly. "We will keep trying until our pregnancy is successful."

Jane squeezed her tighter. "It's starting to get to me, Maur."

"What is?"

"The unsuccessful attempts; I mean, maybe there's something wrong with my eggs." Jane said timidly.

"No, do not say that. You are perfectly healthy and so am I."

"Then why hasn't it worked?"

"I don't know sweetie, but we will keep trying until it happens."

Jane sighed heavily and kissed the top of Maura's head. "Maybe we should take a break? Just for a little while."

"But we can't stop trying, Jane." Maura said pulling herself up into a sitting position. Jane remained where she was lying.

"Just for a little while."

"I don't understand? We just had our transfer a few days ago. We can't give up now. This one may be successful." Maura caressed Jane's face.

"And what if it's not?" Jane said sitting up also. "What if we've been doing this all wrong?"

"What do you mean, 'Doing it all wrong?'?"

Jane ran her palms over her face and sighed. "Maybe we should be using your eggs. Maybe it's too traumatic to take my eggs out of my body, fertilize them, and place them into your body. Maybe we are incompatible. Maybe…" Jane was babbling as her anxious thoughts finally came to the surface.

Maura listened for a few more seconds before placing a finger to her lips. "Jane, we are not doing anything wrong. We just need to be patient."

"I know," Jane exhaled, "I just never wanted you to have to go through the same loss that I did. We've tried 4 times already! This will be our 5th try!"

"And we will keep trying until it works." Maura leaned over and kissed her softly. It was a kiss of comfort that Jane clearly needed at the moment.

Jane was the nervous one when it came to the issue of getting Maura pregnant. If she had it her way, Maura would already be ready to deliver. But for some reason the cards weren't falling correctly for them. "What if it doesn't?"

Maura sighed heavily. The thought had crossed her mind but she refused to entertain the idea. "It will work… One day."

Jane nodded slowly and then she kissed her. In front of everyone else, Jane was confident and cool regarding the issue with the unsuccessful attempts, but she didn't need to pretend with Maura. It scared the hell out of her thinking that she and Maura couldn't have a child together.

"I know what you're thinking, so stop…" Maura smiled before placing a soft kiss on the tip of Jane's nose.

"You don't know what I'm thinking." Jane closed her eyes and enjoyed the other kisses Maura placed on her face.

"We've been together a very long time Jane," Maura chuckled, "Don't you think I know the intimate thoughts of my wife by now?"

Jane sighed and nodded. "Yeah…"

"I made the best decision of my life marrying my best friend and I haven't regretted it to this day."

"Happy early anniversary, baby," Jane said softly before embracing Maura.

"Happy anniversary, my love."

Jane lied back down and pulled Maura into her embrace. "You need to rest." She said snuggling her close.

Maura sighed contently and relaxed in Jane's arms. She'd taken a short leave from work to fully rest after the transfer of the embryos. She did very little, if any, of manual work. She'd had these nagging thoughts that the reason why the other embryos didn't result in a successful pregnancy was because she was doing too much. So she was determined to make sure she handled their future legacy with the utmost care.

"What time is our appointment today?" Jane asked sleepily.

"It's at 10 a.m."

Jane sighed, "Okay." Jane was so nervous, but she already knew what the results would read. She had a gut feeling that it would be negative for a fifth goddamn time.

"You try to get some rest too, Love. It's only 2 a.m."

Jane embraced her tighter, resting her hand on Maura's belly. A few moments later, Maura reached up and covers Jane's hand. Jane placed a soft kiss on Maura's cheek and fell asleep a few minutes later.

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Jane's morning hadn't gone anything like she'd planned. She knew she should have made love to Maura when they were up talking at 2 a.m., but she wanted her to rest. The lack of sexual contact with her had thrown her day off completely. It was a thing of the norm to wake up to Maura's sexual appetite, which hadn't decreased at all over the period of the year. And to make slow and passionate love until the sun came up or until the alarm went off, whichever came first. And it was normal for Maura to invite Jane into the shower where they would fuck again before work. That's just how they did it...

Jane sighed as she glanced down at her watch. "Damn it!" she exclaimed.

Korsak turned and looked at her oddly. "What?" He asked before turning back to the body that had been discovered.

"I missed my doctor appointment this morning." She sighed, resigning to the fact that she'd made Maura go alone to hear the news. She wanted to kick herself.

"I'm sure Maura will understand, Jane."

Jane nodded, "I know." She said as she reached for her phone, "Hey, I'll be right back, okay?"

"Yep," Korsak said over his shoulder.

Jane stepped away and looked through her messages. She had a couple from Ma, about 20 work related, and just one from Maura. It was time-stamped at 11:15 a.m. She sighed heavily and opened the message. Maura's message consisted of a simple question mark (?). Nothing more, nothing less. Nothing more needed to be said.

Jane quickly composed a text to her.

Jane: I'm so sorry… I got tied up at work.

Jane waited about five minutes before Maura's reply came in.

Maura: I understand.

Jane sighed. Every time the pregnancy wasn't successful, they would have dinner and discuss what they'll do different next time and cry together while sharing one single glass of wine. Jane had given up beer over the course of their one year marriage. She'd adopted some of Maura's habits, as well as Maura had adopted hers. They'd become very much like the other, each still holding on to their individuality, but the likeness between them had grown ever clearer.

Jane: How did it go?

Maura never responded to the text. Her silence was heartbreaking.

Jane: Maur?

Maura: We'll be sharing a glass tonight…

Jane lowered her head and shook it slowly. "Fuck!" She exhaled before snapping her phone back onto her belt clip and rejoining Korsak. She needed something to distract her. Anything that would take away the thoughts of being a failure. And that is exactly what she did, she tossed herself into her work and before she knew it, the day had passed her by.

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On the way home, Jane stopped in to the florist shop and picked up a bouquet of roses for Maura and a box of truffles. She could imagine how she was feeling at the moment, and she wanted to do whatever she needed to do in order to remedy her disappointment. She had also made it up in her mind that she was going to make love to her in the most passionate way. It was something that they both needed right now.

As she approached the front door, she smelled the heavenly aromas of dinner seeping out of the house. She smiled and inhaled deeply. Her wife was the best. Regardless of what happened in their lives, Maura was loyal and faithful with her vows, as Jane was. She put the key into the lock, her anticipation of seeing Maura growing unbearable by the second.

Once inside, she immediately saw Maura sitting on the couch. Maura looked up and smiled at her. Her face was serious and somber, but not necessarily saddened. Jane dropped her badge and gun onto the table and held the roses out in front of her. Maura got up slowly and walked over to her, eyeing the roses with a great smile. "These are so beautiful!"

"I can't ever top the flowers you bought for me, but these come pretty close." She said handing her the bouquet and truffles.

"Oh Jane, you didn't have to buy this beautiful arrangement for me."

Jane nodded and caressed Maura's face. "I wanted to."

Maura laid the flowers and candy down on the coffee table and embraced Jane tightly in her arms. "I love you so much, Jane." She whispered softly.

Jane stroked her hair and exhaled her anxiety, "I love you too, baby." She said as she placed a soft kiss on the top of Maura's head. "I'm so sorry."

"Don't be." She said before she slowly pulled away and went into the kitchen.

Jane followed her and watched her routinely gather the plates from the cupboard and set them on the island. She next collected the flatware and methodically cleaned and then placed them next to the plates. She said nothing while she performed this task. She occasionally looked up at Jane and smiled back at Jane's smiling face.

"Are you okay, baby?" Jane finally asked, sitting down in front of her spot at the island.

Maura nodded and continued to plate the meal that she'd prepared for them.

"That looks good. What is it?"

"Braised lamb with gremolata and baked polenta," She glanced up and smiled at Jane's expression.

"Wow! You spoil me so much with your cooking."

Maura winked at her, "Good." After she was finished plating the meal, she grabbed a couple of bottles of water and sat next to Jane. She exhaled heavily and smiled. "Shall we have our meal now?"

Jane's heart was busy tugging inside. This routine killed her, but she had to get through it. She couldn't pretend it didn't bother her, because it did. She wanted to be a mom so badly. She wanted Maura's beautiful body to be the home of her baby. She longed for the day when she could watch her baby nursing from Maura's breasts and bonding with it and her.

Jane forced herself to take the first bite of the lamb meal. "This is so delicious, babe."

Maura looked over at her and cupped her hand. "Thank you, it's new, so I'm glad you like it." Maura's eyes just peered into Jane's. Neither one of them said anything else over dinner. After they were finished, Maura left the plates on the island and went to the cupboard and retrieved a single glass. Jane walked to the fridge and took out the wine. Maura placed the glass down and waited for Jane to pour.

Jane held the top of the bottle over the rim of the glass, reluctant to pour it. Maura reached and covered her hand with her own, offering support as they poured it together. Jane's emotions began to get the best of her and she backed away slowly shaking her head. Maura finished pouring the wine and took the glass into her hand.

She reached and took Jane's hand as she walked into the living room, sitting down carefully on the couch. She placed the glass down on the coffee table and sighed. Jane took Maura's hands, both of them into hers and kissed them.

"I'm not sure if I can do this again." Jane whispered.

Maura nodded, "I understand." She said softly, "What do you want to do then?"

"I want to go to bed, and make love to my wife."

A smile crossed Maura's face. "I would like to do the same." She said nodding in agreement, "But first, let's just do this one thing please?" she said picking up the glass and handing it to Jane. Immediately Maura's eyes began to shimmer with tears. "To our love," she said tipping her head to Jane, signaling her to take a sip.

Jane put the wine glass to her lips and turned it up, swallowing down half of the glass of wine. She handed it to Maura and chuckled. "Oops, I nearly drank it all."

Maura chuckled softly, "That's fine…" she sighed and looked down at the glass. "Is this glass half full or is it half empty?" she asked.

Jane gazed at it for a moment, "Half empty."

"I think it's half full." She said placing the glass down on the table.

Jane frowned. "Tomato, tomawto." She said with a smile.

Maura reached and touched Jane's lips softly with her slender fingers. "Optimism goes a long way, my love."

Jane laughed and nodded in agreement, "You are right about that." She hopped up and started off to the kitchen. "I'm going to get the bottle and top you off."

Maura watched her walk away for a minute and when she was nearly out of sight, Maura called after, "I don't need a top off, Jane."

Jane paused in her steps and turned around. Maura was pulling something new. Usually they'd drink a whole bottle and get drunk and emotional and then cry over their failures and then make love until they fell asleep… in that order. What the hell was this?

"Huh? But we still gotta get drunk and cry and fuck? What's going on?" She said walking back towards her.

The smile on Maura's face became brighter and brighter the closer Jane got to her. "We're not getting drunk tonight, love. Well, at least I'm not."

Jane came and sat down beside her, her eyes examining her closer, "Why not?"

Maura's face was bright as she began chuckling softly, waiting for Jane's mind to catch up. "At least not for nine months. Maybe more if I choose to nurse our baby."

Jane stared at her for a moment while her words processed in her brain, and then it hit her. "Oh my god!"

Maura nodded happily as the tears poured out of her eyes, "It worked, baby!" She said reaching and cupping Jane's shocked face.

"Really?"

"Yes, really… We did it!"

Jane felt like someone had taken her heart and started tightly squeezing it . She couldn't bring herself to tear her eyes away from Maura's. Maura was always a source of truth and credibility. Instantly, Maura had turned into a goddess right before her eyes. She was now the life-giving mother of her child.

"We're having a baby?"

Maura nodded and placed a trembling kiss on Jane's lips. "Yes we are. I'm going to have your baby."

"Our baby…" Jane gasped. Slowly reality was sinking in. "Oh my god, Maura…" she pulled her closer and kissed her passionately. "Thank you so much." She was so overwhelmed with happiness.

Jane embraced Maura tightly as she gazed down at the glass of wine. Just a few minutes ago, she viewed it as half empty, but now… Now it was half full.

"I love you so much!" Jane choked out. She tried to hold on to her emotions but it was virtually impossible as she felt Maura in her arms. Her body had become a temple, a sacred place that protected the life of her baby. Contemplating this only caused her to become even more emotional. "I can't believe this…" Jane gave up trying to fight her emotions, and gave in to them. An outpouring of emotions followed as she wept in Maura's arms. Maura held her tightly, caressing her with her soft hands. Jane wept for so many reasons. It was as if the last bit of grief inside of her had been released and out it came from the deepest hollows of her soul. She would never forget the child that she loved and lost, but she rejoiced in the life of her new one. And she rejoiced in the fact that this new child's life was protectively enclosed in the womb of the very personification of love…Maura.

It took a few minutes for Jane to calm down, but when she did, she'd never felt so much love for Maura before in her life. She didn't even realize that it was possible to love her any more than she already did, but it was possible. They sat quietly, their foreheads pressed together as they cried happy tears.

Maura smiled at her and kissed her tenderly, "We did it."

Jane nodded and caressed Maura's face. "We sure did." She placed another kiss on her lips. The connection she felt with Maura was even stronger now. As she embraced Maura, she could sense the life inside of her; the life of their baby, the child that would give them both a second chance.

Maura leaned back slowly and reclined against the arm of the couch. Jane leaned in and hugged her belly, placing her head right at her navel. She placed a gentle kiss over Maura's womb, letting her lips linger there for a long time.

"Hello in there," she whispered. Maura reached down and strummed her fingers through her hair. "I'm your mama and I cannot wait to meet you." She followed her greeting up with another gentle kiss.

She stood up and held her hand out for Maura's. Maura took it and stood to join her.

"Let's go to bed," Jane said softly.

"But I'm not sleepy," Maura batted her eyes.

Jane smiled mischievously, "Trust me… You will be after I'm done."

Maura chuckled and leaned into Jane's embrace and they walked off happily to the bedroom.

Jane had thought that life had thrown them a curve-ball, but just when she had begun to lose hope in their future legacy, love stepped in and won this battle for them. Maura was right. She just needed to be patient.

With love and patience, nothing is impossible…

Note: Thanks for reading! I hope you liked this update! I had a couple of ideas regarding extending this to include the Rizzles baby. So I'm not ending this story as soon as I planned. Sorry for typos or grammar errors. I'll correct as I catch them. Thanks!