Faye angst, again. Feeling kinda like it myself, empty and alone so it'll be a good chapter.
The scene with Faye's neck and spine is actually something written out of experience but i didn't go into much detail about it because despite the fact that i enjoyed it, i don't want to do that again. Least not with the friend that was involved. Isn't it weird how people you don't even have any interest in want you and the ones you want think you're a freak? Story of my life... Worst thing is, I have a friend who's so close people think we're in a relationship, she's one of the best people I've known for joking around with but I sorta feel as if there's something blocking me from been able to tell her when I'm feeling down. She's such a good friend too but whenever I want to tell her I feel as if she'll just grow cold and distant if i do.
The doctors say I'm normal, they say I'm sane and that there's nothing wrong with me but how can feeling like there's a void inside be normal? I dunno why I'm saying this but I suppose it's because I can't get it out anywhere else.
They were stood in a corridor which was mostly empty due to class starting 5 minutes earlier; hence why Faye had come out of hiding and thought she was safe to walk around the school. She was wrong.
"Cassie, what're you doing in the corridor when you know you should be in class?" Faye scolded with a smirk but Cassie just gave her a slight glare.
"I could say the same to you, don't even think ignoring the situation will make it better! Worse is you're avoiding me too!" Cassie rushed out with a raised voice, her eyes full of a mix between hurt and anger but also love.
Faye knew she'd been avoiding what had happened, what she did. Sure she didn't feel sorry and she hated Jake for everything he's ever done or been but she knew she could at least apologize to Cassie for it all, yet somehow she felt as if she didn't need to, that none of this was her fault and it wasn't. It was all Rebekah's so why now, even as Cassie was stood right in front of her why did Faye feel the pull towards the girl who'd turned her life inside out?
"Listen Cass, i can't do this. I've gotta go. I've got... Things to do." Faye was aware of the pain that must have caused Cassie. For Faye to brush her off so easily but even still the brunette walked away, going to the only place she knew for sure Rebekah would be.
Faye arrived at the abandoned house which really was abandoned, she'd found out just a week or so ago that Rebekah spent her time here when she was bored or couldn't be bothered to go out. When Faye got there the vampire was relaxing on the sofa with a magazine that she appeared to have little interest in actually reading.
"Rebekah..." Faye said with the intension of continuing her sentence when the blonde looked up.
"Faye" Rebekah replied without even looking from the magazine and smirked as she heard Faye almost growl. Rebekah put the magazine down and stood up all in one movement before walking over to Faye.
Rebekah pushed her onto the sofa and a attacked her neck. They were at it for hours, some positions Rebekah had Faye pinned down and others Faye stayed down all of her own accord but the point is, Faye got what she wanted, a bruised neck and a slashed up spine. Rebekah got the knife out and stabbed into the base of Faye's spin gently enough as to not hurt her but hard enough for the pain to excite her. Rebekah whispered sweet nothings and nasty insults into Faye's ear one moment then was pulling her head back by her hair and moaning her name the next.
Faye lay on her bed that night alone, she stared at the dark ceiling and a smirk played on her lips. She'd felt empty deep inside for so long but she forgot all that in the heat of the moment, her neck may be swollen and her back may even scar but she almost laughed with a sick joy she got from the feeling of been used rather than using someone for once.
But then she caught sight of her reflection and the smirk vanished, her face illuminated by the pale moonlight shining in from her slightly open curtains. She stared for a long time and eventually moved her head back feeling disgusted at herself for so many different reasons.
The time on her clock read 2:42am but she knew she wouldn't sleep. Faye had spent many nights as a witch like this and only now did it hit her that she'll spend the rest of eternity alone like this. The feelings she felt crashed over her with such force that she wanted to scream, she pulled her blanket over her head and curled into a ball.
She didn't move till morning.