Disclaimer- I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT
PREVIOUSLY.............
"There you go. That should help" His voice was fading again, only the pain decreased with it. I was fading again into unconsciousness, but i couldn't stop it this time. I tried to stay grounded, using Jasper's hand to keep me here, but the pain got worse as i tried. Wouldn't it be better to loose the pain than keep it and be paralyzed? I was a coward, i knew this. I was running away, but i just wanted the pain to end.
I surrendered to it, letting it numb the pain totally until i felt a second of peace and tranquility. I felt the cold, hard floor beneath me, the cold hand in mine, i felt it as my muscles relaxed in the absence of the pain.
I had experienced hell, many, many times. So, this must be what heaven feels like.
Too bad i can't stay here forever
Okay, this is Rose' perspective. Never tried this before, so bear with me!!
NOW.........
Rose's Perspective.........
I sat, shocked, as my husband ran out of the house at full speed, only leaving me with a chaste kiss on the cheek.
What the hell was going on?!
"Emmett's gone to see Bella" Edward said, coming downstairs for the first time in days. It took a moment for me to actually take in what he was saying.
"What?! He's gone to see Bella........." I seethed, glowering at the spot my husband disappeared from. The least he could have done is taken me with hm, or told me! I want to see Bella too!
Edward chuckled at my thoughts, sitting down in the middle of the three seater opposite me.
"It's hard isn't it? Watching everyone else go and you can't" I said glumly, leaning back on the sofa. There was no point in chasing after him and dragging him back, because he would only keep on trying until he succeeds. Edward frowned, pulling his knees up into the fetal position again. I swear, if he keeps doing that i will snap his legs off!
"Hard? It's bloody torture! Besides, you can see her" He said quietly, ignoring my thoughts about dismembering him. I frowned, confused.
He sighed, looking up at me. "Rose, Bella is kind and gentle. She'll forgive you if you give her the chance" His eyes betrayed the emotions he tried to hide from us all. It hurt me to see Em go, but he has had to watch all of them go and see her, bringing their thoughts back with them. Happy, joyful thoughts about their time with Bella. Poor sod.
"They said she's changed though. Not for the worst..... just... different" I said cautiously.
"Yeah, i suppose. But.. it is Bella, and you'll never know if you don't try" He sighed, a defeated look in his eyes.
If Bella has changed, does that mean that she could..... No, Bella couldn't hate Edward. I saw how much she loved him, even if i did ignore her all the time. You couldn't miss it! But... could she really change that much that the love she felt has turned to hate? I find that truly hard to believe. I thought back to what he said, and maybe she has changed, but it doesn't mean it's for the worst.
"Then..... couldn't it be the same with you?" I asked hesitantly, not knowing if he wanted to broach the subject. Though, Edward spent all of his time thinking about Bella, so i am sure he already thought of every possibility and every outcome possible.
"You didn't hurt her Rose. You had a valid excuse, well, sort of valid. Me......" He ran his hands through his hair, his eyes tortured. "I threw away the one good thing i found besides you all. You heard her in the meeting. She can't stand me, she hates me and i can hardly blame her. She gave me her heart... and i stomped on it and ripped it to shreds. I hurt her Rose, and i don't think there is anything i can do to make it right again"
I sat, shocked, as he began sobbing. I had never seen him so... vulnerable. I paused for a second before rushing over to his side and hugging him like there was no tomorrow. I was new at this whole "comfort" thing, especially with Edward. Even before, we weren't that close. Yes, were like brother and sister, but we got on each others nerves a lot and stayed away from each other.
I pulled him onto my lap, letting him press his face into my shoulder as he sobbed tearlessly. His entire body shook from the force of them, from the amount of pain and grief he was going through.
I heard a door open and two sets of footsteps enter through the front door. I peeked over to see Alice stood, gazing at us with a sympathetic look on her face, as Jasper's face was scrunched up, no doubt as a result of Edwards emotions. I could basically feel them from here. It was heartbreaking to witness your brother, the one with the hard, tough exterior, go to pieces.
"Edward..." Alice whispered, sitting on the other side of Edward. She gently transferred him over to her. Alice knew better what he was going through. Edward wasn't the only one who got close to Bella when she was here, and i knew from what i saw, that Alice and Bella were not only best friends, but sisters too. They were closer than me and Alice were.
I silently got off the sofa, walking over to Jasper. His face was still scrunched up from all the painful emotions that Edward, and now probably, Alice were emitting.
"What happened? Why didn't Alice see it?" I sais softly, i could hardly get angry at anyone in this situation.
"Alice only had the vision when he was running out of the house. We were already thirty seven miles in the opposite direction. There was no way we could have stopped him" Jasper said calmly, managing to clear the painful expression from his face with a little effort.
I nodded, understand now. We both looked at Alice and Edward clutching each other and sobbing. Our family was coming together agian. The only problem was that some got hurt in the process. I frowned, thinking about when all this will finally be over and we can actually be a family once again.
"Don't worry, it'll all get better Rose, we just have to wait for it" I heard Jasper say next to me, probably feeling my worry.
I sighed "I hope your right Jazz, 'cos the only thing keeping us all together is Bella" It was actually shocking how close we had all come in the past months, since we found out about Bella. Like me and Edward, me and Jasper were never what you would call close. How that girl changed our lives!
He merely nodded beside me and we lapsed into silence, watching Alice and Edward sobbing, knowing that only one thing could make the pain and hurt go away. But, what i said was true.
Our family fell apart. We didn't just gradually drift away from each other, we ripped ourselves away from the others. In truth, we all hated each other to some degree, all blaming each other and ourselves for having to leave. Now, after finding out all this happened, all of us have stopped blaming each other and placed the blame solely on ourselves. We came together temporarily, but now we are inseparable. Bella is the glue binding our family together. If anything happened to her, if the minute connection we had managed to re-create were to be destroyed by anything, our family would once again fall apart. Only this time, nothing would be able to pull us together again.
I glanced out the window, shocked at seeing how dark it was already. I heard shuffling and light footsteps upstairs. I forgot about Esme being here, she's just so darn quiet all the time. Always thinking about Bella and smiling and chuckling about something or other.
Jasper and I turned, watching as she descended the stairs and froze as she took in Alice and Edward sobbing in each others arms. I could see the panic as sure as Jasper could feel it.
"What happened? What's wrong?" She ran the rest of the way to where we were standing, her eyes frantically flitting between me and Jazz to Edward and Alice. They hadn't moved to look at Esme, and i could tell this was worrying her.
"Carlisle is fine, and so Bella as far as we know" I could tell she wasn't assured. Jazz stepped in, laying a calming- literally- hand on her shoulder. She relaxed almost instantly.
"Jasper? What are you are Alice doing back so early?" She turned to Jasper, confusion obvious in her features.
"Alice had a vision of Em and we came back to try to stop it, but we were too late" He explained lightly.
"Why?" She paused to look around searching for third son, frowning when she couldn't see him, returning her gaze to both of us.
"Where is he?" She raised on of her eyebrows, probably thinking he is going on one of his little escapades again.
"He's gone to see Bella" I said bluntly. Esme was silent for about a second before she smiled and giggled, clapping her hands together.
"That's good. I have been waiting for him to give in, and Bella spoke about him" She said, gazing lovingly at nothing in particular.
Both of us just stood there with our mouths and eyes wide with shock. She rolled her eyes as us, smiling a little. She looked so..... happy. I missed that in my mum.
"Come on! You saw how much he missed her! The only reason he didn't come back when we first left is because he didn't know where she would be, or if she would accept him. And now he doesn't have to worry about that" She sighed happily "She'll be so happy to see him again" She walked in the direction of the kitchen, a wide smile and sparkling eyes on her face.
Jasper and i looked at each others frozen expression, before turning and noticing that the sobbing had stopped. Jasper cleared his throat, blinking a few times.
"Well..... it's safe to say that we weren't expecting that" He chuckled, running a hand through his hair and going to sit next to a red eyed Alice.
He picked her up and laid her on his lap, her snuggling into his neck. "She'll be happy" I could see the smile that she tried to hide in Jasper's shoulder.
"Yeah" I said, sitting down on a sofa heavily. I chewed the inside of my lip, contemplating when i could see her. I wanted to see her! Now Em was gone too, and there was only Me, jazz, Ali and Edward left. This was unbearable.
"Yeah, it is" Edward met my eyes, and i understood him. It was a strange thing to have, i must admit. I always thought he was just broody and a little depressed man, but then Bella came along and changed him in nearly every way possible. Inside and out, he was different. I was too busy being jealous and hating Bella that i didn't take the time to notice how much happier he, and the rest of my family was with Bella around. But now.... after all this, i finally have a level ground with him. And- to some extent at least- i understand him.
Edward my thoughts, and had moved back into the fetal position. I was glad he wasn't sobbing anymore, though that might have something to do with Jasper's proximity and wanting to keep Ali calm.
We stayed like that all night, and most of the morning. If anyone had looked in on us, they would have thought us to be statues. The only noise or movement would be when Esme passed to go upstairs and her humming and singing to herself. Every time i heard or saw her, i couldn't help but smile. The others did too, but Esme ignored us, choosing not to comment on our stillness, too busy being happy.
Carlisle came home in the morning, after volunteering to do a night shift at the hospital. He was like a legend down there, and they could hardly turn him down. Though most people were difficult and blanked him he got on with his job. The rest of us, save for Esme don't go in public at all. I don't know about the others but i don't fancy being glared at. I wouldn't mind that much, but i can hear every word they say, and poor Edward can hear every snotty, horrible comment they even think, never mind say. It is safer for us- and them- if we stay out of the way.
If anyone says the wrong thing, and one of us overhear, i don;t think we would be able to control ourselves to be honest. Especially if it was about Bella. Though these people seem very protective of her, so i don't think there is any fear of that. But.. then there was Edward. Any errant thoughts, even little ones, would push him over the edge. And how do you explain that your brother just tried snapping your neck because you insulted someone in your thoughts?
"Are you all alright?" His gaze turned worried as he took in our stiff positions, but we relaxed as not to scare him.
"Yeah, we're alright" Alice chirped from Jasper's arms.
"Rose... where is Emmett?" He raised his eyebrows as i sighed.
"He went to see Bella last night, just ran off without a moments notice" I said, letting the anger and frustration with my husband colour my voice.
"Oh. Really?" He didn't sound shocked at all, but i could see the ends of his lips turning up as he fought it down.
I just shook my head at him, turning to Alice. "What do you see?"
She closed her eyes for a few seconds before she smiled widely, squealing and opening her eyes again.
"She's asleep, but when she wakes up Em will be there and they will hug and talk" She bounced as she spoke, almost bluring at the speed she was going.
I couldn't help the jealousy that flared in me. I wanted that! I wanted to hug her, to apologize over and over again until she forgave me, and if she didn't, i would never give up until she did.
We settled back into comfortable silence, Jasper gently rocking Alice even though she was okay now. Edward just sat staring into space. Carlisle was with Esme laughing about something. I missed that around here. Laughter.
Bella had made such an impact on us it was impossible not to see it. Who would have guessed it, seven, frozen, never changing vampires have been ultimately changed by one little human girl? But that little human girl was vital to our survival as a family.
"Rose?" My gaze went back to Alice, who was smirking and gazing back at me curiously.
"Why, in every future i see, are you going to visit Bella today?" She raised one eye brow at me, still grinning, knowing my answer anyway.
I shrugged, a huge smile on my face. I missed smiling. I was just so glad that i.... Oh My God! I was going to see Bella in- I glanced at the clock- eleven o'clock in the morning- An hour and a half! I had to be ready!
Jasper chuckled and sent me a wave of calm which i silently thanked him for. He smiled back as he felt me gratitude. Edward didn't even move, but i swear i saw him flinch at my happy thoughts.
I'm sorry Edward. I know how hard this must be for you, I really am sorry I thought to him. I merely nodded, but didn't relax.
I got up, glancing down at what i was wearing. A little skirt, leather boots, and a tight, low cut top. I had to change.
I raced upstairs and into mine and Emmett's room, flung open the wardrobe doors and stared at the rail for a few seconds, debating on what to wear.
I had seen what Bella had worn, just white. Pure white, thin cotton clothes. I couldn't wear white, that colour was out. So were shorts, skirts and short, tight, or low cut shirts. I didn't want to go in there looking like i used to, all bitchy and dressed to make everyone else look bad. I had to go simple but nice.
"Rose, I'm going now. Can you come later with Carlisle, it might be better if i.. you know.... prepare her. It's always emotional when she meets one of us" Esme said, appearing at my door, holding her car keys. I nodded, understanding. There was no way i was going to compromise this, even if it meant i had to wait years to see her. Well... maybe not that long.
In the end, i chose a nice pair of dark flare jeans and a plain red tank top. That simple thing took me half an hour, and by then, Esme was long gone, probably already there, talking to her.
Carlisle went to work, but promised he wouldn't be long. I sat, impatiently drumming my fingers on the arm of the sofa for half an hour. Alice just chuckled at me, while Jasper tried to calm me down. The fact trouble was that i was... just so excited and so impatient.
Finally, after two hours of pure agony, I heard Carlisle pull up outside. Edward had long before hidden in his bedroom, but Alice and Jasper where locked in an epic battle of... chess. But it was no normal chess match, there were four boards put together and three sets of pieces. It was harder than normal chess, and they had invited me to play it three ways but i was too distracted. Besides, what was the point of playing against Alice?
As soon as he hit that horn, i was out the sofa and heading for the door. I knew how much he missed his daughter, no matter how much he tried to hide it.
I sat in that car for an hour, and it was torture. My cheeks ached from smiling so wide for so long, the suspension was going to need some attention when i got home from all my bouncing. Carlisle just smiled and chuckled at my behaviour, leaving me to my own devices.
When we got there, i took a minute to glare at the building. It looked more like a prison now i knew she was inside it. Bella wasn't crazy!
Carlisle tugged on my arm, pulling we out of my reverie. We walked in into the little office and signed the book to say we were here. I took a deep breath before following Carlisle through the large security door, nervous and... scared of how my presence will be accepted.
We stayed just inside the door, letting the door close behind us and waiting.
Some other patients were up and about, their careers giving us smiles as they saw us. Talk about patronizing.
After about thirty seconds, when i was about to ask Carlisle what the hell we were waiting for, i saw Ryan walking up to a door. Bella's door. I remembered that was the one Edward went in and paid Bella down in. Bella was in there, with Emmett.
My eyes were glued to the little exchange they had, listening and watching everything.
"Awake Bella? You were out for a long time" Ryan leaned casually against the wall, a huge smile on his face. I kind of liked that guy.
"Yeah, i needed to catch up on some sleep" I could practically hear her rolling her eyes at him and smirked slightly.
Ryan opened the door, still smiling. "Shower time?" Ryan asked, smiling wider. She merely nodded and walked past him and towards the opposite end of the room. She hadn't seen us.
Ryan watched her go until the door clicked, then glanced our way. He froze for a moment before shaking his head, smirking.
"Emmett, some of your family are here" He called into the room. Still shaking his head, he walked away through another door.
"Rosie!" Emmett nearly yelled, causing people to look at us. He ran up to me- at human speed of course- and hugged he, picking me up and swinging me around. I chuckled a little as he put me down, seeing that Carlisle and Esme were..saying hello as well.
We joined them on the sofas, me and Em on one, Carlisle and Esme on another.
"So... how is she?" I asked hesitantly to Esme and Emmett.
They shared a loaded glance, before Em turned to me. I was worried already.
"She told me something, opened up a bit" He said, but his eyes were sad, regretful. I had been looking at them for the past eight months.
"She told me how.... how she hurt herself. She told me that... it made her feel like she had a little power over her own life. If she lived or...." He gulped, obviously horrified by it "Died" he choked out. I squeezed his hand reassuringly.
"It's our fault Rose. We made her feel like that" He whispered, unshed tears in his eyes. Em was the big man, but only i had seen this side of him. we had all seen him funny and joking around, but only i had seen him sob.
"It's okay Em, she's okay" I whispered comfortingly.
"I was an ass, Rose" he said, ignoring my attempts to soothe him. I stayed quiet, letting him vent it all. Esme was watching with sad, knowing eyes, while Carlisle's gaze was fixed on Emmett.
"She told me all that, and Ryan told us before that.... that she never opened up to anyone, never told anyone anything. That's why i sat and listened to it. But... afterwards.... i was a total jerk" He sighed, raising his head.
"She told me she used to hurt herself on purpose, that she liked it, and you know what i did? Nothing" he spat the word.
"No words of comfort, no hugging, nothing. She thought.... she thought i was disgusted with... with her. She was pulling away from me, and i couldn't....." he was lost for words, and never had i seen my husband this.... grief stricken. Only when we first found out...
"I was scared of loosing her, and.... i scared her Rose. She got as far away from me as she could in that little room, and she stood against the wall and cried" his unshed-able tears were back, but i knew better than to stop him.
"She wouldn't look or talk to me at all, and... i was scared and i... I yelled at her Rose" He closed his eyes, ashamed. I knew my husband enough to know this.
"She was scared, terrified. And i did that!" He frowned at nothing "She.." The frown disappeared, the ashamed face returning.
"I could smell the fear, the adrenaline, she was... trembling even worse than she was when she was crying, her knuckles were white" He stared off into space, as though he was seeing it all again.
"She cried even harder and.. she was.. gasping for breath" He shook his head, his gaze fixed back on me.
"I had to fix it Rose, and... i hugged her. I have never been so... afraid. Afraid that she wouldn't..... wouldn't hug me back, wouldn't want to see me, that she would fear me"
"But she doesn't, she can't" I told him, liking the smile it brought.
"Yeah, she doesn't. She hugged me back... but there were a few seconds when.... i really thought i had lost her again" He sighed again, casting his eyes downwards.
"You never lost her in the first place" I whispered.
He chuckled a little, leaning back on the sofa, pulling me with him so i was next to him.
"We somehow got onto the subject of Alice, and..... she is exactly like her"
I was shocked. Bella liked shopping? he must have seen my confused expression because he hurried to explain.
"No, not the shopping. But you know when we mention Bella Alice goes all......" he hesitated and we all nodded.
"Well, bells is exactly the same. She misses her a lot. Anyway, Bella fell back to sleep after the whole shouting, crying thing and she is going to be out the shower in a minute" He said, glancing to his left, to the door Bella had gone through. I took a much needed deep breath.
"We tried to tell her that you wanted to make amends, but she somehow ended up making excuses for you" Esme said, chuckling slightly. Why was she making excuses for me? I should be the one making excuses for me! That really doesn't make any sense.
I nodded, thinking. "Hey, out of Ali, Jazz and Edward, who do you think is next to visit her?" I pondered out loud.
"'Cos i was thinking, Jasper would be next, then Alice and then Edward. You said that Alice and Edward should be last due to their closeness, and Bella would feel more betrayed by them" I explained, earning a few nods.
"But... Jasper was the one who went for her, she might be afraid-" Carlisle cut Em off mid sentence.
"She doesn't fear him Emmett, it was one of the first things she told me. She said that she knew the dangers of hanging with... our kind and understood that it might happen" Carlisle said.
We stayed silent for a minute "So... Jazz, Alice and then Edward" Esme concluded.
We all looked up when Bella walked out of the door, hair damp and hanging down her shoulders, a huge grin on her face. She still hadn't seen us.
"Can Eddie last that long?" Em thought out loud, and we all looked at each other. We honestly didn't know.
Each time one of us visited, Edward pulled further away from us, and we were afraid to loose him all together.
"If it involves Bella, i think he is willing to wait forever" Carlisle said, smiling as Bella ate her cereal, still not seeing us since her back was to us. Suddenly, i wasn't sure if this was a good idea or not.
She didn't finish her breakfast which was... weetabix. Yummy! (Sarcasm there if you got it- well done!)
She turned, like she was going to walk back to her room, but then her eyes casually went around the room, looking at it. Everyone held their breaths. She caught our eyes and i saw her body relax, not realising she was tense. She smiled brightly, before freezing about ten foot from us. Her eyes went around all of us, First Carlisle, then Esme, then Emmett, almost as though she was counting.
When she reached me, her eyes widened and her heartrate picked up. She looked at the floor, and i seriously thought about running now. We were all concerned about her, but Carlisle was the only one who could move at this moment.
When he touched her arm, she looked up. It was clear that she was confused by the line between her eye brows, and her eyes were still wide from shock... or fear.
"I'm sorry i haven't seen you in a while Bella" He hugged her tightly, and i could see how he relaxed once she hugged him back. She did so hesitantly, but that was to be expected, and it didn't phase Carlisle one bit. He was just glad he had the chance to see his daughter again. It was clever how he changed the subject, trying to get her to calm down, it didn't work, but it was a nice try.
"It's okay" She whispered. She sounded so.... small, so hesitant and a little... out of it. Carlisle let go of her, but moved his hand to her back, encouraging her, but also giving her the chance to turn around and back away.
She went to Esme first, who stood up and hugged her tightly, even though she had seen her minutes ago. She seemed morwe with it, recovered from her little shock as she hugged her back with more strength. Carlisle sat back down, allowing her to move on her own.
Esme sat down again, and she turned around. It was clear, how she held herself, her eyes and expression that she felt vulnerable. Em shifted beside me, sitting forward again and opening his arms for her. She ran the distance and threw her arms around his neck fiercely. She sighed quietly, as though some weight had been removed from her.
Emmett pulled her closer and i gave him use of both hands. She rested her head on his shoulder, and any other girl did that i would rip their eyes out. But not Bella.
"Down to business" Em said, too quiet for Bella to hear, but the others nodded. He glanced at me, asking silently if i was ready. NEVER!
I nodded as well. He lent back to Bella was sat up on her own and looked at her seriously. She looked.... so child-like in that second.
"Bella, can you remember what me and Esme told you yesterday about Rose?" She nodded a little, her eyes down as she fiddled with the edge of her white shirt almost unconsciously.
"Well, i know you didn't believe anything we said because you are just as stubborn as you used to be" Em smiled at her and she smiled back a little.
"But we were telling the truth Bella. Rose doesn't blame you, she doesn't hate you" He looked right into her eyes and it was as though she couldn't look away. Now... Em isn't serious very often, and when he is, it is important. I just hope she knew this.
"But she hates me" She said as though she had forgotten we were here. She broke eye contact and looked at the floor.
He sighed. "Just like Edward" He muttered. He pulled her head up gently, so he could look at her.
"No - she - doesn't" He never looked away from her, trying to get it into her head that i didn't hate her. I did agree with Em though, she is remarkably like Edward. Alone, self sacrificing, stubborn, and broken.
Emmett turned the conversation into a mini staring contest. Neither blinked for ages, trying to get each other to understand their side. I did understand her side and where she was coming from. I treated her like dirt for months, not even using her real name.
Suddenly, i was filled with shame and i looked away from them both, fiddling with the sleeve of my jacket. I shouldn't be here......
"Rose....." I noticed he kept a firm grip on her waist. Jesus, he wasn't going to give up was he!
Without looking at him, i answered. "I shouldn't be here Em, she hates me" I said took quietly for him to hear me.
"Bella doesn't hate you" He said, though my gaze remained on my shirt.
"Jesus you two! Bella thinks Rose hates her and Rose thinks Bella hates her! Come on guys, some help here" He said playfully, and i looked up to see him tugging on her shirt. Just like in junior school when you ask if you can play with a group of kids. Fear of rejection.
She looked so young and innocent that i took the burden of starting from her.
"You...you don't hate me?" I asked quietly half not wanting her to hear it. I am sure my eyes were wide as i watched for her response. She looked up slowly, her eyes wide as well.
"No, i don't hate you" She scuffed her feet on the floor, using Ems leg to lean on since she had been stood for a while.
"I don't hate you either Bella. I never have, i was just jealous of you" I smiled a little at how childish i was back then. Why was i so jealous? Sure, what human wouldn't be jealous of Bella? But i had everything i wanted and needed. I sighed quietly when i saw her frown. It dawned on me that this, was the most we have ever spoken to each other. Why did it take all this to make me see what a bitch i was?
"Jealous? Why would you be jealous of me?"
"Because you had it all. You could do anything, you had your whole life ahead of you. You could have gotten married, had kids, had a good career, bought a house somewhere, grown old and died happily" I felt Emmett's hand in mine, but i didn't need it anymore. I was done mourning the "What ifs" and finally ready to live my life.
"But....." she looked like she couldn't believe what i was saying."Look what you have! You have a husband who will do anything for you, a family that would help you with anything, you are gorgeous and will be forever, you don't have to worry about wrinkles or spots, you can do anything you wanted as well and you have unlimited time to do it! You have, like, a zillion dollars in hundreds of banks everywhere! I'm the jealous one!" I could see the honesty in her eyes and i bet she was jealous. After everything that happened to her, i bet my life seems luxurious.
"Maybe, it depend on how you look at it i guess" I shrugged "But Bella, i don't hate you. I may have acted like a bitch before, but..now i realise how wrong i was. You're my sister Bella, and i want to act like one to you. If.....if you'll forgive me and....give me the chance" I mumbled the last part, scared of what she will say.
Her silence scared me and my heart plummeted into my stomach. She wouldn't forgive me. I was too much of a bitch!
"If you can't it's okay, i mean i was a total bitch to you and i deserve all i get. If you never speak to me ever again i will totally understand why and i won't do-"
"Rosalie!" My eyes were probably bugging out of my head and i was rambling like a loony- oops, can't say that around Bella, might be sensitive. All eyes were focused on Bella, waiting for what she would say. I begged her silently to forgive me, ready to do anything.
She rolled her eyes, smiling broadly at me.
"Of course i forgive you Rose, i never blamed you anyway" And i smiled. A real, face shatteringly wide smile. I was too wrapped up in happiness to notice Bella moving. Only when she stood right in front of me did i see her. I gave her a confused look.
"You're my sister too Rose, and despite everything, i still missed you" Her voice was whispered, broken and it took all my self control not to hug her and sob.
"I don't know how you could have missed me, but... i missed you too" I managed to choke out.
Just like Emmett, she dove at me and hugged me tightly, i did the same to her. I could smell her tears and froze in fear that i was hurting her. Esme smiled and shook her head slightly and i relaxed. Good tears.
Her tears got worse, and i could no longer keep mine at bay. I pulled her onto my lap and we cried and sobbed on each other. It felt like... a huge weight had been lifted from me, like.... my life had been kept in the dark and now had been shown the light.
Emmett whispered something to Esme and Carlisle. Of course i could hear him perfectly, and from Bella's chuckle, i think she did too.
"Yes, finally! My two favourite girls are friends" He was happy that Bella had another sister, that her family and friends were growing and... she wasn't alone. She still didn't know how much she meant to us.
We stayed like that for half an hour, but i heard his footsteps before i caught his scent. If it was anyone else i would have growled at him and told him to go away. Me and Bella were having a moment, and he would ruin it.
I sighed quietly, as Ryan stood over Bella and I, blocking out the light. Bella opened her eyes, peering at Ryan. He scratched his neck nervously, sorrowfully.
"I'm sorry Bella, but Doctor Laura wants to see you for your session. I've managed to stall her for a while due to what happened last time, but she won't wait anymore. She said she is to be alone as well" Carlisle was in the process of getting up to accompany her, we all were. But i guess she had to go alone. I could see the worry etched on his face as he looked Bella.
I heard Bella sniff from my arns, wiping her tear stained face and got up. I missed her weight instantly. Ryan helped her get out of the maze of sofas and walking across the door. I didn't miss Carlisle and his little altercation though.
"Keep an eye on her" Carlisle whispered, desperate. A little nod was all he was given in return as he turned and back to where he was walking.
We were all worried. Last time she had one of these "sessions" she didn't talk to Esme or Carlisle for two weeks! She looked back, but we weren't quick enough to mask the worry frowns on our faces.
She took a deep breath before walking into that tiny office, and the door closed behind her with a final thud and click. We heard her sit down in the same chair as last time. I expected to see Ryan come out of the room, but he stayed this time. I guess if anything got out of hand, he would step in. He was a really nice man, and a good friend to Bella.
I heard the doctor if you can call her that, clear her throat, getting someones attention.
"Well Bella, you look a lot better than you did last time" Her voice was a dead monotone, that held none of the praise that should go with what she just said. If i didn't know better, i would say she sounded... disappointed with Bella's progress. I but back a growl. I hate that woman. I still remember how she pushed Bella over the edge last time i was here. Yes, we were all eager to see Bella, but not so much as to cause her pain.
"I am better, and i feel better too" I heard a little gasp in shock, too high pitched to be Bella's. I heard frantic scribbling, and i killed me that all i could do was hear. I wanted to see.
"That is another thing. You two are very close, are you not?" I guess Bella and Ryan had looked at each other or something, stupid cow. I wondered what she was getting at.
"She wouldn't try to split them up would she?" I whispered, knowing the others could hear me. I was met with worried glances, so yes, she would.
I heard Bella gulp nervously before speaking. It seems she knows where the doctor is going with this as well.
"Yes. Ryan had helped me through many things, and as a result we have become close" I reminded myself to applaud how she phrased that. That could have easily turned nasty. They were closer than she was letting on, like a brother and sister, and i have only seen them a few times together.
"I think perhaps too close" Yep, she was going there. That doctor needed someone to show her.....
"Rose" Emmett warned me, pulling on my hand. I sat back down, not realising i had even stood up.
"However, i think removing you now would only slow down Bella's progress so you can stay with her for now. We shall be speaking about this later Ryan" I heard breathing begin again within the room, since both Ryan and Bella had stopped.
"So, how are you feeling today Bella?" This woman couldn't act to save her life. If that was her paternal voice, i hate to hear her cheerful one. I'm sure even Bella could see through that one.
"I'm okay" I couldn't miss the cheerfulness in her voice. We made her feel like that!!
"You look like you have been crying, is everything alright?" The Doctor said in that condescending voice that made me want to slap her. Hard. I heard Bella take a deep breath, and we didn't need Jasper here to tell us that she hadn't missed the tone of her voice either.
"I just met someone i classed as a sister and mended a bridge i never knew i could. I am happy" My dead, cold heart warmed at her statement, but i ignored the venom in her voice, knowing it wasn't directed at me. Stupid doctor.
"That's nice" The Doctor mumbled, not caring at all.
I heard a small growl, and was shocked when i saw Carlisle's frowning face.
"Well, i think overall, you are doing much better. However, i am still concerned about how much your progress depends on your visitors" The silence in the room was pure agony. How could she bring this up once again? She saw how Bella reacted last time!
I heard three growls match my own, but we stopped quickly. Four growling adults wasn't a very common thing to see or hear.
I just hoped, beyond hope, that Bella had listened to everything Carlisle and Esme, and even Em had said to her.
"The Cullen's" I smirked when i heard her voice. This Bella, the confident Bella was good. She wouldn't let anyone get her down. I hope.
"Yes, they are helping me get better. What is your point?" Bella lost her cool nonchalant voice and i could basically hear the doctor cheering for winding her up.
"That you will get even worse when they leave you" I gaped at the door she had gone through. I wanted to go through that door and...
No. I will not kill the human, not while Bella was in the room anyway.
We all held our breath, waiting for what Bella will say. I had faith in our girl, she wouldn't let her get to her.
"They won't leave" She sounded so confident, so... un-like Bella.
"They will. They cannot stay here forever and who knows how long you will be in here" I smirked as the Doctor got impatient that she wasn't winning anymore. Stupid woman, thinking she knew everything and enjoying hurting an eighteen year old girl.
"They are only young, and i am not that sick that i will be in here for years. They promised they will be here, and i believe them" Bella had definitely lost her cool act. I could basically feel the hate rolling off her from here.
"Do you think Bella could take her?" Em whispered, smiling a little.
"Em! She wouldn't-"
"Yeah" Em shook his head, his gaze returning to the door. Would she?
I looked to Carlisle and Esme who looked appreciatively about this. But... this is Bella! She couldn't even stand in front of a crowd, never mind take down a mid twenties woman!
"Okay. And what about when you leave and they can't visit here anymore?" My smile fell, because she had a point.
"I'll visit them" She didn't even hesitate in her answer, and i smiled again. She had faith in us.
"Right well" The doctor cleared her throat uncomfortably, and a rustle of papers could be heard.
"Have you had any other problems? You haven't had an episode in a while" The woman said, and frowned at Carlisle. He shrugged in response, a deep frown marring his face.
"Yeah, i know" Bella mumbled, seeeming deep in thought.
"Well, just be careful. I'll tell the doctors to keep a look out" The Doctor said, dismissing her. How can she dismiss her now? Bella will probably be thinking and worrying about this for ages. I hate that woman.
Bella came out, being pushed along by Ryan. I panicked for a second, but her eyes and face told me she was just thinking. She wasn't pulling away from us.
Her eyes swept over us, but it was like we weren't even there. She sat down on the sofa, next to Esme, a frown on her face.
Ryan saw all of us, looking worriedly at her and rolled his eyes.
"She'll be okay, she's just thinking about things" He smiled, patting Carlisle's shoulder as he walked past.
"Thank you" He whispered to Ryan, his eyes never left the girl in front of us. Her frown got deeper and deeper, and i momentarily feared that she would hurt herself.
"Bella? You okay honey?" I heard Esme ask, beating me to it. Bella turned her head, humming in acknowledgment. She looked at esme and her eyes finally focused.
"Oh, sorry. I zone out sometimes" She shrugged and smiled. I missed that blush, but i guess it would have to wait.
"It's okay" Esme told her, lifting her arm so Bella could snuggle into her side. She sighed, smiling, when she laid her head on Esme's shoulder. They were so close, just like mother and daughter.
"I wish i never had to move" She mumbled, her eyes closed. We all smirked a little, Esme hugely. It was only Em that commented.
"Sorry, but we all have to move at some point kiddo" He chuckled at her as she opened her eyes, frowning at him.
"I really have to realise the difference between thinking and saying" Esme squeezed her gently, letting her know it was okay, and... that she felt the same. I know Esme would just like to stay here forever.
"Bella....." He was frowning at Bella, but worry and curiosity were there as well.
I heard Bella sigh "You heard what was said and you want to know what an "episode" constitutes" She said, smiling at Carlisle's shocked face. We thought that she would be a little bit.... reluctant to talk about it. Maybe not.
"I've been waiting for it" She added, and i smiled. She knew us as good as we knew her.
"So......" He prodded.
"You've read my hospital notes?" We all nodded, shocking her a little. Maybe she thought only Carlisle had, anyway, she didn't let that bother her.
"Well, one time when i was... attacked" I frowned when she hesitated, but we let her get on with it. Remembering what Em said earlier about her never opening up to people.
"I have a huge scar on my back from my shoulder to my waist, and sometimes, i get this pain through it that literally floors me" She grimaced as if remembering it. I glanced at Carlisle with worry and concern.
"The doctors don't know why i get the pain since it's a scar, but i have to be careful because anything can set it off" It was safe to say that we were shocked. I thought that it was just... mental injury, not physical as well.
Esme gulped "It's really that bad?" Fear for her daughter clear in her voice.
"Yeah. The doctors think i make it up for attention or it's just in my mind. It sure doesn't feel like it though" She frowned as Em growled. I don't think she heard it though. I subtly elbowed him in the ribs.
"So, you heard all of that then?" She asked, setting into Esme's shoulder once again.
"Yeah" Emmett said, rather nastily "I would like to know how that woman got a job here. I would love to go in there and rip her-"
"Em, calm down" I tried to soothe him, gripping his hand in case he actually tried. I wouldn't put it past him, he would do anything to protect his little sister, We all would. He stared at me incredulously.
"I aren't the doctors biggest fan either Em, but it won't do any good to think about what you want to do to her. It really wouldn't fix anything would it?" I said gently calming him down.
"I guess not" He conceded "I just hate the way she speaks to Bells. She's just so......" He trailed off, searching for a word.
"Condescending and patronising to the extent that you want nothing more than to hit her" She said, we all stared at her, shocked. Since when did Bella think like that? Well, i thought, Bella is a lot different now. She shrugged off our shock, Em recovering first.
"Yes, exactly" Em nodded.
Esme's phone rang, cutting off Emmett. Bella moved away from Esme so she could answer her phone. She twiddled with her thumbs, looking at her lap. I was sat with Emmett, Carlisle with Esme, but Bella was sat on her own. Me and Em glanced at each other and scooted to the side, making room between us for her. She plopped down between us, making the sofa bounce. She snuggled as far into the sofa as she could, smiling happily.
Once again, she seemed lost in thought.
"You are on your way?!" Esme said, whisper shouting, glancing at Bella to see if she heard. Nope.
"Well... yeah"
Esme sighed "Okay, how long?"
"About twelve minutes" And i heard him rev the engine, pushing his car faster.
After saying goodbye, her and Carlisle shared a worried glance before looking to Bella. She was out of it once again, but a smile on her face this time.
When Esme shut her phone, Bella looked to her. Esme put a gentle, reassuring smile on her face. Bella looked around at all of us, looking slightly unnerved.
"What?" She said, her eyes going around all of us again.
"Well....." Carlisle looked suddenly nervous, and unsure of himself.
"That was Jasper. He wants to.... visit you. If that would be okay with you?" Carlisle asked simply, his eyes never leaving Bella. Seeing if she would be scared... or not.
She seemed to think about it for a minute, something she does a lot. After a few seconds, she smiled, a huge, Cheshire cat smile.
"Yes" She sighed, her eyes wide and far away again.
"He'll be here in ten minutes. He was already in the car when he phoned" Esme frowned as she said it, obviously disapproving of his irrational behaviour. Bella smirked.
You could see it in her face. She was figuring out how long that was. After a while, she bounced. Not once or twice, continuously bouncing. Just like Alice. Me and Em bounced as well, and we couldn't help but laugh at the image. Em, rolling his eyes, scooped her up and sat her in his lap. She never stopped bouncing.
I guess we underestimated her. She was so... excited about this. I always thought she didn't like Jasper. Not that she didn't like him, but she never got the chance to get to know him. I was wrong, it seems.
But while she was bouncing, she was concentrating. Em shook his head at her, understanding apparently.
"You're counting down aren't you?" Em smirked at her, trust him to know that. I married a child! Bella pouted, huffing and crossing her arms. We all chuckled a little at her angry expression.
"Not anymore! You made me lose count!" She said, sounding just like a child, making us all chuckle even harder.
"Four hundred and eighty" He whispered in her ear. She merely nodded, carrying on counting. You could tell that her excitement was mounting, but something was as well.
The time passed in a series of bounces and numbers she mumbled sometimes.
"He's just getting out of his car Bella" Esme said, breaking the silence. She squealed loudly, jumping off Emmett's lap. She froze for a second though, frowning. Em rolled his eyes as she turned back to him.
"You look fine Bella, stop worrying" He rolled his eyes, pushing her towards the door.
She was.... nervous? The looked at the door with a worried expression, like she wanted nothing more than to run away.
"Bella, don't do this okay? You thought the same with us, and we are here because we want to be aren't we?" Emmett said, knowing what she is thinking. She nodded, gulping, her eyes not leaving the door.
"Well then...... go on" He pushed her once again towards the door. She walked as slowly as possible towards the door, wringing her hands nervously. I could hear her thudding heart from here.
Before she reached the door, it buzzed and opened, revealing Jasper. His back was to Bella and the rest of the room, but Bella froze anyway. He turned to face her, and froze like her.
I looked nervously over to Esme and Carlisle. They looked so proud, and i am sure i saw tears in Esme's eyes. I did get a little concerned when she hadn't taken a breath in a while.
Neither of them spoke, just looking into each others eyes. Jasper was as shocked as Bella, i could tell.
"Are...are you okay?" She gulped, missing Jasper's frown as she looked at the floor
"Thirsty?" Her voice went higher, and Jasper's frown deepened before he dropped his eyes to the floor. He had waited so long for this.
"No, i aren't thirsty. I would never hurt you Bella" He whispered, looking up at me through his lashes. I heard her sigh with frustration. Bella had quite the temper now. His eyes went to the floor again, and none of us were prepared for what she did.
She ran to him and hugged him fiercely. He was shocked, very shocked, but hugged her back fiercely too. They clutched at each other like they would float away if they ever let go. It was almost too loving to watch. He buried his head in her hair, she buried her face in his shoulder. I looked back and smiled brightly at everyone. Our family was coming together.
"Good, 'cos this would be kind of hard is you were" She sniffed, and he chuckled as she did.
"Yeah, a little" he admitted, but he didn't make any indication of wanting to move.
They just stood like that for a while, hugging each other, not moving away.
"God, i missed you Bella" He whispered into her hair, his voice so sincere, my eyes nearly welled up.
"I missed you too Jasper" Her voice was hoarse from all the crying and such.
He chuckled humorlessly "Yeah, sure" He said sarcastically.
She pulled away and looked at him, obvious confusion written on her face. He sighed, frowning as he wiped her tears away gently as he spoke.
"I hurt you Bella. I caused all of this mess, and even before this, i never spoke to you, so how could you miss me?" His voice was constricted with pain and sorrow that i almost hugged him myself.
Bella stood in silence, once again lost in thought. Jasper frowned when she did, but his soon turned to shock and regret. Bella stepped out of his arms, crying again.
I was confused. What just happened?
His eyes got slowly wider and wider, and he shook his head at her, his eyes pleading.
"No! Bella, that's not what i meant!" He begged
"You don't even know what i am thinking about, so stop lying!" She said slowly, more tears falling.
I looked to the others to see that they all had similar faces of confusion on their faces.
She made to turn away from him "Bella, wait!-"
We couldn't do anything, only watch as turned to face us, but..... didn't make it.
Her face contorted in pain and she went limp. Before she could fall, Jasper caught her, his face also pained from feeling hers. We all sat there, shocked. Carlisle unfroze, and rushed over, barely maintaining a human speed as Jasper laid her on the floor.
We all followed, kneeling beside her. Her heart was going like a rota blade, her body temperature soaring through the roof. Her entire body was shaking, trembling, convulsing. She had managed to get into a fetal position, but she was whimpering. I was terrified.
The room was filled with carers getting their pateints out of the way, but we ignored them. Her eyes were closed, and she wasn't responding to anything, touch, sound, nothing.
"Bella? Can you hear me? Bella!" Carlisle tried to coax her to open her eyes, trying to be strong, but his voice trembled.
She didn't move at all. I looked at Emmett, seeing my panic and fear mirrored in his eyes.
"Emmett, get Ryan! Quick!" Esme said, frantically, nearly yelling at him. Emmett ran, blurring slightly, trying to find him.
Then she screamed, an agonizing scream. I felt my eyes water with frustration. We needed to help her, but we couldn't! She screamed and screamed and screamed. I don't think any of us will ever forget that scream, it will haunt us till our last second.
"No!" Jasper whispered suddenly, grabbing her balled up hand, knuckles white with strain, and holding on tightly.
"Come on Bella! Stay with me, please!" I could hear his voice breaking as he struggled with Bella's, ours and his own emotions.
"Jasper?" She looked at Jasper questioningly, but he never looked away from Bella.
"She was fading Esme. Her emotions were fading, and she was numbing. I had to do something" He said desperately, almost panicking.
"Did it work?" Esme asked in a small voice.
"I think so. Her emotions are stronger, but i don't know how long for" He was definitely panicking, his breathing was erratic, his hand squeezing tighter.
I heard Emmett and Ryan approaching. "She just collapsed" Em was explaining, running with Ryan.
My attention was brought back to Bella as another, louder, painful scream ripped through her clenched teeth.
Ryan paused as he came into view, holding a white bag in his hand.
"Bella! Jesus, this is bad!" He exclaimed, running again and sliding across the floor to Bella. We all moved away apart from Jasper and Carlisle.
"What do you mean?" Jasper asked frantically, letting his panic show.
Ryan unzipped the bag, getting out little glass bottles of liquids, antibiotics. He set them on the floor as he spoke.
"She's had these episodes before, since before she has been in here, but never this bad. It must be because she hasn't had one in months" He said, frowning as he worked, pulling out a syringe. I cringed away from it. I hated to see Bella like this, but to see her sedated like an animal was even worse.
"Right, here we go-" His voice was drowned out by another ear splitting scream from Bella. Her trembling get even worse and she curled in on herself. Ryan wasted no time in putting the needle in her arm and injecting the disgusting stuff into her veins.
"There you go. That should help" Ryan said, sighing and packing his things away in his bag.
"That's it?! That's all you can do!" I nearly yelled at him. Em put a hand on my shoulder to calm me down. I didn't bother apologizing, my eyes fell back to the girl on the floor.
Ryan stood up "I'm afraid so". He said, seemingly sad.
"Can one of you......." He trailed off, but Jasper had already scooped her up, clutching her hand still.
Her heart was slowing down to normal, she wasn't screaming, but she was still shaking slightly.
"Jazz?" I said quietly, Ryan was ahead, opening her door.
"The pain is fading. She was holding on, but when she did, the pain came back stronger. She's let go" He said using vampire speed. We all heard him perfectly.
Jasper laid her down on her bed, her tiny body seeming even smaller in the crib she had. Her room was tiny in itself, nothing actually named it as "Bella's room".
"All we can do now is wait for her to wake up" Ryan said from the door, answering our silent question. We all nodded, but didn't move to go anywhere.
"You're all staying aren't you?" He sighed. We all nodded silently.
The door clicked shut when he left us to it. We were all conscious of the camera in the corner of the room, zooming around like crazy.
"What hapened Jazz? At the door?" Em asked, glancing at Jasper.
Carlisle picked up the chair and stood it next to Bella's bed. He sat down, taking her hand, but listening all the same. The rest of us stood around, leaning on walls or sat on the floor.
"When i said about how... how she never spoke to me, so how can she have missed me... I think she flipped it around" He said quietly, his face full of his own pain and regret this time. I, however, didn't understand.
"You mean.... when you said that, she couldn't have missed you because of the lack of contact.... she twisted it around so.... so how can you have missed her if you had no contact?" Esme clarified for me.
"Yeah" He sighed, sliding down the wall he was leaning on and running a hand through his hair.
"What is it with Bella and Edward? They always take things the wrong way!" He nearly yelled, though none of us had the heart to tell him to shut up. We could hardly blame Bella for over reacting, for looking at what was said too deeply. We should know by now, and learn from it. I mean, we are vampires for gods sake! If we can't keep one human girl happy, then we are a sorry excuse for immortals.
We sat in silence, just listening to Bella's breaths. Edward was right.... it was oddly calming to watch Bella sleep. Creepy, yes..... but very calming.
A buzz from the door made us all jump, but none of us looked up. Ryan entered, trying to mind out of everyones way in such a crowded room. Jazz, Esme and I were on the floor, Jazz against the wall still, and me and Esme were sat beside each other, along Bella's legs, against the bed. Emmett stood, leaning on the front of a white set of draws at the bottom of her bed, while Carlisle was still clutching her hand.
"Sorry, just going to check if she is alright" He mumbled. Carlisle got out of his way and moved to stand beside Emmett, while me and Esme stood at the side, hovering.
We watched as he made sure she was okay.
"Bella?" He said softly, shaking her shoulder. She didn't reply, and i started to panic.
"Don't worry, with the amount of sedative, she should be out cold for a few more hours at least" He said, not turning to face us. We all nodded, all relaxing again. I noticed Jasper's broken hearted gaze fixed on Bella, i am sure if he could cry of regret, he would be by now.
He retrieved a little pen light from his breast pocket and lifted her eyes lids, flashing the light in them. What ever he saw was good i suppose as he hummed and nodded. He checked her pulse on her wrist, then her body temperature.
"She seems fine, but i need to take a look at the scar" He said, turning to look at us, silently asking for help.
Jasper was the first to step up, even though Em and Carlisle stepped forward as well. It annoyed me momentarily that we were never asked to help, even though we were more than capable.
I shrugged off those thoughts. I had more important worries right now than feminine discrimination.
"You sure?" Ryan asked, taking the quilt off Bella.
"Yeah, Bella's only light anyway" He said, glancing down at the petite girl. She was always thin and little, but now it was even more pronounced.
"I know..... but it's not the nicest thing in the world, and i know how close you were to her" He glanced, concerned at Jasper.
"I'll be alright" he assured him, making Ryan turn back to Bella.
"It's the least i can do" He whispered, too low for Ryan to hear. I frowned at Jasper's back. When would he ever stop trying to make it up to her, stop beating himself up about it?
About the same time you stop trying to make it up to her and stop beating yourself up
Right, that could take a while.
"Right......."
"Jasper" Jazz offered seriously.
"Well, we need to turn her to her side, so she is facing the wall okay? Can you hold her in that position while i check her back?" He asked, Jasper merely nodded.
"Right, one, two three" He said, and they gently rolled Bella to her side so that her back was to me and Esme. Just like they said, Jasper kept her like that. One hand on he arm, another on her leg so she doesn't roll back. I could only see part of Bella through Jasper and Ryan's legs.
"You got her?" He asked, letting go of Bella hesitantly, letting Jazz take her weight.
I watched as Ryan lifted her shirt up, but she was laid on it. Without saying anything, Jazz scooped her up, only raising her slightly off the bed, but Ryan got the idea. He pulled up her shirt so it was free, and Jazz laid her back down.
"Thanks" Ryan said, smiling at Jazz. I couldn't see Jasper's face, but he wasn't moving or breathing. Not a good sign.
"Is... is that..... where....." He gulped, horrified. I had never heard Jazz like this, he was always calm and assertive, but not now. I had to say, curiosity got the better of me, and Esme it seemed as we moved forward to see.
The scene before me was nearly enough to make me gag.
It wasn't just one line, it was three, all two or three centimeters wide. They were pink and shiny, slightly dented into the skin, healed, scars, but they...... I shuddered. They only got her shirt up so far, and the other end of the lines reached below her trouser line, so we couldn't see where either of them ended.
"Oh my......" Esme couldn't even finish, but her eyes were glued to the marks on Bella's back.
Ryan reached out to touch them with his hand "Stop!" I yelled, making him freeze. Even here, now, they looked painful.
"Will it... will it hurt her?" I whispered, tears forming in my eyes. God knows this girl has been through enough with out more pain added.
"No, it won't hurt her at all. I have done this when she has been conscious, and she was okay" He soothed me, and i nodded, feeling guilty for interrupting him. I cringed as he pressed a finger to each line, humming.
"What is it?" Carlisle asked. He and Em had seen the scars, but they had been too shocked or disgusted to do or say anything until now.
"Come here" He said to Carlisle, moving out of the way, so Carlisle could take his place. His eyes widened when he touched the lines.
"They... they're hot" He said, shocked.
"I know. This happens every time, but i don't know why. No-one does!" He sighed, looking sadly at Bella.
"You can let her down now Jasper" Ryan said, letting Jasper tug her shirt back down and lay her on her back again, covering her with the quilt. We all stood there, watching her for a moment, seeing the broken girl before us.
"Look, she'll be out for a few more hours, why don't you go to the cafeteria for a bit. Stretch your legs, got out of this cramped room" He suggested. None of us wanted to go, that was obvious by everyones faces, but we did anyway.
We needed to talk about this. We had to find out what was wrong with Bella, because that was no ordinary scar. It was different, and had to figure this out.
For Bella.
I know this took ages to get out, but it is the longest chapter i have ever done, and i got serious writers block!
So, here is Rose's POV.
How you like??