Review please :D.. heres ch 14. I hope you like it!

I got dressed and did my hair and make up. I took one last look in the mirror I wanted to look nice. I peeked out into the hallway. It was dark, I snuck past my parents room I heard my mom talking to matt." I don't know where I went wrong. She hates me. I just wish she would open up to me, talk to me." she sobbed as Matt tried to calm her." its alright honey. Shell come around." I crept passed their door and snook down stairs to the kitchen. I grabbed the flowers ive been saving all week. They were his favorite. Red roses. I grabbed my car keys and slid out the front door quietly.

I arrived at the La push cemetery, I already knew where his grave was without even looking for it. I tightened the flowers in my hand as the wind picked up. There in front of me was the stone that read ' Jonathan Antonio Smith. Beloved father and husband. You will be missed. Born December 11,1968. Died October 5, 2004.' I stared at it letting it all process before I started my conversation. I knelt down next t the stone and laid the flowers in front of the stone." I brought you your favorite flowers. Again haha. Red roses, I uh remember you use to bring mom one red rose everyday every two weeks. I still don't know why you did that.. I guess ill never find out…" I looked down at the flowers rubbing the petals." I feel more close to you when I speak a little rusty considering you're the only person I spoke it to but here it goes… don't laugh ." I joked. Wishing I could actually here his laugh. Just one last time."ok bene qui dove dovrei cominciare?"(trans: ok so where should I start?) " c'è questo ragazzo di nome Paul e tu lo sai. bene hes stato cattivo e buono con me e mi piace ma. la sua complicata e io in modo che tu fossi qui, perché si sa sempre cosa dire. mamma e non shes aiutando in questo momento. le manca te so che fa. ma a lei non vuole ammetterlo. Posso dire shes male, e mi ha sempre arrabbiarsi con lei non aiuta. ma nel tentativo."( trans: there is this boy named Paul well you know him. well hes been bad and good to me and i like him but. its complicated and i so wish you were here because you always know what to say. mom well shes not helping right now. she misses you i know she does. but she doesn't want to admit it. I can tell shes hurt, and me always getting mad at her is not helping. but im trying.) "Credo che quello che sto dicendo è che mi manchi .."(trans: i guess what im saying is that I miss you).I started to cry the tears felt so cold against my cheek as the wind picked up." I papà woud dare al mondo solo per vedere il tuo volto. solo per essere abe a tenere la tua mano. o hai dirmi everythings andrà bene quando im giù. Vorrei che mi sono stati invece di te"(daddy i woud give the world just to see your face. just to be abe to hold your hand again. or have you tell me everythings going to be alright when im down. i wish it would have been me instead of you) I started crying uncontrollably, when I heard someone or something behind me."whos there?" I said turning around." I already heard you so don't try to hide now." I said standing up. I wanted to seem unafraid but actually I was terrified at what could be there. A giant shadow started to come towards me I swung a nearby stick at it, but it broke against there face." hey ow! You almost poked my eye out! Calm down its me Jake.." the voice said it came into distance and there before me was the one the only Jacob.

" if your hear to convince me to get with your buddy. Your going to have trouble." I said wiping tears from my cheeks.

" oh um no… im not here for that" he said rubbing the back of his neck. I rolled my eyes.

" then what are you here for. Because your kind of interrupting something." I spat at him.

" well im here for my…. Mom. Her birthday was Friday and all weekend Sam had me on patrol. So I never got to visit her." he looked down. Well don't I feel like a bitch.

"Jake im sorry." I said playing with my fingers, looking down.

" its alright.. What about you.. Why are you here this late at night?" he said coming closer.

"well to tell you the truth… im actually here for my dad his birthday is today. And I really wanted to talk to him. About a lot."

" would one of those many things be Paul?" the mention of his name sent electric shocks through my body.

" uhm yeah….." I kind of felt uncomfortable talking about Paul to Jacob. Mainly because I know if I tell him how I really felt about Paul. Then he would tell him or Paul would read his mind. And I really didn't want Paul finding out how I really felt.

" you know you don't have to feel uncomfortable around me." he said pulling me closer to him he was warm and I was so cold." im not going to tell Paul and if he finds out t was probably from him reading my mind. And as much as I think Paul doesn't deserve you…. You guys are meant to be together. And yea I know Paul's a beotch but hes still my pack brother and sometimes my friend. Either way you guys are going to be together." he said as we walked to a bench. I guess I would be happy with Paul as long as he tried to get help about his anger problems. Maybe if I helped him through it I could make him better.

"yea… I guess your right." I said laying my head on his shoulder. The heat radiating off of him made me feel safe and a little sleepy, if Paul felt like this I would love to be next to him. I laughed at that as my eyes started to get droopy.

"what are you laughing at." I heard Jacobs muffled voice ask. I couldn't control my eyes. The got heavier and heavier. And pretty soon they were closed.

Jacob's pov

" and well I think your really pretty…. You remind me of Bella.. But to tell you the truth I think your prettier." I laughed to myself I was shocked I said that I hadn't said anyone was beautiful since Bella. Joe didn't reply. Did I scare her? I looked own and saw that she was sleep. I mentally kicked myself for talking to a sleep person. I carefully scooped her up and headed towards her car.' good thing I walked here' I thought to myself. I put her into the passenger seat. I got into the driver side and drove to her house. Ii pulled up to her driveway and sat there staring at her… she did remind me of Bella.

I missed Bella.' no no Jake you don't shes with that leech.' I thought to myself. "Why does it seem like everyone can find love except me?" I said not wanting to be heard.

" you know if you keep doubting your self you never going to find love." I looked over to Joe smiling at me.

" I-I thought you were sleep." I managed to get out. I was so embarrassed , she must think im a suicidal retard.

" I was. But I woke up because you were talking to yourself." she laughed. She was beautiful. But as usual I want someone else's property. I looked away from her hurt. knowing I would never have something so precious." Jake… your going to find your other half promise me. I have a feeling you will." she said smiling at me rubbing my bicep. I wanted so bad to kiss her but I cant, shes not mine to kiss." even if I have to get a thousand girls in a room, and make you look at them till you find the one." we laughed together I pictured her doing that.

" thanks Joe…a lot, im glad I can talk to you." I said smiling at her. She nodded and got out the car I got out to following her up the porch steps.

" well tonight was the second best part of my day." she smiled. I wonder what the first part was but I didn't bother to ask. I smiled down at her. She looked up at me our gazes caught and I leant down to her kiss her. Please just one peck would do me good. She closed her eyes and her lips touched mine, her soft lips felt so good. I wondered how inside her mouth felt. I licked her bottom lip hoping she would let me in. and she did our tongues fought for dominance but she let me take over. Her saliva tasted so good like cherry. My new favorite flavor was cherry. I pushed her up against the wall pressing my bodie against hers letting her feel my hard on. She moaned inside my mouth, which made me even harder I wanted so bad to take her right here but she stopped. She stopped kissing me, she pushed me off." im sorry" I whispered. She still didn't look at me.

" don't be, it was my fault I shouldn't have done that.. Im sorry .I have to go Jake." she kissed my cheek, and walked inside the house I could hear her heart be as she leaned against the door. When she walked up stairs I smiled and jumped off the porch. Running towards my house, Billy would kill me again if I was late… well at least id die a happy man. I haven't been this happy since well since Bella.