A/N: Before this chapter starts I just want to put a quick trigger warning. (Rape, self-harm, alcohol) Please be cautious when you read.
Christmas! Lydia's favorite time of year. Christmas for Lydia wasn't Christmas for most kids. To Lydia it wasn't presents or anything like that, December 23rd is when she was adopted by Remus and Sirius. The first time she ever got a real family. She was always so happy to see the looks on her dad's faces whenever she got them something, homemade of course.
"Boo!" Harry said jumping in front of Lydia while she was helping Lily decorate the tree. "It's Christmas not Halloween." Lydia said without even looking at him. "You're no fun." Harry pouted. "I know," Lydia ate a piece of popcorn off of the thing with cranberries and popcorn. "Don't eat that." Lily said with a laugh. "Don't put food on a tree." Lydia came back responding.
James entered the room. "Lily look up." Lily did as told. As soon as she did he kissed her and she laughed. "Bloody cliche." Lily said turning back to the tree. Sirius took a piece of popcorn off the tree as well. "Don't take food off the tree!" "Don't put food on the tree!" "See! Thank you pere!" Lydia responded. Lily rolled her eyes. "I have some news about Christmas this year." Lily announced. Everyone looked at her expectantly. "Petunia, Vernon and Dudley are coming this year." Lily said looking around. "Listen I just want a good relationship with my sister so all of you on your best behavior." She looked directly at James and Sirius. "Okay I'll be on my best behavior if they are." James said looking at his wife. "When are they not?" Lily said sarcastically. "Hmm...well Vernon is racist, for one. The first time we met he tossed his coat at me and said 'don't get it too dirty n-word', but actually said the word, and then told your father that he's glad that some people still respect that whites are superior and he treated me like a Malfoy would treat a house elf." James said sitting on the couch. "I know darling they are awful human beings but please, for me?" Lily begged. "Fine as long as there is no derogatory language spewed in this house." "Absolutely, love."
It was only a day into the Dursley's visit and the Lupin-Blacks and Potters have already had enough. They had been racist, homophobic, and sexist. Both the Dursleys and the Lupin-Blacks were staying at the Potter Manor of the holidays.
Harry had just left Lydia's room to go to bed so she started getting ready for bed. She never saw a point in locking her door so she just had it completely closed. Normally people know to knock so when her father walked in unannounced she shrieked. "Oh it's just you, papa. Don't you know how to knock?" She asked sarcastically. "Don't you know how to not be sarcastic?" Remus laughed. "Good night, beast." He kissed the top of her head and walked out shutting her door. "Night, papa." Lydia said as she was closing her eyes she heard her door open again. "Dad what do you want now?" But it wasn't one of her fathers, it wasn't James or Harry, by the large rounded body she could tell it was Vernon.
"You think you can do whatever you want freak?" "What?" Lydia asked confused. "Shut up." Vernon commanded. He took out duct tape and taped her mouth shut so she couldn't scream. He took rope and tied her hands to the bed post so she couldn't fight back. He broke her until she couldn't feel anything except emptiness.
The next morning Lydia didn't wake up because she never fell asleep. It was nine am on Christmas morning. Lydia was always the first one up. A lot of times Lydia couldn't fall asleep on Christmas eve, but that was always out of excitement. This time it was out of fear that she couldn't sleep.
Sirius went upstairs to check on his daughter since she wasn't down in the kitchen with everyone else. "Lydia?!" He gasped. He saw his twelve year old daughter tied up, duct tape over her mouth, clothes discarded. "Lyd, what happened?" Sirius asked as he gave her her clothes, took the duct tape off her face, and undid the ropes. "I-I-I don't want to-o talk about it-t." Lydia stuttered. "Everyone is waiting for you downstairs if you want to come down with me, you can stay up here if you want I'll just tell everyone you aren't feeling well, but you need to tell someone, okay? Weather it be me, or Remus, or James, or Lily, or even Harry, just please tell someone. Deal?" Lydia nodded her head. "Good now do you want to come downstairs or stay up here?" Sirius asked his grey eyes looking into hers. "I'll go down with you." Lydia said. "Okay come on cub." Lydia followed closely behind him. "Yay! Lydia!" Harry said. He looked like he was already drunk on eggnog, he wasn't though. Lydia put on a very forced smile. When Harry went to hug her she flinched away. "Are you okay?" Harry asked concerned. Lydia nodded her head. "Okay." Harry said unsure.
"Kai I need to talk to you." Lydia stormed into the bookshop once the Lupin-Blacks got home. It was just Kai and Lydia. Remus was helping Sirius with something that Lydia rather not think about.
"Okay? What's up?" Kai asked worry and confusion etched on his face. "Can we talk in my room?" Lydia asked taking short breaths. Kai knowing Lydia he quickly agreed and went up the stairs to the bedroom he was so familiar with, the bedroom in which, as a kid, he spent more time in than his own room. The Lupin-Blacks had become a second family to Kai and Kai's family became a second family for Lydia. Lydia was the only one that knew everything about him and he was the only one who knew, almost, everything about her.
"What's wrong?" Kai asked getting straight to the point. "I- I- you know Harry right?" Lydia asked. Of course Kai knew Harry. "Yeah." Kai said his eyebrows raised. "You know Lily right?"
"Harry's mum? Yeah I know Lily…"
"Lily has a sister named Petunia."
"Were her parents gardeners or something?" Kai joked.
"This is no time for jokes, Kai."
"Okay sorry, anyway Lily's sister," he motioned for her to continue.
"She has a husband named, Vernon."
"Okay.." He drew out the 'ay' part as he was getting worried.
"We, me and my family, were at the Potter's for Christmas. Well the Dursleys, that's their surname, were there as well. I was about to go to sleep when my door opened. I thought it was going to be one of my dads or Harry but n-not Vernon,"
"Lydia, if this is going where I think it is, I'm going to kill someone."
"Don't," Lydia warned.
"Okay, fine, go on, sorry,"
"it's fine. Basically he kind of, ducttapedmymouthshutandrapedme." Lydia said way too fast. "What?" Kai asked.
"Vernon duct taped my mouth shut and r-raped me." Lydia said shaking.
"Lydia, I'm so sorry,"
"It's not your fault."
"I know but things like this shouldn't happen. I mean look at my mum, she was 16 when she got pregnant, everytime she looks at me I can see pain in her eyes because I look like him. Lydia you need to report this."
"I can't."
"Why not? Your dad is a police officer he cou-"
"My dad is the one that found me, he knows, he told me to tell someone. I really don't want to go to the police because all they do to rape victims is blame the victims and not the rapist. I would just be in court asked by a judge what I was wearing and being accused that I was asking for it. I'm twelve! I don't want to report him because it will just cause unnecessary drama."
"Lydia, this isn't causing unnecessary drama, think of people you could be saving if you reported him. With him out there he'll just do it again. Lydia please tell your fathers or Lily or James just someone who could take this to the police."
"Okay I will."
But she didn't that was the first time she lied to Kai but she knew what would happen if she brought this case to the police.
Lydia started spending more time drawing in her room then she did doing anything outside of her room. Once when Lydia was at a small dinner with Kai, Sirius snuck into her room and found very depressing black and white drawings. Lydia did various drawings, but she always loved drawing eyes it was her specialty. She loved drawing her eyes, Sirius's eyes, Remus's eyes, James's eyes, Lily's eyes, well you get the point. She had a fascination with eyes. It was as though you could see anything anyone has every experience in one glimpse. She really tried to depict that and she did a very good job at it. Normally her drawings of eyes were on the cheerful side but not this time. Sirius could tell that the drawing she was currently working on were her eyes but they weren't the normal cheerful kind, no, these eyes had every bad experience she has ever had in the iris. This drawing had everything that could make a person go crazy.
Another one he saw that was heartbreaking to him was a picture of very tiny wrist with only a little color on them, the color was red and there were lines that the red, that was supposed to be blood, was dripping out of.
Another one was a small girl who he thought to be Lydia crouching in a corner hugging herself with a black shadow over her. One picture had a wolf standing over a small girl, the wolf looked hungry and ready to devour the little kid. The one that scared him the most, the one that made him realize his little girl wasn't so little anymore was the one that made him feel the most pain the one that he regrets the most. It was a picture of Sirius passed out on the couch, passed out with a bottle of firewhiskey in his hand Remus was on the floor taking the firewhiskey away while Lydia stood in the doorway with the dinner she had prepared for the whole family.
Just as Sirius put the picture down he heard a noise and turned around. "What are you doing in here?" Lydia asked angrily. "I just wanted to see what you've been up to." Sirius said hoping he could get himself out of the hole he dug. "Well those are private now leave." Sirius respected her wishes and shut her door as she left. What would happen once school starts back up?
A/N: Please tell somebody if this ever happens to you and please be safe.