"Why not Eddie, because I'm the chubby bar maid, because no one wants me for more than a cook and a maid, or because it reminds you how many women you've been with, because you want to pretend I haven't been touched, I'm not some cheerleader you get to deflower Eddie so your guilt is just that your guilt...tell me Latekka what's so wrong about me wanting those night's you came in here for one last shot to be like this, I wanted you to take me, I still do right here right now, but we both know you're not man enough to do it" Janet said seductively and Eddie pushed her against the wall still firmly holding her wrists level with her shoulders.

Eddie's breath was hot on her ear "The only thing wrong with it is that I didn't want you to be treated this way, you deserve the fairy tale, Janet so why are you asking for this" he whispered

"Because Baby, I'm still a woman, I still have needs and there's no reason we couldn't of had it both ways" Janet whispered back running her lips over his neck and something in Eddie snapped

"Because baby, theirs nothing sweet or tender about it and I need you to be sure" his lips trailed her neck but never latched on.

"Is this what you need to make it through tonight" He asked roughly kissing his way down her chest. She remained silent as she watched him rip apart the tiny black buttons on the top of her dress and licked and sucked around her breast that were exposed by her choice of a rather low cut demi bra. She started to softly moan out her reply as she reached for Eddie's belt.

"Do you need it to forget" she asked and Eddie intensified his kissing and the already firm grip he held on her. Eddie put his forehead to hers.

"Janet, tell me there was nothing going between you and him the first night we were together" Eddie panted out the words but she was hesitant to answer, not because there was anything there but because she was in complete shock. "Tell me, Janet, please just tell me, lie if you have to but I need to hear you say it" Eddie pleaded but she only responded with a kiss and Eddie's heart broke into a million tiny pieces and he pressed back against her kiss grabbing onto her and every second and every inch of her skin in an effort to make it not be over.

Eddie had thoroughly managed to work him self up in the process and they were both going at each other full force. Janet managed to unzip his pants and pull his shirt off. "Baby" Eddie spoke as their tongues were still tangled together. "Shhhhhhhhh" Janet whispered nibbling his ear

Janet was already panting as Eddie worked his way around her neck and chest some more. Though it was the most intense union it wasn't the first one they shared in the stock room and the good thing about it being a bar was the fact that they always had a supply of condoms to refill the machines in the men's bathroom.

Eddie twisted trying to reach the damn box and Janet managed to pull her panties off while Eddie covered his self taking all of thirty seconds and somehow never let up the pressure his body was using to pin Janet to the wall.

Janet already had her skirt hiked up in her hands between her legs and Eddie immediately penetrated her. It was hard and fast and both were loud. Janet's boisterous moaning only served to excite Eddie more and soon their bodies were pounding against each other with such force that Eddie could feel his teeth scrape against each other.

The harder he thrust the more she moaned in pleasure the deeper he pushed the wetter she got, he couldn't give her enough and she continued to beg by scratching into his back. He had never in his life had sex that hard with anyone, even as wild as Lottie had been it couldn't compare to what him and Janet were trying to accomplish as they single handily manged to dismantle the stock room.

They realized all to soon that they couldn't screw the memories away, as hard as they did try and as much as Janet screamed during her bodies contraction and Eddie groaned through his pulsing , the relief was only temporary and for a few seconds their kisses slowed and Janet still held him within her but as soon as they looked into each others eye's it was gone only to be replaced with the anger bubbling back up to the surface.

"Does it feel as good as you hoped it would…. because it cost me everything" Eddie asked still inside of her and madder at his self than he had ever been.

"Yeah, it did" They pushed away from each other and Eddie quickly disposed of the evidence and left.

Eddie always the gentlemen even if he was banging your brains out told Janet to go home he would take care of everything. After straightening the stock room back he picked up Janet's panties and went home.

She didn't regret it. She wanted him to want her. She needed to feel like she was attractive enough to hold a man's attention that way. She succeeded. She could hear him spinning out of the parking lot and knew how mad he was.

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"Okay, I'm coming, just hold on" Owen yelled at his apartment door. He was surprised to see Eddie at nearly one in the morning. "What goes on, Eddie" Owen asked "You got a minute…I" Eddie couldn't get the words out, his eyes were cold and the look on his face scared Owen.

Once inside Eddie sat down on the couch. Owen put some coffee on but Eddie didn't really need it, he wasn't drunk nor was he capable of going to sleep anytime soon. "Just tell me what happened" Owen said to him from the chair on the opposing side of the coffee table.

"It's all messed up Big O, every since Rory came back" Eddie began to explain "You mean you and Janet are messed up" Owen asked "Yeah, me and Janet" Eddie repeated patronizing. "If you want to talk about this we will but you can't get mad you have to deal with it" Owen explained

"I know, but just for the record I didn't sleep with Rory and I'm not going to, matter of a fact I may never have sex again after what I just did" Eddie wasn't being forthcoming with the details. "What did you just do Eddie" Big O asked "I had sex with Janet" Eddie replied being short "She was your girlfriend so I don't think it's all that terrible that you two slept together" Owen didn't understand and let out a small chuckle

"When I say we had sex, I mean we just had sex" Eddie still was being hesitant with the actual facts and seemed to be avoiding all eye contact with Owen "That must have been hot" Owen said with a grin "Hottest sex I've ever had" Eddie said swallowing hard "What happened, man"

"I never wanted it to be like that with her" Eddie said with a cracking voice "Like what" Owen asked and Eddie just gave him a look that Owen clearly understood

"It's not like you would hurt her" Owen said confident

"It was rough, but I wasn't rough with her, I don't know Big O it happened so fast" Eddie mumbled still mad as Allison walked in "Make sure she's okay" Eddie said looking up at her.

"She's fine" Owen said to Eddie when he came back with the coffee, Allison assured him "Are you sure, she's good at hiding how she really feels" Eddie asked "She said you didn't do anything wrong and that you should go home, she's not even crying, Eddie so can you tell me what really happened" Owen asked

"We got into an argument and she said I didn't lust for her like I did for all the one nighters and I wanted to tell her that I did but since I loved her it was different but I couldn't tell her Big O not after every thing that's happened between us; then she started talking…you know…. and accused me of not being man enough, and before I realized what I was doing, It was to late" Eddie explained.

"I hate myself for it, all she really wanted was to forget" " Eddie added "Come on it wasn't a one sided thing, Eddie" Owen said to him

"I know, it's not like I forced her it's just she's not the type of girl you have sex with like that, she's deserves more than that, Big O" Eddie added

"I'm pretty sure with the way things are between the two of you she knew you weren't going to hang around" Owen offered as comfort.

"The thing is I didn't do it because she wanted me to, I did it because I wanted …….." Eddie said not realizing Allison was standing there. When she walked into the living room she was hanging up the phone.

"She's fine Eddie, mad at herself for pushing you but she's okay" Allison said to him

"I should go" Eddie felt bad for interrupting

"Look, there's something about women you Ridge boy's have yet to learn, while we expect our men to be gentle and caring most of the time, sometimes we need more, we need to feel like we're truly wanted and not to just cook and clean and have kids" Allison's words hit home more to Owen than it did to Eddie

"That's all Janet wanted and you shouldn't be ashamed that you gave that to her, but if there ever is a next time put a little more thought into it" she added and went back to the bedroom.

Eddie said goodnight and went home, a little more understanding than before but still as pissed off as ever for reasons even he couldn't explain.

Phil and Pizza Girl were on the couch when Eddie came in and they woke up. "How's Sam" Eddie asked "He fell asleep around 11:00" He was camped out in his sleeping bag on the floor in front of the T.V.

"How is Eddie" Pizza Girl asked "He's not so good" Eddie admitted flopping down on the couch beside them

"Did you see Janet" Phil asked "Yeah, I did" Eddie answered and Pizza Girl hugged him

"Time will heal and you'll be okay" she said looking up at him with her arms stretched around his shoulders from the side

"No, I want be" Eddie replied and went upstairs.

He turned the shower on and began to peal off the clothes that still smelled like Janet, the pants that still had Janet on them.

He crawled into his empty bed and looked over at the picture of Janet he had on the table next to it. He reached out and touched it ever so gently then slammed it down and closed his eyes.